Nothing can be done once and for all.

It's like you've been practicing calligraphy for two years, playing the guitar for two months, and running long-distance for two years.

But in the end, you still can't write words that satisfy you, and you can't play your favorite songs.

At the end of the day, you still have to study hard, work, work from 9 to 5, get up early and stay up late.

I know it's not the life you want.

However, there is still a 60-year-old grandfather running on the court, a square dancing aunt who broke a glass in the park, and a patient with a disease who is still desperate to survive in the hospital......

Life is more than the status quo, but it is content with the status quo.

But you have to believe that in this world, there are really people who are living the life you want, who can work 9 to 5 and can wander the world.

God testifies that Zhao Zhao was really a good girl before this.

No smoking, no drinking, no nightclubs, no early love.

But her fate was destined to be miserable today when she was a child, so she carried the fingers of the neighbors and went all the way to today, she felt that her real experience could now write a tragic world.

But she never seemed to admit defeat, and she always believed that one day, one day, she would stand on the high ground, looking down on all those who had laughed at her.

So she has always been cautious, cautious in her words and deeds, and down-to-earth step by step, she is afraid that one of her carelessness will fall into the hands of others.

However, this world has always followed the "law of the jungle" of natural selection, survival of the fittest, and the law of the jungle.

This survival of the fittest may be the only law of survival in this world.

However, in this small world, all you can do is adapt to it and then overcome it.

If you're not strong enough, how pale would it be to say those generic words of comfort?

Zhao Xun only knows that in every uncomfortable moment of her, there will always be a voice in her ear telling her that she must persevere, work hard, it is not easy to get to today, and she must not give up easily.

She didn't know where the voice that was talking about her going on was coming from, and what the hell was going on.

She only knew that from every morning to sunset, there would always be an angelic voice from the mountains to the study, and then against her tired body.

She didn't even know how long she would have been able to hold out if it weren't for the voice.

So, he turned and walked out into the sea.

The sea is inclusive, and perhaps only the sea can tolerate all of this......

Yes, there is and may be the only thing in this world that is more loyal to you than anything else, and that is your experience.

The days of your life, the people and things you encounter in it, whether they are joys and sorrows, or ups and downs, or feelings and thoughts, will be returned to you in another form.

Know that all this belongs to you alone, and you cannot transfer or pass it on to anyone else, even those closest to you.

This will be the most precious treasure in your life, and if you cherish it enough.

It will also be the surest treasure of your life, and no one will be able to take it away

During this period, you may encounter the warmth of your loved ones, the preciousness of your friends, the sweetness of your lover, the kindness of strangers, and even the redemption of faith!

All of this will be a relief for you.

There are nearly a few days left before his father's birthday, and Zhao Xun is worried about what kind of birthday gift to prepare for his father these days.

The relationship between her and her father has not been so harmonious before, and the family does not have that condition, so every birthday is just a family meal that is more hearty than usual.

But now it's different, Zhao Xun is also at work now, and he has enough wages to pay for their lives.

Watching her father grow old day by day, she also wanted to give her father a good life.

While they're still young, while they're still there, tell them what you want to say.

While they are still young, while they are still there, take them to do whatever they want to do.

Take them wherever they want to go while they are still young, while they are still around.

Let them know that they deserve it!

Their children have grown up and can finally take care of you.

In the end, Zhao Xun decided to take his father out to see, Zhao Xun knew that his father had always wanted to go to the real temple to put a pillar of incense, so that he could kneel down and worship the statue of the god devoutly.

My father has always been talking about what kind of wine and meat have passed through the hearts of the Buddha, but if you want to say that it is faith, it is absolutely impossible to talk about it.

Although some of my relatives and friends believe in Christ and Jesus, my father only believes in himself.

I still remember that when Zhao was 8-9 years old, there was no younger brother at that time, and his stepmother was still there.

At that time, my father was also young and frivolous, and he basically drank every day, so to speak, he must drink every wine, and he must get drunk every time he drinks.

At that time, the wine and meat friends he made could be said to be able to pull a large truck, but because something happened at home later, his father lost his bones again, and Zhao Xun never saw those people again.

But it's better not to see you again.

Zhao Xun remembered that every time his father came back drunk in the evening, sometimes he could drink until 8-9 o'clock in the evening, as soon as he entered the house, the strength of the wine came up all of a sudden, and it was imperative to go crazy.

First scolded people, of course, that is, stepmother and Zhao found it, and then it was yelling, in short, in this family, except for the father who can act recklessly, others can't let you "get angry".

Every time he saw his drunken father, Zhao Xun didn't dare to move when he got home, he stood there along the edge of the window, and he didn't even dare to take out the books in his schoolbag, for fear that the sound of turning the paper would disturb his father.

