It's as if once people get older, they become babbling, saying the same thing, doing repetitive things.

After taking care of some affairs at home, Zhao Xun and his father's guitar were ready to hit the road.

Before leaving, my father went to the supermarket to buy a lot of fruits, but it was like going to visit relatives.

Seeing Zhao Zhao's puzzled eyes, his father explained:

"When I just got married to your mother, the family was poor, especially when it came to the New Year, it was the most obvious, I remember one time, I went to someone's house, and saw that the table was full of apples and oranges, and I also went home to laugh at people, isn't it just the New Year, what fruit do you eat?"

In fact, Zhao Xun also lived a hard life, in order to be able to complete his studies smoothly, Zhao Xun worked day and night after class.

But when it comes to comparing it with the experience of my parents' generation, there will still be a lot of differences.

After all, since Zhao Cheng's death, the life of the family has indeed gotten better and better.

"In the years when my mother was here, the family must have had a hard time!"

"Bitter, bitter!"

"Although the current society is good and our family has money, she is gone."

"Maybe that's what people say, don't be blessed to enjoy it, if your mother is still here, she won't necessarily believe it, and during the New Year's holidays, our family also began to eat apples."

Zhao Xun smiled bitterly.

"Are you like those people, you blame me, and even hate me, because I didn't let your mother and daughter recognize each other, so that I didn't even let you go to her grave later."

"Blame you? Hate you? Hehe, what's the use of that, everything has already happened, what should have come, what shouldn't have come, everything has already come. ”

"I didn't expect such a day, let alone that she would have such a bad disease!"

After so many years, Zhao Xunxin has no hatred, but he will also look at his father's aging body, and he will slowly become relieved.

But when his father brought up the past, Zhao Xun couldn't help but say what he thought.

"A woman who has no husband and children, what kind of weapons can she use to resist those so-called bulls, ghosts, snakes, and gods? A rural woman who is returned by her in-laws, even if she is spitted by the neighborhood, she can be drowned! ”

"yes, maybe the decision I made in the first place will always be wrong in your eyes, right?"

"After graduating from high school, I went to my mother's hometown with great interest, but the people in the village actually said that she died, do you know how surprised I was at the time? After inquiring for a long time, I heard an old man in the village say that when my mother died, she couldn't even drink saliva, and there was no one to take care of at home, and I felt that this was my biggest failure as a daughter! ”

In fact, my father has always known these words buried in Zhao Xun's heart.

It's just that my father didn't know that the little bit of complaining turned out to be such a deep resentment later.

"I'll spend the rest of my life repenting."

These were the last words my father said before leaving.

I think it's very strange to think about it, Zhao Xun's remaining records on this page turned out to be zero?

In order to spend a few less money, Zhao Xun and his father got up early the next morning to catch the car.

At four o'clock in the morning, Zhao Xun woke up his sleeping father.

I don't know if it's thinking about it in my heart or thinking about it every day.

When my father woke up, he was talking about his dreams last night all the way.

"Your mother came back yesterday, her temples were gray, and she also said that she dyed her hair when she went out, and she dyed it indiscriminately, and it was not expensive, but she was afraid of making people laugh when she went out, and she was afraid of losing face to you!"

Mother originally occupied the softest place in everyone's heart, no matter how resentful Zhao Xun was, he would eventually forgive.

It's just that Zhao is looking for this life, except for this weed-entangled grave, she no longer has a mother!

Even Zhao Xun will never know what his mother was thinking at the end of her life at that time?

In her heart, did she ever think about the little girl who was ruthlessly abandoned by her back then?

She'll cry when she's waiting to be fed, and she'll be helpless when she's being bullied, but what's the use?

The word "Mom", Zhao Xun couldn't call it anymore.

Several times, Zhao Xun was thinking:

"God, did you send me down to earth so that I could live? Or is it a catastrophe? ”

Why is her life so rugged?

Due to the frost, the road surface was slippery, and the driver drove the car very slowly.

In addition to Zhao Zhao's father and daughter in the car, there was only one family left in the back seat.

Zhao Xun vaguely heard the snoring of the children one after another.

"Don't let the child sleep, when it's time, you should catch a cold when you get out of the car!"

An old man with a deep voice spoke.

"Don't be afraid! Dad, boy, you have to be raised like this, you are afraid of cold and heat now, and I am afraid that you will not be able to become any climate in the future. ”

Presumably, this woman with a slightly emphatic tone in her words is the mother of a sleeping little boy.

Because in this world, except for my mother, there will probably never be anyone who can say such things again.

Sure enough, before the breath on the car window melted, the family was ready to get out of the car.

Before they left, Zhao Xun couldn't help but glance back.

