I squinted at her and made a slashing motion with my hand: "If your cousin dares to bear your heart at a critical time, I will chop him." ”

Bai Wei laughed breathlessly, bright with love and excitement, "You! The head of the female devil. I really want to know who's going to be able to stop you goblin, God. ”

At this time, the young woman came in and looked at the two of us talking and laughing, she was charitable.

Bai Wei asked Qing Po: "Does my cousin have any news?" ”

Mama said, "When the young lady recovers from her illness, she will naturally see the young master." The young master said, you are yang and yin. If you want me to look at you and say that you are sick, let me advise you not to read novels anymore, you can weave something, it is good for women. ”

Bai Wei quietly didn't say a word, and when she heard that Mama brought the young master's advice, she was deeply moved by his sincerity. There were tears in Bai Wei's eyes, "Good Qingma, I want to thank my cousin for saying these heartfelt words to me, another day, I will embroider a wallet, you can send it to him." ”

With that, I'm also leaving.

One day, when I finished cleaning the innermost room, I suddenly turned around and found that the young woman had been silent in the dark, she took out a beautifully packaged picture book from her arms, and handed it to me like a grim reaper, in a strange tone: "Your biggest problem is that you are too beautiful, like a colorful butterfly, and that charming color is the medium of killing!" Beautiful skins are useless, how to defuse enemy killings, these books will warn you. ”

I shrugged my head and whispered a protest: "Is there a kitchen knife that works?" ”

Hoarse and low like a grim reaper's tone: "If you don't understand the words, just ask, and read it in 7 days." ”

"I don't want to learn, I can beat invincible opponents with my fists, I have the protection of my ghost brother, and no one is afraid."

"Roll"

I'm not afraid of hunger, I'm afraid that this kind of person is not human, ghost is not a ghost, in this high-intensity and terrible rhythm of life, in order to deal with her emotions, I thought I could get away with it, and the next days were even more miserable.

Every day, after I finished giggling and playing in the courtyard, I always dragged my scarred body and dragged a small broom to the library to clean up and read all kinds of books under the threat of Mama Wang until midnight, Bai Wei always had time to gently accompany me to paint and read.

Bai Wei often can't be with me for too long, she often keeps the stove by her side, often pale, panting, usually when I go to the wooden house to clean at night, she is not in good spirits and snuggles up on the chaise longue, I ask her why she is always sick. She smiled and didn't reply to me.

The days went by like water.

I found peace of mind in the wooden house, when there were no fights and work during the day, habitually loved to spend afternoon after afternoon in the library, forgetting the elusive trace of the young woman, shrinking in a corner, or leaning or lying or lying on the comfortable position to read, putting the book on the ground horizontally and vertically, so that I could pick up and read, and read without sleep and food, this is the first time I have loved something since I can remember.

The chaos of the world is separated from the doors and windows. This is a window that God has opened for me after closing a door and remembering my 15-year fate of rags.

The boundless youth no longer flaunts its strength with bloodshed, and its wisdom and imagination can be abundant.

The terrible young woman didn't know which god bar was on the wrong line, and when Bai Wei fell asleep, as if avoiding her, the eagle grabbed the chick and lifted me to another empty room.

I was stunned, it was too obvious that she avoided Bai Wei, she obviously had bad intentions, her face was full of conspiracy, I didn't dare to cause trouble, because she would do it at any time when she watched it.

She looked me from head to toe like a proofing static object, and while comparing my size with her hand, she said to herself, "Tsk, tsk, God appreciates food, and she is born with a fox spirit." No matter what kind of clothes, rough clothes, no matter how comb your hair up or down, you can't hide your own national beauty, if you teach you to charm the skills and demeanor of men, you can catch dragons in the deep sea. ”

The sadistic style taught me how to please men, how to get rid of men; How to dance, how to smile to show a seductive look, how to use figure-eight steps to make the wide skirt swing and make people fascinated, how to raise your eyes to look at a man's face, and then immediately lower your eyelids, eyelashes hurriedly blink a few times, in order to show a heart-pounding look, learn to pretend to be innocent and lovely in front of a man, and hide the cunning wit.

Of course, I am also happy to study tirelessly, so as to pass my chaotic life; Or to inspire me to yearn for the world other than the orphanage, and perhaps my latent instinct is the * instinct inherited from my mother, as described by the dean's grandmother.

For some reason, the green woman began to teach the green gang that I had never heard of and understood. She said cautiously: "If one day, you don't belong here, the outside world is the world of the rivers and lakes, the rivers and lakes are far away, life and death are a promise, in the rolling red dust of the year, the Qinggang and Hongmen are incompatible." ”

"The ideal realm of the Qinggang is the so-called unity and friendship, everyone has food to eat, everyone has clothes to wear, in order to achieve this state, to maintain the survival and solidity of the organization, there is a very strict discipline and family law. You have to memorize them one by one. ”

She gave me three books about the Green Gang, "Ten Gang Rules", "Ten Precepts", "Nine Prohibitions and Ten Prohibitions" and "Ten Prohibitions" for teachers and apprentices. The least disliked is like a violator: the light one has three knives and six eyes, and the heavy one has nine knives and eighteen scars, and he has to poke the thigh with a knife. In severe cases, the death penalty was to be tied up with stone slabs and thrown from the boat to the bottom.

