"Teacher Chen, that, I," Fang Ting didn't know what she was talking about, and she didn't know what she should say.

Chen Qiaoan propped her hands on the dressing table, lowered her head, as if she was very depressed and sad, not at all like she was angry because she was angry, so what happened to her?

After a while, Chen Qiaoan raised his head, brushed the little broken hair in front of his forehead, and smiled embarrassedly at Fang Ting, "I'm sorry, I was a little emotional just now, and I scared you?" "It's like laughing at myself.

Seriously, she doesn't know what's wrong with her, obviously she can't be angry, why is she so angry, is it because she is too tired today, or because Qian Yuanyuan is really annoyed.

Actually, neither.

Maybe Chen Qiaoan didn't realize it himself, because of Qian Yuanyuan's words, those four words.

Love but can't.

Chen Qiao'an, has always been, love but can't.

That's why she became angry inexplicably, leaving no room at all, and making such a fuss, it is estimated that it is another inexplicable gossip.

"Ah, it's okay, it's okay," Fang Ting waved her hand again and again, and said repeatedly.

Chen Qiaoan looked at Fang Ting like this, she was really cute, and laughed unconsciously, "Can you give me a glass of water?" ”

"What?" Fang Ting was afraid that she still hadn't had time to slow down, she was a little stupid, and then she immediately came back to her senses and said, "I'll pour it for you right away," and then turned around and opened the door and went out.

Not long after Fang Ting went out, the mobile phone on the side vibrated again, and Chen Qiaoan raised his eyes to see that it was still alone.

It's just Chen Qiao'an's hair small, the same kindergarten, the same elementary school, the same junior high school, different high schools, different universities, the relationship is very iron, she is an out-and-out plaything and a rich second generation, fortunately, her family has a thick background, so don't worry too much about her life will be uncomfortable because of her plaything.

The phone keeps vibrating.

Chen Qiaoan was helpless, but she still picked up the phone, she understood that she was a very lazy person, and her daily communication depended on eye understanding. But whenever she makes a phone call, she must have encountered something new and very important to tell her, for example, where a new shop has opened, where a new dish has been created, or a barber shop that she frequents, a stylist or something that makes people a little speechless.

"I'm at work, I'm very busy, just two minutes," Chen Qiaoan really wasn't in the mood now, to listen to her talk about some things.

"OK, I'll just say a word," this time alone is also unusually calm, usually at this time, she always has to say a lot of nonsense, such as "Chen Qiaoan, you don't love me anymore, you know work every day" and "work is important or I am important" boyfriend-style "condolences", today made Chen Qiaoan a little surprised.

However, her next sentence made Chen Qiaoan very surprised, and not only surprised, but also frightened, Chen Qiaoan heard her whisper on the other end of the conversation, "Cheng Nan is next to me,"

Chen Qiaoan also heard the noisy sounds and music around him, which should be in KTV.

Even though she spoke in a very low voice and the surrounding sounds were very noisy, Chen Qiaoan still heard it clearly, heard the name, and it was clear.

Cheng Nan.

The reason why it is said to be an accident and fright is because at that moment, Chen Qiaoan obviously felt that his heart was skipping a beat, he felt that his heart was hollowed out, and a lot of cold sweat broke out on his hands at once, and all the sounds around him seemed to be still in the next second.

Is it because of nervousness? Or is it because of nervousness?

Chen Qiaoan didn't know, Chen Qiaoan only knew that her hand shook, the mobile phone fell to the ground in response, and because of the nervousness of not knowing what to do, she knocked over many bottles and cans on the table, and some slipped and fell to the ground.

Xiao Fang, the assistant here, poured water and came back, seeing this scene, he thought that something had happened to Chen Qiaoan again, and almost blurted out, "Teacher Chen, what happened?" ”

Chen Qiaoan's heart beat was pulled back by Fang Ting, who suddenly broke in, and returned to normal, "I'm sorry, it's my problem," Chen Qiaoan reacted subconsciously, and then squatted down to pick up the things that fell on the ground.

But the palms of my hands still couldn't stop sweating, and I even felt the panic of my whole body, such panic, which came quickly and inexplicably.

Because of the cold sweat that came out of the finger prints, they were printed on the surface of things, which looked particularly clear and out of place.

"What's the matter, Joan, what's going on with you," and on the other end of the phone, a single voice came indistinctly from the phone conversation that had fallen to the ground.

