The wind in this town blows away the loneliness and pompousness.

The autumn breeze blows through the branches of the sycamores, and the fallen leaves in the sky come into view, as if they are arms looking up at the starry sky.

Zhao Xun and his younger brother trotted back to their father's small restaurant all the way, they were really happy, there was not even any conversation along the way, and Zhao Xun didn't have time to ask how his brother and Lisa were doing.

If the ending can be expected from the beginning, then I think the current Zhao Xun will definitely not do this, at least she will tell her brother what to do.

Maybe when you were three years old, all you wanted was a piece of candy, and when you were five years old, you started crying and asking your mother for a doll in the window, and then when you grew a little older, you said that you wanted to buy beautiful bags, very textured clothes, and 5cm crystal high heels.

So you have the place you want to go, the people you like, and the idol concert you want to see.

Maybe when you were three years old, you dreamed of a Rolls-Royce, when you were five years old, you dreamed of an Audi, and later when you were older, your dream was to be able to catch the last bus.

Later on, your dream might be to sit near a window on the bus.

Actually, the most important thing is not how capable, how talented, how smart you are, but how much you know what you really want.

It's like until a certain age, you can live opportunistically all the time by overdrawing your body, and by being clever and the luck that God gives you.

However, after a certain age, it is not these so-called good fortunes that can really make you go far, but your self-discipline, positivity and diligence.

Zhao Xun is now all this maybe you can say that you got it by good luck, you will say that she is nepotistic, after all, this job was introduced to her by someone else.

But you can't say that she was able to stay here and work, because she was opportunistic and clever about it.

You may not know that in every morning, every afternoon, and even every dusk, every street, every stream, has the back of Zhao Xun's hard work.

Every time I said that I wanted to invite Liu Fanyu to eat at home, but I never officially sent out an invitation, and today my father happened to prepare a large table of dishes in the restaurant.

Zhao Xun sent a WeChat message to Liu Fanyu and invited him to come over for dinner together.

After Liu Fanyu saw the information that Zhao Xun gave him, he also felt that Zhao Xun finally had a new job, so he agreed to come to their "celebration banquet".

Maybe only Zhao Xun knows how she went from a part-time college student to her miserable marriage and then how she got to where she is today.

She sometimes even feels a little afraid, it turns out that in the face of pressure and reality, how great is a person's ability to withstand pressure, even an ant with an uncertain life knows how to struggle, how to crack into a butterfly.

Zhao Xun really didn't know when she began to read the rules of the adult world, and then how she adapted to those cognitions that deviated from her past.

In the end, how did she learn to endure and save herself, and then she was able to be as orderly as she is today, and no longer panicked.

She can bear all of this alone, and she alone can bear it.

She doesn't know when she started, she also learned that happy things or unhappy things must learn to share and digest alone, and she will never ask others what they want to say again.

Because no one cares how painful the process of getting better will be, and what they just want to know is whether you are doing well enough now.

Just like everyone wants to have a mature, sensible, and decent you, but they don't want to spend a little time and energy growing up with you.

Of course, Zhao Xun also knows how hard this process must be.

But she had to be strong, because life had given her nothing but courage and nothing else.

The wilderness outside the window is not as prosperous as the city, and the crowded train is also heading north.

The younger brother just went home and stayed for only one day before leaving, and this time he went home to take a day off, and he finally said all the good things to the leader before agreeing.

For this day of vacation, my younger brother has been working overtime every day since last week, and he arrives at the company before dawn every day, and he arrives at least half an hour earlier than the people in the company every day.

Zhao Xun sent his younger brother to the bus station, bought a ticket and settled his younger brother into the car.

Although he said that he watched his younger brother leave every time, but today was a different taste, watching his younger brother's car gradually drift away, Zhao Xun's heart suddenly surged with inexplicable bitterness.

She never believed in these old sayings before, but today, she didn't know why such a sentence suddenly popped up in her mind.

After the younger brother returned, the father thought about his younger brother for many days as if he had lost his soul all of a sudden.

Yes, the younger brother is the flesh of the father's heart, from the moment the younger brother was born, the stepmother died of hemorrhage and dystocia, but to this day the younger brother does not know whether his biological mother is still alive.

Zhao Xun didn't know why her brother was not like her, she remembered that she had to chase after her father from the time she started to be sensible and ask her mother where she went.

