I lie to him with uncertainty: "What qualities of bravery do I have?" I said as he tried to find a safer place in his arms, "I was so wrong in the past, I was a big fool......"

He said, "You've done your part. ”

He held my chin with one hand, lifted my face slightly to the moonlight, and looked at me with affectionate eyes, or rather, he looked at me with a very fair and just eye, and let me look at a calm matter. I also looked up at him, and there was probably some tension in my eyes, and my lips trembled as I tried to speak. But I wanted to express it, but I couldn't. For I was trying to see in his expression some kind of reaction that would support me, or rather some kind of flickering light of hope that I understood, a light that would encompass all that I had. I thought he would understand all of this.

I'm so desperate for someone to understand, right now.

This time I felt my mind become dull all of a sudden, and from my own long-term experience, I knew that this schedule would soon cause severe pain, which would be like the sleeping pills we were taking, and people would not be able to temporarily relieve our sleep, but when we woke up from sleep, we would be in sharp pain after this brief numbness.

"I'm stupid!" I said very sadly. "I'm left to my own devices, and I've been hoping that something will happen. It's like I've been hoping that Gu Fengqi will suddenly disappear, or that she will leave us on her own initiative. Then it happened, you know, she really disappeared, but I dare say he didn't take the initiative because it dropped her shoes, she was the favorite, and she didn't take anything with her, which means that she was very passive and left. I'm really not sure what terrible things would have happened at that time. There was a sense of relief at that time, but you have to believe me that it was only a momentary comfort. ”

I literally told my innermost secret in one word, and I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief after I finished speaking.

In the midst of this brief silence, a thought came to me. In fact, everyone thinks this way about me, and I hope everyone sees that I am full of pity, or that everyone has an indifferent recognition of my behavior, or indifferent ignorance. I started to get a little skeptical. It stands to reason that I should be sad, I should be desolate and sad, and I should scream loudly at fate. Because I have been relying on myself for a long time, I have gritted my teeth and the determination to look back can get through many difficult and dark years. However, the facts show that no matter how much you have tried to deny your past, no matter how much you never want to look back on the past, it is still a dream-like existence, it will still appear in your deep dreams from time to time, and it will still examine your soul when you are the loneliest and most recent.

Because is it that it has become indifferent, because this thing has become a long time ago?

"Cat Jiujiu, you must not say that. Don't be so low in front of me, you're just a very brave little girl in my mind. Although sometimes you are very self-righteous, in the eyes of outsiders, you do not meet the moral standards of this society, and there are too many outliers in you. Because it makes you feel that your personality is more unique and distinctive, I can't say whether you are right or wrong to do this, only that it will keep you alive. ”

"Yes, yes, that's what I am. I've done a lot of tricks. ”

"My dear little girl, in fact, all your words are clearly written on your face. Pony Six, don't they know what you think? I don't think they thought about it. The reason why they surrender to you, and every day you call you like cats, is because of the strength they see in you, and the support they see to survive. Just let me give them more money, no matter how much work they do, once they turn around and leave, these brothers of yours will follow you without hesitation. ”

I said angrily: "No way, my brothers can't be so generous, as long as you put a small gold nugget in front of them, they will definitely break apart, and they will not stop bleeding, they are also the same as me, they are all in love." ”

"You're tired," he said, still looking at me. "You need to let go of your relaxation, I'm here for everything, and you don't have to carry anything on your shoulder. As a husband, I should have borne all of this. ”

"Do you really think I'm a very selfish woman?"

He sincerely helped me analyze: "It can be understood that many moral values in this world may not allow you to deal with things like this as a woman. But if you want to live like this, you are actually taking your brothers to work hard, isn't that how you understand? ”

After I heard these words, I couldn't help but think about taking a few steps back, but his eyes were still fixed on mine, and under his stern gaze, I seemed to be a little confident, but relaxed, a little confused, he was so truthful that I sometimes wanted to beg him not to say any more. Everything he said spoke to my heart, and I have to admit that everything he said came from the heart, and it was exactly what I wanted to say, but I saw his shoulders hanging down just to show that he was sometimes heartbroken for this part of me.

