I raised my glass at this point, and I wanted to change the subject, and I really didn't want to talk about the orphanage anymore, because it was too far away for us in the past, or we didn't want to talk about it at all, because they seemed like a very inspirational story, but it seemed to me that it was a disaster in the world.

I said to the old man.

"Old man, thank you very much for taking care of us for so many years, and for taking care of our brother for so many years, these words should not be suitable for me to say, because I am not particularly good at saying such things, and I don't know how to express an emotion in my heart."

"And I don't like to accept this thing very much, others have helped you, so then you know how to be grateful to Dade, so there are some things I may not be able to say, but today I take this opportunity today, I still want to tell the old man what I think about first."

"It's been nearly 5 years since we arrived in this city, and we have experienced a lot in these 5 years, and there have been a lot of changes in these 5 years, but we are really lucky that without the protection of the old man, it is really difficult for us to survive in that city."

"Nonsense, I will take this opportunity today to thank the old man for giving such an opportunity to the brothers, so that they can find their courage again, find their dreams, and find a support point for their survival, I am here to present this glass of wine to the old man on behalf of my brothers, I hope that the old man is blessed and healthy, and he will live a long life forever......"

"I'll do it first as respect!"

Otherwise, I'll pick up that glass and drink it.

I could see that after I drank this glass of wine, they all stood up, picked up this glass of wine and followed the old man to bless him loudly.

"I wish the old man good fortune and good health, and a long life!"

You drink these wines in batches according to my appearance, which can be regarded as a kind of pride comic exhibition, and it can be regarded as a kind of gratitude to the old man.

After I put my wine down, my brothers sat down with me.

Indeed, for so many years, I really haven't had such a forward confession with the old man, in fact, I don't like this way of confession, and it doesn't appeal to me, because I feel disgusting to confess in this very fleshy way.

So today I use a disgusting method to express it, and it is a kind of sincere thing that I want to do from the heart, and I really hope that this thing can become my dream come true.

The old man was happy, as if he accepted all of our remarks, and did not say too much.

Najin Tang also raised his glass to me at this time.

"Why didn't you call me when you drank just now, you should teach me at this time, old man, the two of us should have a toast together, without him we may not have such a rich and interesting thing today, without him maybe we may miss a lot of fun, so today we will toast him together."

When he talked about the husband and wife, my face turned red, what is this, today is just a marriage proposal, this is just my promise to marry him, but the two of us have not entered the cave room, how can we be considered a real husband and wife, because my God, this sentence made my face red.

At this time, I didn't know what to say, so I could only laugh dryly.

The old man seemed to be very interested in Na Jintang's words, and felt very satisfied, especially when he was satisfied with the words husband and wife, and nodded like an hour.

"Okay, okay, don't drink, it's ...... in such a hurry"

Na Jintang took my hand, took my hand and stood up, and toasted respectfully to the old man.

"Father, the child has been unfilial for so many years, so that the father has been frightened for so many years, now the child can finally bear the father's entrustment, and now the child finally has a daughter-in-law, we will be filial to the father together in the future, I hope that the father will live a long life as we dream, and there will be a ...... today."

"I wish my father a long life and a hundred years old......"

It's also a drink of wine with him, my God, I'm very embarrassed to say this just now, I'm really not suitable for getting used to this kind of occasion, saying this kind of true words, I prefer to scold him often in that kind of similar formal occasions, maybe it's the right way for us to cooperate.

Over the years, the old man and I have also come through a battle of wits and courage, and we can also be regarded as knowing ourselves and knowing each other.

Why is the old man happy at this time, for all this, he completely feels that life has reached one of his highest imaginations, and this kind of life has made him feel that life is a very interesting thing, so at this time he smiled so much that his face was not as bright as a chrysanthemum.

"Okay, well, today should be a very happy time, I finally see my child have a daughter-in-law, I hope to add a grandson to me next year, I am the happiest moment!"

You are affected by this atmosphere, maybe today's topic can be opened up and talk freely, so everyone has no scruples about eating and drinking today, no one is obstructed, and no one is persuaded to eat, as long as you can eat, you can let go of your stomach to eat, as long as you can drink, then you let go of your stomach to drink.

The brothers quickly ate most of the food on the table in their stomachs, and they ate it completely, and they kept burping when they ate, which seemed funny and ridiculous.

Mr. John, after all, he is a doctor, so he sees that this situation is inevitably a kind of professional ethics that some professional doctors should do.

"Miss Cat, your brothers are eating too much, you still have to pay attention, sometimes you really ...... Properly control and control it, otherwise you won't be able to control it at that time, because overeating will also lead to a loss of the body...... Nonsense, borrowing brothers, it is better to pay attention to the daily diet in the future, anyway, there will be three meals a day, why do you need to insist on it? ”

The brothers didn't like to hear it, but with this respect for Mr. One, of course, they could not have said anything, and as a result, after all the games of the day, they had complete respect for Miss Anna, and complete admiration for Mr. John.

