Chapter 67: Negative Love

"You and I are all staggering in the red dust, like duckweed floating on the water.

Qi Lu raised his head, and there was a faint twitch between his lips. Why should the master be persistent, it is better to forget. ”

"It's the donor who is persistent, and the color is empty, so why not let go of everything?"

"Sure enough, it's not speculation for more than half a sentence." Qi Lu said with emotion: "Before coming here, I was confused. ”

"The demon in his heart is a demonic obstacle, is the Qi donor still confused? You might as well say frankly, maybe the poor monk can solve the puzzle. ”

Qi Luchang sighed and said, "Fortunately, I came here to see you, so I was confused." ”

"Ah, what is the matter, can you tell the poor monk to hear about it?" Fahai came interested.

Qi Lu poured a glass of wine, drank it dry in one gulp, and said, "You have served the gods, and so have I, this is really a funny thing." ”

"The donor can have this insight, and the poor monk admires it." Fahai's eyes are respectful, and this feeling may only be understood between sympathy.

But Ding Xiaolan didn't understand, she shouted: "Please don't play dumb riddles, okay?" ”

"You and I each have different missions, but the key to solving the problem lies with Xu Xian, not us." Qi Lu's hand pouring wine paused, and the remnant sun of dusk reflected his sturdy fingers slightly transparent.

"What the donor said is very true. Becoming a Buddha or becoming a demon, all in his thoughts. Fahai agreed.

"You are Xu Xian when you open your mouth and close your mouth, but he is already dead!" Ding Xiaolan shouted.

"He is dead, but reincarnation has reincarnated him, and now he is among us, waiting for the arrival of the White Lady." Qi Lu looked at her with a sad gaze and some compassion.

"He, he's among us?" Ding Xiaolan was cold, her throat was frozen, and she couldn't speak.

Suddenly, the sound of water outside the boat was loud, and in everyone's sight, a churning white practice appeared on the surface of the lake.

"Speaking of Cao Cao, Cao Cao will arrive, it's really surprising." Qi Lu raised his sword eyebrows, and a hint of surprise appeared in his eyes.

"Yes, she's coming." Fahai said calmly: "Sure enough, as I wished, she came." ”

At this time, except for the painting boat of Xu Jingqiao, there are no cruise ships on the lake, and there are no people on the sidewalk on the lakeshore. Everyone put down their glasses and turned their eyes to the lake.

A crack appeared in the surface of the lake like a subsidence, and a woman dressed in white floated on the surface of the water at some point.

"You...... It's you! As soon as Xu Jingqiao saw her, his face changed suddenly.

The woman came on the waves, and landed lightly on the bow of the boat.

Qi Lu smiled, "Since you're here, why don't you have a drink together?" ”

"I'm afraid that there is no place for the concubine, so I dare not sit down."

"You and I haven't seen each other for a long time, why don't you sit and have a drink together?" Fahai also sighed.

"That concubine is only respectful, it is better to obey her fate." The woman happily took her seat.

Lao Wu got up, and just wanted to add two dishes and chopsticks to her, Qi Lu stopped him with a chuckle, looked at Xu Jingqiao and said, "The host hasn't moved, and the guests are acting on their behalf, isn't it too rude?" ”

"Haha!" Lao Wu laughed and drank all the wine in the cup.

In the midst of hesitation, Xu Jingqiao handed the dishes and chopsticks to the woman, and then sat down nervously. Facing the pair of phoenix eyes that looked directly at him, he looked nervous.

Qi Lu asked, "Mr. Xu, at this moment, don't you want to say something?" ”

"I ...... I ......" Xu Jingqiao stammered suddenly.

A pair of tender eyes stayed on Xu Jingqiao, waiting for his answer, but he was dodging.

"Is there really nothing you want to say?" Qi Lu's eyes showed disappointment.

"I, I'm ......" Xu Jingqiao hesitated, suddenly unable to help himself, his whole body trembled, and he let out a deep sigh from his chest. Because at this moment, there are countless past events that have never surfaced in his memory like a tide into his mind, and those confusions about life and life from his childhood, at this moment, he suddenly has an answer.

Qi Lu said in a deep voice: "Have you forgotten that Master Liu once said that you are the destiny of a hundred generations of marriage?" ”

"I, I haven't forgotten."

"The fate of a hundred generations of marriage means waiting for a lover who is separated by a hundred lifetimes, but she is now in front of you, why don't you want to face it?"

"No, that's not true!" Xu Jingqiao screamed.

"This ...... Could it be that this beauty is the legendary White Lady? Ding Xiaolan suddenly understood, she looked at Qi Lu in a daze, looking for an answer.

Qi Lu nodded silently, Ding Xiaolan couldn't help but lock her eyes on the woman in white who was sitting down, and she was immediately ashamed of herself. Since she was a child, everyone around her has praised herself as a beauty, but she only realized today that compared to the person in front of her, she is just an ordinary girl next door.

"So, Xu Jingqiao is the reincarnation of Xu Xian?" It took a long time to settle down, and Ding Xiaolan muttered again.

"Even you can see it, but the person concerned is running away." Qi Lu still spoke indifferently, but there was a trace of compassion on his face.

"Once upon a time ......" Xu Jingqiao actually held his face and cried like a woman. "When I was a child, I often dreamed that angels were watching over me. Whenever I was sad and in pain, she comforted me like a mother. I always thought it was a dream, and I never thought she would actually appear in reality. ”

"You can't forget it after all." Qi Lu raised his wine glass with a smile and stared straight at Xu Jingqiao, with a satisfied smile on his face. "Sure enough."

