She held her tired eyes, staring blankly at the few photos on the computer screen that had just been emailed, the feeling of grief and anger was more turbulent than wave, violently impacting her torn heart, as if it was about to devour her, her eyes covered with dark circles were bloodshot, and her eye sockets were also red at this moment, but her stubborn self-esteem supported her stubbornly, and she did not allow herself to shed a single tear.

It's not that she didn't notice the clues left by the man she loved the most in his life, such as the unfamiliar smell of perfume on his body, the shirt he changed inexplicably, the sudden extra business trips and overtime, the explanations he couldn't explain, the perfunctory and impatient words that he had never had before.

It's just that she doesn't want to pierce that thin layer of paper, she doesn't want to force herself to face such an embarrassing situation, and she doesn't want to force herself to face the pain of losing this relationship. It's not that she's never worked hard, how she hopes that she can use her tolerance and pretending to be casual to win back the heart of the man she loves the most, but the woman in the photo hugs him with both hands, smiling haughtily and seductively, announcing the shattering of her love that has been going through ups and downs all these years.

Although she had already expected this scene in her heart, when this moment really came, she still couldn't bear it. She raised her head, trying to let the tears flow back into her eyes, and the time that had passed along the way was projected in front of her eyes like a slideshow: the four years of college, the most beautiful years of her life, her delicate and delicate eyebrows, the slightly raised corners of her mouth, the skirt of the summer flying, and her indifferent temperament like water, how many boys' dreams have been achieved. It's just that she frowned slightly, and with a slight wave of her hand, she broke off the thoughts of many other admirers. She was firmly by his side, because she firmly believed that the man in front of her, who was as warm as spring, would give her all his tenderness and sincerity as he promised.

The four years of college, plus the years after graduation, they ate roadside stalls together, traveled bicycles together, wore Coke rings, and put sky lanterns by the river, although their love did not have gold and silver jewelry, but the two of them stayed together, which was enough to make her feel happy and satisfied.

They work together, fight together for the future, and even they have planned that they will get married when they have saved enough money. She once thought how good it would be for two people to be like this for the rest of their lives, but had he forgotten all this? But can all this only be the result? The memories of the past rushed to her, and she could no longer bear the weight of these memories, and she struggled to extricate herself from the bitter wine that had been blended with the pain of the present.

She shuddered and closed the laptop in front of her, her white teeth biting her red lower lip as if she were about to drip blood. Maybe if it hurts a little in the body, the heart won't hurt so much. She slowly walked into the bathroom, stretched out her white arms, opened the shower head, and the cold and cold water droplets sprayed down one after another, through her scalp, along her long black and straight hair, through her smooth forehead, along the tip of her straight nose, into her white neck, into her pure white clothes, along her slender calves, step by step cold blood in her whole body, she shivered coldly, her body began to tremble violently, and the ups and downs of sourness in her heart, Pounding her nose, her mouth, and her throat one after another, she suddenly lost her support, and fell to the cold floor with a "pop", and she finally couldn't help but cry••••••

I don't know how long it took, she slowly stood up, regained her initial calm and stubbornness, yes, she had already lost, she couldn't let him see herself so embarrassed and depressed, she wiped the water droplets on her body weakly, changed out of her soaked clothes, and after drying her wet hair, she began to pack her things one by one.

It's just that everything is full of memories, and this one is the birthday present he gave her when he got his first salary; The one was the white dress he wore on his first date; That one was the one he wore when he first went to see his parents; And that one, which he brought back especially for her from a business trip••••••

When she thought of this, she suddenly became distraught, and threw off the clothes in her hand heavily: since all this does not belong to me, then what do I have to take with me? So she took off the couple ring that he had made with a coin in the street, and fled••••••

The city was full of traffic, the streets were full of people, and the bustling flow of people, she looked blankly at the intricate streets in front of her, and she was at a loss. The familiar street in front of him had walked hand in hand and shoulder to shoulder with him many times, but today it seemed to have become unfamiliar.

