This chapter is Sheng Yixuan's first-person perspective.

In the beginning, I was probably the one who was not loved, the one who was neglected.

It seems that in this world, no one cares whether I exist or not, as if I once read a sentence on the Internet that said that the earth will still turn without me, but I seem to have met the motivation that keeps me alive.

People, after all, you can't be too greedy, what you have already got should be cherished, what does not belong to you is not what you do, sometimes you can't get it to force it, maybe even the existing will be lost, although I am not big, but life experience tells me so.

Hello everyone, my name is Sheng Yixuan, an ordinary first-year boarding student. Before I met Enron, I always seemed to be alone, not good at socializing, and even a little alone. My family often neglects me because of the preference for women over men, and in this world, my existence seems to be unnecessary.

By chance, I met Enron, because of a chicken mobile game, because of a corner of a staircase. For so long, An Ran seems to be the first person willing to listen to me, she is like a confidant big sister, listening to all my thoughts, giving me advice and comfort, for the first time in a long time, I seem to feel the feeling of being cared for and cared for......

I don't know what's wrong with me, it's only been a short time, I seem to be inseparable from her, and I have begun to have a good impression of her; I don't know what's wrong with me, an impulse, I actually confessed to An Ran, who was two years older than me; I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm scared all the time, afraid that one day I'll lose my safety......

But this day seems to have come a little soon.

I had promised Enron,Be the wild king of only her alone (mobile game king glory jungler hero),But I broke my promise,This morning,I played Wang Glory with other young ladies during class without her knowing and chose to fight the jungler.,Although this is a play job,But I still broke my promise.,It's natural for Enron to be angry.。

For a day, a whole day, An Ran didn't reply to me, except for the sentence: This is what you call learning?

I admit that I'm a straight man, and I don't know how to make girls happy, so I can only keep texting Enron, even if I don't get any reply, it is at this moment that I really feel the pressure of distance, the helplessness after the quarrel......

That day, I thought about it a lot, and I finally understood that it was I who didn't give Enron a sense of security, and the long distance made Enron feel scared, so today I decided to introduce Enron to the people around me in front of the whole class in the evening self-study.

I said, "Enron, take a call at eight o'clock in the evening."

At eight o'clock in the evening, I stood on the podium and dialed Enron's phone as agreed, and although I didn't know if the call would be answered, I thought I would try.

"Dut...... Honk...... Toot ......"

The phone rang again and again, and I waited tormentedly until An Ran's voice came from the other end of the phone, and I hurriedly turned on the speaker.

"I'm busy."

Sure enough, Enron was still angry, and his words were full of impatience, but answering the phone is always a good start, isn't it.

"Enron, I'm in the classroom. Hands-free is turned on. ”

I think Enron will understand when I say that, and I think Enron will understand what I'm going to say next.

"Say, I'll listen."

An Ran's tone did soften a lot, no matter what, I am a boy, no matter how inconspicuous I am in the class, I still want face, and An Ran also gave me this face.

"An Ran, I want to give you enough security, so today I announced in front of the whole class that you are the person I Sheng Yixuan especially want to protect, I don't need to hide it, I also want my whole class to know that you are safe and my girlfriend!"

I raised my voice a little bit, and I managed to get the attention of the class, and that's what I'm trying to achieve, and I want the class to know.

I think they know that I, Sheng Yixuan, am not the one abandoned by the whole world, and I can also be liked and cared for.

"Are you an official announcement?"

Enron's words were obviously a lot happier, and even contained a little excitement, sure enough, girls like this feeling of being cared for and announced to the public, even if it is just an ordinary friend, it can be shown to the public.

Think about it, too, girls are sensitive creatures, and every girl is eager to be favored and announced to the outside world.

Be known by the people you care about.

I think Enron did the same, longing that I could introduce her to all the girls around me and let them know about her existence, so I did it, so what other girls can have, I also want to bring Enron.

"Yes! Okay, that's all I have to say! ”

I stood on the podium with a faint smile, looked at the classmates who were whispering under the podium, and told An Ran in a firm tone, which is what I wanted to tell her in the text message!

We hung up after saying goodbye to each other, and it was at that moment that the classroom was boiling!

The voice of the classmate who was originally whispering suddenly became louder, and he didn't know whether it was sarcasm or envy between the words.

"Oh my God! Sheng Yixuan, the most well-behaved person in our class, is actually in love! ”

"Tut-tut! It's amazing!"