And the number of times the younger brother mentions his mother is almost rare, and it is even basically zero in Zhao Xun's image, she doesn't know why her brother is like this, and even the younger brother has never asked where his mother went.

It seems that for a younger brother, in a complete family, there may be only one father and one sister.

Sometimes Zhao Xun felt that she was very sorry for her brother, but she really couldn't find any words to describe her mood at the moment.

She thought that if she could swap with her brother, it would be better! Or if the younger brother is the older brother, at least the younger brother can still see his mother.

Zhao Xun is willing to exchange her own first ten years for the reunion time between her brother and his mother, because she has also experienced this hardship, and she deeply understands how a child without a mother has a childhood.

Since childhood, the children around me have grown up singing that children with mothers are like treasures, and children without mothers are like grass, and "Only Moms Are Good in the World".

So whenever she sees other people's children have new clothes bought by their mothers, new sweaters knitted by their mothers, and new insoles given by their mothers, she is very envious.

Zhao Zhao vaguely remembers that when she was 8 to 9 years old, she finally found the first playmate in her life, they played clay figures, played house, played hide and seek, and played villain tiger guns.

Then one day, when they were out playing, a couple of little boys came running.

Those naughty boys picked up stones from the ground and threw them at Zhao Xun's body, they beat her, scolded her, and even some children said that she had a mother, but no mother to raise, and attracted a stepmother who didn't want to see her......

In short, there are all kinds of ugly words, but after all, he was still a child at that time, and he didn't even understand what Zhao Xun meant by the terms of these questions.

She only knew that everyone hated her, annoyed her, and didn't like her.

Later, when she grew up, she realized that what the children said was heard from their adults, and her father was young and would open the bone tube, and he was usually arrogant and domineering, and it was inevitable that there would be some people who were not used to poking at their backbones and making irresponsible remarks.

However, she also wants to have a complete and happy family like normal people, but those happiness and sweetness belong to other people's families, and the only thing she has is misfortune and loneliness.

Gradually, she stayed away from the children who were singing, away from the children who were throwing stones at her, and away from the children who were talking nonsense.

Until now, she felt that she had no friends other than Liu Fanyu, whom she had recently met.

There is no one to share, no one to share happy things, no one to tell sad things, one person eats, one person goes to school, one person goes shopping, one person watches a movie, one person is happy, one person is sad.

Maybe the loneliness in Zhao Xun's eyes is similar to the loneliness you know, but she doesn't think it's a bad thing, and she doesn't feel any difference.

Zhang Chu said that it is shameful to be alone:

I love flowers

I think

There should be flowers in the city

Even if someone takes it off

Flowers should also grow

It's the season of love

Everyone should be friendly with each other

Lonely people are shameful

Life blooms like a flower

We can't allow ourselves to wither

There is no choice, we all have to be in love

The love of flowers is drifting with the wind

Drift away with the wind, drift away with the wind

They don't look for and don't rely on

Very proud

Lonely people, they want to be as beautiful as flowers

A proud heart flutters

Falling from people's feet

Shameful people

They are against life and against boredom

Blighted withered wither......

In fact, in Zhao Xun's eyes, she feels that loneliness is a kind of enjoyment, a habit, a kind of dependence, and this is also a happy life.

Although she has no playmates, no friends, and no so-called good girlfriends, she feels that in addition to her mother, who is far away in the world, her father and younger brother, and even the mountains and rivers and mountains and rivers and mountains and rivers are with her day and night.

It depends on what kind of self-definition you have when you are lonely, today's post-80s, 90s, and 00s like a lot of people, like to be lively, and like to be hilarious.

But there will always be times when we will be alone.

As a result, many people will be afraid of being alone, or even afraid of going to eat alone, walking alone, shopping alone, shopping alone, shopping alone, sleeping alone, and even afraid to turn off the lights alone, in short, afraid of doing anything alone.

However, are these "loneliness" of yours real loneliness?

In my opinion, the real loneliness is that even if you are far away, there is no one to care about you, even if I have a mobile phone to call out, even if I have just written a brush drawing, there is no one to give it to.

Therefore, we must learn to grow up, learn to be lonely, and learn to enjoy loneliness, because there is no one who can accompany you all your life, including your family, your friendship and your love.

In fact, loneliness itself is also a kind of spiritual comfort.