Chapter Forty-Nine: Much is Difficult to Reconcile
"I just came out of school, and I took professional classes in the studio during the summer vacation, and I just saw you and Xu Zhuoyuan passing by the school, do you live here now?"
Fang Ruo didn't want to say more to him, so he replied succinctly and clearly, "Hmm." ”
The answer was already obvious, he had followed him, and as for whether to explain to him in detail why he lived here, Fang Ruo felt that it was unnecessary.
Chen Zifan has been staring at Fang Ruo, her long hair is naturally scattered, which makes her goose egg face more delicate, the sunlight through the cracks in the trees makes her skin more delicate and smooth, and the white skirt also shows her pure temperament very well.
Don't say it's him, it's just that any young man who is just starting to fall in love will want to look at her twice.
He had never seen Fang Ruo put down his hair, and he had been alone in the past, thinking that she must be very gentle and beautiful with her hair draped. When he saw it today, he was so shocked that he was completely stunned.
Fang Ruo felt very helpless about his distraction at the moment, she didn't know what he was thinking, she didn't think that Chen Zifan would be attracted by his appearance at all, because Fang Ruo never thought that he was good-looking.
Every time Fang Ruo looked in the mirror, he saw a thin and light face in the mirror, which was completely different from the radiant and beautiful girl on TV. And wearing a wide and fat school uniform every day, with the same ponytail, she has always felt that she is the most ordinary and ordinary kind of girl.
And when she was at home, her mother would always say that her face was not thick and round enough, too thin and unblessed, and she really couldn't get along with the beauty embryo. And the elders around her didn't praise her vigorously when they saw her, but would politely say that she was delicate and generous, and that she was a quiet girl, but at the end they would add a sentence in a regretful tone, "It's just too thin."
Fang Ruo knew that the praise language spoken by the adults was all comforting words, and she couldn't count them, and gradually she felt that she was the kind of girl who was ordinary, and no one else would stay on her for a few more seconds when she walked on the street.
These thoughts grew stronger and stronger, so much so that when she heard her peers praise her for being thin and asked her how she lost weight and kept in shape, her first reaction was not pride, but shame and inferiority.
In her opinion, thinness doesn't seem to be a very good thing.
However, Xu Zhuoyuan's mother praised her for her good looks, but Fang Ruo felt that it was because of her aunt's special preference for herself, and she couldn't take it for granted.
Fang Ruo thought that Chen Zifan's distraction at the moment was thinking of stuffing something for her, thinking of this, she subconsciously took a few steps back, and the distance she had originally kept from him was even wider.
"Fang Ruo, are you so afraid of me?"
Chen Zifan looked at her with a wry smile.
Fang Ruo brushed away the hair that blocked his face, "You think too much, I'm not afraid of you, now I'm going home." ”
Fang Ruo looked at him with blinking, signaling that he could leave first.
Chen Zifan didn't mean to leave, he stood still, meaning to let Fang Ruo go first.
Fang Ruo saw that she was only a few steps away from her grandmother's house, and she didn't want Chen Zifan to see her enter the door, and she didn't want him to know where she lived, so as not to "bump into" him more in the future.
Chen Zifan saw that Fang Ruo still hadn't left, thinking that she was so compassionate that she wanted to stay with him for a while today, he smiled and said, "Are you also reluctant to leave?" ”
Fang Ruo almost didn't come to his senses, and stopped the urge to throw the watermelon juice in his hand at him and throw a sentence of "self-inflicted". She still responded with a cold face: "You really think too much, you go first, it's hot, don't look at me." ”
Chen Zifan only knew what Fang Ruo meant by chasing him now, and he felt a little sad in his heart, but after saying goodbye, he was still ready to turn around and leave.
He thought about it, Fang Ruo's family was around here anyway, no matter which building she lived in, she could meet her when she walked around here.
His eyes lingered around him, as if trying to remember the whole neighborhood so that he could come back to her next time.
Seeing Chen Zifan's figure disappear at the mouth of the alley, Fang Ruocai breathed a sigh of relief, and hurriedly ran home, and the moment he closed the iron door, he was very glad that he didn't let him know where he lived.
Summer vacation life has also passed with one summer rain after another, and school is starting in a blink of an eye, and the third year of high school is a year in full swing, and Fang Ruo feels a lot more pressure.
The teachers of each subject began round after round of "brainwashing", and the blackboard behind them wrote the expected university of every student in the class, and similarly, Fang Ruo wrote his long-cherished university - W University.
The university's Chinese department is ranked among the top Chinese majors in the country, and Fang Ruo hopes to continue her studies in the future, get knowledge from authoritative teachers, learn her favorite Chinese, and practice her writing skills.
Although this university is from another province, it is very close to the small city, and it is located in the capital city of the province. She didn't want to go far away, she just wanted to choose a school nearby, so this university was her favorite university, both in terms of major and distance, in her opinion, it was excellent.
When Fang Ruo chatted with Zheng Yuqian, she knew that she wanted to be a people's teacher in the future, and she wanted to be admitted to a normal college. However, Zheng Yuqian didn't have a very favorite university in her mind, she only said that she would see how well she did in the exam first, and then she would think about filling in the volunteers.
