If grief is too painful, then it is better to let yourself be wrapped in a stubborn shell and be silent in the darkness forever, even if the weight is stagnant, rather than struggle forward.

In the third year of junior high school, with the blue school uniform that has been washed and whitened many times, accompanied by the exercises that have not been thoroughly understood in the hand, and with the growth of teenagers, this year is an extremely important year for all high school entrance examination graduates, and it is a turning point on the road of life that should not be underestimated.

Fang Ruo put down the math problem in her hand and felt a deep sense of frustration, in the past few months of entering the third year of junior high school, her usually mediocre math results not only failed to maintain the status quo, but also showed signs of rapid decline.

The high school entrance examination is imminent, mathematics as a key subject in the primary three subjects, has always been a problem for her, her English language scores are among the best, but still can not solve the dilemma of being held back by mathematics.

Looking at the rankings that had recently been stagnant due to the regression of math scores, she calmed down and decided to make up for math, and she began to study complex math problems as hard as she could, silently writing boring math formulas over and over again, constantly summarizing mistakes and learning lessons.

There is a math god close by, she doesn't want to destroy the heavens, and often humbly asks Xu Zhuoyuan for questions, although Xu Zhuoyuan always mocks coldly, disgusted her for being stupid and slow to react, but he teaches it for fear that the explanation is not detailed enough.

The two of them quarreled over the topic, Xu Zhuoyuan was more impatient but quick-thinking, but Fang Ruo was not in a hurry or slow, and there was no point when writing the question, Xu Zhuoyuan's front foot had just prompted the information, and she forgot it on the back foot.

Xu Zhuoyuan's eyes were full of stars, Fang Ruo felt that he was urging too tightly, the two of them were arguing endlessly, and no one wanted to deal with anyone anymore, and after a while, the two of them seemed to have nothing happening, and they were as amiable as a mother.

Fortunately, the hard work paid off, Fang Ruo's math scores improved somewhat under Xu Zhuoyuan, in the first city-wide mock exam, her math did not lag behind, but was a few points higher than the highest score she had ever taken, which really made her feel very comforted, and finally the total score also entered the top three in the class, and was shortlisted in the top 20 of the grade.

At the grade meeting, Fang Ruo followed a group of students who excelled in the exam to the rostrum to receive the award, the bright red certificate in his hand, a thin piece of paper, but he felt that the weight was heavy, there was nothing more satisfying than winning the honor, especially by his own efforts.

Xu Zhuoyuan is still the first place in the grade, he is the one who gets the certificate and gets the soft hand, the team position is sorted by ranking, he is standing at the top of the team, and he is the first to receive the award. When he received the award, he stood up straight, bowed politely and received the award from the head of the grade, who nodded at him approvingly and patted him on the shoulder appreciatively.

The head of the grade is a stern and old-fashioned little old man, who is known for his sharp and strict discipline on weekdays, "Lord Yama", he has a big temper, but he is excellent in teaching, and his temperament is a little eccentric, when he loses his temper, the self-righteous ruffians in the class dare not be demons, and he does not smile, and rarely praises students, but every time he sees Xu Zhuoyuan, he will smile approvingly and nod at him to show appreciation.

Fang Ruo stood on the far right of the team, every time the students who came on stage to receive the award won the top 20 in the grade, and she happened to be the twentieth this time, which was the best result she had ever taken since junior high school, and it was also the first time she took the stage to receive the award.

She stood on the rostrum and looked at the crowd under the stage, her eyes were in the middle, she seemed to see the envy and expectation in the eyes of the people on the stage who had stood under the stage, and now she was finally able to get her wish.

She finally came a little closer to him, at least this time, on the same line, although they stood at the left and right ends of the line, and there were eighteen people in between, but she only felt that her heart was already tightly leaning on his side, but she would work harder, stand closer to him, so that he could see her with only his peripheral vision, so that they could feel good together.

Of course, Fang Ruo also knew in her heart that Xu Zhuoyuan's help was indispensable for the significant improvement in mathematics this time, she wanted to thank him well, Xu Zhuoyuan smiled heartily when he knew it, and only asked Fang Ruo to treat him to a simple snack, so the two of them ran to the snack bar near their home to eat.

This shop is a place they frequent, the owner and the proprietress are cheerful and neat, with a good temperament and personality, always greeting customers kindly, there are many snack bars in this area, but only this business is the best every day.

The store is not large, with only a few tables and chairs, but the smoke is full, there are dusty fans hanging on the walls, the TV plays movies from the movie channel all year round, the desktop with stubborn oil stains over time is still polished by the proprietress with a sense of ceremony, the dishes and hot sauce are placed with a sense of ceremony, the walls are also delicately embroidered, and the floor under the table is also cleaned.

Fang Ruo likes this kind of market fireworks, and also likes this kind of exquisite sense of life.

