After staying in Jinghe Hall for three days, Xiao Yuning finally walked into the courtyard with a tired face and said, "Ah Su, the assassin's matter has been ascertained and has nothing to do with you. ”

Feng Qingxu didn't have much mood swings, but asked, "How is Bizhu?" ”

The sadness in Xiao Yuning's eyes gradually rose: "The child has not been saved, and Bizhu's body is also a little damaged, so she will be raised." ”

He didn't dare to say that Shen Bizhu's current situation was very bad, and he was afraid that the wind would be sad.

"I'll go see her."

Feng Qingxu turned around and wanted to leave, but Xiao Yuning grabbed her and said with some hesitation: "Asu, I have something to say to you." ”

The wind stopped in his tracks, and his dark eyes looked at Xiao Yuning quietly.

Xiao Yuning seemed to have made up his mind, and said, "Asu, in fact, I already knew that you were from Dongzhao. ”

A void smile appeared on Feng Qingxu's face: "I know." ”

Xiao Yuning was stunned.

Feng Qingxu said: "I also know that Rose is the person you put by my side to spy on me, but I don't blame you. ”

Xiao Yuning's heart sank, he wanted to say something, but he couldn't say it.

Feng Qingxu didn't seem to want to bring up this topic again, turned around and left, her voice calm and calm: "She told you a long time ago, why did you come to tell me." ”

Xiao Yuning was stunned and wanted to reach out to grab Feng Qingfu, but Feng Qingfu's figure flashed extremely quickly, and disappeared at the door in a blink of an eye.

Xiao Yuning looked at the empty courtyard, only to feel that his heart seemed to be empty, he naturally knew who "she" was in Feng Qingxu's mouth.

It turned out that she knew everything.

When Feng Qingxu walked into the Zhaoming Palace, she only felt a depressing breath rushing to her face, making it difficult for her to breathe.

Shen Bizhu lay quietly on the bed, thin with only a handful of bones left, she silently looked at the curtain on the top of the bed, as if she was lifeless.

Feng Qingxu couldn't help but think of the scene when she was amused by the palace people in her courtyard, when she was as dazzling as a sun, so lively and carefree, but now she was so haggard that she seemed to wither at any moment.

"Bizhu ......," the wind called softly.

Shen Bizhu didn't turn her head, she was still staring at the curtain in a daze, as if she hadn't heard it.

Feng Qingxu has always been cold-hearted and cold-hearted, but now seeing Shen Bizhu's miserable appearance, he didn't know how to comfort her, so he could only sit quietly on the side and look at her quietly.

All the curtains of the Zhaoming Hall were drawn, the room was very dark, the two of them were silent, and the atmosphere was even more dull, as if they were in a thick cloud, and the air was so heavy that it could drip water at any time.

I don't know how long it took for Shen Bizhu to speak in a hoarse voice: "Crown Princess, it's all your fault." ”

The wind is light and silent.

"It's all your design that day to let me marry His Royal Highness the Prince, it's all your fault that you let me come to the East Palace, and it's all your fault that you made me fall in love with His Royal Highness...... In the past, I used to be so happy, often going to temple fairs, brothels, and fighting with others...... To experience so many new things, like a happy bird...... But since I came to the East Palace, my life has only been left with His Royal Highness, and only what I look forward to every day...... Why hasn't His Highness come today, is he busy with official business, is he tired and sick...... Your Highness is coming today, what should I prepare? What to wear? Which hairpin to wear? What does Your Highness like to eat and what does not like to eat...... Your Highness is gone again, when will I be able to come again......"

The wind listened silently, and she saw crystal tears sliding down the corners of Shen Bizhu's eyes, and she only felt as if there was a big stone pressing down on her heart......

Shen Bizhu suddenly laughed slightly: "But, princess, fortunately it's you." Fortunately, you let me meet Your Highness, let me know that there is a better thing in this world than a woman dressing up as a man to go out to play, Your Highness is the most beautiful man I have ever seen, he smiled so gently, as if he had honey brewed in his eyes, every time he looked at me, my heart was sweet. I often look at him and think, this is my husband, the person I want to spend my life with, why is it me, why does he like me...... Later, I found out that it was because I looked like you......"

The wind lowered his eyes, and his heart was extremely complicated.

"He doesn't like me, but you, he thinks you should be like me when you grow up, that's why he likes to look into my eyes, touch my lips, kiss my cheeks, he thinks of me as you...... I feel so sad in my heart, I want to lose my temper with him, I want to tell him that I am me, I am Shen Bizhu, and I am not a shadow of anyone...... But as soon as he smiled at me, I couldn't say anything, I just wanted to make him happy. When he refused to come to Zhaoming Hall for a long time, I was thinking that as long as he was willing to come to see me, he would treat me as your shadow, and I would be willing to ......."

Shen Bizhu's tears flowed slowly, penetrating into the pillow little by little, leaving mottled marks.

"But how did you grow up? When you grow up, you are not at all different from me, you are so beautiful, so beautiful that His Royal Highness the Crown Prince is reluctant to take his eyes off, his eyes are all about you, and he refuses to smile at me anymore, every time he comes just to see if the child in my belly is okay, he leaves after a glance, and he refuses to say more perfunctory words...... But I still have to smile at him and let him see me at my best...... Now that I have no children and hurt my body, he refuses to look at me and leaves me to fend for myself......"

Feng Qingxu only felt that his heart was like being crushed by a boulder, and he was so stuffy that it was difficult to breathe.

"Crown Princess, you don't know how jealous I am of you, jealous of your place in His Highness's heart...... Whenever you appear in front of His Highness, he only has you in his eyes, and he smiles so cleanly and gently at you, as if all his troubles have disappeared, and your look can make him happy for a long time...... But what about me? All I get is the leftovers of your full meal...... I said to myself, it's okay, it doesn't matter whatever, as long as I have children, life will always get better...... My child is my only hope in this East Palace, but why is God so cruel that he wants to take away my only hope......

"Crown Princess, do you know what it feels like to be desperate? Do you know what it's like to have your hopes peeled off layer by layer, and in the end there is nothing left? You don't know, you don't know anything, you don't care about anything, all the time, all you care about is yourself......"

Feng Qingxu was speechless, and Shen Bizhu's bleak words made her unbearable to listen to it anymore, so she said softly: "Bizhu, don't think about it too much, you are still young, and you will have children, so let's recuperate." ”

Feng Qingxu stood up, raised his steps and walked towards the door.

"You don't love His Royal Highness the Prince."

Shen Bizhu's voice was very soft, but it sounded like thunder behind her when the wind was light......