But tonight's Zhao Yan was very different from usual, even if she was angry, he still refused to budge.

He complained to her aggrievedly, "When someone falls in love, they will go to bed in a week, at most a month!" But you've been in love with me for four years, and I haven't even seen your fucking body! It's not that I can't use my left hand, so if it's not for the pleasure of two people in bed, why would I have to spend so much money on a relationship? ”

She looked at him who lost his temper for no reason, as if he was looking at a stranger, in the four years he had been in love, he had never lost his temper like this, and it was for this kind of thing.

She didn't want to quarrel with him, so she said as before, "Zhao Yan, can't we wait a little longer?" ”

Extremely impatient, he asked, "Wait for what?" You tell me, what are you waiting for? Don't tell me, what the hell are you going to do! You just said that you will follow me in this life, so why can't you give yourself to me?!

Ginger oak! It's because I'm going to tolerate you so endlessly, that other men can't even put up with it for a month, let alone four years! ”

knew that he was so angry just because he wanted her, but she didn't want to compromise with him in this situation, she didn't cry or make trouble, and said quite calmly, "I don't want to quarrel with you, you go out." ”

Her calmness once again made Zhao Yan even more annoyed, he showed a frantic and helpless expression, and said a little unreasonably, "Jiang Guoli, why are you always so cold to me?" You don't even want to quarrel with me! What kind of woman am I in love? Is it wood, is it frigidity? Or did you never love me at all, you were just looking for a man who could afford to support you.

Jiang Guo Oak, you are too self-righteous. I won't be waiting for you all the time. If we don't get married and have different rooms, let's break up. ”

As he said this, he slammed the door and went out, and she turned to look out the window at the empty night, with a helpless expression on her face.

She can understand why Zhao Yan is angry, in this environment where falling in love is like eating a fast food, of course he hopes that he and her will develop like that, but she just can't cooperate with him.

He didn't know at all that she was instinctively afraid of all intimate contact, even if it was kissing Zhao Yan, it didn't bring her sensory enjoyment, but torment. No one knew that she was enduring his every touch.

So, even if she agreed to move into this house, she didn't promise to sleep in the same room as him.

She has a psychological disorder.

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The next day, after Zhao Yan went to work, Jiang Guoli went to the hospital alone, she lingered outside the psychiatric department for a long time, but in the end she still did not go to register.

She walked outside the hospital building and sat on a bench in a daze, but couldn't help but take out her phone and search the Internet for the word "sexual disgust".

She actually knows very well that she is sick, she is not like those normal girls, she can enjoy the contact with the opposite sex wholeheartedly, she always subconsciously feels fear and rejection of that kind of intimate contact.

She originally thought that Zhao Yan would be able to give her enough time to overcome all this, however, she still thought about things too ideally. Zhao Yan didn't understand her, of course she would subconsciously think that she was unwilling to give herself to him because she didn't love him.

She knew she should see a doctor. However, she was still not ready to face the scar.