The sunlight filtered through the depth and cold, and finally penetrated into my room, but I was used to it, and I didn't care. People always say I'm cold, and it's me who shut myself up, in a dark realm where light can't penetrate or even reflect. Without space and time, I will never be able to get out, and it will be difficult for others to lead!

So, no one could see what I was in, not even my parents, and even I was lost......

"Baichen, hurry up and eat, go to school after eating, I'm going to divide classes today!" Mom chattered as usual

Oh," I replied.

People say that this daily chatter is a great mother's love, but I don't seem to feel it, after all, this chatter has nothing but criticism and urging.

Maybe this is mother's love, although I don't understand it, but almost everyone says so.

After being lazy all day long during the summer vacation after graduating from elementary school, it was unbelievable that I suddenly asked to go to school.

Although it was only 60 days apart, I didn't have any impression of elementary school life. The memories of elementary school life are like inconspicuous black dots on a blank sheet of A4 paper.

After all, I hadn't spoken to anyone in the first three years of elementary school. It didn't get better until the last three years, but it's just a classmate-like friend relationship, and a sincere friend. From time to time, they would squeeze me out of conversations, and it was difficult for me to fit in with anyone, as if I was an inconsequential outsider.

That's what I am in real life. So, it's better to come online, right? "No, this can't be" this is what I have always wanted to say, the Internet is more complex and darker than the real world, if the brilliance of human nature refers to the real world, then the unfathomable darkness of human nature in the Internet will be undoubtedly exposed.

If you don't even dare to open the microphone when you play a game, maybe someone will spray your ancestors for the eighteenth generation as soon as you open the microphone, eager to spray you to death, so that you will have no shame to see your 24th generation ancestors.

But what can be done about it? Since life is like this, it is impossible to make you happy, it will deceive you and suppress you in different ways. Put you to death and deprive you of the ability to live after death. But it also gives you some hope, but that hope is often extinguished by the beast of life.

Now life gives me hope again – class.

After a 3.9-kilometer journey, I finally arrived at the door of the study, and I saw the crowd of people, which must have been the announcement of the class assignment. I squeezed in with great difficulty, searched carefully, and finally found my class, Class 10, of the seventh grade.

Suddenly, a figure flashed, feeling very familiar and very unfamiliar. This reminds me of something about her:

That day, it was raining so hard that I had to take shelter from the rain in a bubble tea shop. There are a lot of people here, but luckily there is a seat. The rain outside is like a musical instrument in the sky, playing a natural sound that is far beyond the reach of human beings.

I listened quietly, as if I were one with the rain. Perhaps the rain can give me a little comfort and a little bit of light in the boundless darkness. Even if I can't see this light with the naked eye, it will make me no longer seem lonely.

Perhaps this rain is the tears of angels, and at the cost of life, it is only to wash the dark world cleaner.

At this point, the door is gently pushed open. She shook the rain off her body and took out a white handkerchief from her pocket. Wipe gently.

She looked at the only empty seat – across from me. There seems to be some hesitation. Still, I sat down. And I just glanced at her and ignored her.

For me, there are few people who can make my heart ripple even a little bit.

We were all silent, as if we didn't even notice each other's existence. When I went to get milk tea and turned around, I happened to see her watching one of my favorite anime works, but it was also a very unpopular work, and it can be said that there is only one person in tens of thousands of people.

"I'd love to talk to her about this anime, but I don't know how to say it," I thought, a little hesitantly.

"If I forcibly open up the conversation with her on the grounds of 'you like to have this anime too,' then there are three scenarios:

One; She is an extrovert and is also happy to talk to me.

Two; She's an introvert who can't help me with sudden topics and seems rude to me. The first impression I give will not, and even if I really want to talk to me, I will talk very reservedly.

Three; It's possible that she didn't hear it, because there were a lot of people right now, and she's wearing headphones, so it's very likely that she didn't hear my question, which made me very embarrassed.

"Damn! Either one is dangerous, the first one has an element of gambling, and if you don't get it right, it will trigger the remaining two situations. ”

"What to do? It was not easy to get to a common enthusiast, and the temptation was so great that I couldn't give up! ”

"It's an endless threat and unknown, too risky, but I can let her ask me - I also use my phone to watch, so there's a chance she'll notice."

So, I also took out my phone and carefully observed the changes in her face, watching the anime and deliberately amplifying the voice (outside) to get her attention.

However, the reality is often awake, and I not only failed, but failed completely, and the girl was very unnoticed, still immersed in the world of anime, as if no one could wake her up.

"I'm convinced, if I really want to ask if her kind and beautiful mother is alive"

I couldn't help but say it. At this time, I was also confused and thought: "Why did I say it when I went?" ”

She looked up at me when it rained overnight, and at this moment, both sides were very silent, so silent that they couldn't even hear the sounds around them.

The sensation instantly sent chills all over my body. I felt embarrassed and depressed, my face unconsciously turned to the other side, and my eyes unconsciously looked around.

"What to do? It has to be over! Calm down, she watched the animated version of Natsume's original work, and Natsume has another work that seems to have a similar sentence in it. Perhaps I could quote this sentence in the past. "This,This sentence is from another Natsume novel, page 131, page 4 of the male protagonist said to this female protagonist, right?" I said in a panic. ”

It seems like...... Right. ”

"Damn, all the luck of this life has been used here, right? I believe in such a lame reason," I thought as I breathed a sigh of relief.

"So, you also like Natsume's novels?" The girl's face suddenly came up and was very close to me, and her eyes looked straight at me, and her eyes seemed to overflow.

