The hatred of the past
After chatting with Zhou Ju, Jin Yi took the last shuttle home, the time was just nine o'clock in the evening, and the sky was snowing heavily.
The snow was lit up, and the already dim world gradually became brighter.
Jin Yi looked at the snowflakes outside the window, and her thoughts flew to ten years ago.
At that time, she was in her second year of high school, but she had no intention of studying all day. Because when she was a freshman in high school, she told her uncle the only secret.
She fell in love with a boy in the next class.
Her uncle was also the only person in the family she could trust.
"Tell me, why do you like him?"
"You're handsome."
"It's too common, I'm handsome, you have to talk about some personality charm."
"Personality? Haven't touched it yet? I heard that his popularity in junior high school was not bad, so there is no problem with his personality. Jin Yi looked at his uncle who was texting back.
"Uncle, can you have a snack while I'm talking to you?"
"Huh? Oh, you have to be careful. "Anyway, keep texting back.
Jin Yi leaned over and looked, "With whom?" Do you have a girlfriend? ”
"What's the matter, work matters, by the way, I heard that your uncle and I have entered a new department?"
"I heard that, what are you doing?"
"It's similar to the kind of serious crime team, but I've heard that I will come into contact with a lot of confidential cases, so the secrecy is very strong, and I can't go home as often as I used to in the future."
"You men are really unreliable, you are busy with work, and you don't care about your family."
"Why do you talk like that, as if you have another man in your family?"
"I don't want my mom to find a man anymore, the old thing is finally gone, you don't know how annoying his children are."
"Although I don't approve of my sister's lifestyle, she really doesn't have a hard time. She married someone so old, didn't she marry you for better living conditions? ”
"For my own good, I'm afraid that my classmates will talk about me. What if someone laughs at me? said that your mother married an old man in his seventies for money, and after a few years of marriage, the old man died and earned some inheritance. Everything......"
"But I heard that Uncle Liu is good to you."
"Yes, if he doesn't sleep with my mother, I still respect him, after all, he is so kind."
"Forget it, forget it, don't mention it, now there are no people. By the way, how handsome is the boy you like? Is there any handsome for me? ”
"Please, Lao Chen, you really think you're handsome, that is, we have a good relationship, so I see you pleasing to the eye. What about him...... Think about it, there are so many beautiful places, I really can't tell for a while, wait until I get him done and show it to you. ”
"No problem, but is it going to be next year, after all, I will go back this time, and I will have to celebrate the New Year next year when I come back."
"That's fine, don't think too much about us these days. After all, you are alone, you go to work every day, and you are empty, lonely and cold! ”
"Little cub, don't I still have you?"
"That's natural, but first of all, don't tell my mother when I show him to you. Also, remember to invite the two of us to dinner, because you want to eat expensive food. ”
"No problem, your uncle's salary will be much higher than before in the future, and he won't have time to spend it, when the time comes, I will invite you to eat whatever you want."
"A word is a certainty, lie and be a son."
"It's against you, little girl."
When Jin Yi thought of that time, she couldn't help but raise the corners of her mouth, it was the last good memory of the two of them.
The last time we saw him was a month before his accident, one night, Jin Yi had just come home from evening self-study. The lights in the room were not turned on, and under the dim vision, she saw a person in the room, she was so frightened that she wanted to scream, and suddenly found that it was her uncle who had returned.
"How are you? What the hell, mysterious. Jin Yi thought he was teasing her, and she pretended to be cautious.
"Xiaoyi, you remember, don't believe anything you know in the future. But don't let others see that you don't believe it. ”
"What you say is a bit esoteric, no, you ......" Jin Yi didn't think about anything else at all, so she burst out laughing.
The uncle smiled when he saw her, and he laughed himself. She remembered that day, his eyes were extraordinarily bright, "Don't tell anyone about today." Protect yourself, I'm gone. ”
When Jin Yi didn't react, he found that his uncle had secretly left the house.
During that time, Jin Yi didn't take this matter to heart, but she didn't tell her mother, she always felt that her relationship with her uncle was more equal. There is no reason for adults to know about things between children.
never thought that it would become the biggest secret in her life.
A month later, the Secret Case Bureau came with a message and asked the family to go.
My uncle was one of the 22 victims of an accident when an explosion occurred in an illegally produced gunpowder factory.
At the scene of the accident at that time, there was also a member of the Secret Case Bureau, who was a colleague of his uncle, whose name was Li Ke.
Jin Yi remembered Li Ke's name, and at this time, she suddenly remembered her uncle's farewell that night.
"Don't believe it, but don't let anyone see that you don't believe it." This sentence, for so many years, has always been hovering in Jin Yi's mind.
Before her uncle's funeral, Jin Yi came home one day and saw a package on her desk. Mom and the aunt at home both said that no one came, and since then, Jin Yi has never seen the mysterious person who delivered the package.
Disturbed, she didn't tell anyone about it. Including the two closest to him, his mother and his boyfriend at the time.
At the time of the funeral, many people came, and they all came to bid farewell to the martyrs who died bravely.
Only Jin Yi knew that the accident was not the real cause of his death.
All they brought back from the Secret Case Bureau were ashes.
But in that day's package, shocking photos and autopsy reports that she didn't understand told her that her uncle had endured inhuman torture before he died.
The cause of his death was not an explosion, but an abuse to death. There were multiple blunt force injuries to his skull, and from the photographs, his body was charred, but the air nails in his legs were still visible. The report said that there were eighty-two in all.
Jin Yi cried and burned the evidence, because the mysterious person left a message telling her that those who harmed him, ordinary people like them could not afford to provoke for the rest of their lives.
Jin Yi also hated this mysterious person, if she couldn't be provoked, why did she let her know these truths?
The bus arrived, and there were still a lot of people on the street at ten o'clock. These people don't know her, and they don't know the secrets of this girl's heart.
Of course, she is not a girl now. But for so many years, she felt that she hadn't grown up, because she grew up instantly after her uncle died.
After her uncle's death, her personality became extremely strange because the hatred and resentment in her heart were too deep.
Later, she learned that she had severe bipolar disorder.
During the manic episode, she felt that she was at the pinnacle of her life, and that she would definitely become stronger in the future and avenge her uncle.
During the depressive episode, she fell close to the unfathomable abyss, and no matter how hard she tried in her life, she would not be able to reach that height to avenge her uncle.
Wandering between the two, she had suicidal thoughts many times. Although death was something she hoped for, she was unwilling.
So she chose psychology in college, while wanting to rely on professional knowledge and resources to let her sick self live one more day, and on the other hand, she wanted to choose a way to find out the truth of the year.