Liu Jiaqi is Jin Yi's classmate and her attending doctor.

Jin Yi's biggest problem lies in a sense of powerlessness and guilt about being born in the world, unable to cope and tired of coping with life.

Jiaqi once asked her why she had such a strong sense of guilt, and she replied that she had a secret in her heart, and she wanted to save someone close to her, but she couldn't do it.

This situation is often encountered in psychological counseling centers, and it is more common in traumatized people who have lost a loved one.

Many of them want to be nice to that loved one who has left, but they never have the opportunity to do so again.

Jiaqi once had a patient in such a situation, he struggled all his life for his son to live a better life, he gave his son a sports car before his wedding, but that night his son drove drunk and died.

The patient, who was the owner of a small business, had been asleep all day long since his son died, and he had not been able to attend work. In the course of talking to him, Jiaqi learned that he felt that he was not running a life.

Many people with depression don't seem to be very sad, and they behave in a variety of ways in their daily lives, some can be seen to be a little melancholy, some seem very normal, and some even seem positive.

But the common problem in their minds is that they lose interest in life, and feel that life is unmotivated and uninteresting.

Feeling bored with life is the most terrible thing about them, and many people will commit suicide because of it.

This kind of boring life is not simply boring, it contains deeper pain, loss of interest in everything in life, even many things that seem worthy of joy and happiness in the eyes of others, but cannot make them happy in their hearts.

Jin Yi is such a person, if the father who has no son is depressed because he has lost hope in life, then why is Jin Yi?

Her life had just begun, and she hadn't even enjoyed a few happy moments in her life before she sentenced happiness to death.

She has a boyfriend who loves her very much, but because she lacks the ability to love someone, she ruthlessly pushes that person away.

She does not have the ability to receive love and express love, but she is more sensitive to pain than others.

In other words, when she was with her boyfriend, she didn't feel happy, but after pushing him away, she felt a lot of pain.

At that time, she couldn't even sleep all night, and sleeping pills couldn't work at all, so she could only rely on injections to maintain it.

Even if she didn't sleep peacefully like this, night sweats accompanied her, and Jiaqi was always by her side, using her unachieved goal to awaken her last sanity, the motivation that made her want to live.

In fact, what medicine to take, what kind of needle to use, and what treatment method to use Jin Yi knows, but she has never been able to pass the hurdle in her heart, and people with depression need to let go of themselves, and she has never let go of herself.

She is always blaming and blaming herself, and of course, when she doesn't blame and blame herself, her mother will also jump out and keep blaming and blaming her.

The person who makes a woman's life bad is not necessarily her mother-in-law and husband, but also her mother.

Because if the mother-in-law and her husband make the woman's unhappiness reach a certain level, she will choose to leave, and it is a big deal to die and never get along.

But a woman's mother will try to manipulate her all her life, from childhood to adulthood, this mother thinks that she will control her for the good of her daughter, and constantly educate her spiritually.

If two people have different outlooks on life, the mother will be a source of pain for her daughter. No daughter will leave her mother completely, because even she thinks that her mother has been doing good for her whole life.

Jin Yi lay on the bed and thought about it so much before she realized that she had insomnia again, but she couldn't find the medicine in her pocket.

Her mother didn't know that she had serious psychological problems, and even if she did, Jin Yi thought, what she would get would be a fierce sneer.

When he saw Qiao Jinyuan the next day, Qiao Jinyuan was shocked by Jin Yi's dark eyes, "Sister Jin, I seriously suspect that you are not insomnia, but you were punched in the middle of the night." ”

Jin Yi has never liked makeup, but when she heard Qiao Jinyuan say this, she looked at her glasses, and sure enough, her dark circles were serious.

"No way, I just don't go to sleep today."

"It's okay, we're working in turns, you're too sleepy, tell me, and we."

The two went to the city bureau and went to Yu Xin's school with Yang Le.

"We had a meeting in the morning, come and talk to the two of you," Yang Le got into the car of the Secret Case Bureau.

"Today we mainly asked about the students of the school, and a few of us went to communicate with the person in charge of the school first, after all, interrogating the students delayed their class time.

Then a few people, in the class, asked the classmates their impressions of these two people, I was afraid that in front of the teachers and school leaders, the students would be under pressure, and it would be inconvenient to say something.

Finally, after school tonight, it's a good idea to go to a few students' homes and talk to them. ”

After Yang Le finished assigning the task, Jin Yi and Qiao Jinyuan agreed one after another.

Qingshui Middle School is a well-known high school in J City, ranking first in the city in terms of the number of students admitted to key universities every year, and it is also a key high school in the province.

In this high school, students who can't get into the exam need to pay a high sponsorship fee to enroll, so some powerful parents in the city will let their children go to this high school.

What surprised everyone was that Yu Xin's academic performance was very good, and he was not a problem teenager in the eyes of teachers and school leaders.

The teaching director said with a bitter face: "Actually, I have a good impression of this kid, although little boys love to pretend to be cool and handsome, but Yu Xin is by no means the kind of child who has no depth and no principles."

Because of the early love before, his parents also came to school, and they are all very reasonable people, I think the reason for the matter should not lie in Xin.

He is usually excellent in character and learning, and he is a well-known good student in the school, how can he offend people, if someone harms him, most of us teachers will think that he is jealous of him.

Such a good child, he can take everything, and we are very sad when this kind of thing happens.

But after all, students can't be protected at school all the time, especially day students like him, when they leave school, society is so chaotic, I don't know what will happen.

Comrade policeman, have you asked his parents? Could it be that the family offended someone and took revenge on the child?

You have to find out the truth quickly and give the child justice, the students in the school all know that several of them have had an accident, and those of us who are teachers don't know the specific details.

Sometimes when we go to other classes, we don't know how to let our children protect themselves when they go home.

We are really sad that the social relationship between parents can affect children. ”

"How was his relationship with the rest of his classmates at school?" Yang Le looked at the short and fat teaching director.

"It should be not bad, children at this age are impulsive, and they are usually easy to do little things, but he has never bothered me because of this.

It's just that the person is too good, easy to attract popularity, and is targeted by infatuated female classmates, and the girl stalks him, and he comes to me because of love and hate.

Otherwise, this kid can't find fault with it, and he has always been fine. ”

The above is what Jin Yi and others heard, the teaching director's evaluation of Xin's performance during school.