"I don't want to kill you at all, if I wanted to kill you, I would have done it a long time ago, why wait for you to look crooked. And no matter what, I don't want to ......."

When Chu Xiao said this, she suddenly stopped again, I don't know if it was my delusion, I actually felt that there was a little choking in her voice. I guess this is a self-inflicted affair, after all, I almost ruined her rebirth plan in the first place. Although I don't know what happened later, Chu Xiao is still standing here alive, but in the end, I did it to her at that time.

"It's nothing, you just think I'm talking nonsense. Then, take good care of your body yourself, and don't think about things you shouldn't think. Anyway, it's just a matter of the past few days, even if I don't do anything to you, if you go on like this, you may not survive the winter, and whether this summer can be finished is still a question. ”

Chu Xiao didn't stay any longer after speaking, but directly pushed the door of the house and walked out, leaving me alone to sit on the bed in a quiet daze. The weather outside is very good, and the sun is very bright, but these spring rays may not have anything to do with me. She was right, I could feel the rapid failure of my body's organs, and it was a question of whether I would survive the week, let alone the summer.

"Hey, it's a bit bad to live in this life, if you have a next life, you will never live like this again. I hope that Lord Yama can see that I haven't done anything bad in my life, but for the sake of the life of the lonely star, I will also be given a good reincarnation position for the rest of my life. It's really easier to do anything than to be a human being. ”

As soon as I said this, I slipped down lazily and lay down on the bed. I finally managed to save some strength and struggled to do it for a while, and now I feel extremely tired again. This tiredness is not sleepiness, but a strong sense of tiredness that emanates from within the body and from the soul. Sometimes I think I might never be able to open this eye as soon as I close it.

"Although it is said that the life is short, in fact, there is nothing too regrettable to think about. Well, there's not much left to do, but the deputy director of pedagogy may be sad. This finally produced a champion who studied well, but I didn't expect to die young, I don't know if I will become a positive example, or a negative example? I wonder if I will call on students to pay attention to their bodies in addition to studying. ”

When no one is around, I lie alone in bed thinking about it, always thinking about it and thinking about it. If you seriously want to know what to regret in your familiar life? I also thought that I suddenly thought of Liu Huan later, she didn't seem to know about me all along, but it's good to think about it this way, since I don't know, I shouldn't feel sad. By the time she comes back from her studies, in a few years, she may have completely forgotten who I am, so that's fine.

"There's no way to be with her, so don't delay someone for a lifetime. Suddenly I felt that her father was doing the right thing at the beginning, so she didn't have to be with me. In the end, I found out that I was a short-lived ghost, which would be even more annoying, but it wasn't like letting others be widowed at a young age, so it would be too immoral to do so. ”

I have been trying to comfort myself while lying in bed, but I don't know why the more I think about it, the more uncomfortable I feel, my chest has been stuffy and stuffy for the past few days, which makes me sleep badly, even if I occasionally close my eyes and sleep for a while, I will be choked by my own blood.

I deliberately placed a basin next to my bed, and as soon as I felt blood in my throat, I quickly spit it out. Basically, it didn't take long for the smell of blood in it to make me feel uncomfortable.

Fortunately, although Huang Erye has stopped talking recently, he has been taking care of me, and he has also made my side clean, at least there is no unpleasant smell on the bed of the seriously ill patient, which is enough to be satisfied, there is nothing to complain about.

"You're still thinking about that little girl, aren't you? If that's the case, then why don't you find a way to contact her and get her to come and see you. The people people people want to see most before they die are the ones they can't let go of in this life. If you don't go to see her and you die like this, will you really be willing? Anyway, it's already like this, don't worry about what others say about you, at least don't let yourself go with regrets, in that case, even if you die, you may not feel at peace. ”

In the past few days, Rourou and Su Yang have been taking turns to persuade me, let me find a way to contact Liu Huan,

I know that the two of them want me to have no regrets in my last days, after all, there is nothing they can do for me except this one thing now.

"Forget it, I'm not saying that I mean to reject your kindness, I just don't think it's necessary. Do you think, what would he do if he came now? Are the two of us hugging and crying? And then what? Then she would watch me die, and maybe it would be a very memorable and painful event in her life. I don't want to affect his life because I'm alone, in that case, I feel like a scumbag. ”

I just shook my head at the suggestion of both of them, and I knew that perhaps I would feel better when I looked at him now. It's just that I really don't want Liu Huan to leave any shadow on my affairs in the future, and seeing that I refused so neatly, the two of them won't mention it anymore in the future.

The days that followed were uneventful, without any waves. Even one afternoon, I felt like I was feeling better, and I felt like I could get out of bed with a little extra strength out of thin air. Actually, I knew what it was, but I still got dressed and left this little room despite everyone's dissuasion, and I haven't been out of the small room since I fell ill.

I vaguely remember that it seemed to be a very nice day. The sun outside is a little hot, but it doesn't feel very uncomfortable. Everything seemed fine outside, and I said hello to Zhuzhu's parents. They seem to be in a much better state of mind, and Zhuzhu's mother seems to be pregnant again, which makes me feel really good.

I did a lot of things, barely bracing my body to go and visit my family's grave. walked around the village, and originally wanted to go to the hospital to have a look, and told Fan Yacheng not to be so arrogant in everything in the future, not everyone would let her.

It's just that her parents are separated, at least everyone in the family shouts, in this case, there is still a chance in the future, and everyone can sit together and have a meal. It's just that I was so tired that I couldn't run to the hospital anymore.

I remember that I seemed very tired, so I sat on the side of the road and leaned on the rocks and tilted my head and fell asleep quietly.

I fell asleep in the sun.