Chapter 40: Birthday

The moon and stars were scarce, the night was quiet, Jiang Zhengxin ran briskly from the small bamboo path, and stepped on the cold silver light.

She was finally busy with all the things and came to find Yue Yue with joy.

But suddenly she stopped, and saw from a distance in front of the bamboo window, Yue Yue was alone again, lighting a lone lamp, sitting there alone and reading.

Her heart ached, today is his birthday, no one celebrates his birthday?

It's like that again, it's alone, cold and desolate......

I'm sorry, I should have come to you earlier, and I couldn't even prepare a birthday party for you......

After suppressing the sourness in his heart and cleaning up his emotions, Jiang Zhengxin walked over, leaned on the window lattice, and said to the people inside with a smile: "Xiaoyue, come with me." ”

Yu Yue raised her head, met her smiling eyes, and asked gently, "Where are you going?" ”

"Secret."

Jiang Zhengxin walked into the house and took out a purple ribbon: "So you have to blindfold your eyes." ”

Wei Yue looked at her, did not refuse, let Jiang Zhengxin blindfold herself, and then was led by her and didn't know where to go.

The surroundings are so quiet, and the road ahead is unknown, but he still feels very relieved, because of trust and like, he can rest assured that he can give himself to the other party. In the cold night, Jiang Zhengxin's hands are so warm, held by her, her heart is quiet and warm, as if even if she walks in the ethereal darkness, she is accompanied by flowing springs and fine water, birds and flowers......

I don't know how long I walked, but Wei Yue felt Jiang Zhengxin stop and gently untie the ribbon for herself.

At the moment when the ribbon fell, she said-"Xiaoyue, happy birthday!" ”

The purple pupils opened, everything became brighter, tens of thousands of lanterns, brilliant and bright, illuminated the ten-mile embankment of the Moonlight Lake, and the jade mirror-like lake was also filled with brilliant light and shadow.

At the same time, the stream glides towards the sky, breaking the silence with hustle and bustle, and countless fireworks scatter in a row, magnificent and majestic. The fireworks that bloom in the night sky are broken into countless sparks, thousands of fireflies, bright and shining, brilliant, such as the sparkling Milky Way pouring down, the sky is sprinkled with stars and rain into the moonlight lake, the sky and the earth are embellished into a shining sea of stars, Ambilight, brilliant and brilliant.

The cold and silent cold night suddenly became warm and lively.

She said that she would light a lamp for him, and that she would use the brightest thing in the world to illuminate the darkness and dispel loneliness for him, so she did the brightest and most lively thing she could think of.

Ten miles of lanterns, lit only for you, fireworks in the sky, only for you to bloom.

The sound of one after another lingers around, and colorful lights and shadows flow through the world.

Jiang Zhengxin smiled and said to Yue Yue, "Xiao Yue, do you remember? You have given me a night of beautiful scenery on the rope bridge, today is your birthday, and I will give you the lights of the floating world in the world. ”

In the warmth and touching, Yue Yue lost her mind and lost her speech.

If all this is a sweet dream made by himself, then he prays for a long night and a dream for a hundred years.

But as a person who will die at any time, he hopes that she will not be so good to him, and hopes that God will not give him any hope, otherwise he will not be able to resist, and he wants to be with her desperately, and he is insatiable to enjoy the beauty of this world.

Because he liked that person very much, he had thought about being selfish and telling her that he liked her,

But—

Five-year ......

Five years is the longest life limit for me, and if I can't hold on, this may be my last birthday.

To give birth to liking this kind of affection, it is beautiful for others and selfish for itself, and he cannot selfishly exchange the pain of others for his own happiness.

So all the while, he buried himself in a cold shell, not allowing a little light to enter.

It was she who made his heart light, warm, and greedy......

I would like to do everything to protect the light.

But at the moment when the fireworks fell, he extinguished the light in his heart.

So reluctant, so sad......

Closing his eyes and opening them again, he made a decision.

"Don't do anything for me in the future."

"Why? …… You don't like it? ”

"I'm not worth it."

"You're worth it." Jiang Zhengxin shook his head and said a little anxiously, "You are so good, how can you not be worth it?" You deserve the best ...... in the world."

"You like me?"

Interrupting suddenly, he asked something like this.

Jiang Zhengxin was stunned, his eyelashes trembled, and he couldn't hide the panic in his heart at all.

Do you like it? Of course she does, but she never intended to say it.

But since the other party asked, she didn't want to hide and dodge, so even though she was ashamed, she still replied bluntly: "Yes, I like you." ”

"But I don't like you." His voice was a little cold, to hide his guilt and heartache.

He lied, to her for the first time.

When he said "I don't like it", he tried his best and tried his best......

