But when I faced Chen Jiaming, who also loved me, I couldn't give him anything, you must know that from the beginning, my love was all on Xie Yan, and naturally it was impossible to share some with others, because that would be equivalent to betrayal for me and Xie Yan.

So I can't betray Xie Yan at all, not to mention that I love him very much, as far as I am concerned, I can't violate my own moral bottom line, there are some things for me that I must defend, loyalty is the bottom line I must stick to, so I can't lose it no matter what.

But I'm also very conflicted, I don't know if it's because of my own vanity that I care so much about whether Chen Jiaming can continue to like me.

Although I hate myself like this, there are some things I can't control, really, just like now, I forced myself to tell Chen Jiaming about the things between me and him, but in my heart I felt very uncomfortable because of Chen Jiaming's imminent departure, and sometimes I wondered, is this ending really what I want? For Chen Jiaming, what kind of feelings do I have for him in my heart?

If I really don't like him, how can I feel lost because of what is happening now, if I like it, why can't I accept him, what am I thinking in my heart, sometimes I really don't understand myself, I think maybe the emotional world can be a little simpler, I won't be so troubled, for these emotional problems, I really can't deal with it.

Although I know in my heart that some things must be done, but on the other hand, in my heart I will also feel sad and helpless because of some things, I don't know what to do with such a self, because for me, she is also a stranger, I don't want to let myself fall deeper in this relationship, I don't want to hurt anyone, I think maybe I need to think about what I should do.

Although there is some estrangement between me and Xie Yan now, it seems that there are emotional problems, but these can be solved, and I love him very much, I believe that everything is not a problem, there is nothing between us that cannot be solved, so if these problems between us are mixed with outsiders, it is not just a matter of feelings, but a moral problem.

And it's also a matter of loyalty, if things really develop to this point, maybe it really won't end well, the problem between me and Chen Jiaming can't be solved simply, and there is also a test between me and Xie Yan, we need more run-in between us, otherwise, we won't last longer.

There are too many problems, not to mention the distance between life and death between him and me, just our concept of each other is much different, he is sometimes too possessive, I can't stand it a little, he says he loves me very much, but I don't know that there are so many things between us.

Why did he like me in the beginning, I know that there are a lot of things that need to be resolved between us, and if we don't deal with it properly, we have no future at all, and I don't want our relationship for so long to go down the drain.

Although it is inevitable that most couples will have conflicts with each other, so I have been fully prepared at the beginning, you must know that even if the relationship is a good couple, it is impossible not to have any problems, and the key to the problem is whether these conflicts can be resolved, I think, for me, this is also what I have to do at the moment.

But between me and Xie Yan, we are now in a period of emotional freezing, and I don't want to have other things with him, and our relationship has had a lot of problems.

Just solving these problems is already very time-consuming, if Chen Jiaming's matter is mixed up between us at this time, I am afraid that this matter will become more and more chaotic, and it should not end well at that time, and it will also hurt Xie Yan and Chen Jiaming, but I don't want to see all this, I just hope that the matter between us can be solved quickly, and no one will be hurt because of it.

For the two of them, I have love for one and guilt for the other, and I can't let anyone down, so I have to think of a foolproof strategy, so that I can feel at ease, not only to preserve my love for Xie Yan, but also to be worthy of Chen Jiaming's dedication to me, such an ending is the best for us, so I must solve the relationship between me and Chen Jiaming, and quickly resolve the problem between myself and Xie Yan.

At this time, I felt my pocket, suddenly vibrate, it seems that the phone has, what news? I quickly came back to my senses, took out my phone, took a look, and found that it was the penguin who had a message.

I guessed in my heart that it should be Jiang Qinqin, but I wasn't sure. But whoever it is? I'm going to take a look at it first, and it's useless to think more, isn't it, the facts are the most important thing.

I took out my mobile phone to take a look, and found that it was sent by Jiang Qinqin, it seems that my hunch is sometimes quite accurate, Jiang Qinqin is playing a game next door next door, but I have been thinking about this side in my heart, maybe I won't play the game, so devoted, otherwise, how could it be?

