Our fear of age is not actually about getting old as we age.

It's the fear that as we age, we still have nothing.

On the first day of my part-time job, I couldn't help but feel a little excited.

It's my father's birthday in a few days, save some of my own money to buy something to see my father, I don't want to spend that woman's money, because I will look down on myself inexplicably.

"Waited, huh?" I glanced up at Qin Anxi, who was standing there.

He was standing there.

He reached out and touched my head, the first time he had approached me to make physical contact with me.

I...... It was as if the body was stiff.

"Let's go, it's in front, two hundred a day." He reached out and tugged at the little scarf on my clothes, "The scarf is very beautiful, it's my favorite color, if you don't mind, give it to me." ”

Pink......

I burst out laughing, "Do you still like pink as a big man?" ”

"What's this, I think you look good when you wear it, then I must look good when I wear it."

He's so good-looking, how could I possibly stand shoulder to shoulder with him.

If you like it, give it to him.

I was about to untie my scarf, but he grabbed my hand: "Don't untie it now, let's go to work first." ”

Our main job is to make dumplings.

The hostess was very nice, and one of us wore a pair of disposable gloves and started the dumpling making journey.

I made dumplings when I was younger, so this job is simply my dish.

And he was already overflowing with cold sweat, I looked at the crooked melons and cracked dates he packed, and actually laughed.

He also realized that I was laughing at him, "Don't come and teach me yet, and then laugh and pinch your face." ”

I stuck out my tongue at him, sat next to him with a bench, and taught him by hand: "See, press down......"

The proprietress next to her kept laughing, "Are you a little couple?" It's really enviable, Auntie, I didn't have such love at that time. ”

I didn't speak, and he didn't speak, they just smiled helplessly.

I didn't deny it because I wanted to. As for the reason why he didn't deny it, I don't know.

The busy day was finally completed, we made a lot of dumplings, twelve refrigerators, and also ate dumplings for the day.

Qin Anxi felt that his hand was no longer his own.

I feel that way too.

The hostess gave us two hundred per person and a bag of dumplings.

In winter, it gets dark quickly.

"Shorty, is it okay for you to go home alone?" He was playing with the stones under his feet, and the street lamp shone on him, so that I could see it clearly.

His eyes were unwavering.

I smiled, "Of course, you should hurry up and get over there, it's cold outside." ”

He struggled. In the end, he simply shouted: "Let's go, I'll send you back." If something happens to you, then I won't feel guilty for the rest of my life. ”

“…… Would you be sad then? I looked at him expectantly.

"My brother is suddenly gone, do you think I will be sad?" He gave me a blank look, then reached out to put my hat on it.

My heart is very warm, but I am afraid that he and I can only be brothers.

"Why do you want to go to Tianjin University?" Universities in the North, he knew that I was going to be admitted to the North.

He didn't want to say it, but he said it anyway: "I talked about a girlfriend in junior high school, and she is a northerner like you. I broke up with her because of family reasons. But she told me that she would go to Tianjin University. So I went. ”

"...... "My nose is sour and sore.

It wasn't for me.

I suddenly felt so stupid. How could such a good person be interesting to a girl like me who is short, stupid, and introverted?

I laughed self-deprecatingly, resisting the urge to cry down: "Then do you still like her?" ”

"Of course I do." He kicked the stones under his feet and said this without any pressure.

I was very unwell, very unwell.

I tightened my clothes, "You don't have to send me, I suddenly remembered that I have an urgent matter tomorrow, and I can't go out with you to work, I'll see you after the summer vacation." ”

I strode home.

Tears spilled straight out, but I didn't cry.

I heard him say something a little grieving, "What's the matter, it's annoying." ”

Then, he really turned around and left.

I felt so cold, even though I was lying under the covers, it was still so cold.