"If you don't run faster, you really won't be able to catch up with me." It was a teenager who spoke, about ten years old, his eyes were clear and bright, his voice was hearty, he pulled the girl's braid while talking, ran away with his schoolbag, ran out of a distance and turned around and grimaced. A victor's smile on his face.

The girl grabbed the braid on her head in pain, and said angrily in the direction where the boy ran: "Xu Zhuoyuan, you are like this again!" Wait a minute, you don't want to eat the ice cream I bought! ”

The boy was not annoyed when he heard this, turned his head and said with a smile: "Then I won't take you across the street tomorrow when I go to school." There was a smug in the words.

The girl was stunned and didn't know how to reply, so she had to speed up and run in the direction of the boy. Fang Ruo was eaten to death by him from the heart, Fang Ruo was more honest, not as naughty as Xu Zhuoyuan, every time she was bullied by him, she didn't know what to do, in front of Xu Zhuoyuan, she didn't seem to have the ability to resist, every time she was angry with him, her teeth itched, but when she turned around, Xu Zhuoyuan coaxed Fang Ruo to forgive him again, these two people will be the same as everyone else, every time. Childhood is the most carefree, and the world is so simple in the eyes of children,

Fang Ruo and Xu Zhuoyuan live very closely, they are front and back buildings and are on the same floor. The relationship between the two parents is very good, Fang Ruo's father and Xu Zhuoyuan's father work in the same unit, and Fang Ruo's mother and Xu Zhuoyuan's mother are junior high school classmates and friends for many years. Xu Zhuo is far older than Fang Ruo. In the first grade, Fang Ruo couldn't go to the first grade of primary school because she was too young to enter the school, but Fang Ruo's mother felt that it would be better for girls to go to school early, so she found the teacher of the admissions office to give gifts and accommodating, and the teacher saw that Fang Ruo was a girl who was also smart and well-behaved, so he made an exception to let her go to the first grade.

The two children are close to each other, although they are not in the same class, but they are in the same school and the same grade. In addition, there are several small intersections on the way to school, and the traffic at the traffic light intersection is very unsafe, and the two parents are very busy with work, so they let them go to school together every day, so they can take care of it.

Xu Zhuo is a little bigger, so he naturally has to take care of Fang Ruo a little more. This is in front of adults, but in fact, Fang Ruo helps take care of him more, and usually Xu Zhuoyuan is not less coquettish to Fang Ruo because of his playfulness, begging her to lie to her parents that they were left in the classroom by the teacher. Fang Ruo was also soft-hearted by what he said, and every time he explained the reason to his parents with great firmness, the parents knew that Fang Ruo was sensible and obedient, so they naturally believed it.

Every time, Fang Ruo said in his heart that next time he would tell his parents the truth and no longer cover him, but even if the truth came to his lips, he took it back. Xu Zhuoyuan was also sure that she would not leak secrets, and every time he asked Fang Ruo to cover up, Fang Ruo didn't want to be helpless by him. She didn't want to see Xu Zhuoyuan punished, so she could only come to help him lie every time.

When they were both in the lower grades, these two would wait for each other outside each other's classes and then go back together. As I grew older, my classmates began to pay attention to the distance between men and women. Once Fang Ruo was waiting for him outside Xu Zhuoyuan's class, and saw him talking and laughing with a few male classmates walking out, as if he was talking about the cards that boys love to collect at the moment.

After seeing Fang Ruo, a classmate suddenly mischievously said loudly: "Xu Zhuoyuan, look, I'm waiting for you to go home." After saying that, several boys laughed, and Xu Zhuoyuan was also blushed by what he said, angry and annoyed, and hurriedly began to explain. The boys laughed even louder. Fang Ruo saw them like this, his face turned red as soon as he brushed it, and then looked at Xu Zhuoyuan's anxious explanation and incoherent speech, and he was embarrassed for a while and wanted to run away.

In the world of children, they are most afraid of not fitting in, afraid that they are different from others, and that they will have no friends around them. It was a joke between children, but the two were afraid that people around them would laugh at them. Xu Zhuoyuan's personality is sunny and cheerful, and he likes to be lively when he calls friends.

He's smart, the kind of naughty kids who can't be smart. The teachers like smart children, and they turn a blind eye to him on weekdays, and he doesn't make any big mistakes, but sometimes he can't control his trick-or-treating hands. How can the boy who jumped out on weekdays be teased like this, Xu Zhuoyuan hurriedly explained a few words, and then hurriedly pulled Fang Ruo and ran out.

After leaving the school gate for a while, Fang Ruo really couldn't run, so he begged Xu Zhuoyuan to stop. Xu Zhuoyuan looked back at Fang Ruo, whose face was flushed and breathless, and he still had a lingering feeling on his face, but he couldn't bear it in his heart. He didn't know who he was angry with, when his classmates laughed at him, he only felt that everything was Fang Ruo's fault, but he also knew in his heart that it was nothing.

He didn't speak, but walked straight forward, but his pace slowed down, and when he came to the traffic light, he naturally stopped. Fang Ruo caught up, not having the crampedness after running wildly before, his breathing was much smoother.