Messaged me less than ten minutes later?

It seems that she does have a deep affection for Chen Jiaming, and she is always paying attention to his movements, eh, there is really a constant relationship between us, if Chen Jiaming liked Jiang Qinqin at the beginning, maybe there would not be these things anymore, but some things, just like such mistakes, we can't escape the arrangement of fate, and some things are already doomed.

We can't change these things, but we can also use our own strength to make our world different, just like I have always believed that even if there is a noble path between me and Xie Yan, then we can be regarded as a noble person, and love can't solve all problems.

But at least some of the problems can be solved, and I would like to believe that as long as we can keep going, then one day we can get the results we want, even if we have to wait a long time, we will have an ending. Eh, let's talk about Chen Jiaming.

He has paid a lot to me, but he doesn't seem to be interested in Jiang Qinqin, but Jiang Qinqin has been working hard, although there are some things that cannot be changed, but I believe that maybe one day, Chen Jiaming may find Jiang Qinqin's good, maybe one day, they will tie the knot.

I don't know what kind of feeling Jiang Qinqin felt when he knew that Chen Jiaming came to me, but one thing Jiang Qinqin might not have imagined was that Chen Jiaming did not leave so soon as expected this time, as before, and did not stay at my home for a long time at all?

Could it be that he really didn't mean anything else, or that he was really in a hurry, so he had to leave? Maybe it's really me thinking too much, you must know that it's not impossible to say this, although Chen Jiaming has always felt different about me, but the relationship between us is not all for him, his world is very big, and his heart is not all me, in addition to me, he also has his own career, his own life, and this is exactly the difference between him and Xie Yan, Xie Yan is too possessive of me, and he cares too much about me.

Although I said that I knew it in my heart, and I thought this was a good ending, but it was really too shocking if it was put on the table, which made my heart a little shadowy, of course this was a joke, I think Jiang Qinqin knew.

She will be very happy in her heart, and maybe this is also a symbol of Chen Jiaming slowly letting go of the relationship in his heart, such a thing happens is the situation I want to see the most, if the people I care about can be happy, I will also empathize.

I hope that everything can go as smoothly as we expected, and now I hope that Chen Jiaming can slowly accept Jiang Qinqin, so that there will be no more sad people in this world.

Actually, it's not just me who is a case, women's minds are so strange, although they don't want to have any real relationship with each other, but they always want to continue their relationship unclearly, but such thoughts will only hurt the person who loves you, and it will also make the person you love sad.

Obviously you don't have a relationship with each other, so why bother with it, the longer some feelings exist, the greater the chance of injury.

Just like yellow cotton wool, if you don't want to take it out of your body in pain, then after a long time, if you want to take it out again, it will be a pain in the skin.

At that time, the yellow medicine cotton has grown into one with your body, and the pain is like digging out your own flesh alive, the pain of the heart.

I think it's hard to bear, so sometimes you should judge and decide, if you keep going, you will suffer from it, so you shouldn't do it for your own selfishness.

Just let irrelevant people get trapped in your own emotional world, and don't always think about even if you can't give each other a real commitment.

But you must also let the other person worry about yourself, that is unfair to everyone, if you can't respond to him, don't let him be bound because of his love for you, a short-term infatuation is not a permanent relationship, if you have been unclear, I feel that there must be something between you.

If you feel comfortable in your heart, then one day he may feel disgusted with your feelings, what kind of feeling will you have in your heart at that time, don't let yourself be addicted to this perverted psychology all the time, otherwise you will understand it later.

The heart is always so uncomfortable, will think that they not only hurt others, but also let themselves hurt all over the body, to know that everything we are doing now is not worth it, but also hurtful, sometimes, we should give up something in a timely manner, only in this way can we have the opportunity to get our own happiness, don't let yourself regret it one day in the future, feel that you have wasted too much time to do these useless things, sad and sad, why bother, our life is too short, there are not a few springs and autumns, we have been chasing.