However, Chen Qiaoan had no intention of paying attention to it.

"Teacher Chen, I'll clean it up," Fang Ting ran forward, also squatted down, wanting to help Chen Qiaoan, and glanced at Chen Qiaoan by the way, the box that had been spilled was still in her hand, maintaining the posture she had when she came in, half-squatting, standing in place, the panic in her eyes was self-evident, but Fang Ting was inexplicably sure that it was definitely not because of this mistake of knocking over something, so what could it be?

The twenty-seven-year-old young girl she called "Teacher Chen" was the girl who was called "Teacher" by everyone. She is only twenty-seven years old, and it has only been two to three years since she graduated from college and started working, but she always has a maturity and aura that is different from that of her peers.

As soon as Fang Ting came in, there were three makeup artists who were in charge as assistants, among which Chen Qiaoan was undoubtedly the one she admired the most, from appearance, temperament, from professionalism, to character, she was always recognizable and convincing, she was always exquisite, proud, calm, and standing there was so beautiful.

When Chen Qiaoan laughs, he seems to be able to see stars in his eyes, and when he doesn't smile, he has a unique sense of melancholy and is very sad.

As long as Chen Qiaoan stands there, as long as he appears in front of people, he is elegant and proud, and many insiders joke that there is a feeling that Chen Qiaoan gives people a feeling, or depressed, or sweet, or sad, or joyful, or special, or ordinary, as long as her eyes go, you will be inexplicably attracted together.

Chen Qiao'an, she rarely loses her temper, and rarely panics.

Such a panic, such a loss, Chen Qiaoan is the first time, at least the first time that Fang Ting knows.

She saw the phone that fell on the ground, was it because of that phone?

Chen Qiaoan should have noticed the probing eyes of someone looking at him, worked hard to return to his normal state, looked up and gave Fang Ting a look that was OK, then put down his things and stood up, letting Fang Ting clean up alone.

It was quiet all of a sudden, and on the other side, the single voice on the other end of the phone was still intermittent, and it reached Chen Qiaoan's ears vaguely.

Chen Qiaoan leaned on the corner of the dressing table, propped up one hand behind him, looked at the mobile phone on the ground, looked at himself in the mirror, and then continued to stare at the screen of the call interface on the mobile phone on the ground.

She said Cheng Nan, right?

She mentioned Cheng Nan just now, didn't she?

She said Cheng Nan is now next to her, really?

He won't lie to her, but sometimes he will tease her, but no matter what, he won't use Cheng Nan to coax her, because no one else understands better than Shan Shan that Cheng Nan and the name Cheng Nan have brought to Chen Qiao'an, as well as the sadness that can't be loved.

"Chen Qiaoan, one day, you will experience what it means to be true love and fall to the bottom!"

Qian Yuanyuan's words are still ringing in her ears, ringing again and again.

Perhaps, this is retribution.

Perhaps, this is the shortcoming.

Chen Qiaoan suddenly pulled the corners of his mouth and laughed softly, but it was more self-deprecating.

Chen Qiaoan, you can't love it, Chen Qiaoan, you are all betrayed and separated, Chen Qiaoan, you are just a poor person, no one wants a poor worm that no one loves.

Scold! Chen Qiaoan, just a name, makes you panic, you are really useless, full of garbage, I can't complain that others say that you are cheap.

- Whose shadow is reflected in your eyes under the glass?

- It's the guy named Cheng Nan.

Chen Qiao calmed down, walked a few steps, bent down and picked up the mobile phone on the ground, put it to his ear, and said calmly, "I have something, hang up first," and then hung up the phone, a series of actions, still neat.

Chen Qiaoan's hand holding the mobile phone tightly was full of sweat, exposing Chen Qiaoan's inner unrest.

Fang Ting, who returned to this dressing room again, could obviously feel that Chen Qiaoan's whole body was trembling, and her lips were pale.

Fang Ting picked up everything on the ground, put it on the dressing table, and asked tentatively, "Teacher Chen, are you okay?" ”

Seeing that Chen Qiaoan didn't speak, Fang Ting shouted again and repeated several times, "Teacher Chen? ”

"Huh? What did you say? Chen Qiaoan finally had a normal reaction, glanced at Xiao Fang, and said.