I thought it was an eight or nine-year-old boy, but I didn't expect that the child was almost still in swaddling clothes.

Zhao Zhaozheng was fascinated, and he didn't notice that the child's mother had been staring at her for a long time.

At the moment when they looked at each other, they saw the child's mother cast a sweet smile at Zhao Zhao.

Probably this is the most suitable way to communicate between women.

Sometimes, you don't need to say anything at all, in fact, you just need a look to understand.

Finally arrived at Zhao's mother's hometown, and his father said:

"The last time I came here was 30 years ago, when I came to propose marriage, it was a good family at the time, but now it is dilapidated."

Most of my grandmother's old house had collapsed, and a small green tree had grown on the skin in the middle of the main house.

Standing outside the door, I couldn't help but feel sour in my heart.

Zhao Xun gently pushed the gate of the courtyard, and the door opened, as if the big copper lock hanging on the door had become an ornament.

"Let's go inside and have a look!"

When his father's voice fell, Zhao Xun walked in with his father.

Although it was the hometown where her mother gave birth to her and raised her, to tell the truth, Zhao Xun felt a burst of panic in his heart for a moment.

Therefore, Zhao Xun followed his father closely along the way.

At that time, people's patriarchal thinking was very serious, and my grandmother was looking for such a child, so after Zhao Zhao's mother died, the family gradually declined.

There was no heir to that house, Zhao Xun was still young at the time, and when he divorced, Zhao Xun followed his father, and the house naturally belonged to the state.

After coming out of the courtyard, Zhao Xun borrowed the memory of a few years ago, which led his father to his mother's grave.

Zhao Xun knelt in front of his mother's grave with his father, which surprised Zhao Xun.

Zhao Xun was in front of his mother's grave to tell about the recent situation at home, and at this moment, his father suddenly got up and said:

"You walk around, and I'll be alone."

Zhao Xun looked at his father at the grave, standing there tremblingly, and Granny Feng blew the stack of paper money tightly held in his father's hand.

Father knelt on his mother's grave, yes, this scene is Zhao Xun's wish for many years!

But his father knelt on his mother's grave at this time to confess, but Zhao Xun found that he was not as hateful as before.

Yes, how many years have passed, who can say now.

You're not him, so you can't empathize at all.

The sentence in "Old Man's Words" - a slap doesn't make a sound, how much experience accumulation of ancestors has been gathered, Zhao Xun can't be delusional, let alone deny.

Looking at his father, Zhao Xun didn't speak, just turned around and left silently.

Walking and walking, Zhao Xun came to a clearing.

Maybe it's called telepathy!

Imagine what it was like to be a mother decades ago when she first came into this world.

Looking at the tired mother beside her, maybe I wanted to wipe the sweat from my cheeks for her, no, maybe she also shed tears.

I was pleasantly surprised that I came to this world for the first time, strange and familiar.

Later, her mother gradually grew up, and for the sake of her family, she married away from home, and many years later, she returned to her hometown.

……

What a happy thing it was, but why did it end up like this?

Zhao Xun didn't dare to think about it, which made Zhao Xun really distressed.

When Zhao Xun returned to his mother's grave, he saw his father still kneeling there, so he said:

"It's windy here, let's go back!"

"It's not easy to come once, so stay longer if you can."

Zhao looked for his father's resolute attitude and didn't say anything more.

Zhao glanced at the time, and was afraid that he would not be able to catch the last train, so he had to remind his father of the time.

My father's eyes were red, and my father said that the wind and sand here were too great for Mi to open his eyes, and he might not come often in the future.

By the time I left with my father, it was getting late.

Although they hadn't eaten all day, they didn't seem to be hungry.

After arriving home, to Zhao Xun's surprise, his younger brother was sitting at home, and he said in surprise:

"When did you come back?"

"Afternoon."

"Why didn't you call me and my dad ahead of time?"

My father walked slowly, and only then did he just reach the door.

"Who's coming?"

The younger brother hurriedly stepped forward to greet him, but his father was frightened.

"This kid, when did you come back, why don't you say anything when you get home?"

"Dad, where did you and your sister go, why haven't you been at home all the time after waiting for you all afternoon?"

"I'm going out with your sister to run some errands, have you gone back to the building?"

"Hmm."

Hearing that his younger brother had been to the building first after he came back, Zhao Xun couldn't help but be a little embarrassed at this time.

Yesterday, in order to prevent his younger brother from being too worried, apparently Zhao Xun panicked on the phone.

"Well, did you eat?"

Therefore, Zhao Xun had to deliberately change the topic.

"When I came back, I brought some food, cooked food, and warmed it up for Dad."

"Are you going today? Let's not go! ”

"Don't leave Dad, I'm on a business trip here these days, and I'll leave early tomorrow morning."