I remember one time, my father was drunk and crazy, and he beat his stepmother, that is, the kind that kicked and kicked, and the bruises and purples on his body dissipated for several days, of course, Zhao Xun was not spared.

That night, the stepmother ran back to her parents' house overnight, crying very fiercely, after all, Zhao Xun was not biological, and the stepmother left Zhao Xun alone at home, leaving only his father and Zhao Xun at home.

Of course, my father was a drunken mess and didn't know anything.

When his father woke up the next day, he found that his stepmother was gone, so he forced Zhao to find where she went, and sprinkled all yesterday's anger and yesterday's grievances on Zhao Xun's body.

At that time, Zhao Xun didn't understand what kind of serious quarrel he had when he returned to his parents' house.

In the end, I had to be scolded and pulled by my father.

The father felt that the stepmother was gone, and Zhao Xun didn't stop him and didn't tell him, so the father was very angry, even annoyed!

Zhao Xun was very scared at that time, she was afraid that her father would beat her, she was still a child, she was afraid of pain.

There was no trace of the stepmother when it was almost noon, and the father was in a hurry and didn't even go to the bone tube, so he stomped in the house vigorously.

"You are a dead child, you can't even look at a woman, you are really a drag oil bottle, you and I are really special at home, and I have poured mold for eight lifetimes!"

Zhao Xuna didn't know what these words meant, she only remembered that after she was 12 years old, these words basically became a mantra in her father's mouth.

Sometimes Zhao Xun can recite it upside down, maybe that's it, the more he grows up, the more lonely he becomes, and the more he grows up, the more miserable he becomes.

Zhao found tiptoe with more than 20 eggs and went to her stepmother's house, she remembered that there was a big yard in her stepmother's house, and the vegetable garden was full of fruits and vegetables she wanted to eat.

But that day, my stepmother didn't say anything about picking an apple or even a small tomato for her to taste.

After all, he was a child, and when he saw that there was good food at home, he stood motionless in the yard.

Later, he was dragged in by his stepmother.

"You stupid girl, eating and drinking in a daze? And how did you find our house? ”

"I didn't come by myself, my dad brought it to me on a motorcycle, and he was waiting at the entrance of the village."

"Hmph, you go back and tell him, I don't want to go back, I go back and beat and scold, I'm at my mother's house, what am I going to do when I go back with food and drink?"

"Mom, Dad said that the bone pipe is still waiting for the proprietress to go back to open it, and he said that he will never drink again, really! It's true! ”

"Hmph, you little brat, what do you know? This must have been taught to you by your dead ghost dad, right? I don't think you can learn anything better with her! ”

"Alas, forget it, daughter, you just go back and have a good time with others, there is no one who doesn't bump into each other, quarrels are inevitable!"

"Mom, why did I find out that you are a person, why did you turn your elbow out?"

The aunt who was talking was the stepmother's mother, Zhao Xun remembered that she should be in her 40s at the time, she was quite big, with a thick and long braid, and there were already a lot of white hair with two sideburns.

The next time I saw her again, it was at the funeral when my stepmother gave birth to a child and was bleeding.

My stepmother grew up in the countryside and was a native of the countryside, and her mother was also an authentic and simple farmer.

I don't know that they have been farming since their ancestors for several generations, Zhao Xun still remembers that there was a man in the family at that time, with a long beard and thick eyebrows, and a strong appearance.

Later, I learned that it was my stepmother's father.

Because my stepmother was the youngest child in the family at that time, I was lucky to have been able to finish elementary school, and I could be regarded as having a little culture in the future.

Later, he was introduced to his father, and then he got married.

Of course, my father never mentioned why my stepmother was able to marry my stepmother back then, after all, he still had a child.

Zhao looked for her stepmother and didn't mean to leave, so she kept standing on the ground and didn't leave, anyway, she just stood there motionless.

"You go back with the child, it's not easy for the child, you can treat her well when you go back."

"I treat her well, so who treats me well? She's not easy, I'm easy for me? Saying that, the stepmother wiped the tears in her eyes.

"No, what do you think you're competing with a child?" The stepmother's mother added on the side.

"Okay, okay, you can't accommodate me at home, so I'll go, okay! I'll live my own life in the future, I know for myself, whether it's good or not, I can feel it myself, you don't care. ”

"Alas......"

The stepmother was also urging Zhao Xun to go back quickly.

Zhao Xun saw that even the two old men had nothing to do, and her stepmother didn't pay attention to her anymore, although she was afraid of her father outside, on the way in, her father taught Zhao Xun how to talk to your mother after entering.

And now not only did the stepmother not call back, but she also went in for so long.

The father must have been on fire a long time ago.