He Qinghuai's slender fingers swiped to the last ambiguous message on MSN, and replied to give it a try, a piece of paper next to it was half burned, and the messy font on it was faintly visible.

Xu Yiwen changed into a skirt and hurriedly went out, and the mobile phone interface showed the old place from He Qinghuai.

In the midst of the smoke, He Qinghuai's gaze stayed on the few photos sent by the other party.

Xu Yiwen cautiously bypassed the puddle on the road, and the cold air coming out of his mouth turned into a fog for a moment.

When He Qinghuai snuffed out the last cigarette in his hand, he looked up and saw Xu Yiwen standing at the door.

He tilted his head and looked at Xu Yiwen, "No wonder, it's invincible to dress like this in front of men in winter, isn't it cold?" ”

Xu Yiwen opened his hands and waited for a hug from He Qinghuai, smiling like a flower: "It's not cold, women are pleasing to themselves, as long as you like it."

He Qinghuai walked up and hugged Xu Yiwen, the smell of smoke mixed with warmth wrapped Xu Yiwen, and He Qinghuai's faint voice was in his ears, "I'm afraid it's not my turn, right?"

Xu Yiwen rubbed his collarbone, like a coquettish cat, she teased, "What? Is your girlfriend so good-looking afraid of being robbed?"

After that, Xu Yiwen wanted to lean in and kiss his face, but He Qinghuai tilted his head, leaving her empty, "Xu Yiwen, break up." ”

Hugging is really the most distant action, because now Xu Yiwen found that He Qinghuai's eyes had a faint disgust, but his body was wrapped in He Qinghuai's warmth.

"Went borrowing money again, right?" He Qinghuai let go of Xu Yiwen, but the questioning sentence was full of affirmation.

Xu Yiwen pursed his lips, "How do you know?"

"That's it? Why borrow money again? I, He Qinghuai, have been reduced to the point where I have to rely on you to borrow money to support me, right?"

"Qinghuai, no, that's not what I mean, you believe me, it's just..."

"Just what? Just think I'm too pathetic? Or did you like the feeling of conquering those men?"

"No, no, what are you talking nonsense?" Xu Yiwen reached out and grabbed He Qinghuai's sleeve, but he threw it away.

"You're a girl who has just come of age and relies on part-time jobs, why do they borrow money from you again and again? It's a transaction that doesn't require you to pay back. He Qinghuai pushed Xu Yiwen away and threw Xu Yiwen's IOU in his hand on the ground, with disdain in the corners of his eyes. What do you want to say? Looking forward to the future? What is it now, is it your distrust of me, or is it my incompetence? Or do you look down on me?" He Qinghuai sneered again and again.

Xu Yiwen was stunned by this sudden questioning and unwarranted misunderstanding, and then his eyes turned red.

"He Qinghuai, am I so unbearable in your eyes? When your girlfriend goes to borrow money, does it affect your face? For so many years, I have fantasized about the future and looked forward to it, but I can't believe you now, you will give me the future. ”

"I said you were going to give me time, and I would give you whatever you wanted, but what an embarrassment you're putting me in right now!

Being given a bunch of IOUs from my girlfriend by the underworld at school, have you thought about how I feel? Okay now, how am I going to look up next to my friends in the future? He Qinghuai gritted his teeth and held back his anger, and his originally handsome face began to distort.

Xu Yiwen looked at He Qinghuai in disbelief, "This is what you think?" I borrowed money for your tuition, but you think I've disgraced you?! He Qinghuai, you are really an out-and-out bastard. ”

He Qinghuai walked past Xu Yiwen and strode away, "Yes, I'm just a bastard, so please don't like a bastard, Xu Yiwen, we'll stop here, never see each other again." ”

Wind and rain, the street lights were dazzling, Xu Yiwen grabbed the corner of He Qinghuai's clothes, and refused to let go.

"There's no need, don't come to me again, we can't do it."

The rain swept across their faces and washed over their faces as if to wash away their sorrows. "Qinghuai, this is really the last time, I was wrong, I shouldn't have said those things to you, don't make trouble, okay? Please—" The rain was pouring down, no tears, no sorrow, only her choked and hoarse pleas, only the feeling of her heart being cramped by thousands of ants.

"Let it go." He Qinghuai coldly spat out two words, like sharp needles piercing her ears.

"Don't let go-" Xu Yiwen raised his heavy eyes and stared at him, and his stubborn voice sounded again, although he knew how fragile her heart was, although, her tears betrayed her pretended strength.

