This summer, I met Su Yixuan.

It also suddenly appeared downstairs in my house, it seems to be a little higher than before, and it seems to be a little darker than before, but it is still that sunny and handsome young man, when I saw him, I just came out of my unit door, and I saw that he was standing about 15 meters away from me, he was lowering his head and kicking the stones, and he didn't see me.

I just stood there and looked at him, I don't know how long I watched, as if I was back to that afternoon two years ago, it seems, I also looked at him like this, looked at it, and it became like this, I don't know if it's good or bad, I don't know when our slightly "entangled" and "ambiguous" relationship will be improved, in the end, whether it will be further or return to the original point.

I don't know how long it was, it seemed to be less than a minute, and it seemed like 10 minutes had passed. He looked up in the direction of my unit, saw me, and smiled at me.

I walked over and said to him, "You're back?" Got a holiday? "I don't have the smiling face that I used to run to him before, and I don't have that lively and cheerful and somewhat mischievous tone. It's very bland.

Originally, I was going to go shopping with Da Nan that day, and this was also the first time the two of us met during the holiday. But Su Yixuan said that he had something to say to me, so I called Da Nan and released Da Nan's pigeons again.

He invited me to dinner that day, and he went to the mall where we had been before, and grabbed dolls, just like we had when we went out in junior high school. It's just that from five people, to two.

He didn't say anything, I couldn't wait, I said to him directly: "Su Yixuan, you should want to break up with me officially, right?" Don't worry, I agree, you don't have to go around in such a big circle. ”

Su Yixuan suddenly grabbed my hand, turned me around, hugged me, and said to me, "No, on the contrary, I hope we can get back together." However, I don't have the courage, after all, I'm so far away from you, and I can't accompany you when you're at your hardest.

This year, you don't know how hard I've lived, I called you, texted, and you didn't respond, I wrote to you again, how can you not even reply to the letter, I have written many letters to you, you have never replied, the letter is full of my thoughts about you. The last time you had an accident, I was really sad, I had already bought a train ticket to come back on the same day, but, the teacher notified the parents, and my dad pressed me at the train station.

Later, I also investigated Tong Feifan, and I didn't find any suspicion of her, so I called you that day, and I would tell you like that. I don't know if you've misunderstood anything, but I really didn't mean to protect her.

Also, before, I knew that once you called me, and my roommate answered and talked to you about something...... I told you something, if you don't like to hear it, in fact, it's not like that, I also explained to you in the letter, it's because her family, just came to H City for something, she followed, and then, they all lived in our house, and caught up with me for my birthday, my mother asked me to go home and have a meal with them, or my mother and the teacher took leave. I've written all of this in my letter, don't you believe it, you've never replied to me.

Before, I told you to pretend to break up, I was more sad than you, that's because Tong Feifan used you to threaten me, to let my family know, I was more worried, my family will be the same as Tong Feifan, to trouble you, not that my family is very unreasonable, of course, my mother, it is indeed a little ...... Unreasonable. However, more importantly, in fact...... Actually, Tong Feifan and I are actually doll relatives, this is all a joke of the previous generation, I didn't expect them to really take it seriously, so if they know that I have you by my side, I'm afraid they will come to you to say something.

You also think it's incredible, in fact, I also think that in this era, there are still people who believe in doll parents, and they must be implemented, and I don't know what adults think, so, during that time, I have been fighting against them, I don't know if it's useful, but, I'm a big boy, I can't be at their mercy, even my parents, in this matter, I don't want to give in.

Actually, I really don't want to talk to you about these things in my family, at least, I don't want to say it to you face to face, so you just let me hug it for a while, I can't see your face, but knowing that you are listening, I also have more courage to say, otherwise, I'm afraid I don't have the courage.

In fact...... In fact, the situation in my family will be more complicated, unlike the family of a few of you, so simple and happy. Our family, and Tong Feifan's family, and since my father's generation, have lived together, so there are more things involved, maybe when I grow up in the future, I will be able to understand it, but now I still can't understand those things that are implicated.

Now, Tong Feifan also knows that I don't like her anymore, she is very far away from me, and I will not have anything to do with her alone, so, do you want us to start again? I really like you, hopefully, I hope you can still like me, hopefully, I didn't disappoint you, and I promise that in the future, I won't let you down again. It will always be the Su Yixuan you like. ”

He said so much in one breath, I didn't even know how to take it, he said the letter, but I didn't receive a letter, what's going on? Also, what does he mean? What he means is, are we still going to be in an underground relationship? Can't let his family know, even ...... Can't let Tong Feifan know?

Although it is true that at our age, parents should not know, but why is it so awkward, this seems to be an attitude that is not affirmed.

I pushed him away, he didn't let go, I said to him, "Are you done?" Can you let me go? Or are you going to keep saying something to me that you can say without looking at me? ”

He let go of his hand after listening to me.

I said to him: "What happened last time has passed, whether it is Tong Feifan or not, I think it is all over, and there is no need to talk about it in the future."

Also, I like you very much, even, I like it the same as before, it hasn't changed, and when I see you today, I still plop and blush. But if you let me be with you again, I don't want to do it now.

Not because I don't like you, but because I want to like myself better. So, let's wait until we graduate from high school. In the future, if I receive your letter, I will reply. If I could see your call, I would answer it.

Okay, let's go here today, I'll go back first, don't send me, I'll just take a taxi home, goodbye. ”