"Wow, I can't think of it!"

"I want a girlfriend too! It's not fair!! ”

There were all kinds of comments in the classroom, and I didn't know how to react to it, whether it was excitement or calm, and it was a little hard to say.

"Yes, it was my girlfriend on the phone just now."

I don't need to explain anything to them, it's a fact that Enron is my girlfriend.

Throughout the evening self-study, I successfully became everyone's argument, almost never stopped, until the end of the evening self-study on the way to the dormitory, I was still thinking, I actually announced the existence of Enron in front of the class.

For some reason, I suddenly wondered if I was too impulsive, what would happen if this matter reached the teacher's ears, and then the teacher would tell the parents what I would do if I was not liked at home? Freshman year, will they really agree to me being in love?

But if I don't say it, I won't be reconciled! I like Enron, I like it very much, I don't want to lose her because of this, and only in this way can Enron be with me at ease.

Eighteen-year-old me and twenty-year-old her, will there really be a future?

This night, after returning to the dormitory, I didn't want to connect with Enron as usual, but curled up in the quilt alone, put on headphones, and began to think, what am I doing, will my existence bring trouble to Enron? Enron agreed to my confession because he didn't know how to refuse.

Looking back, it seems that people always ask me, why do I always go alone, is it because of my bad personality, is it because of my bad temper? It doesn't seem to be, it's just that the tragic childhood has left me with a shadow in my heart.

When I was a child, no matter who I was, it seemed that I always revolved around my sister, no matter how hard I tried to please, they never looked at me squarely, but whenever I did something wrong, I was beaten and scolded, so I was afraid of socializing......

There have been people who have asked me to make friends, but I seem to be refusing again and again; I used to have friends, but I pushed them away from me with my own hands; I tried hard to fit in with the group, but I seem to have failed.

I'm still thinking about why Enron can break into my world like this, why I don't reject Enron, is it really because she is a sister, just like the only sister in the family who loves me.

"I fell in love with you inexplicably, and I fell into a coma with a smile from you......"

It was late at night, I hadn't fallen asleep, a whole bell interrupted my thoughts, and a familiar sound came to my ears, it was safe.

"Sheng Yixuan, don't think nonsense, I will always be there, I will definitely do what I promise you, and I don't promise to be your girlfriend when you are an adult because I won't refuse."

Answering the phone, An Ran was the first to speak, my mind seemed to be seen through by An Ran, it turned out that she had always known ah, it turned out that before we knew it, we had begun to slowly and truly understand each other.

"Enron, thank you, I really didn't mean it this morning."

I know that Enron is not angry about what happened this morning, but I still want to explain it to Enron through voice, and I hope she doesn't think too much about it.

"Sheng Yixuan, since I chose you, I will naturally believe you, do you remember when you asked me why I promised to be with you in the future?"

"Today, I want to take this opportunity to tell you."

"I'm like you, and in everyone's eyes, I always seem to be the well-behaved and sensible type, but I'm not. This is just a disguise that has been built up by the expectations of parents and teachers. ”

"But your appearance seems to have slowly made me realize that I am who I am, and I don't need to change myself for anyone."

"I used to envy this kind of love, the boy had a hundred yuan but used ninety-nine yuan to buy candy for the girl, and before we were together, you became the one who could use most of the living expenses to make me happy."

"I'm not material, I just can't believe it, we two stranger giants who didn't know each other can do so much to make me happy, I think you must be a very gentle boy, that's what I want."

"Sometimes I wonder if I liked you before you liked me. So we really like each other, and it's not because of your sudden confession that I have to say yes. ”

"But now, we are all still studying and working hard for our dreams. Therefore, in order for us to be better together in the future, you must transfer to my school, and I must go to graduate school in this school. ”

"At that time, we will no longer be the online dating that others say, and we will not be in a long-distance relationship without a sense of security."

An Ran talked endlessly, and I listened silently like this, and I couldn't bear to interrupt.

Enron's words reveal his liking for me all the time, as if because of this, I feel like I have taken a reassuring pill.

"Enron, I like you very much too, so you are by no means a one-way liking."

Enron gave me reassurance, and I will naturally give Enron reassurance.

It turns out that our liking is really mutual, and it turns out that we are intruding into each other's lives, rather than one-way intruding into each other's lives and causing trouble to each other.

The moment I heard An Ran say that she really liked me, I was inexplicably happy and excited!

It turns out that I am not the one who has been abandoned by the world.