"But I'm tired, I want to live a little easier, you let me go, and let yourself go."

He spoke very softly, and he was almost drowned in the heavy rain, but he entered Xu Yiwen's heart word for word, leaving traces.

Xu Yiwen's hand gradually loosened, watching He Qinghuai stride away, and the shadow disappeared into the rain.

She walks with the darkness, with the lonely souls on the roadside, she does not know where her home is, she does not meet the road ahead, and she does not see the light.

In the early morning, Xu Yiwen leaned against the cold wall and recalled all kinds of pasts, and she seemed to see He Qinghuai's face again after a sleepless night.

"Bang bang bang-"

The familiar sound of slamming the door, the illusion in my mind was dispelled, and it was replaced by a shout from outside the door: "Xu Yiwen, get out, if you don't come out again, Lao Tzu will make you unable to eat and walk around."

"Whew" A burst of smoke gently emerged from Xu Yiwen's red lips, obviously in his own home, but it seemed to be in the cold mountains and snow, without the slightest temperature and enthusiasm for the world.

"Xu Yiwen!! The money you borrowed for your man yourself, now you have to suffer this by yourself! ”

In the narrow hallway outside the door, the man wielding the iron rod in his hand was rough and impatient, and on the other side of the door there was nothing but a wispy smoke, like a dry swamp.

The smoke attached to the man's flower arms, the dilapidated electric lights in the hallway flickered on and off, and the empty response made people irritate for no reason, which completely angered the impatient man.

"Damn, stinky bitch, you brought it on yourself."

The man who took the lead picked up the iron rod in his hand and smashed it on the door, causing pieces of patent leather to fall from the dilapidated door, leaving the vermilion like a dull bloodstain.

"Hiss" The decadent and dazed girl gasped, and the sparks falling from the cigarette butt left deep and shallow marks on the back of her thin hand.

Listening to the sound outside the door getting louder and louder, the iron door seemed to be knocked down at any time, Xu Yiwen pursed his lips, picked up the washed white school uniform jacket on the ground, put it loosely on his shoulder, and opened the door.

She took out two hundred yuan from her bag and threw it to the red hair in front of her, "I'll pay the rest tomorrow." ”

"Huh, tomorrow? Stinky, this is the first few tomorrows! The man grabbed Xu Yiwen's collar, looked at her beautiful face, and suddenly grinned, revealing the row of black and yellow teeth.

"I don't know what's so good about your little white face, relying on your own woman to borrow money and pay back day by day so arrogant, it's better for you to be me

Ma Zi, I'll leave this matter for you today, and you don't have to worry about eating and drinking, how good. "The end of the world

"Fuck you." Xu Yiwen approached the big man's face and took a sip of saliva, and his anger was even better.

Dahan raised his oily palm and slapped it down, and Xu Yiwen grabbed his arm, Xu Yiwen looked at Dahan, and his eyes that had always been indifferent lit up with fire.

One word at a time, he said, "The old lady said that tomorrow will be tomorrow, you better take your dog legs and get out of here today, don't push me to be in a hurry, otherwise I will have to drag you to walk around when I go down." ”

Dahan pushed Xu Yiwen away, and didn't call anymore after all, he knew that the person in front of him couldn't kill him, but he also knew that this girl was a crazy person, and he didn't need to hurt himself for a woman. "Heh, then let's see."

When the noise dissipated, Xu Yiwen squatted on the ground and wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes with his hands. They are like the demons of hell, haunting her day and day, keeping her awake at night.

Wiping the blood from her nose, her head hurt from the damp and hard wall, she raised her head and sniffed, trying to pose as if she didn't care, and then stood up along the wall, the outside of the dilapidated building was a black oppressive cloud, the person who was pressed was breathless, and the feelings in her heart stirred up a circle of waves.

"Whew"

Xu Yiwen walked around the mud puddle on the road, the wind blew her broken hair, and her two frozen red hands were hiding in the cuffs to keep warm.

The wide school uniform covered the scars, like a fig leaf covering the sad reality.

Fate always mocks the infatuated lover silently, and then uses the sharp blade of reality to cut through all the ugliness, so that their sadness and anger flood their hearts, and the late autumn of 2001 makes people cold to the bottom of their hearts.

In the classroom, Xu Yiwen sat in the classroom, and the teenager who once belonged to her was immersed in writing questions, working hard for this year's scholarship.

He sorted out the rolls on the table, the two were speechless, and when they left, he stopped, glanced at Xu Yiwen, and after a long time, muttered, "Don't wait." ”

Xu Yiwen's face was pale, her skin was not smiling, and two lines of tears slowly fell, crossing her dry cheeks.

