Fan Lihua was startled by a thunderclap. When I opened my eyes, I saw that there was still a half-hanging gold account in front of me, and a few red candles were swaying with warm light.

It turned out to be a dream of Nanke.

At this time, Fan Lihua only felt that her body was sore and unbearable, and her clothes were already soaked with sweat.

"Oh my God! Why is there no one who can understand my suffering? Why does providence force me? Do I have to die to settle these grievances? Fan Lihua sighed, and somewhat blankly picked up Luo Pa next to the pillow and wiped the sweat on her forehead.

In the distance, the sound of drums came from four o'clock in the fourth watch.

Outside the window, the wind is blowing. I don't know when it rained again, and the sound of the rain was knocking on the window. A chill came through the window screen, making Fan Lihua shiver. Suddenly, I remembered Xue Dingshan in the outer room again. Reluctantly struggled to get off the bed, came to the door of the inner room and looked out through the curtain, Xue Dingshan had fallen asleep on the embroidered couch in front of the window at some point.

Fan Lihua felt a pang of cramping in her heart. Turning back to the bed and sitting down, thinking to himself about leaving him alone. However, the chill coming through the window made Fan Lihua worry that he was being harassed by the wind and cold. After thinking for a while, he turned around and picked up a brocade quilt from the bed, stood up and walked out of the inner room. Walked lightly to Xue Dingshan's side, and gently opened the brocade to cover him.

Fan Lihua stood next to the embroidered couch and looked at Xue Dingshan's heroic and handsome face, it was love, hate, pity, and resentment...... For a moment, it was impossible to explain.

"Alas! Brother Yun, do you remember Baihua Mountain? Fan Lihua sighed secretly.

"I have been thin since I was a child, and my two brothers have been intriguing for my father's lordship. In order to keep his official position, my father did not hesitate to promise me to the Yang family as a proton. I am in a rich family, but I am used to seeing the ruthlessness of the Huan Sea, and I live in the carved beams and paintings, but I can't see the warmth of my relatives. In order to resist marriage, I was ruthlessly whipped by my father and framed by my brother. The only one of my loved ones lost their lives to save me. My relatives have passed away one after another, and fate has played tricks on my heart.

"That year, when I was at the intersection of Shuangyang Road, I was robbed by a Turkic eunuch, and thanks to my sister Lu Lu saw injustice and rescued me, I escaped with my life. My sister took pity on me and sent me to Lishan Zixia Palace. Our Lady of Mont Les Monts took me under her door and taught me the arts. In the Zixia Palace every day, chanting and meditating, my heart slowly got a little peace. I was already thinking about escaping into the Xuanmen and meditating on a body in the afterlife.

"Who would have thought that the emperor was playing tricks. At the foot of Baihua Mountain, I just let me meet you. You are warm-hearted and open-minded. In order to fight for innocent people who don't know each other, he did not hesitate to anger the official family and risk his life. It makes me feel that you are different from those who are vying for fame and fortune. It was you who melted the ice in my heart, and it was you who rejuvenated my dead heart. After you left Baihua Mountain, Master told me that Master and Uncle had already made the decision to marry me to you. I originally thought that the emperor treated me well. In this life, I am fortunate to have found a soulmate. In the long decades that followed, there was a fellow traveler who accompanied me, and I no longer had to endure the hardships of trekking through the world alone.

"But I was wrong. When I said goodbye to Baihua Mountain, with your footsteps gradually drifting away, you have already left me.

"The people in front of me in the past few years are just the beloved ministers under Tang Tianzi and the favorite sons in the palace of the King of Pingliao. It's no longer the Yunfeng brother in my mind. I naively thought that it was just a misunderstanding. It's a misunderstanding that keeps you avoiding me and refusing to come back to see me. As soon as the misunderstanding is cleared up, you will return to me. In order to be able to be close to you, I endured his humiliation again and again. I didn't care about life and death for him, and I didn't hesitate to close the mountain and leap on the horse, and wield a knife on the battlefield.

"In the past seven years, no one can know how many tears I have shed and how much blood I have shed, only I know best in my own heart.

"In the past seven years, not only have I not been able to get close to you, but you have become farther and farther away from me.

"Today, in order to recover the shadow that remains in my heart; For that little hope left, I walked into the green tent with him again. I asked my sister to ask you to send me off, but my sister didn't tell you. I knew she had good intentions, but I couldn't help but feel sad. I don't understand why my sister, who has always loved me and loved me, doesn't take me to heart.

"Eventually, you walked out of the room with me. Whether it's welcoming or sending, you helped me walk through those few steps. You held my hand tightly and held me softly, making me feel that you were by my side. It makes me feel like you're aware of my uneasiness and want to comfort me and calm me down. How I wish I could see your loving eyes in the cave room, and hear you call me 'Aunt Ning' gently. But what I saw was still the indifference and disdain in his gaze and the strange awe. My pitiful hope turned into disappointment again. ……”

"Brother Yun, what is all this for? Why don't you look back? Is it because you don't have me in your heart at all? When we parted at the foot of Baihua Mountain, the peony flower you gave me was just your gratitude. Did Mrs. Zhuang misunderstand what you meant? Or did I do something wrong that let you down? It makes you feel like you've seen the wrong person, so you leave me and won't come back. You don't have me in your heart, tell me directly, I will never embarrass you. Why do you use this torture method to escape me? It's me who did something bad to disappoint you, and you tell me too, I'll change. Why are you torturing me in such a way? I've been through so much, why don't you break it down for me? ”

Fan Lihua looked at Xue Dingshan silently, biting the corners of her lips tightly to prevent herself from crying.

"Brother Yun, do you know? Since taking over the Marshal Seal, I have been almost sleepless for half a year. The most holy and the soldiers of the battalion have pinned their hopes on me for the pacification of the Turks, and I cannot bear their trust. But I'm just a boudoir girl. Fighting on the battlefield and arranging troops is not my job. I don't want to kill more on the battlefield, and it's not what I want to be the marquis. I just want to learn from a female Zhongjing hanging pot to help the world and solve the diseases of the sick. Why didn't the sky obey people's wishes, and Shengsheng pushed me to the top of the handsome position. Although he is in a high position, he is walking on thin ice. I plan and plan every day, for fear that something will go wrong. The capture of the White Tiger Pass relied on the support of the generals and finally succeeded in the first battle. The next three levels of soldiers were swept away, but I was not sure at all. If there is a mistake, how can I explain it to the Holy One? How to explain to the generals? I can't let them down! Brother Yun, you say, what should I do? ”