But even though his heart was painful at this time, more painful than any previous time when his heart was broken, he was well disguised, his expression was cold and indifferent, and there was no flaw.

Jiang Zhengxin seemed to be stung by such an indifferent look, she lowered her head and said softly, "....... I know." ”

How could she not know that such a good person could like herself? It's not the luxury of doing all this in the hope that he will like her, just to make him happy, that's all, nothing else......

"I just wanted to do something small for you, all I expected was that you would be happy, and I didn't expect anything else."

Hearing her say such things, seeing her like this, Wei Yue's throat was astringent and tight, and he didn't know what to say,

I'm afraid that if I say it too lightly, I won't scare her away, and I'm afraid that if I say it too seriously, it will hurt her.

But if you can't give her a response and give her happiness, how can you let her pay in vain and do these things that are not worth it at all.

He knew Jiang Zhengxin, if he couldn't cut it in two now, when she knew the truth, she wouldn't leave him......

He didn't want her to waste her time and sacrifice her feelings,

It's better to hurt her for a while than to hurt her for the rest of her life.

So he said something that hurt her even more: "I don't like to owe anyone anything, especially feelings, too much entanglement is not beneficial to you and me, so whether it's friendship or something else, let's stop here today." ”

He looked at her, his eyes resolute, and spoke again, leaving no room for him—

"From now on, you and I don't know each other."

Jiang Zhengxin looked at Yue Yue in a daze, and his heart sank to the bottom of the valley, into the ocean, and into the abyss......

Since then, you and I have not known each other......

I don't know the ......

The mist in her eyes reflected Yu Yue's figure more and more blurred, and she was afraid that she would shed tears in front of him, so that she didn't have the courage to say anything more, so she could only hold back her tears and turn away silently.

I don't know how many steps, or hundreds of steps, maybe he has walked a long way, maybe he is still in his sight, but Jiang Zhengxin's tears can no longer hold back, and finally break the embankment......

The moment the tears fell, the torrential rain came in an instant, just like Jiang Zhengxin's mood, the first moment it was still bright, and the next moment it was stormy.

From birth to the present, as long as she has first-class tears, rain and snow will accompany her, although she doesn't understand the reason, but then she rarely cries, and the weather is much more normal, so she wants to hold back her tears and not cry. But the sadness was so bad that the tears fell involuntarily, and the rain did not stop, extinguishing all the lanterns and washing away all the elaborate lively atmosphere.

Everything has become cold and desolate again......

Her heart hurts, because she heard Yu Yue say that she didn't like herself, and because she couldn't even be a friend from now on.

She also regretted it in her heart, because she had caused trouble to the other party by doing such a thing. She actually just wants to make him happy, and she doesn't want to impose her feelings on the other party and make him like herself, but she still has no intention of causing trouble to Wei Yue, so he is in a hurry to get rid of it and say something like that.

She should do a better job and hide her feelings, at least don't let him be in a bad mood today, after all, today is his birthday, and he is in a bad mood to say such things on the happiest day.

She felt guilty for messing up his birthday and had no chance to apologize.......

The wind and rain are miserable, and the cold is biting.

Yu Yue has been standing in such a heavy rain and has not moved.

Jiang Zhengxin's sad appearance when he left was like the hottest soldering iron imprinted in his heart, making him heart-wrenching and unforgettable.

He felt so guilty that he finally hurt her.

Maybe the prophecy of the demons descending from heaven is not false, otherwise why would he have been hurting others and bringing pain to the people around him. He would rather die than himself, even if he dies a thousand or ten thousand times, as long as those people are still alive, he would rather be trapped in the hell forever and not be reborn, as long as the people around him can be happy.......

Since he has been born to the present, he will only bring misfortune to others, how dare he get close to Jiang Zhengxin and make her unfortunate because of himself......

Since she has been in the Infernal Purgatory, how can she be dragged into this endless abyss......

In this cold and rainy night, Wei Yue stood for a long time, and was frozen to the point that there was no heat, and her heart was the same, very cold.

When Yu Wenjin found him, he saw the embarrassed and injured Yue Yue, and he felt unspeakably uncomfortable, just like when he first found him ten years ago, in the snowstorm, alone, desperate and helpless.

Yu Wenjin ran forward, looked at the handsome face that was paler than white, and urgently asked what was going on.

Seeing that it was Yu Wenjin, Yue Yue shook his head at him, wanting to tell the other party that it was okay, but he didn't have the strength to speak, his eyes went dark, and he fell.

Holding Yue Yue's ice-like body, Yu Wenjin was distressed. He rushed from the Cold String Palace overnight to celebrate his birthday, but what he didn't want to see was like this, regretting why he didn't come earlier? Why are you bogged down by things? How important could it be to be more important than this child? It was he who didn't protect him well and let him get hurt again......