After saying that, he found a chair and sat down, supporting his forehead with both hands, looking very tired and depressed, as if he had suddenly lost his strength.

"I said Teacher Chen, are you okay," Fang Ting said worriedly.

"Oh, I'm fine, I'm fine," Chen Qiaoan pulled out a hand and shook it, indicating that he was fine.

"Do you want to take a break," Fang Ting said she was really worried about her current state, and put aside the glass of water that had just been poured. Fang Ting simply thought that it was because of Qian Yuanyuan's malicious provocation just now that Chen Qiaoan was so out of shape, and she didn't know how to comfort Chen Qiaoan, after all, she was just a bystander, or a bystander who didn't know the reason, and it was better not to gossip too much.

"Oh, no, thank you,"

Chen Qiao calmly picked up the water cup and began to drink water, she drank very violently.

She suddenly felt so thirsty that she couldn't speak, as if drinking water could give her a momentary peace.

Because she drank too hard, she choked a little, coughed a few times again and again, Fang Ting hurriedly handed over a few tissues, and in a moment, she saw tears slipping through the corners of Chen Qiaoan's eyes, such tears came inexplicably, excusable, not like coughing up after being choked by water, but it was very similar to the tears that were coughed up simply because of being choked by water.

Chen Qiaoan took the tissue, wiped his mouth and water-soaked clothes, and inadvertently glanced at himself in the mirror, looking in a hurry, it was really bad.

Because there is no makeup, it may also be because I am busy all day today, my lips are pale, my face is not very good, my dark circles are very heavy, and my eyes are empty, if these can be interpreted as not sleeping well last night, then Chen Qiaoan, please look at the glass in front of you, take a closer look, take a good look, whose shadow is reflected in your eyes?

It's the guy named Cheng Nan.

It's Cheng Nan, it's him, it must be him.

Chen Qiaoan, admit it, you can't forget him, you love him, just like you were in the past, but you still love him.

After confirming this idea in his heart, Chen Qiaoan suddenly stood up and began to sort out his things in a hurry, and said to Fang Ting beside him while tidying up, "I have something to leave for a night, talk to the person in charge, I'm sorry for you, if there is any problem, I will bear it,"

Fang Ting was at a loss, "Now? ”

It's working time now, and it's the time to prepare for the day after tomorrow, and I'm going to attend the awards ceremony soon, so I'm leaving, won't it be good, and I'll be too willful, "Is there something going on at home?" Fang Ting circled around Chen Qiaoan in the same place, watching Chen Qiaoan sort out things, back and forth.

However, Chen Qiaoan didn't want to say more words at all, after tidying up, Chen Qiaoan picked up his bag and mobile phone and planned to walk to the door, halfway through he seemed to remember something, and said to Fang Ting behind him, "Oh, by the way, help me apologize to that Qian Yuanyuan, it's my gaffe, I'm sorry, I will compensate her for the skirt she soiled." ”

Chen Qiaoan remembered that he had just made a gaffe, it was indeed very undeserved, it was his own problem.

After all, this line of work is a relationship network, no one knows who is standing behind you, and they don't know who will be standing behind you, so it's better not to make too much trouble for yourself.

However, Fang Ting was still at a loss, so the important thing now was to apologize to Qian Yuanyuan? Why?! If it were me, someone would rob my man and show off in front of me, not to mention throwing a bottle of drink on her and slapping it directly, and apologizing?!

Fang Ting really couldn't figure out what was going on in Chen Qiao'an's mind, looking at Chen Qiao'an's back as she walked farther and farther, she still chased after her.

"Teacher Chen!" However, it was too late, Chen Qiaoan had already left by elevator, and he was in a hurry.

Another staff member saw Fang Ting chasing after the elevator alone, and curiously stepped forward to inquire about the gossip news, "What's wrong, I heard that something happened to you, what happened, wasn't it Chen Qiaoan who went in just now?" Where did she go in such a hurry? "A series of a lot of questions, a standard gossip face.

After all, Chen Qiaoan is not only an ordinary makeup artist, but also a person who has opened an art exhibition, an occasional part-time model, a person who shoots magazine covers, a person who appears on variety shows, a person with a wide social circle, and people who are interested in her private life are no less than those popular artists and stars, and there are a lot of suitors, and everyone tacitly knows that Chen Qiaoan's background is that they all know that Chen Qiaoan's family is very rich, more than a little rich.