After torturing me to memorize these books, he began to teach me the secret that the members of the Youth Gang must master, that is, the "Three Gangs and Nine Generations", which is the code code for the members of the gang to connect with each other.

She was as fierce to me as an enemy, carrying my ears and back, fierce like a female ghost: "I must finish memorizing it, master this "three gangs and nine generations", and I will have a pass to rely on the green gang to run the dock." When you get to the rivers and lakes, when you meet a gang, you only have to answer the "three gangs and nine factions", you will be recognized as your own person, and you will be treated politely by the big brother at the dock, entertained with food and lodging, and will send the travel fee to the next pier before leaving. ”

I was about to cry in pain, "Where are the rivers and lakes, can I get out of this hospital alive?" It's blind to tell me this. ”

Qing Po was extremely patient to tell me about the origin and history of the Qinghong Gang. The Hong Gang was first derived from the Heaven and Earth Society, the Triad Society, and the Elders' Association, and the Hong Gang was named after Zhu Wuzhang's year name Hongwu, and 3820 is another name for Hongmen, which is a huge national non-governmental organization, with many tributaries, all of which are authentic to Hongmen. It is tightly organized, with many internal rules, collectively known as family law, and violators are punished with capital punishment to three knives and six holes, and forty red sticks. The Green Gang was established after the Hong Gang, the Green Gang is also called Jiali, and the Youth Gang is called "Jiali", it has a famous saying that "there is no reason to go all over the world and you are not afraid, and it is difficult to move an inch without reason", which is the pass of the rivers and lakes, society, and all walks of life. The members of the Hongmen are brothers; The gang is a master-apprentice relationship between seniority, and the gang rules are more perfect than Hongmen, including ten gang rules, ten prohibitions, ten precepts, filial piety rules, learning law rites, code codes, etc., the gang rules and their grandfathers, and the details of the family background are all written in the booklet of the gang, called "the bottom of the sea".

I listened absent-mindedly, and then was picked up by the green woman, "Write it down!" ”

"This is your life." The young woman stared straight at me. I'm scared of the bowed bird.

Gradually, I was no longer as afraid of this young woman as hell. The library gradually became my temporary safe haven, and other children abruptly stopped at the station door; There was also a bold oil four chickens teamed up with a five donkey to try to break in, but the result was thrown out like a chick caught by the green woman eagle, I twisted my ass and slapped my ass proudly behind her, Bai Wei pointed at my obscene appearance with shame, and as a result, I was also pressed above my head with a thick book because of my frivolous behavior, leaning against the wall, and practicing motionless for two hours.

Although Bai Wei and I, Brother Ghost and I, and me and the bastards are in the same orphanage, and they know each other indirectly, the two worlds have always been on their own tracks.

During the day, I was busy "managing" these bastards with the ghost brother like the "Demon King of the World"; Busy "guarding the turf." ”

I went to the library at night to be with Bai Wei, reading all kinds of books without sleep and food, indulging in the depictions of the outside world in the books, Bai Wei would describe her infinite longing for her cousin from time to time: "When I return to Shanghai, I will be like a jellyfish, always clinging to him, surrounding him, and refusing to let go of him." Like a jellyfish, it is elastic and extremely soft, and it often changes its appearance for him to suit his hobbies, to suit his willfulness, so that I can also defend him from other warblers and dancers coming to him. ”

I always hit her because I couldn't understand her moth complex: "What you think and do is for him, he is comfortable, he is happy, do you feel happy?" Is it fun to follow everything and completely ignore yourself? ”

Bai Wei is immersed in her love world and can't extricate herself. Of course, it doesn't affect our friendship.

Half seawater, half flames.

Sometimes it's chaotic, sometimes it's as quiet as water.

That year, I was 15 years old and Brother Hu was 19 years old. Bai Wei is 17 years old. Namiantang, who has been away for a year, is 20 years old.

Before leaving, Bai Wei and Mama Wang also left, and before she left, she gave me an address: No. 33 Tianshui Road, Shanghai. and a booklet about the "bottom of the sea" of the Hongmen Green Gang.

Two years have passed.

With the appearance of a severe frost, the weather suddenly turned cold. A sudden natural disaster struck, the food shortage swept the whole country, our small mountain village can not be spared, the rations are reduced day by day, every family can not open the pot, and gradually the village does not even have a livestock, a poultry, a stalk of corn left, how to get food is a huge survival problem for the whole village and the county.

There is war beyond the orphanage, there is another world. But in the orphanage, neither the war nor the other world exists, except in the memories that come to mind, and when these memories break into the mind through the gap of exhaustion, they must be driven away. The needs of an empty and half-empty stomach have been relegated to the back burner by the outside world, and life has come down to two interrelated concepts: food and how to get it.

Food! Food! I can suppress my sadness, but I can't suppress my hunger.