The proprietress saw that the two of them were coming, and said with a smile: "It's coming, I haven't been here for a long time, let's be the same as before." ”

Fang Ruo and Xu Zhuoyuan nodded with a smile, the proprietress turned around and got busy, they have been busy with their studies recently, and they haven't been here for a while, but the proprietress is still familiar with their preferences.

The two of them laughed and chatted, while blowing the electric fan and biting the fried crispy snacks in their hands, the slippery cold powder melted in the mouth, accompanied by the fragrance of honey, refreshing and pleasant, Xu Zhuoyuan took a piece of fried meat in a bowl and handed it to Fang Ruo, Fang Ruo looked up and saw Xu Zhuoyuan's blushing face, she couldn't help but nod and smile.

"This one is delicious, here you go." Xu Zhuoyuan coughed twice a little uncomfortably.

"Thank you, I love it." Fang Ruo was satisfied and picked up the bowl and took the piece of fried meat.

Xu Zhuoyuan took the opportunity to put a few more noodles in Fang Ruo's bowl, "I'll try yours, my noodles are a little tasteless." He said with a comfortable face.

The two of them looked at each other and smiled, and their hearts were rippling with a slight warmth, as if they were being blown by the gentle sea breeze, which made people feel itchy in their hearts, and as if they heard the crisp sound of ripe melons in summer, and then felt that the air was sweet and sweet.

The first semester of the third year of junior high school passed in the blink of an eye with the busyness and tension, and Fang Ruo did not slack off in the days of winter vacation, and he still did not dare to relax in his studies.

There is a saying that you can't appreciate the splendor of looking down on the front without climbing to a high place, and those who stand on a high place and see the beautiful scenery no longer want to go back to the ordinary low place.

How can a man who stretches out his hand to pluck the stars be willing to lose the night full of emptiness? If you want to keep it, you have to work hard, and if you want not to regress, you have to keep improving, Fang Ruo knows this.

Fang Ruo inevitably has to weigh housework and study at home, fortunately, his younger brother is getting a little older, and he can already roll around on the ground when he is more than two years old, sometimes he will come over to pull her braids and tear her textbooks when Fang Ruo is doing his homework, and sometimes he will shout for Fang Ruo to sing and dance with him, children are curious, they want to touch everything, and they want to put it in their mouths when they touch something, Fang Ruo has been hanging on his throat when he takes care of him, and he is frightened, and every time he will only be quiet when he is tired of playing and falling asleep, So that she can start to concentrate on her studies.

"Ruoruo, help mom turn over the oil in the pot." Fang Ruo's mother held her younger brother who was still playing on the ground, turned around and walked towards the bedroom.

Fang Ruo put down the homework in his hand and turned the lard in his hand with a spatula, they like to use lard to fry vegetables at home, so they often buy fresh fatty meat and come back to fry oil, which is cleaner and more hygienic, and it is more comfortable to eat.

Fang Ruo stirred the lard in his hand, and the pot looked as calm as a pool of stagnant water, only the sound of hissing oil simmering.

She flipped at will, still thinking about the topic just now, and suddenly felt a hot hand, and suddenly danced in the calm pot, and the hot oil poured on her hand as if it was provoked, and the skin on her hand immediately became red and swollen, spreading like a fire, and suddenly the sharp pain made her tremble, she exclaimed "ah", tears gushed out uncontrollably, and the back of her right hand only felt that it was burning like fire.

When my mother heard the sound, she ran out and saw Fang Ruo's red and swollen right hand after being burned by oil, and her face felt distressed and angry, "Hurry up and take water to flush it, you can't do this thing well, what can you expect to do!" ”

She has been complaining about Fang Ruo's carelessness, Fang Ruo lowered her head and wept aggrievedly while listening, after she rinsed with cold water for a while, her hands were still like a red, swollen and wrinkled pig's trotters, the oil just now was splashed on her hands, not splashed on her hands, so her right hand except for her thumb survived, and the backs of the other four fingers were all burned.

Fang Ruo endured the pain and returned to the room, she just wanted to have a moment of peace, her mother's complaining voice still sounded outside the room, and after listening to it, it would only make her cry and sad all the time, she tried her best to restrain her emotions, sadness, sadness is useless, no one will pity her, although she died and lived in pain, they still felt light.

She had long since curled herself up, and when she had not been taken seriously many times, when she had longed for love but was ignored, when she had been blamed involuntarily, she closed her eyes with compassion, her heart was like stagnant water, and her tears were like meteors across her face, dripping into the haggard and endless darkness.

Fang Ruo's mother only ignored her as a minor problem, Fang Ruo went to the pharmacy in the afternoon to buy a scald cream, and after applying it, she still felt sharp pain.

In the middle of the night, the burning pain eroded her, the back of her spicy hand seemed to be pricked by countless silver needles, her body couldn't stop trembling, she closed her eyes and gritted her teeth and kept hoping that the pain would pass quickly, her left hand grabbed the corner of the quilt, the quilt was twisted into a mess, and her whole body was dripping with cold sweat, she couldn't sleep all night, and her tears were dry.