"I didn't expect not only to round this lie, but also to start the topic, this girl is not a natural stay" I am extremely shocked today

"Hmmm! My favorite is Natsume's novels. He writes really well, and it is difficult to see this kind of literary novel in Chinese novels now. As far as the eye can see, it is either reborn or crossed, or it is a crooked mouth of the god of war. On the contrary, there are not many people who read well-written novels...... "I finally confided my heart to a like-minded person, and my mood was suddenly much more relaxed. ”

She nodded and looked at me with eyes full of light. Looking at her eyes full of light, I couldn't help but feel an inferiority complex and re-examine myself - how dead it was! I can't see a glimmer of light in my eyes.

Compared to her, it is like a carp is more salted than a salted fish - the former is full of hope, has unwavering dreams, and has infinite possibilities for the future. On the other hand, I have no hope, no dreams, and no "possible way out".

I was thinking about it when I suddenly saw her smile and said, "You also just graduated from elementary school, right?" ”

I was shocked at first, "This person is not simple, he was too naïve before" and then asked, "How do you know?" ”

"Because you have the Class of 2012 on it." I turned my head to look at my label and thought, "I'm not going to go, I can see it at this small age." It's the size of a leaf!

"So which middle school are you going to?" She said with a wicked smile.

I hesitated for a moment and said, "I guess it's the first middle school."

"What about you?" I asked rhetorically.

"Uh...... It should be the second middle school, right?" was she hesitating? Maybe it's because the tuition fees are so expensive!

"Tens of thousands are only one semester. If you read it for three years, it will cost hundreds of thousands! You can buy a house of more than 100 square meters here. The admission rate there is only a few percent higher than that of other schools, and the tuition fee is very expensive, which is really a cancer!

"Those parents are interested in this percentage of school opening rate, thinking that as long as they go there, they will become dragons and phoenixes, but in fact, they blindly put huge pressure on their children, and squeeze out the improved points with great energy, and the good ones only increase by more than a dozen points. As a result, when it came to work, I found out that I thought that I had "squeezed the love of children" and how much money and energy were used? ”

"Yes," she said, looking at me, her eyes still lit up, but with a little more sincerity and approval.

At this point, I looked at the time, and there were only 30 minutes left before the registration for the second middle school was over, so I said to her, "If you really want to go to the second middle school to register, you have to hurry, there are only 30 minutes left to sign up." ”

She also looked at the time and said, "I have to go, ...... again Ah no, I hope to see you again. ”

Although the rain is not as heavy as it was just now, it is still a little terrible, and it may be drenched for a few minutes, and no part of the whole body is dry.

She stood in the doorway with some hesitation, probably thinking, "Ah! Should I wait any longer? (Mother's tone)"

I looked at the umbrella next to my backpack and hesitated...... But he still sighed.

"Na! Here you go," I said to her.

She was taken aback and tried to reach out to take it, but she shrank back again.

"It's okay, I'll wait. You can take this, just give it back to me the next time you meet me" She gently took my umbrella and said solemnly, "Thank you, I will." ”

I believe that there will be, even if the time is unknown, but we will definitely meet again one day.

When she was ready to leave, she smiled and said: "Your reason is really lame, there is no cursing in the novel at all, but you are a very good person." ”

After saying that, I rode her bicycle and walked away, and I was stunned and thought to myself, "艸 (cào), this person is really not simple"

But I didn't feel anything strange, after all, it was a very lame reason.

At this time, the dark realm will finally be pierced by a ray of light, and I will chase this unexpected light, and light a bonfire of hope.

"Was that the boy's gaze just now? What a nice person! ”

"Although we didn't know each other's names that day, I believe that one day we will meet again, and I will finally return this precious umbrella!"

The heroine recalls what happened after that day:

On that day, I met him because of a heavy rain, and he gave me his important umbrella, and I guess from his hesitant performance that the person who can know the registration time is the person who has passed the second middle school examination to know that he has to go to the second middle school to sign up, just like me, but we don't want to go. I thought on my way to No. 2 Middle School.

I could feel a hint of warmth in my hand holding the umbrella he gave me, but the more warm I was, the more uneasy I felt - I took away his opportunity to sign up, and he could have signed up, but chose to give it to me.

I'm not entirely sure that the inference he just made was correct, after all, his classmates might have told him, but if it was true, then my presence would have changed his life.

The rain was pouring down on the umbrella, but I felt even colder.

After about five minutes of riding, I finally came to the registration office of the second middle school. Looking at the time, there were only 20 minutes left for me to make a decision - to go or not to go?

"If I go, I may never see him again, and he sacrifices his future for the future of a stranger to me, and this guilt will not fade away even after the baptism of time, and life will spur me on in every way." I held the umbrella tightly in my hand and stood at the registration desk for a long time. ”

"If I don't go, then what will the future hold, what will happen to me? There was no direction ahead, and I was in a state of confusion, without a hint of realism. ”

"I want to see you again, I want to return the umbrella to you, I want us to comfort each other, but it's just hope, how little hope is it? It's like an insignificant speck of dust in the vastness. ”

But...... I am willing to gamble on another confused future with my current confused future. I believe that hope will eventually come, and even a small speck of dust can create miracles and create a future of its own! (The above are the memories of the heroine)

Maybe the future is dark, maybe the future is confused, maybe everyone is opposed, and there is no fear or regret, even if looking for you is as difficult as looking for hope, but I will never forget that in this city, you and I are heart-to-heart, feel each other's existence, and work together in reality in embarrassment! (What the male and female protagonists think together)