Although the company of Shen Xuan and Peony on the days of illness has alleviated the irritability, Xia Mu, who is always stuck in the Muyun Palace, really yearns for the outside life! The era without mobile phones, the Internet, and TV made it easier for Xia Mu to be attracted by the things around him, but after entering the palace for so long, he was just wandering in the courtyard.

When she finally got better, she was like a bird that had regained her freedom, flapping her wings. That bright smile really made the sun retreat.

Following the route of the palace in her memory, Xia Mu easily found the Yongshou Palace where the Queen Mother was located, and she did not forget the story hidden in the unfinished words that day. She is not very sure that the mother and son will be close, but there are some misunderstandings and estrangements, once they are in her heart, they will not only hurt herself, but also others.

As soon as Xia Mu arrived, the whole palace seemed to be injected with a burst of vitality to wake up, and the smile was also rare to imprint the face of the Queen Mother.

"You girl, if you don't come again, I think you'll have left this aunt aside." The Queen Mother took the teacup and handed Liu Ningyun's favorite refreshment.

As soon as he saw the delicate flowers and refreshments, he didn't care about greetings, Xia Mu stuffed it into his mouth in one bite, a rare taste. You really don't want to talk about the same technique, this ancient man made it has a different taste.

Seeing that Xia Mu was about to choke, the Queen Mother burst out laughing, and hurriedly slapped her back, "You are so presumptuous with me, it's strange if you don't clean up at home." ”

Xia Mu pretended to be disapproving, "Auntie doesn't know, where does the emperor let me eat pastries recently, I always feel that my tongue has lost its sense of taste when all kinds of soups are bland." Glancing at the Queen Mother's expression,

"If you want me to say, it's okay to eat some. But the emperor, like you, is always worried that I can't do it here and there, and he has fattened me alive. ”

The Queen Mother, as a "winner in life" who survived the ups and downs of the harem, how could she not hear the taste of the interview, "I have played with your aunt and I have really grown up." Ask whatever you want. ”

Although her mouth was full of disgust, her words were all conniving, and now the only one who could make her so indulgent was Xia Mu.

Xia Mu didn't expect the Queen Mother to be so straightforward, she scratched her head embarrassedly, leaned down and lay on the Queen Mother's lap, just like she did when she was a child.

"Auntie, can you tell me the story of you and the emperor? I just feel like there's some misunderstanding between you. Noticing that the Queen Mother's face was slightly stiff, "If you don't want to say it, then it's okay not to say it." I just don't want to see you so rusty. ”

Xia Mu felt the temperature in her hair, and quietly waited for the Queen Mother to speak, and when Xia Mu was about to fall asleep comfortably, a gentle girl finally spoke up.

"It's a long story, but it's rare for you to ask, and I really have to think about it. I remember that it was about 40 years ago, and I should have been about the same age as you at that time, and I was looking forward to my life after entering the palace after receiving the edict.

Before the wedding, I had actually met the emperor, and it was more admiration at that time. I was glad to know that that handsome man would be my husband. It's just that this joy didn't last long.

The emperor was a person who put the cause of the country first, and too many children's hatreds were not suitable for him. Therefore, not long after our wedding, in order to balance the forces of the previous dynasty, more and more daughters of ministers poured into the harem, and the harem became a real battlefield without a sword. The emperor's grace with rain and dew is sometimes really powerless. Feeling the sadness of the Queen Mother, Xia Mu planned to stop it, but she had no intention of stopping.

"As a queen, every move is the face of the royal family. All you can do is manage the harem well, and you don't know how to respect and love.

But even if I tried everything, because of my negligence, I lost my two children, who could have been alive and kicking around just because they were in the emperor's house, and I gave up at that moment.

In this high harem, there is no such extravagant thing as love. There is only power and lust here, and he can make life make people die.

It was also at this time that the emperor appeared beside me, and I was still as young as he was back then, pretending to be an adult with a tight face. When he timidly called me my mother, I knew I had to stand up for him.

The queen's concubine means that as long as I live, it is impossible for the first emperor to pass Xuan'er and appoint someone else as the crown prince. But this position is too jealous, and I am afraid that he will be like other children, so I am cruel to alienate him.

A prince who is disliked by his adoptive mother bears much less than his sister-in-law. I'm afraid, so I can only use this method to protect him. He thought I didn't know what he was crying in the room, but every night I quietly waited for him to fall asleep and looked at his little face to wipe away his tears. He thought I didn't like him, but he was the reason for me to stand up. ”

"I thought I would have a chance to explain, and when he grows up, he will always understand. But I can only watch us drift apart, I know that the past cannot be remedied, but it hurts to look at him. ”

Seeing that the Queen Mother was getting more and more excited, Xia Mu hurriedly got up, took a glass of water, and comforted him a little bit.

In fact, who is wrong in this relationship? Everybody's wrong, and everybody's right. It's obviously two people who warm each other, but it's just because one doesn't say and the other doesn't ask that it leads to today's situation. Creation makes people, the young Shen Xuan longs for maternal love but is blocked by reality, and the reality of the Queen Mother wants to make up for it but has no way to start. From the very beginning, they missed out.

The Queen Mother calmed down a little, "Actually, my aunt didn't want you to enter the palace. There are too many souls left here, and there are too many regrets.

Originally, I was going to leave my old face behind and let him let you live, but he solemnly asked me to protect you. I raised him for more than 20 years, and for the first time, I saw longing and attachment and love in his eyes.

He said he wanted to grab happiness once, and I made him lose his happiness, so there was really nothing he could do to stop him. Besides, if you are my niece, how can I harm you. Even if you don't say it, I can see that you insisted on entering the palace for him in the first place, you don't know how sweet you smiled when you faced him.

Breaking up a pair of lovers is something I don't want to do, and I also want to see how far you can go, can there be love in this harem? ”

The Queen Mother said with a firm face, which contained love for her niece, guilt for her son, unwillingness to love herself, and yearning for love. All she can do is support, and if they want to really go long-term, they can only work their own. The Queen Mother looked at the sunset outside the window, hoping that love could really come in this deceitful country.