Perhaps it was determined that she really did not have the right to be a mother, she suddenly felt that all her insistence was meaningless, and the rumors of haunting in the palace intensified, but she had no strength to deal with it, and at the moment before all the support of her body was withdrawn, she fell asleep.

She has never hated the queen like she does now, hates the queen, hates Concubine Yuan, hates them for taking away her only child, and even ruthlessly takes away her power to be a mother.

Yes, she admitted that she really wanted to kill the queen and Concubine Yuan, avenge the child, avenge Qinghe, avenge Qimo, and avenge them for taking away their fertility, she knew that now she held the power to govern the harem, if she wanted to, it would not be difficult for her, but not to mention that the queen is pregnant now, even if she is not pregnant, she can't do it.

Maybe it's my shameful kindness that has killed so many people, and likewise, it has also hurt myself......

She gave the order to speed up the repair of the palace, and she was paranoid about isolating herself from the splendid palace in such a way, thinking that she would be able to escape the place where she had lost everything, but how could she escape......

"Niangniang, it's time to dress up, the emperor said that the lotus flowers are blooming, and we will hold a banquet in the imperial garden at night to enjoy the lotus together."

She smiled bitterly, heh, the emperor has also begun to work hard for the stability of his harem, why do you want her to go? Her current mood is too uneasy, how can she appreciate the elegant and indisputable lotus, she is so messy now, how can she appreciate the lotus that is out of the mud and not stained.

But after all, she has to go, if she doesn't go, she will be criticized, and she can no longer be the self she wants to be......

When she arrived, all the concubines had almost arrived, even the queen and Concubine Yuan were also present, she didn't know how sharp her eyes were at that time, with such a strong hatred, such a strong mourning......

Just a glance, but the queen and Concubine Yuan were stunned.

But after just such a glance, she changed her face to a habitual smile, and said slightly: "See the queen mother!" ”

Feeling the change in the person in front of her, the queen leaned back, forgetting to tell her to be flat, for a long time, until the emperor cast a displeased gaze, then returned to normal, and said with a smile: "Sister Guifei, hurry up." ”

Her seat was with Concubine Liu, seeing her turn around, she got up to greet her, she smiled faintly, and pulled Concubine Liu to sit together, for her, this is already the most intimate action, the two chatted a few words leisurely, but felt a torch-like gaze, she also looked at the owner of this gaze, she clearly saw that the eyes were warm tenderness, and even a trace of soft pity.

Pity? Maybe the emperor already knew about her summoning Imperial Doctor Jiang in the afternoon, so he gave her such a pitying look.

At this time, the bright moon has risen, the bright moonlight shines in the imperial garden, bright as day, on the branches above the head, there are lanterns covered with red gauze, the light and moon shadows, everywhere are the shadows of the clothes and temples, those concubines who usually have no makeup finally found a reason today, so they all bothered to dress themselves up in flowers, and looked at the man in white clothes in the hall with a warm smile.

She turned her face away from the pool of water, not allowing herself to see such a scene.

Against the backdrop of the clear water and green leaves of the pond, under the moonlight, the slim lotus flowers are so peerless and independent, and they bloom so calmly. Like a white cloth standing alone in a high pavilion to watch the scenery**. It is naturally white and clean, without a trace of fireworks in the world.

In the hot summer, only they look so refreshing and feel so cool.

May in my life, I will be like an elegant lotus, graceful and meticulous, calmly blooming, without contention or demand, and reincarnation quietly.

She used to silently recite this once favorite sentence, but found that she was already getting farther and farther away from this self.

Everywhere the breeze passes, a ** green wave rolls in, the stalks hold the flowers standing on the water surface, swaying leisurely in the wind, and a little pink and white dot the green of the field.

The air was filled with the faint fragrance of lotus flowers, an indescribable pleasing to the eye, and a faint fragrance enveloped her, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath.

Suddenly, I remembered the man dressed in lotus incense, Nan Ruochen has been out of the palace for so long, I don't know if he is okay, I don't know where he went, I don't know if he will be happier after he gets the freedom she wants......

Suddenly, I remembered that Nan Ruochen said to herself: "Lu Nuoxin, remember to be happy......

But she seems to have forgotten what kind of arc is a real smile, what kind of mood is really happy.

Feeling a trace of cold gaze, she frowned and opened her eyes, and followed the gaze, but she was a talented person, and she noticed the smile on the corner of her mouth that did not know the meaning, she didn't understand what kind of idea the woman opposite her who said that day "The concubine will make the mother believe" had in her heart.

And in the palace, the queen who has not seen the emperor for a long time has a graceful and generous smile on her face, and the emperor is also caring and considerate to her, as if she is really just because of the fetus and closing the door to the Kunning Palace all day long.

The queen naturally will not let go of this opportunity, serving tea to the emperor for a while, and holding the emperor's hand on her stomach for a while, feeling the fetal movement of the child in her womb.

At that moment, she saw that the emperor's eyes showed true expectation and love, he also likes children, and the white fog in front of her blurred her vision.

On a summer night, a cool breeze blew away, brushing away the dust raised by the summer exposure, and also made her heart clearer.

"What's wrong with the Queen?" The emperor's concerned inquiry came from his ears, and everyone turned their heads to look.

After the queen trembled slightly, she hugged her arm: "It's okay to be a concubine, it's just that the night breeze is a little cold, and when I came here, I sweated a little and was a little cold." The queen took the opportunity to move closer to the emperor.

The emperor hugged the queen into his arms, his tone was so soft, and said: "It's careless, the queen is pregnant, it is not appropriate to stay outside for too long, bamboo mushrooms, quickly help the queen to return to the palace." ”

The queen's face was stunned, and she said with a smile: "Your Majesty, no...... There's no need, just let the bamboo mushroom go back to the palace to help the concubine get a cloak. "I finally saw the emperor, how could I go back to the palace so early.

The emperor smiled and said, "It's okay, let's go with bamboo mushrooms." ”

Everyone resumed the excitement at the beginning, and some people even suggested that they should pick some fresh lotus pods to taste them, and the emperor also smiled approvingly, and ordered the eunuch to go down by boat to pick lotus pods.

She looked at all this with an indifferent face, looked at the excitement of everyone, looked at the innocent or charming but false smile on everyone's face, and suddenly felt that she was so out of place in this world......

The excitement is all theirs, and I don't have anything......