Chen Qiaoan's grandparents are Kochi, a typical Shanghai boy and boudoir lady in that era, and it is considered a military and political family, and his mother is a famous investor, and he has an uncle, who is only known to be in the Nanjing Military Region, in contrast, Chen Qiaoan's father can only be said to be a businessman.

Of course, these are all dug up after Chen Qiaoan's popularity has increased and he has received more and more attention on the Internet, and his credibility has yet to be confirmed.

However, from Chen Qiaoan's usual clothing, housing, transportation, food and clothing, conversation and behavior, as well as the clues in the Weibo of the circle of friends, as well as her willful and reckless measures in this industry along the way, in addition to the persuasive sense brought by her own professional ability, it can be basically judged that the rumors on the Internet are inseparable.

What is strange and puzzling is that such a young girl from a rich family actually came to serve others as a makeup artist, as if she deliberately wanted to separate herself from her family and the past, and as long as she had a break from work, it was like the world had disappeared, she didn't answer the phone or reply to text messages, and she didn't know what she was trying to do.

"It's nothing, go ahead of your business," Fang Ting saw his gossip face, and was a little depressed.

It's really, a big man, what do you do with other people's affairs, and he is not tired of panicking, he knows all day long to find out the news, and then he is blind like a long-tongued woman.

Fang Ting didn't want to pay attention to him at all.

Leave by yourself, pick up your mobile phone, and quickly call the person in charge to deal with the "aftermath".

"Strange, really strange." The man was still thinking about it.

Although Chen Qiaoan has high requirements for his personal time, he is famous for his strict respect for his work, and he is also known for being ruthless to himself, this situation is really strange, and in addition, today is an important occasion.

When Chen Qiaoan came out of the building, he called a car, and the destination was the high-speed rail station, and on the way to the high-speed rail station, Chen Qiaoan bought a high-speed rail ticket to the nearest high-speed rail in H city online.

Chen Qiaoan's hand sliding the screen of the mobile phone is still trembling, there is still a lot of sweat in the palm, the contact is not good after sliding several times, the fingerprint is not working, and the lock cannot be unlocked.

I don't know if you've ever felt like this, it's like the state of a person who is not good at sports before running 800 meters, and the state of a person who is not good at English before entering the examination room at level 4 or 6.

What kind of state is this, Chen Qiaoan can't describe it, in short, inexplicably, it makes Chen Qiaoan very irritable.

She realized that she had really sent her a lot of messages and made a lot of phone calls, starting half an hour ago.

"Chen Qiaoan, guess where I am now,"

"Joan Chen, guess who I saw,"

"It's really Cheng Nan, Qiao An, I'm sure it's him,"

"Didn't he go back to his hometown to settle down, why did he still appear in H City, it seems that there are quite a lot of people, it should be a gathering of friends,"

"Joan, why don't you ignore me,"

"It's true, I didn't lie to you."

......

The last thing that was sent was a WeChat location message, which was still displayed on the mobile phone screen, but Chen Qiaoan didn't dare to click on it.

Just sent a message saying, "I sent you the location, it's up to you whether you come or not, 1208." ”

It's up to you whether you come or don't, as long as you want, no matter what happens, I will help you and stand by your side unconditionally.

This is just a sentence that is often said to Chen Qiaoan, it will make Chen Qiaoan feel the warmth of dependence, Chen Qiaoan knows that no matter what happens, she will understand her, recognize her, and accompany her.

This is also what Cheng Nan often says to Chen Qiaoan, it's all up to you, just be happy.

But it made Chen Qiaoan feel very disgusted, it made Chen Qiaoan feel scared, afraid of losing, not the warmth of being relied on, because Chen Qiaoan was afraid that as long as something happened, he would leave, would ignore her, and would leave her, so she never dared to really be happy, so later, they were very tired of each other, and some people couldn't help but let go first.

No one knows how much Chen Qiaoan cares about Cheng Nan, how much he cares about even a little bit of his mood swings, after all, Chen Qiaoan has been chasing Cheng Nan for many years, so after they were together, Chen Qiaoan admitted that he had a lot of instability and fear.

Many times, Chen Qiaoan doesn't know how to get along with Cheng Nan, many times, Chen Qiaoan doesn't know what to say and do, and many times, Chen Qiaoan doesn't know if Cheng Nan's unhappiness is because of himself, and he doesn't know if his unhappiness is because of himself.