But that doesn't mean they don't have other ideas about this sentence, because food is really too important to them, so words are completely a part of their lives, and this kind of thing is engraved in their blood.

Zhu Tousan was a little embarrassed at this time, but he wanted to refute it, but he didn't know how to refute him, so he just used his own method to explain one of his positions.

"Sir, you really don't know the question you asked just now, in fact, I wanted to answer you a long time ago when I was eating, because you know that I can't stop at all, so I can only answer you now after thinking of these things."

It may have been Mr. John's turn to wonder what he was asking a lot of questions just now.

"I don't know which question you ask, tell me again, I'm very curious about all your questions, I can't wait to go to the orphanage with you now, I really want to experience for myself what kind of life you were like back then, this may be presumptuous for me, maybe the questions may make people have this unpleasant process, but I really want to know, but I don't mind if you don't tell me, because everyone should have their own privacy."

Oh, my God!

This Mr. John, who is really a gentleman, seems so polite every question he asks, and he feels as if the question he asks does not make people feel that there is such a bad language, and it is completely a feeling of being lukewarm.

The brothers don't take this as an example, thinking that it's just a part of their lives, but now they talk about the past life, there are a lot of longings, a lot of yearnings, and more of a lot of nightmares.

Brothers actually want to discuss, because at this time, there are many topics that have not been seriously discussed for many years, and even because of me, this topic has even become a kind of confinement, or even a taboo, and cannot be discussed easily.

yes, it was a nightmare for me.

Seeing that the brothers looked at me cautiously, they wanted to talk, but they didn't dare to talk, so when they saw my eyes, they didn't know what kind of judgment I would make at this time or what kind of judgment my eyes would make, of course, they couldn't know, because at this time they had to look at my emotions in order to consider whether to continue the discussion.

Maybe I don't know what the brothers have been about for so many years, whether it counts as a nightmare for you, maybe not.

Nonsense, I don't know if it counts or not.

So today I don't think it's necessary to let my brothers confin themselves too much, I don't know if it would be better to talk about it in such an open language, but I don't want to talk about this kind of thing, because I suddenly feel very tired, especially when talking about these past events.

I had a sense of selfishness deep down in my heart.

That Jintang may be too expensive to understand me, he suddenly grabbed my hand tightly, he comforted me, gave me courage, gave me an encouragement, I knew that at this time he would definitely be my greatest support.

And for all these years, I never discussed it with him, because I didn't feel the need to discuss it, and I didn't want to discuss it, because it was a topic that I couldn't open overnight.

Yes, there is always a ghost brother between me and him.

This is an extremely sensitive topic, and I used to hate Najintang very much for this matter, really, really hate.

It seemed like it was slowly disappearing after a few years, and I sometimes gradually understood why he shot at that time, and why he was forced to do that at that time.

Of course, when I came to understand and understand the kind of painful decision he made at that time, maybe he was no less painful than I was.

His pain is beyond my comprehension.

So on this topic in the past, I have never opened up with him to chat, really never, this has always been my realm, I never talk to him about things, he has tried to discuss things with me, and I have always been lightly said in one sentence.

Plainly.

For so many years, all the topics of these orphanages have always lived in my dreams, have lived in my dreams, never discussed with anyone, he is like a kind of story in my dreams.

That story will always belong to me alone.

Forever and ever, I am the only one who can taste the loneliness alone.

It's not that I don't want to share this loneliness with others, it's not that I don't want to share this embarrassment with others, I just don't know how to share it with others, it's just a nightmare.

The past is like smoke.

This kind of past is like a spider's web into layers of webs, and it is cast on my heart layer by layer.

Whenever I reincarnate in the middle of the night, when I have a nightmare, I will always think of that nightmare.

People ask me why I have to eat so hard, I have to eat a lot of things to be full, it's because I don't want to have nightmares, because hunger gives me nightmares, the feeling of nightmares makes me incomparable, it makes me feel like a suicidal place.

Why did I have such a sudden thought, the thought of killing myself, as if I had jumped to the edge of a deep cliff?

I don't know why I suddenly have a thought, maybe when I can't break through a fear in my heart when the material in the nightmare is there.

Sometimes it dawns on me that I recognize a deep feeling of depression that I can't get rid of.

At this time, Najin Tang said that he gently grabbed my hand, not heavy or light, but very powerful.

He was quietly encouraging me, the two of us didn't say anything mysterious, but I felt some support from him, he supported me, any decision to say or not to say is subject to my decision, he will not make any decisions and judgments from the side.

He would have been my brothers, and they had to stop talking on the subject, but they were sullen and drank their wine.

As far as my second dog is cautiously observing my expression, he is a very sensitive matter, and at this time he knows that I am in a very bad mood, so we can't discuss this sentence.

Although we sometimes discuss this topic, the topic of discussion is probably a large space and there will not be only in-depth discussions, and once we reach the in-depth discussion, many times it will come to an abrupt end.

At this moment, if we continue to discuss it, they know that they may already touch my bottom line.

So they watched my expression carefully.

That's my brother.