"But I'm no longer in the palace, I'm now in Daliang, and in fifteen days, I'm going to officially marry the Emperor of Liang." Chen Lihua listened to the description of the system, and some yearned, husband and child, diligent and thrifty, and enjoy the joy of pastoral family, maybe the greatest happy life that women can achieve is this. This is indeed what she once longed for, but Chen Lihua understood that all this would never have anything to do with her in the future, so she endured the heartache and reminded weakly.

The system was stunned. Quickly erased "The Black Evil Concubine of the Innocent Official" from the screen, and asked, "What's the situation?" Where are you now? You take me out to find out what's going on. ”

Chen Lihua resisted a little, "As a woman, how can you show up at will?" Now that I am in the country of Liang, if it is because of my audacity and recklessness, the two countries will be at odds, wouldn't it be a misery? ”

The system didn't bother with this tirade. "Who taught you all this?"

Chen Lihua was a little dissatisfied when she heard this rude words, but she still explained honestly: "

What's more, Chen Shilang also said that it was best for me not to go out to avoid upsetting the Liang people.

The system directly confused, "Who is Chen Shilang?" ”

"It is the attendant of Dali Temple who accompanies him, coordinating the affairs of the envoys."

The system was heartbroken when he heard it, "Sister, you are the princess." He's a squire, to put it mildly, he's a part-time job for you. How can there be a reason for the daughter of the group to be instructed by her subordinates. Forget it, don't force it, don't force it. It's understandable that you don't want to go out, can you share your memories with me? I've got to have a way to get a quick look at the world. ”

Chen Lihua feels that she doesn't understand the rhetoric of part-time jobs and groups anymore, and she can't accept this kind of appalling idea, a scholar is respected, and if you are not respectful, you shouldn't be respected, let alone be a dog? Although the system says that she is not an immortal, Chen Lihua feels that only those Tiangong immortals, those places that have already sought great freedom, can raise such "uninhibited" people. Chen Lihua, who was born in the deep palace, grew up in the deep palace, and will die in the deep palace in the future, suddenly envied this kind of life, although rude and invisible, but this fearless temperament is really enviable. Although it was a bit shameful and unacceptable to share memories, when she heard the system say that she could not go out, Chen Lihua gritted her teeth and responded, "Okay." As long as you can't go out."

Before she finished speaking, she felt dizzy, and Chen Lihua felt as if she was sitting on a flat boat, rushing down a turbulent river. Chen Lihua turned her head to look at the stern of the boat, a vague man was holding a penny, it seemed that this was the real body of the system, but unfortunately it was entangled in black fog, and it was not real. The system saw Chen Lihua turn her head and shouted at her, "It's about to start, are you ready?" ”

"Prepare what? ......" Chen Lihua just wanted to ask, and suddenly found that the river had disappeared, replaced by a waterfall dozens of meters high, and her flat boat had rushed out of the waterfall and was hanging in mid-air.

Chen Lihua couldn't feel her heartbeat. She looked at the system to find an explanation, only to see the black figure's snow-white teeth and a bright smile.

"Do you feel like you're dying? That's right! Look on your right, the marquee has appeared! In the sound of huge waves hitting the rocks, Chen Lihua heard the shouts of the system.

"Thank you for taking me back to my memories like this." Chen Lihua, who was already dead, thought expressionlessly, and her eyes couldn't help but look at the huge figure on her right.

When she was born, a frail woman sweating profusely hugged her tenderly and said to the maid next to her, "This child looks a little more like her father." ”

On the day of her death, she didn't cry because she was too young to even know what was going on, and in the midst of a cry of sorrow, she just timidly looked at the adults who were performing hard, waiting for her mother to sit up and play with herself again.

On that day, my mother lay in the coffin all day, and my father did not come.

Soon after his mother's death, his father took him over and educated him for a short period of time, and now in retrospect, this favor may have been the fuse for his own targeting, but unfortunately he was too young and stupid, but he disappointed his father in a few months, and then was sent back. Because I was jealous of this honor, I made a move, because I felt that I had only been given up after only a few months of study, so I was unscrupulous.

Later, there was a sister who took care of herself patiently, and the other maids often sighed because they had met an unpopular master, but she was the only one who took care of herself patiently, even if she was implicated, and never complained.

When I was fourteen, I had my first period. After his father hurriedly glanced at it, he dropped a sentence, "It's time to find a husband, it's better to find it early." And he turned and departed. At the time, I thought I was in a hurry to get rid of this burden, but now that I think about it, it may be implying that I will leave early and be safe.

When he was sixteen years old, the great eunuch sighed and handed the holy decree to him, Chunjin cried on the ground beside him, and he just stared at the door all day, and his father still never came.

Just now, Chunjin was taken away by the great commander of the Liang people, and she just sat in the carriage, covering up the guilt in her heart with useless anger, if she hadn't asked her to see what was going on, she would not have been favored by the commander, and she would not have suffered this fate.

After the play, the boat fell safely to the water below the waterfall, Chen Lihua covered her face with her hands, and tears slipped down her fingers.

In just a few minutes, she looked back on the first half of her life like a spectator. The experience of being a spectator is completely different from that of a person who has experienced it firsthand, and after re-examining half of her life from the perspective of a bystander, Chen Lihua was finally able to discover something that she had not seen before, and she couldn't cry.

"I lived up to my father's expectations, I'm sorry for Chunjin, I've disappointed too many people, I'm sorry." Chen Lihua has never felt that her life has been so failed like now, she has failed others all her life, she has been letting others worry about it, this kind of inferiority complex and guilt have lingered in her heart for a long time, but it has never been as intuitive and heavy as this time.

At the same time, the system around her also looked solemn, worried about this kind of start. "Is there still a market for women's frequencies that have been abusing the master for 16 years? Readers won't be poisoned by this kind of opening directly, right?,I can't save this kind of opening even if I have the power of the heavens.。 The system touched his chin and pondered, the beginning was a bit difficult, and he was scared to quickly go through the stored novels again. Hey,I'm scared to death.,It turns out that it's already the rule of the female frequency that the protagonist can't die well in his previous life.,Some were buried alive.,Some died together.,Some were played to death by a hundred and eight kinds of vicious female partners.。 I've only been suffering for sixteen years, and it's nothing. ”

Chen Lihua looked at the big white ball rubbing her chin with her hand, her expression was solemn for a while, relaxed for a while, and now she started to giggle, and asked with a sob. "You've read the memories too...... Is it okay not to go out now? ”