Chapter 43: Change
Acceptance, as if it was the only option she could make.
After staying at home for a few days, Fang Ruo sorted out all the things she had to take after a simple tidy-up, including the hand-woven doll that Xu Zhuoyuan had given her on the table.
She walked to Xu Zhuoyuan's house to say goodbye to him, but when she walked downstairs to his house, she felt a burst of uncomfortable emotions in her heart, and her legs became extremely heavy, as if there was a strange force that wrapped her tightly, making her breathless, and she only felt that she was going to suffocate.
"You're not kidding, what are you doing there?" Xu Zhuoyuan was so frightened that the water squirted out, and Fang Ruo was suddenly a little annoyed that he shouldn't have told him the news when he was drinking water.
"Yes, my parents asked me to stay with my grandmother."
"Why don't you take your grandma over, it's good to live in your house." Xu Zhuoyuan wiped his nose and mouth with paper, and the feeling of being choked on drinking water just now was really terrible.
"Well, I don't know about that." Fang Ruo didn't want to explain too much, to be exact, she didn't know where to start, the affairs of her family were too complicated, and she couldn't say a word.
"Can't you go away, I feel really bored if you're not here, I can't even go to school with you." Xu Zhuoyuan frowned and looked at her with an aggrieved face.
Fang Ruo only felt a sour nose, choked up and said, "I shouldn't stay for a long time, Dad said he would pick me up soon." ”
But after saying these comforting words, Fang Ruo didn't know how long she would have to wait for this day, maybe it was still far away, maybe it was too late, she couldn't know.
"Oh, I'm so sad." Xu Zhuoyuan drooped his face and rubbed his head irritably, feeling that his good mood had disappeared.
"It's okay, we're still in the same school, we can see each other often." Fang Ruo didn't know where she came up with so many comforting words, but she knew in her heart that these words were not only to appease Xu Zhuoyuan, but also to appease her own equally sad emotions.
"Okay, that's all, you can't forget me, you have to think about me often." Xu Zhuoyuan told her skinnyly, but he felt stunned in his heart.
"Okay, don't worry, I won't forget you."
Fang Ruo went to her grandmother's house like this, her father moved all her things in, Fang Ruo looked up at the courtyard at the door, and through the wall, she saw a thin loquat tree in the courtyard, with only a few leaves on the tree, which looked very lifeless.
Grandma opened the door, Fang Ruo smelled the heavy smell of sawdust on her body, a little pungent, she glanced around, there was no wood in the yard to deal with or place any wood products, Fang Ruo realized that this was the smell of the old man.
Grandma was very happy to see her coming, and after pulling Fang Ruo to ask for warmth for a while, she also said that she was going to the store to buy some good dishes to entertain her, Fang Ruo was flattered and said, "Grandma don't be polite, it's all a family", she really couldn't accept Grandma's sudden enthusiasm, it was really like an inexplicable fire, which caught her off guard and changed beyond recognition.
Grandma briskly cleaned up a room for her to live in, the room was small but clean, and she could barely live in it, but Fang Ruo found that there was no desk or bookcase in this room, which meant that she could no longer put her own books and materials like at home, and where to write homework was a problem.
Just as she was worried about how to solve this problem, Grandma brought a four-corner table from the utility room, the table was covered with dust, and the cobwebs were black, which should not have been used for many years.
Fang Ruo endured the musty smell and washed the table up and down, and then put it in the yard to dry, no matter what, the washed table can still be used, although it is still much inferior to the big desk chapter at home before, but there is still a place to study, and she is content.
Although her grandmother was very enthusiastic about her at first, there was a saying that the first day was a guest, the second day was still a guest, and the third day was not a guest. As the days went by, my grandmother got used to her staying at home, and she was much more casual with her, but fortunately, she herself was sensible and obedient, and there was nothing she could criticize.
Living at grandma's house, Fang Ruo's most intuitive feeling is that the food has deteriorated, although her father gave her more food money to grandma, grandma is still reluctant to buy delicious food, she always buys some cheap dishes left over from the vegetable stall, and she is as happy as picking up a treasure, and she buys a little bit of meat every time, Fang Ruo feels that it is a small amount of food that one person eats, and even the fruit is never bought, grandma thinks that if you don't eat it, you won't die, and there is no need to spend that unjust money.
Fang Ruo also persuaded her, but the old man's thoughts are always very stubborn, fortunately, her father promised to give her more pocket money, and she also had some more free change every month, and occasionally went to buy some fruit to eat, or when she was hungry, she would buy some snacks to fill her stomach.
When she went to school, she stayed in school most of the time, and when she came home from evening self-study, her grandmother had already fallen asleep, and when she got up in the morning to go to school, her grandmother had not woken up, and at first she came back every day to have dinner, and then she also felt that it was really troublesome to go back and forth so repeatedly, and the food at home was not as good as the food in the cafeteria, so she simply ate three meals a day in school, and felt that it was much more convenient.
