Ye Tang didn't speak.

The soft-voiced man could only hear the sound of breathing, which was not a rapid breathing, and it crossed the ocean through the radio waves and entered his ears.

He had good hearing, so he could even hear the trembling in his breath.

Naturally, he was a little worried, so he called again, "Ye, you speak." ”

Ye Tang was still breathing quietly, and her breathing was still trembling, until the trembling in her breath finally calmed down, and she seemed to have recovered the function of language.

Ye Tang's soft voice has a unique charm when speaking English, and it is even more unique with a shallow nasal voice at the moment.

"Ryan." Ye Tang took a deep breath and said calmly, "I hope it didn't bother you." ”

"It doesn't matter. Ye, are you okay? Ryan asked, his voice concerning.

Ye Tang pondered, "If it's about the recent life, it's not bad." It can even be said to be good. ”

Ryan relaxed his voice over there, and laughed wittily, "Then call me?" Did you miss me? ”

"But my mood at the moment ...... My emotional state is very bad. I'm bad, Ryan. The calm in Ye Tang's voice gradually shattered, and the trembling that had been in her breathing voice before was fully reflected in her voice at this moment.

Ryan didn't continue to joke over there, he said worriedly, "You and He, what happened after you returned home?" Why are you both in such bad shape? I'm really worried. ”

At this moment, the man on the other end of the phone, Ryan, his full name is Ryan Johnson. is a friend of Ye Tang and He Yuanzhou when they were abroad, they are mixed-race, and they inherited half of the Chinese blood from their mother, but because their mother is already a second-generation immigrant.

So although Lane is interested in Chinese culture, he doesn't speak Chinese. It was because I wanted to learn Chinese and understand the culture, so after meeting the two of them by chance, I established a friendship.

Of course, He Yuanzhou and Ye Tang both know that a large part of the reason is because of Ye Tang's cooking skills.

To be reasonable, who doesn't love Chinese food?

Give Ye Tang some ingredients and a pot. She can give you a miracle back.

In short, because it is not so easy to integrate abroad, after all, I grew up under different systems and different cultural education, so there are naturally many different concepts.

He Yuanzhou and Ye Tang were able to hug each other to keep warm, and the villagers saw the villagers with tears in their eyes. There's no need to fit in with the 'locals' or anything.

Speaking of which, in addition to a few international students, they are also Lane's friend.

Ryan, like Kang Shi, is engaged in psychology. After all, there is a lot of social pressure in these years, and people's psychological state is not very ideal, so who doesn't know someone who is engaged in psychology?

Cheng Mo relied on Kang Shi to guide him, and He Yuanzhou and Ye Tang relied on Lane.

"He called you too?" Ye Tang asked softly.

"yes, just recently. However, given that the environment in which you live is not friendly, even exclusionary and unacceptable to a group of his orientation, I am not surprised that he will have emotional problems. Ryan was right.

Who else doesn't know? He Yuanzhou's biggest source of anxiety is his sexuality. Otherwise, he is originally an outgoing and cheerful character, happy and silly, hahaha every day, carefree, and has rice in the money jar at home. Where is there anything to be anxious and depressed?

Ryan said, "I'm more worried about you. Ye, you have always been very stable. ”

"yes." Ye Tang responded in a low voice.

"I've also said that it's not normal for you to be too stable, or rather, it's unhealthy." Ryan said, "People have emotions, ups and downs, take-ups and downs, take-ups and downs, because we are human. And your emotions are always in a straight line, without ups and downs, like a dead man's electrocardiogram......"

Of course, Ye Tang remembered what Ryan had said, and even he used the same word at that time, saying that her emotions were always in a straight line, without ups and downs, like a dead man's electrocardiogram.

It's unhealthy to say that she is like this, that she may have been rationally restraining her emotions, or that she may have closed herself off because of something.

Either way, it's very unhealthy. If you don't restrain yourself one day, it will be terrible to collapse.

In fact, everyone understands this truth, which is very typical if you don't explode in silence, you die in silence. Either you suffocate until you die, or you blow up. The movement will certainly not be small.

He Yuanzhou laughed at her at the time, don't make it a typical case of 'don't mess with honest people' when it breaks out.

Ye Tang has always felt that it is quite nonsense, she has such a temper, how can she have any rational restraint, she just doesn't care much about anything.

It's okay to have, it's okay not to have, don't fight, don't want to win or lose. One word: Buddha.

So where would there be a terrible crash?

But unexpectedly, Ryan was right in his judgment of her, and he was right. She closed herself off because of something.

"So, are you having a breakdown? Leaf. Ryan asked her.

Ye Tang denied it, "At present, there is no one." I don't feel like I'm in a state of collapse at the moment. But I think you're right, I think of some very, very unpleasant memories. ”

Ye Tang chuckled, his laughter was cold, and there was no warmth, "The funny thing is that such a painful memory, I have always had no deep impression, and when I think about it, I don't feel like I have lost this memory." ”

Ye Tang didn't know how to describe that feeling, so he frowned tightly and tried to organize words to describe it, "I didn't suddenly remember this memory, I haven't forgotten it, so when I think about it, I don't feel strange, and I don't feel any sense of awakening." It's like, this memory is always there, it's just that I don't think about it. So, as if I had no impression ......"

Ye Tang still felt that she didn't explain well enough, which she might not be able to understand in her native language, let alone in other languages.

But Ryan was sloppy and understood.

He said it to Ye Tang.

said that she was like putting it in a certain box, tightly sealed, and the box was locked by Ye Tang himself. She always had the key.

If Ye Tang wants, it's not that she can't remember, she can open the box by herself and revisit this memory.

But if this box was opened by some other objective factors, for Ye Tang, although she had not forgotten it and did not feel strange, she would still feel a little sudden.