I walked and walked and walked.

The road has to be walked, and of course it can be completed.

Finally, I walked in front of the light, and the light stood in front of me.

Yes, it's the light.

Stand in front of me!

And I, too, walked in front of the light!

She began to look at me, and I couldn't see much clearly, it was stabbed by the light. I couldn't hear it clearly, it was blown by the wind.

Something from my nose stained my whole face red, but even so, I could see the light up and down on me, and I didn't know what she was looking at.

What the hell was she looking at!

Later, I finally knew what she was looking at!

She saw me as she saw gold and silver!

Am I more important than gold and silver?

I thought so.

When she looked at me, she had the same light in her eyes as I had seen when I was thirteen.

In addition to that one light, I saw a lot of light, and together they were like ten suns, which could burn everything on the earth, even the snow on the earth, the moon in the sky, and the wind in the sky.

There is nothing left!

But I don't want to be burned to death by them!

Why should I be burned to death by them!

The lights stood inside the door, looking at me like that.

They looked me up and down.

And I stood two steps from the door, not moving, just standing there quietly.

I saw the people coming out of it exactly as I did when I was thirteen.

Although my eyes couldn't see clearly at that time, my eyes really did.

In this group, there are old and young.

The old ones are almost in the ground, and the little ones are just coming out of their mother's womb.

However, in this place, they are like tigers in the mountains and forests.

When you see people, you eat.

Like the monsters in the world, they will be harmed when they see people.

The same I saw when I was thirteen.

They either have a satisfied smile on their faces, as if they had just been married, no, they are happier than if they were married and had children; Either the gray face is depressed, and when he comes out, he shouts his father and scolds his mother, no, it is even more sad and sad than when he dies his father.

I'm all in the eyes.

The fire in my heart began to burn in my heart again, but it also began to burn my heart like crazy.

At this moment, it seems that my mood is not as bad as it used to be.

for my eyes have seen, and my ears have heard.

I'm satisfied.

The only difference between me now and when I was thirteen is that I didn't hide in the dark corners of the street as soon as I saw the light, and watched them pass me.

Instead, I'm standing in that place right now.

Two steps further on, you can walk into the place.

At this time, I raised my head proudly.

You can't bow your head before this crowd.

However, I walked for a long time, and the wind began to blow in the sky, and the snow began to fall, and then the moon rose to the willow tops.

Walk to the ground two steps away from the place.

Why don't I go in?

yes, I've been walking for so long, why don't you go in?

Thinking of this, I lifted my feet again and took a step forward.

It's really just a step,

But why did you take a step?

Why not just walk in?

yes, why not just walk in?

What was I thinking?

After I had taken that step, I saw that the light was more intense than when it first saw me, and the light began to burn, and I began to look forward to it, and I began to smile slyly.

and a few next to it, all of them began to emit light.

They joined forces and set up the light.

The light in their eyes was like holding their breath.

When it was released, it was like a fart, and it stinked and couldn't be smelled.

Why did I only take a small step? Am I hesitating about something?

No, it's not that I'm hesitating.

If I had hesitated, I wouldn't have come.

But are you hesitating, why only one step instead of two?

If that's the case, then I'm really, really hesitating.

But what am I hesitating about?

You know, I don't have the strength at this time, you see I stumbled and staggered for so long, I only wore a thin linen coat and a turban when I went out, although I hit the wall countless times, but the things in my nose no longer flowed, I guess it was gone.

But isn't it like my mother is dead?

And I'm still alive!

Yes, I'm still alive and well?

It's good to stand here!

I thought about it when the wind blew again, the snow drifted again, and the moon overhead hid in the clouds at this time, why did she hide behind the clouds?

Now, at this moment, there is no moon,

All that's left is the sun that can burn people to death!

Am I going to be burned by them?

No, I don't think I'll be burned to death by them, because I already have a fire in my heart, and that fire is much more fierce than theirs, and that fire has burned me to death, and I have already died once, can I die again?

No, by no means!

No one can die twice.

Just when I think about dying, I think of another very important thing, that is, there is another very important thing in me.

That's when I have a pair of eyes.

A pair of eyes that look exactly like my mother.

Neighbors said that those eyes can be exchanged for gold and silver, and can be exchanged for pavilions.

Because that's how my mother came back then.

But until now, I've never seen any of these things.

Are they lying to me?

They didn't lie to me.

The people who grew up with me were about the same age, yes, the people who ran with me from one end of the street to the other and from one end of the street to the other. Aren't they all in there now? Which of them is not wearing gold and silver, and which one is not living in a pavilion?

Compared to them, my eyes are much better looking than theirs.

If you go on like this, the only thing that is certain is.

They didn't lie to me.

But why don't I believe them?

What do they have to believe!

At this moment, my heart trembled slightly, I already felt that I had reached the end of my life, and I already felt that I was about to die.

But I can't die yet.

Why can't I die.

Because I want to live!

I want to live the way I want to be.

So what do I want to live like?

The way I'm alive now makes me think I'm already someone who died early.

Why not die?

No, I can't die, and I don't have to.

Because no one can die twice.

Since you can't die, you can only live!

I can live as a human being.

So what is a human being?

Is the person in there a human being?

No, I don't think it must be like this.

One thing I know now is.

One more step

This step

In the end, do you want to cross or not?

In the city of Luoyang, there is a white snow and a gust of winter wind.

Then

The snow is white and the winter wind is fierce.

At that time, the flame that had burned in my heart had burned through my whole heart and withered.

But when I remember what a man said to me when I was thirteen years old, I feel much better in my heart, but there is no flame like before. Now that the man is gone, I don't blame myself if I don't think about him, and once I start thinking about him, I feel bad in my heart.

If he had been there now, I would have fallen into his bosom and leaned against his solid chest.

What am I still standing here for?

But where is he now?

If he were there now, I would have picked up a sword and plunged it into his chest.

I'm going to do it, I swear.

My body grew cold.

Whenever this happens, I always think of my dead mother, the mother who gave birth to me and then died, I don't know why other people's mothers can't die why she is the only one who died.

But then when I heard why she died, my heart hurt.

I thought, I can't die.

So, what do you do not die and live?

To live is to live!

One more step, really, one more step I can go into.

Same as the group of people standing inside.

You're coming in, you're coming in?

The lights next to it suddenly lit up.

My ears suddenly became unusually flexible again, and I heard their anxious, abusive, and somewhat cunning voices, and my heart was half cold.

You're coming in!

You're coming in!

Are they inviting me? I started thinking like this, but I didn't know what I was thinking anymore.

But what good intentions do they have!

My eyes were almost out of sight.

But suddenly, I heard the sound of a horse chirping in the distance, and the neighing of the cry cracked my lungs.

My eyes were suddenly much bigger than before.

I remembered when I was thirteen years old, a group of people came out with a man wrapped in a straw mat, and at this time, a white horse roared by on the road.

No, I don't want that.

I don't want to die.

I don't want to die like that.

The thought of this made me terrified, and with all my strength, I resolutely prepared to turn back, leaving the place where I had never dared to come, but now stood only a step away from the threshold.

But I had no strength left, and the snow was already falling on my heels.

But I didn't notice that the snow was so thick.

Looks like I'm really dead.

Am I really dead? Why do dead people still think that?

I am not dead, and I cannot die.

You don't have to die.

Anyway, I didn't die that night.

Later, I realized that they really didn't lie to me

gold and silver,

Pavilions.

It's not as good as my eyes.

Those eyes look exactly like my mother's.