Although she didn't know what she said, Fang Ruo also knew what Zheng Yuqian meant, and her thoughts were explained to be nothing more than that wherever Xiang Zichen went to school, she would go to the normal college in which city, and now she didn't say which region she went to, but she was not sure where Xiang Zichen would go to study in the future.
After all, the moth fighting the fire is also because of deep love, but Fang Ruo thinks that Zheng Yuqian's deep love who can know? Xiang Zichen may think that he and Zheng Yuqian are very ordinary friends, and her future has nothing to do with him, anyway, he has never put her into the future vision, not before, and even more so after he has Lin Zhi by his side.
Fang Ruo would feel unhappy for Zheng Yuqian whenever she saw Xiang Zichen and Lin Zhi talking and laughing together, but she also knew in her heart that it was unreasonable to like this matter.
Xiang Zichen and Lin Zhi are together because they are attracted to each other, and Zheng Yuqian is even more distressing, because she is a sad unrequited love, but they are not wrong, and no one can blame anyone for clever words.
In the same way, she can't point to all this from God's point of view, Xiang Zichen is her good friend, and Zheng Yu Qianqian is the same, she really hopes that both of them can live well.
But when it was difficult to have such an idea, Fang Ruo felt that she could only silently retreat to an outsider and give Zheng Yuqian some kind reminders and advice, but in addition, she could not go beyond half a step.
Zheng Yuqian's face was a little sad, Fang Ruo put his arm around her shoulder and asked warmly, "What's wrong?" Sissi, is there anything you're unhappy about? Tell me about it, and I'll feel better. ”
"Fang Ruo, I don't know if I can say this, and I can't be sure, but I mind."
Fang Ruo paused, and then asked, "What's the matter, is it serious?" ”
"I heard that Lin Zhi seems to often ask Xiang Zichen to buy things for her, that is, he is used as an ATM."
Fang Ruo was taken aback, "Really? How do you know. ”
"My cousin lives in a community with Lin Zhi, my cousin said that Lin Zhi's family conditions are very bad, her mother ran away with others in the early years, and her father has been doing odd jobs to raise her all these years, and then Lin Zhi will always show off to her friends in the yard what new perfume and cosmetics Xiang Zichen bought her."
Zheng Yuqian also felt that her brain was in a mess, and she didn't know what to do, when these words accidentally came from her cousin's mouth to her ears, she almost didn't hold the glass in her hand at that time, and almost dropped it to the ground, this news was tantamount to a hard slap in the face for her.
"This is terrible, she was able to transfer to No. 1 Middle School because of Xiang Zichen's help, could this be her..." Fang Ruo didn't dare to say any more, she felt that it was not a very moral thing to speculate on other people's intentions like this, but Xiang Zichen was her friend, so she couldn't turn a deaf ear.
Zheng Yuqian let out a long sigh, "I hope she really likes him, not taking advantage of him, he is very sincere to her, and she shouldn't be hurt by this." ”
"Do you want to tell Xiang Zichen about this?" Fang Ruo felt that whether to say it or not to say it was a tricky and difficult hot potato.
Zheng Yuqian's expression was complicated, "I don't know, I don't know how to speak, I feel like he will be very disappointed." ”
Until now, Zheng Yuqian has taken care of Xiang Zichen's mood, and she is worried that he will feel uncomfortable when he finds out.
In fact, no one can know the clues of the matter better than the person concerned, Xiang Zichen has been with Lin Zhi for so long, and he also feels some weirdness in his heart, such as Lin Zhi never likes him to hold her hand, doesn't like him to kiss her, only if he gives her something she likes, Lin Zhi will kiss him on the forehead like a reward.
They can laugh and walk together, but they can't grind like a couple, Lin Zhi always says that this has a bad impact, and the two should keep some distance, otherwise the teacher will find out that they are in love.
Xiang Zichen thinks that Lin Zhi is his real first love, before that, although he has also gotten along with some girls, he feels that he has never really liked them in his heart, it seems to be just a curious mentality, he wants to know what it is like to fall in love, and wants to experience the sweetness of love early.
But Xiang Zichen knew in his heart that he didn't like it, but for Lin Zhi, he really liked her.
The first time he met her, she was running on the playground, that day she was wearing a very slim sportswear, running red and wiped sweat in front of the railing, he happened to pass by the playground, and saw her crimson cheeks, beautiful figure, and her inadvertently provocative smile when she left, so to speak, like being shot in the heart by Cupid, he fell in love with her at first sight.
Later, he tried to get her contact information, only to know that Lin Zhi was also the dream lover of many boys in the school, and it took him a lot of time to be with her as he wished.
But even though they are together, Lin Zhi's attitude doesn't seem to be salty, but Xiang Zichen is already enchanted, he doesn't care about these gains and losses, he just thinks that Lin Zhi can always be by his side.
When he tried to take her to No. 1 Middle School, he was scolded by his parents at home for a summer vacation, which made the family restless, and finally his parents gave in, how happy he was at that time. Buying her what she wants makes her happy, Xiang Zichen feels that this is the way it should be, as long as she is happy, anything can be done.
"As long as she's happy, anything goes"
This is Xiang Zichen's gentleness, and it is also the love that Zheng Yuqian has never experienced.