At this moment, relaxation and self-blame are even more entangled in my heart.

After he had said that, I was really silent, and the anger in my heart slowly subsided, and I suddenly looked up at him again, and said to him, "Sometimes I see that the old man has a little contempt and pity for my words. ”

When I say this, my conscience is extremely disturbed, and this sentence has completely struck my defenses. It turns out that I also care about what other people think, and it's not what people think, I live so happily and fearlessly.

I really don't know if it's life or money for Gu Fengqi's guilt at this moment, anyway, I'm as worried as a child, I must find her!

I can stand it, I can stand up to anything, can I not do it if I don't want to do so many things?

"My dear little girl," he said softly, stretching out his arms. "I know you must be having a hard time now, but you have to remember that everything that has happened in the past is not your fault, it's just that you bravely survived, and you brothers have long been scattered, so I never even doubted your bravery, and your positive energy may not be able to do this even if you are a seven-foot man. So your brothers maintain a very dead loyalty to you. ”

He quickly walked to my side, suddenly took me in his arms, divided his gentle cheeks into sticks to my cheeks, fart, and gently stroked my hair with one hand~ touching the back of my hair.

"Don't cry, my dear little girl, I hope you are brave, always maintain such a brave spirit, even if you are tired, just lie at home and rest, don't think about anything, the sky can't fall. When the sky falls, it is also lying on those who are weak and cowardly, and those who meet you will worry that they will be unlucky. ”

He hugged me so tightly that it made my breathing difficult, and I heard only his very sincere and gentle voice:

"We're all in this together." He was silent for a moment, then chuckled softly.

"You'll help me find her, won't you?" When I think of Gui Fengqi, after these long 5 years, I don't know what will happen, anything can happen in 5 years, anything that cannot be described. I would never have dared to believe that he would be able to find peace in the five years he had disappeared. Thinking of this, I couldn't help but tremble all over my body, although I was anxious to control my emotions, because I knew that the Jintang I relied on the most, how could there be so many things to deal with now.

My mood now is like being drunk and exhausted in an orphanage, yes, Najintang's shoulders are strong, I don't need to rely on him, I feel the serenity and calmness of the years in him.

So, I straightened my shoulders, and I really didn't have any tough armed face in front of him, no mania and anger, no inexplicable desire to get a knife in my hand, just calm gentleness.

"We'll figure it out." Na Jintang said, at this time, his gaze was firm.

"Thank you, no matter what happens, you will stand on my side, no matter what I do, I can get an understanding from you." I suddenly felt very tired, more tired than ever, and the relief he had given me, and the liberation of my soul, which had been holding up the tight strings all along.

Now I don't feel sadness and remorse, I don't feel any fear and panic, I feel like I'm sitting in a small boat, slowly swaying, natural and relaxed.

This wonderful picture made me feel a sense of happiness in a daze, and he gave me this confidence, and some of the wounds and dark regrets in my soul were scattered at once.

We snuggled up to each other in the moonlight, and I simply sat in his arms, remembering the hard and difficult years in the orphanage, and at the same time remembering the lovely sorrows of my brothers: in that towering deep mountain, where the deep woods, and you and my favorite little river, on the banks of which were fragrant wildflowers, and beyond our walls was a mysterious grove, and inside the trees were our swings, and there were all kinds of secrets that the dean could not know, This is a secret between our children, my name is engraved on that little tree, and at the same time, the name of the ghost brother is also engraved, and the green mountains are still there, and the sunset is red several times.

Seeing that I felt my eagerness to go back to the orphanage, I wanted to think back to what it was like back then, so that I could remember it in the depths of my memory, and then I had a ridiculous thought: I wanted to go back to the orphanage to see, then it was an abandoned place, and I always felt something mysterious pulling me, giving me uncontrollable, wanting to look at the old years that had passed.

I really thought about doing this, and even he was startled, and I felt my strength, and I really wanted to go back to where I used to be, and go and see and walk.

Really, I wanted to open my mind to Na Jintang when I spoke.

It was a door in my window, which was suddenly opened, and Dr. John was heard shouting:

"Little boss, quick!"