Such "many times" lasted for many years, and she had no sense of security, and obviously, Cheng Nan did not give her enough security.

How did they break up, Chen Qiaoan forgot.

Seems like on a night? Like a transition from winter to spring? Seems to be at a major intersection? It seems that no one will say anything about the breakup between the two people? So what happened to them? Became the current taboo who has made the other party's name his own?

But Chen Qiaoan remembers what they looked like when they were together, when she was a sophomore and his junior year.

How far away was that time?

At that time, he asked her, do you still like me? If you like it, let's be together.

At that time, she didn't think about it, she kept nodding her head and saying yes, tears in her eyes, but she was happy and happy.

At that time, Chen Qiao'an was just right, and Cheng Nan was full of vitality at that time, so what about now?

Cheng Nan, what have you become now?

When you left ruthlessly, you said that you are tired of living like this, tired of yourself who has achieved nothing, tired of not seeing the future of tomorrow, tired of staying by my side, and tired of Cheng Nan who is Chen Qiaoan's boyfriend.

So, what have you become now?

Have you seen the future, have you achieved your dreams, and have you lived the life you want? Do you have someone else around? Did you become someone else's boyfriend?

At this moment, nothing else flashed in Chen Qiaoan's mind, only Qian Yuanyuan's sentence, one day, you will know what it is like to be in love.

Chen Qiaoan, from the beginning to the end, has been suffering from love since she fell in love with that person.

Chen Qiaoan closed his eyes, not wanting to look at the street scene outside the window, even at night, the lights were still bright, and the mystery of the city belonged alone.

S city is a city that never sleeps, it is always so proud and bright located there, many people are proud because they are people in this city, and they are proud of living in this city, but Chen Qiaoan just feels depressed, but Chen Qiaoan can't escape such depression, because she is also proud, she is also bright, this seems to come out of the bones, years of accumulation, how can it be said that if you lose it, you will lose it?

If it's that simple, it's unreal.

Chen Qiaoan thought, what is the most regrettable thing she has ever done? What's the worst decision you've ever made?

Is it desperate to fall in love with him, is it stubborn and stubborn to be with him, or does not pay the price when he leaves her, go to him again and again, chase him, and finally let himself no longer be willful, no longer dare to be willful.

Cheng Nan, you will never know, I am real, I love you very much, how much I love you, I want to keep you by my side, I want to keep you by my side. - I am close to you again, this time, penniless, and still unflinching.

Chen Qiaoan got off the train and came to the high-speed rail station.

It's not a peak holiday, and it's already night, so there are not many people in the station, and the time deduction is just right, Chen Qiaoan quickly swiped his ID card and entered the station to get on the high-speed rail, and got on the train to H City.

Fortunately, it took almost an hour from S city to H city, and Chen Qiaoan couldn't help but sigh when he was lonely, high-speed rail is really a great invention.

In fact, Chen Qiaoan is no stranger to that city.

Chen Qiaoan stayed there for four full years.

Chen Qiaoan's university is in H City, which is a relatively famous art school in China.

Chen Qiaoan is an art student who changed to art halfway, and then chose to study art, because the admission score of art students will be much lower than that of ordinary college entrance examination candidates. At that time, Chen Qiaoan's cultural achievements were impossible to get into a good university.

At that time, Chen Qiaoan spent a lot of effort and thought in order to be admitted to this school, because he learned art halfway, he had no foundation, and it could even be said that he had no talent. At the most bitter time, 17 hours a day, from 6 o'clock in the morning to 11 o'clock in the evening, I was painting, and the pencil ash of the sketch on my hand was embedded in my nails, and I couldn't wash it off. Therefore, art students are not as beautiful as described in the TV series in the novel, with long hair fluttering, long skirts fluttering, and ten fingers that do not touch the spring water, they are so bad and sloppy that they can not wash their hair or take a bath for several days, they don't even want to wash their hands, they don't want to change their clothes, and when they come back from the studio, they want to lie on the cot in the dormitory and sleep until dawn, and continue to paint the next day. Especially during the time of the joint entrance examination for fine arts, I rushed from one school to another, and then rushed to another school, and I had to carry heavy drawing boards and tools on my back, and the most restful time I slept every day was on the bus.

