But no matter how difficult it is, she has to face it for the sake of those who die because of herself. book

With a long sigh, she said softly: "I know that you are annoyed with me, as the emperor's concubine, I really can't go with the dust to see Nan Ruochen, but Nan Ruochen was seriously injured at that time, and I had to go." Even if you don't allow it, I have to go. Because he is not only my savior, but he has also saved you. I don't want my husband to be ungrateful. ”

He still had his back to her, and his face, which had finally eased up, became ugly again: "Am I ungrateful? Even if you don't have any intention of him, doesn't he think of you? When you were worried about him, did you ever think about how big a crime it was for the concubine to leave the Qingchan Temple without permission? How much of a sin is it to see other men privately? If you let others know, even I won't be able to protect you! ”

"In the palace, the most important thing is to be charged, and what is there to worry about, just be worthy of your own heart. I did go to see him without permission, so it is natural for you to be angry, but do you know that although Nan Ruochen knew that you sent someone to assassinate him, he also said to me, you are my husband and the emperor, and you are not wrong to do so. Why do you have to think of people like that? ”

His heart trembled, could it really be that he was wrong? However, as a generation of emperors, the relationship between the court, the harem, and the royal family is not complicated, if you can't easily trust people, how can you handle all this objectively and fairly? Moreover, for him, a prince who lost his mother at the age of five, if he easily trusts people, how can he still live to this day, and how can he sit on this supreme throne? A person who has been taught from a young age that he cannot easily trust others, can he still believe it again?

"So what, coveting the imperial concubine is a capital crime!" Because he loves him, he is jealous that she is good to other people, is he wrong?

Feeling the strong imperial majesty emanating from him, she closed her eyes and sighed: "The emperor is angry that I shouldn't visit Nan Ruochen, perhaps, the emperor would prefer that the concubine stay in the Qingchan Temple that night, be humiliated by the 'adulterer', and then ...... like the concubine or Jinyun Mama."

"Say no more!" His eyes suddenly tightened, and he interrupted her sharply, when he got the news of the accident in Qingchan Temple, this was his biggest worry, he was afraid, afraid that she would be like her...... If this is really the case, Yixin'er will definitely not be able to stand such humiliation, not to mention, if that is the case, how can the harem keep her, even if he is the emperor, he can't save her! Therefore he will surely lose her.

She didn't know how happy he was when he learned that she wasn't at the Qingchan Monastery that day! Even if she went to see Nan Ruochen, he just wanted her to live well and live.

He finally turned around, and suddenly approached her, completely ignoring it, and this time, kissing her angrily and fiercely.

Lu Nuoxin could feel it, and every part of his body redoubled his strength, wrapping around her body's arms, more urgent than ever.

When a man can only gamble with his body, his heart is actually the weakest, in fact, he compromises and gives up, Lu Nuoxin knows that it was her words that defeated him.

He took her back to the palace this time, with such a protective attitude towards her, even if he was jealous, but after all, he still followed her wishes and brought Nan Ruochen into the palace for medical treatment, whether it was because he really loved her, or because of the man's initial strong possessiveness, she had no reason to be angry with him.

What's more, when she decided to return to the palace in this way, she never thought about what he would think in his heart, he was an emperor after all, what else could she ask for, obviously the dream of a couple in her life was a mirage that had long been disillusioned.

But she can't forgive him, she can't forgive him for turning a blind eye to what the queen did, she can't forgive him for secretly chasing Nan Ruochen, and she can't forgive him for distrusting herself......

She hugged him with her backhand, and the hands that lay on his back tightened suddenly, and the fine fabric showed folds under her white bones, and a tear fell on his arm, sliding a shallow water stain, falling on his luxurious robe, and quickly penetrating into it.

Xin still noticed it, suddenly stopped moving, hugged her tightly, buried his head in her arms, and muttered: "Xin'er, what should I do with you......"

She also wanted to ask, what should she do, but now she still has the qualifications to be weak and give in?

Raised his head, but suddenly saw that he hung on the desk of the picture, it was actually his own on the day of the full moon of the prince painted the "group of flowers", originally to the prince of the congratulatory gift, he actually hung this painting in the Qianqing Palace, and this picture is lifelike in the breeze swaying flowers, hanging in this Qianqing Palace always looks not solemn enough.

His eyes swept over the bookshelf, and he saw the wishing lamp on the shelf, was he thinking of himself because he put these within reach?

Her heart ached, and her eyes couldn't help but fold: "On the Xiaowang Mountain that day, I told me that I saw two bright lights rising above the palace, and I knew that they were the wishing lamps you put up, and under that light and shadow, you stood there, staring at me. ”

Her tears fell slowly, and his heart seemed to be gently caressed by a soft hand, but he didn't expect that day's wishing lamp, she actually saw it.

She took a deep breath, suppressed the turmoil in her heart, and said: "It's not wrong for me to come out of the palace, but if you can grind your ears and temples and keep your looks, who wants to comfort yourself with the lie of "If the two love for a long time, how can they be in the morning and twilight?" Your heart is divided into too many parts, there is your country, your people, your harem, and now your children, and my weight in it is so light, I admit that I am not virtuous and generous enough, so I chose to leave far away, thinking that I avoided the rights and wrongs of this harem, and I finally became quiet, but as soon as I left, I found that I was worried about my heart and was not happy to do anything. ”

I spoke my heart, and at the end of the day, she didn't know how to control her emotions.

"Xin'er......" He called her in a low and hoarse voice, but he didn't dare to look at the tears on her face, she never told him in this way, she has always stood in his point of view, put herself in his shoes, never embarrassed him, never complained to him about the grievances in her heart, this time she finally said it, and let him see her heart.

He put on the emperor's shelf and questioned her, how good did he feel in his heart, she complained about him, he always knew, but he was not only her husband, but also the emperor of the Ming Dynasty, how could he give her the love she wanted, how could he want to be as arbitrary as before? In the end, he lost her......

"I'm sorry, Xin'er, I'm sorry......" Although he knew that sorry didn't have the slightest effect on the grievances she suffered, he still wanted to say.

And when she heard this apology, she already knew that he had begun to learn to believe her, and this was good, this was good......