"Yes, I can't forget." Xu Jingqiao stood up suddenly, his tears had stopped, and his emotions began to get out of control. "Why, why? Is this the arrangement of fate? ”

"Maybe, I don't know." Qi Lu replied lightly.

"Do you still remember the teacher's teachings, the mirrors are all illusory. If you don't understand this principle, how can you transcend the world when you fall into reincarnation? Fahai shouted violently, although he was righteous, Qi Lu heard a trace of uneasiness from his words.

Xu Jingqiao fell to the ground when he heard this, "Master, disciple...... The disciples must not forget what happened in the red dust...... Have failed your expectations. ”

"Xianggong ......" Bai Suzhen's eyes flashed with hope, and tears flowed down her face.

Qi Lu also felt a hint of relief in his heart, and just when he smiled on his lips, something he didn't expect happened. At this time, Xu Jingqiao lowered his eyes and kowtowed to Bai Suzhen a few times. "I, I ......"

He wept bitterly, in a desolate voice, and then raised his head in the light of tears, and there was silence.

"Xianggong, you ......" Bai Suzhen felt uneasy from this terrible silence.

Xu Jingqiao stood up, his face was desolate and quiet. He looked at the unstopped rain on the surface of the West Lake, and said with a wry smile: "Who am I, is it really that important to you?" ”

The tone is unusually calm, and the calmness makes people feel terrible.

"I just want to be an ordinary person, Xiaojuan has died because of me, do you want to continue the endless cause and effect for a useless man like me?"

"Wronged, wronged!" Fahai sighed, and Bai Suzhen sat like a wooden chicken. There was a deathly silence inside the ship, and no one thought that Xu Jingqiao would answer like this.

Although he didn't make his words completely clear, everyone knew the meaning of his words.

"Xu Jingqiao, no, Xu Xian, you are too shameless!" In the end, it was Ding Xiaolan who roared, she couldn't bear it anymore, and she could no longer control her emotions.

"Fate is really hard to grasp." Qi Lu couldn't say the desolation in his heart, he looked at Xu Jingqiao, and said helplessly: "If we don't try to resist, then what is the meaning of our life?" ”

"The cycle of cause and effect, no one can break free, but it can be ended." Xu Jingqiao's expression was complicated, but his eyes were uncertain.

"Amitabha, you have finally had an epiphany." Fahai was overjoyed, thinking that he was going to return to Buddhism. "Lingshan is not far away, it is only in your heart."

"No, Master!" Xu Jingqiao's whole body flicked up, and his voice said with a firmness that he had never felt before: "Don't tell me those great truths of emptiness and color anymore, I have no relationship with the Buddha!" ”

After a pause, Xu Jingqiao controlled his emotions a little and said, "I said, I just want to be an ordinary person." I don't care who I was in my previous life, whether it is Xu Xian or the people in Lingshan, it doesn't matter to me......" Xu Jingqiao knelt down again, "Please let me go, let me fend for myself in the earthly world." ”

There was a deathly silence in the cabin, the sea was like ashes, and Bai Suzhen's tears couldn't stop flowing.

"Xu Jingqiao, are you still a man?" It was Ding Xiaolan who broke the silence again, and she scolded loudly: "Do you think you are very free and easy, in fact, you are a useless waste, a man who does not dare to take responsibility and is afraid to face reality!" ”

"You name it, I just want to live my life." Xu Jingqiao's eyes were in tears, but his tone was extremely resolute.

"Beauty, shut up." Qi Lu's eyes dimmed, and he suddenly understood why the green snake hated Xu Xian, how could a man with a nest be worthy of the flawless sister in her eyes.

Should Xu Xian be blamed for this, but he is just a microcosm of all living beings, no matter how painful the wound in his heart is, he is afraid to face the reality and hope that time will heal the pain. Those winds and snows, those rains and tears, no matter how unforgettable, cannot withstand the importance of survival.

"Is this the human race you want to maintain, despicable and pitiful, where is the shining point that Hou Yi once said?" A voice suddenly sounded in Qi Lu's heart.

Who, which god is warning me? Qi Lu's expression was grim, and he looked around, but he didn't get any answer.

It was as if the mysterious man had never existed, and the words he had just heard were nothing but his own imagination.

When Qi Lu came back to her senses, she found that Bai Suzhen had regained her composure, and she sat back at the table, her eyes gradually faded, and there was a kind of heartbreak calmness.

Suddenly, a Zen bell came, empty and far away, the sound entered the ears, and the sound broke the soul.

"Master, after all, you are defeated." Bai Suzhen sighed and drank all the wine in the cup.

"Yes, I'm defeated." As he spoke, Fahai's face was aging, and he suddenly aged dozens of years. No, he's not old, he's just getting back to his old self. "The old man can understand the Buddha's principles, but he can't understand people's hearts!"

"Xu Xian's matter is over, but the grievances between us are not over."

"Yes, let's wrap it up today." Fahai folded his palms and recited the Buddha's name.

"It's been a thousand years, and there's still ...... What can't be solved......" Xu Jingqiao lost his voice and stopped abruptly, because no one cared about his words, and no one paid attention to him. Even Bai Suzhen closed her eyes slightly, and there was no sadness or joy on her face, presumably she was already disillusioned in her heart.

Xu Jingqiao stood stupidly stunned, he was originally the master here, but he suddenly felt that he was being rejected like a stranger from afar.