However, even so, there are many people who envy it, thinking that it is playing, thinking that it is really good, and they can play everywhere, and there are even many unfriendly voices saying, ah, they are all children of rich families. In fact, those people, if they are not gritting their teeth and persisting in order to realize their dreams, the rest are just because they are sensible and realize the importance of learning late, and they do everything that should have been done but did not pay.

For people who can not work hard, but you can't look down on people who work hard, Chen Qiaoan recognizes. What's more, at that time, Chen Qiaoan also understood that everything is reciprocated, enjoyed when you shouldn't be enjoyed, and you always have to pay it back when the time comes, and it may be doubled.

At the end of the joint entrance examination, Chen Qiaoan returned to school like many art students at first, but found that he seemed a little out of place, unable to catch up with the progress and unable to understand the content.

So a week later, Chen Qiaoan simply took a long vacation with the school, one-on-one training and counseling in a professional training institution, and did dozens of sets of mathematics test papers a day, in order to practice the same type of big questions, biochemistry and physics, the same, many times Chen Qiaoan did not understand, and even at the beginning of the chemical equation professional terms could not be written properly, but test-oriented education still has certain advantages, just like this time, the score is obvious, you don't need to understand it in particular, as long as you understand this type of question and can do the question.

For this point, Chen Qiaoan also admits that sometimes being rich is indeed an invisible strength and plus point brought by yourself, at least if Chen Qiaoan's family does not have such economic strength, she can't be so capricious, just like Chen Qiaoan saw a push article on an official account, which was the top student in the college entrance examination of a certain first-tier city interviewed by a reporter, he said that he was born and grew up here, and his family is just middle-class. But it is true that the education and knowledge I have received and my own insight will be more extensive than that of many people in small cities, and I will get more opportunities than many people, and the mistakes I can make will be easier to correct than many people, which is a real loss at the starting line.

So Chen Qiaoan's final results were still very good, and that year was the last year before the new reform of the college entrance examination, so Chen Qiaoan's class was lucky and excellent, because many people said that the college entrance examination was really simple, oh, by the way, I forgot to say that although Chen Qiaoan is from S City, he took the college entrance examination in a third-tier city in Z Province, after all, in those three years, Chen Qiaoan really changed a lot.

This only proves that the environment really affects people, and when your surroundings are out of place with you, you should be afraid of loneliness and choose to blend in with them, make friends with them, and you will naturally make a lot of changes.

Just like when Chen Qiaoan returned to S City later, the people in the previous circle continued their life of drunken gold fans, and when they saw Chen Qiaoan, they would always say, "Qiaoan, what are you trying to do?" ”

Then he began to ridicule, "Dad Chen is really far-sighted, and he is the precedent of the "Transformation Project"!" ”

In the end, I couldn't help but sigh, "Joan, you have really changed a lot." ”

Chen Qiaoan is grateful for those years, and also thanks to all the people who appeared in her life, which can make her better, but many times, Chen Qiaoan will also regret it, if she didn't go to Z Province, would she not have met Cheng Nan, would she not have succeeded, would she continue to be willful and proud, and have no desires.

Because later, none of the people Chen Qiaoan desperately wanted to keep were gone, including Cheng Nan, the person she loved, unforgettable.

Chen Qiaoan, if you really didn't meet Cheng Nan, would you continue to regret it?

Yesterday was the most nostalgic for those who worked hard.

The naïve years, running away, so nostalgic.

The greatest cruelty and preciousness of time is that it is gone, and the greatest stupidity and contradiction of human beings is always contradictory, unable to foresee the future and reluctant to give up the past.

"Cheng Nan, I like you, I like the kind of like I like very much,"

"I know."

The girl in her memory, with a high ponytail, slightly curly, and broken hair on her forehead, dyed with a faint brown chestnut, in the sun, sparkling, dazzling, when she looked at the teenager in front of her, her eyes were shining with stars, her smile was shallow, and she was a little beautiful, because she was the person she liked.

"If you know, why do you deliberately stay away from me like this?" The girl approached him step by step, wanting to enjoy the warmth of this moment with him.

"Because I don't like you,"

He is always like this, even the rejection is faint and gentle.

"Chen Qiaoan, because, I don't like you," perhaps in the face of the girl's repeated pestering, he repeated the words again, and the impatience in his eyes was obvious.