In the evening, Xu Yiwen looked at the dumpling shop outside the university, and in a trance, she saw He Qinghuai raising the corners of his lips and striding forward.

A girl in the store suddenly blushed, and there was a lot of talk around her.

After a moment, the two embraced each other, lips and teeth lingering.

It was the day after they broke up.

Xu Yiwen squatted in place, her eyes were hazy with tears, she opened her mouth slightly, pretending to exhale hot air for her hands, but her eyes still couldn't stop flowing down, her wounds were torn open by reality, and her sorrow seemed to be drowning.

She was rampage on the road, she wanted to go home, but she didn't have a home, and the moment He Qinghuai left, she had no home.

The light and warmth that have been given to her over the years were blown away by the cold wind at the moment when the two were ambiguous, and all the past turned into sharp knives, piercing her heart again and again, leaving her heartbroken.

"Bang-"

The screeching sound of the car colliding with a person pierced the sky, Xu Yiwen felt that her mind was blank, her head seemed to be flowing from above, and she was in pain from the impact, but she didn't make any sound.

Blood stained her cotton clothes and seeped into the ground, and she was dying.

The eyes that had been soaked in tears still tried to open, staring at the location of the dumpling shop until the end of fate.

She was longing for the boy she loved the most to appear.

He Qinghuai in the store was inexplicably panicked, empty, feeling that something was missing, and his left eye kept jumping.

The sound of ambulances echoed across the wide road, the street lights shining brightly and the cold wind howling.

The doctors and nurses in the emergency room were busy, Xu Yiwen lay quietly on the hospital bed, her long eyelashes covering her eyes, and she would go into the place of no return, sinking in the gray sea.

Three years ago -

In 1998, spring, the sun was shining, everything was fragrant, He Qinghuai's figure was shuttling on the basketball court, and the girls were watching and cheering.

Xu Yiwen stood on the runway of the playground, raised her hand to see the sunlight flowing from her fingers, inexplicable peace of mind welled up in her heart, her cold heart gradually melted in this clear sky, she gently lifted her toes, and gently rotated like she wrote in her diary.

In her dreams, one day, the sneakers on her feet will turn into elegant crystal glass, the delicate willow leaves will weave a gorgeous dress for her, she will have ethereal wings, as beautiful and delicate as a butterfly, she will have a crown of her own, and she will glow faintly and mystically in the lonely night.

Xu Yiwen closed her eyes, her slender hands hung down, and the corners of her lips revealed her heart, which was a rare good mood in her life.

In the past ten years, she has either been sad or busy for money, and she has long since lost her original appearance.

Opening her eyes, she glanced at the hustle and bustle in the distance, and her sarcastic gaze swept over He Qinghuai, she hated those who lived in the stars, because they were conceited and arrogant, and cynical.

In fact, peeling back her layers of defense, she probably envied these vanities, but the reality was cruel, so she didn't want to know her humility, or she didn't want to face it.

After taking a long breath, Xu Yiwen strode away.

Su Yu sat at the other end of the playground, looking at the pretentious girl with interest, raising her eyebrows meaninglessly, and then looking into the distance.

The fate of this world is like a silent night sky, blurring circles of deep blue in the darkness.

Xu Yiwen walked on the commercial street outside the school, looking at the familiar lights and looking at the people coming and going, there was a feeling of isolation, as if all the prosperity in this world had nothing to do with her.

In the distance, Su Yu drove a motorcycle and stopped the girl in front of her.

"Hey, beauty, leave a call." He blew a loud and loud slogan.

Xu Yiwen rolled his eyes, clasped his hands in front of his chest, and the melancholy just now was completely gone, leaving only a gangster.

Not causing trouble and not being afraid of things is her consistent style of doing things.

"No phone, sorry." She looked up, obviously very embarrassed, but she was said very naturally, even a little arrogant, white teeth and red lips, and the people who looked at it were inexplicably happy.

"Then let's go have a cup of milk tea and get to know you, I'm from the same school as you." Su Yu took out a student ID card, pointed to the photo on it and smiled brightly.

"Not available." Xu Yiwen raised her legs and was about to leave, she didn't like yellow hair, nor did she like men with frivolous behavior, her words were like cold winds, as if she wanted to freeze the air.

Su Yu pursed her lips and pretended to leave, but while Xu Yiwen was not paying attention, she turned around and straddled, and pulled her into the car, and the noise of Ula Ulla woke up the messy girl in the wind.