She staggered and ran on a rampage, bumping into several people, and there were bursts of insults from passers-by in her ears, and she didn't hear them clearly, and she didn't want to pay attention to them, she only knew that she just wanted to get out of here quickly, to escape from this place full of his shadow.

I don't know how far she ran, I don't know where she went, she collapsed in the middle of a square. The sounds of noisy conversation, laughter, and music all seemed to come from a distant country, vaguely echoing in the ears, and the crowd shuttling around was only a trance silhouette, wandering in front of them.

She seemed to be thinking about something, but she didn't seem to think about anything, she only knew that she didn't want to be alone now, and she was afraid to be alone quietly, and it was enough for such an environment to bring her a short-term warmth and security.

Gradually, night fell, there was no trace of starlight and moon shadow in the night sky tonight, the thick night was like a huge black net tightly surrounding her, those black feelings rushed left and right in the body, slumped into a clump, little by little eroding the colors of the past, and the place where she passed was a dark night.

All the past is just a dream of Nan Ke, in fact, she doesn't want to be like this, but she can't control herself, and she can't control the development of things, this city is full of the love marks they have made along the way, how did she escape, how did she escape••••••

The mobile phone in her pocket suddenly rang dullly, she knew that he was calling, because this ringtone was the exclusive ringtone she set for him alone, but she didn't want to pay attention to it anymore, the shadow of him and the woman hugging each other in the photo kept flashing in front of her eyes, she couldn't help but churn from her stomach for a wave of nausea, so she squatted on the side of the road and retched. Leave, or leave, there's no reason to stay in this city anymore, is there?

She climbed onto the bus in a daze, and the bus moved slowly forward, her stomach churning even more from the sound of the motor, and she struggled to control the discomfort in her stomach, and she just wanted to fall asleep like that. Soon after, she began to dream, a long, but real dream, that she couldn't tell whether it was a dream or a reality. It was on the vast sea, and she somehow fell into the sea, and the raging waves beat against her fiercely, carrying her up and down, and the salty sea water poured into her mouth, her throat, and she seemed to be about to suffocate, and she struggled desperately for a long time, until she lost all her strength, and she slowly began to sink••••••

"Miss? This young lady? Wake up. She heard it so hard that she tried to open her eyes, and it turned out to be just a dream.

"This young lady, are you alright? Are you okay? ”

She looked at the bus driver in front of her a little blankly, and he was looking at her worriedly: "The terminal of this bus×× the ferry has arrived, do you want to get off?" ”

She seemed to have come to her senses, nodded quickly, and hurriedly got out of the car. But where do we go now? Go home? Still can't, now like this, the family must be worried about death when they see it. Then let fate help me decide, I'll go wherever it takes me, she thought a little negatively, and she hopped on a nearby cruise ship.

She stood on the deck, leaning against the fence and standing weakly, the cool sea breeze mixed with a little salty smell blowing in her face, she became more and more awake, she suddenly remembered the dream she had on the bus, why did she have such a dream, she seemed to be a little scared, but after a moment of thought began to laugh at herself: why did she suddenly become so sensitive, it was just a dream, and it was better not to think nonsense.

Just as she was thinking this, she suddenly felt a strong force behind her pushing her back, and she was about to look back to see who it was, but the force was too strong and too strong, and before she could turn back, she had already lost her center of gravity, and plunged from the fence into the cold water.

The waves of the cruise ship crashed against her body fiercely, she struggled up and down in the cold waters, she seemed to faintly hear the voices of the people on board, so she desperately shouted: "Help, help! ”

But the salty sea poured into her open mouth and nose, her throat for help, and her hysterical cries for help were silently drowned out in the endless water, and she desperately flapped on the water, but could not find anything for her to lean on. Her mind instantly woke up, why this scene was so familiar, it seemed that she had foreseen it before. That's right! It's that weird dream I had when I just fell asleep on the bus! Although she was surprised, she now knew that it was too late, and she felt that her body was getting heavier and heavier as she struggled, and she could only let the raging waves swallow her step by step••••••