Zheng Yuqian was also very surprised when she knew that she had moved in with her grandmother, but she didn't ask too much, after all, Fang Ruo hadn't revealed much about her family affairs on weekdays, and she only wanted Fang Ruo to stay for a while.
Life goes by like this, living with grandma is inevitably running in with each other, grandma also has some not very good habits, such as Fang Ruo was really startled when she saw grandma preparing to wash her hair with laundry detergent for the first time, and quickly stopped the laundry detergent bag in her hand and handed her her her usual shampoo.
Fang Ruo didn't expect that grandma didn't take care of these things, and she couldn't help but feel sorry for her in her heart, grandma has lived alone for many years, and she can save many things, and she is not so particular.
Sometimes when grandma sat at the gate of the courtyard and chatted with the neighbors, Fang Ruo, who was passing by, heard grandma praising her, and grandma smiled with the neighbors and said that she was sensible and had good academic performance, and she was a very good girl who was well-behaved and sensible.
Fang Ruo only felt a shock in her heart after hearing this, she didn't expect her grandmother to recognize her like this in her heart, although grandma was not kind to herself and her mother before, but Fang Ruo felt that the past should let it pass, don't let it affect the future, after all, she now feels that grandma is getting better and better.
Thinking about it like this, Fang Ruo subconsciously treated her grandmother a lot better, she actually found out that her grandmother was just a little more powerful in her mouth, but in fact, she was not bad in her heart, and sometimes she liked to play tricks like an old naughty boy.
After all, he is also an old man, and many things are also underestimated, in the words of my grandmother, "I am already a person who has half of my body in the ground, what else can I not see?" ”
This sounds a little sad, but it is also appropriately described, Fang Ruo's sad mood of leaving home seems to have faded, and he should accompany his grandmother through her twilight old life, and being able to accompany him for a day is also a kind of fulfillment for himself.
After living here, Fang Ruo saw that Xu Zhuoyuan's number of times was getting less and less, at the beginning, Xu Zhuoyuan always ran to their class to find her whenever he had time, but later he was getting busy with his studies, and he couldn't spare time, and the number of times he came to her was much less.
Fang Ruo would also feel uncomfortable when she thought of these things in her spare time, but whenever Xu Zhuoyuan's handsome appearance appeared in her mind, and remembered what he said about the willful and scoundrel, Fang Ruo felt warm in her heart, and blamed herself for thinking too much, after all, they both cherished each other very much, how could they alienate each other because of this distance.
Fang Ruo was so confidently determined, as if everything really could go as she wanted.
When was this idea broken, it seems to have started from Zheng Yuqian's gossip.
"Really, the last time I saw the two of them enter the school together, it may be a coincidence, but the two of them are talking and laughing, I thought you know, that girl's name is Shu Han, and she is in the same class as Xu Zhuoyuan."
Fang Ruo suddenly laughed dumbly, she didn't know what was going on, when did Xu Zhuoyuan have someone else? Or someone she didn't know, Shu Han, the name was so unfamiliar.
After finishing a class in a hurry, as soon as the bell rang after class, she put down her book and hurriedly ran to the door of Xu Zhuoyuan's classroom, she didn't know what she wanted to ask, asked about Shu Han, or asked what the relationship between them was, Fang Ruo was confused, and just wanted to see him immediately.
"Fang Ruo, you're coming to me, I was just about to go to the office, and it just so happened that you came." Xu Zhuoyuan was still very surprised to see her outside his classroom.
"Did you come to me for something?" However, Xu Zhuoyuan was still a little curious, because Fang Ruo had never taken the initiative to come upstairs to look for him.
"No..., it's fine." Fang Ruo didn't know what to say for a while, and the countless questions in his heart all came to naught the moment he saw him.
Xu Zhuoyuan is still the same as before, why do he think so much, Fang Ruo is a little annoyed by his sentimentality.
The two were talking, and a voice interjected, "Xu Zhuoyuan, the teacher is waiting for you, why don't you go to the office first?" ”
Fang Ruo looked at the girl in front of her, she was a little taller than herself, she also looked like she had clear eyebrows, she had tied a refreshing ball head, the pink bow hairpin was still stuck in her hair, she looked very playful, Fang Ruo found that there was a small mole at the end of the lower eye on her face, her eyes narrowed when she smiled, her eyes were like silk, and she also showed a little coquettishness.
Seeing that Fang Ruo was looking at herself, Shu Han also looked at her with a polite smile.
"Shu Han, you can help me talk to the teacher, I'll go later."
"Okay, remember to treat me to a drink next time."
"No problem." Xu Zhuoyuan nodded and smiled at her, and Shu Han also left satisfied.
Fang Ruo watched them talk so familiarly, only to feel a sudden tumbling in his stomach, and then he also felt some bitterness in his mouth, and his heart was really unspeakably uncomfortable.
"I'll go first, you go to the office." Fang Ruo didn't want to stay here anymore, she just wanted to run away and hide, it was best to wrap herself in a group, so that she wouldn't be hurt in the slightest.