He looked at the girl in front of him, without any pity, categorical, serious and rigorous, "Do you understand?" If you don't hear clearly, then I'll say it again, I don't like you. "It's his usual style.

He had never liked her, she knew.

"Really?" The girl smiled and tilted her head, trying not to look at him, and trying not to look so embarrassed

"It's okay, it's good if I like you, I'll try to make you like me," the hand that was overwhelmed and had nowhere to put betrayed the panic in her heart, but she was still serious and full of confidence, "Really, Cheng Nan, you believe me, you wait for me, I will definitely make you like me." ”

Chen Qiaoan was seventeen years old that year, the first year she met and liked Cheng Nan, and she was a beautiful girl who everyone could see the stars in her eyes.

In the impression of others, Chen Qiaoan is a proud person, never takes the initiative, and is casual, if there is something, if there is not, if there is no, because she gives all the initiative to one person.

In Chen Qiaoan's memory, Cheng Nan was very kind to everyone, very polite, and very gentle, only when facing her, her eyes were full of disgust, and she never understood why he hated her like this.

So much so that later, she was afraid, afraid to get close to him, afraid that he would hate her very much. Because I was afraid, I was careful, and because I was careful, I still lost.

"Chen Qiaoan, long time no see."

That young man, still so beautiful, suddenly appeared in front of her, broke into her sight, imprinted in her mind, engraved into her heart.

"It turned out to be you," the girl tried to hide her inner throbbing and the same panic, pretending to be hypocritical and calm.

The time of a meal, an hour and a half, did not say a word, did not make an expression, did not look at him more.

"Chen Qiaoan, do you still like me?"

This time, instead he called out to her, grabbed her, and asked her, "Do you still like me?" It's obviously a question sentence, but he was so sure by him. He was sure that she still liked him.

"What if you like it, and what if you don't like it?"

It's like being angry, like being coquettish.

He saw through the disbelief in her eyes with a face, and still said in a straightforward, serious and rigorous tone, "If you still like it, let's be together, Chen Qiaoan, be with me,"

"Why?"

"Because you still like me."

It's really simple, because I like it, so together.

She is really useless, she is as much as ever, she likes him and wants to be with him.

That year, Chen Qiaoan was twenty years old, the third year she knew and liked Cheng Nan, and the first year she met and knew Lu Jiayang, a beautiful girl with stars in her eyes.

From the very beginning, Cheng Nan clearly told Chen Qiaoan that he didn't like himself, and from the beginning, Cheng Nan never admitted that he liked himself.

It has always been Chen Qiao'an who is self-inflicted, self-righteous, self-lying, and round one lie after another.

Recalling so many years together, Cheng Nan never told Chen Qiaoan seriously that he loved her, and he didn't even have the least confession, she was always chasing him, stalking, and shameless.

It was she herself who was not ready, who was ready for the sudden approach of the teenager in her heart, who was not ready, who was ready to face the so-called future chaos and reality entanglement, which was the price of growth, but this price was too great, so that Chen Qiaoan lost so many teenagers in her heart, it was she who pretended to be proud, it was she who pretended to be hypocritical, it was she who deliberately tempted, it was she who refused to bow her head, and she refused to admit defeat.

So, she deserves it.

Chen Qiaoan stretched out her left hand, half raised in the air, under the dim light in the carriage, looking at her left hand, very slender, fingers are distinct, very slender, she still remembers, she is a painter, she is a small painter who once held a small art exhibition.

Chen Qiaoan turned his head sideways, looking at his face reflected in the glass of the carriage, in black and white tones, looking at himself in the glass window, it was really strange, and he couldn't find the stars in his eyes anymore.

Chen Qiaoan, over the years, how have you lived like this.

Chen Qiaoan's left hand seemed to have lost all its strength, and it fell from mid-air very dejectedly, throwing it on his leg without making a sound.

When he was about to arrive in H City, Chen Qiaoan seemed to wake up suddenly, sat in his seat, then took out his makeup bag, put on a simple and delicate makeup for himself, and showed a standard smile to himself in the makeup mirror.

Chen Qiaoan, I hope that you, when you see him again, can also maintain such a smile and demeanor, at least don't let him feel that you are not doing well, at least don't panic again, at least don't be seen as flustered and overwhelmed again.

But even so, the knee-jerking action of biting his lip from time to time betrayed Chen Qiaoan's heart.