Xu Zhuoyuan turned his head to look at her and then withdrew his gaze, he coughed lightly and said, "Grab my schoolbag, it's time to pass the traffic light." Fang Ruo grabbed the hem of his schoolbag with interest, lowered her head and smiled, she knew that Xu Zhuoyuan was no longer angry. Between them, no matter how earth-shattering the quarrel is, how many times they say it in anger and then being friends with each other is a pig's stupid thing, two people can always reconcile after arguing. Fang Ruo ignored him, but as long as Xu Zhuoyuan came to talk to her, she could start laughing and playing again.

The two of them are like this, although they are noisy, they still think about each other. The tacit understanding between them for many years is beyond the reach of others. But since then, Fang Ruo is no longer interested in waiting for him outside his class, but will wait for him in the alley around the corner of the school gate.

The friendship of the two children has not been affected by this, it is still as usual, Xu Zhuoyuan runs fast, and will dislike her for walking slowly, but every time he will stop at the traffic light intersection and wait for her to cross the road together, no matter what, he will never leave her, if there is a conflict between the two on the road one day, no one will look at anyone, but they will still cross the road together. Xu Zhuoyuan is indeed naughty and mischievous on weekdays, but in this matter, he has a sense of responsibility from the other party.

Xiang Zichen moved here when he was in the fourth grade, and that day Xu Zhuoyuan shouted loudly downstairs that Fang Ruo would take Monopoly down to play. As soon as Fang Ruo went downstairs, Xu Zhuoyuan pulled her to the secret base where they often played, which was actually a small flat next to the building. There was no one to live in, so they cleaned up inside and often called their friends in the neighborhood to play role-playing games such as running a house.

Fang Ruo walked and bumped into a person head-on, she looked up and saw that it was an unfamiliar face, different from Xu Zhuoyuan's clear and bright eyes, this boy had a pair of peach blossom eyes, and his smile was a little distracting. Fourth-grade Fang Ruo didn't know what words to use to describe his eyes, but he felt that those eyes were very unique. Xiang Zichen also looked at Fang Ruo, and Xu Zhuoyuan hurriedly introduced him to Fang Ruo. The boys played together on the topic of speculation, and the children could call each other friends after playing a few games together.

Xu Zhuoyuan was already very good at playing, but he didn't expect Xiang Zichen to be even better at playing, after he came, it was like opening the door to a new world, they saw the dust whisk in the hands of Taishang Laojun on TV, Xiang Zichen took them to the park near their home to pick the leaves of the palmetto tree to make the dust, and took it to pretend to learn from the gods to speak.

Later, cycling became popular, and several of them let their families buy one, and they rode bicycles around together, often playing with a gray layer, and they were not scolded less when they went home, but they were still happy. Fang Ruo liked to play with them, and she felt that she was really happy at that time.

Fang Ruo smiled, she saw that the three of them were still shuttling back and forth in the alley, and the three children were chasing after me. She looked at the young self and Xu Zhuoyuan, and wanted to reach out and touch them. They all disappeared before she got close, she opened her eyes in a trance, the smile on her face had not retreated, and gradually came back to her senses, she closed her eyes lightly, her face expressionless.

She liked this dream very much, and for a long time after separation, if she could dream back to the days when she and Xu Zhuoyuan were playing and laughing when she was a teenager, she would also feel extremely peaceful after waking up.

She hadn't seen him for a long time, she was afraid that she would forget him, time scared her, and she imagined countless times in her heart that he could come back, even if he said again that he wanted to let him go, as long as he said it, she would be able to drop everything and go away with him. She wasn't crazy, but she regretted not telling him that she wanted to. Why was I scared at that time, why couldn't I be braver and reach out and hold the hand he handed over.

One day a long time later, when she was taking a bath at home, she remembered Xu Zhuoyuan's eyes when she looked at her, and suddenly couldn't cry, she really regretted it, she was extremely disappointed in herself. Why was the damn self-esteem so domineering at that time that it took away all sanity.

It's not that you don't get it, but when you put it in front of you, you don't dare to reach out because of your hesitation and fear. Even if the longing mood is about to erupt in the next second, it is finally suppressed by the so-called reason. It's just a little bit, it's like a fish in the throat, and it's hard to let go.

It's not that she didn't try to forgive herself, and after a long time, she felt that she had let go of the past in her heart, and she swore that it was no big deal and that she could start a new life.

But every time she was in the favor of others, she only felt that she saw the gloom in Xu Zhuoyuan's eyes when they were separated, and the cold and hurt eyes made her afraid. When other people's hands tentatively placed on her hands, she felt that this was a great recklessness and abruptness. That's when she really realized that she had never forgiven herself and had never let him go.

The Buddha said: All the ways that exist are all causes and conditions, and when they arise, they are all about the end of the causes, and nothing else. Fang Ruo thought to himself, if they really didn't have fate, why bother torturing each other like this.

Fang Ruo picked up the mobile phone on the bedside table, the screen showed that the time was 7:45, today was the weekend, and she didn't have to go to work, but she was already sleepy. After a brief wash, she simply sat down at the desk, but her mind went back to before.