Some people, when they think about it for a while, will have insomnia; Others, when awake, fall asleep in a daze.

- Qian Zhongshu

After listening to Ma Hualong's story, after returning home and washing, and lying on the bed, the scenes in the story appeared in front of him again, and they were staged in turn: whether it was the cigarette scar on his arm, or the loyal but tragic fate of Lao Hei; Whether it is a cat-faced one-eyed old lady with a strange appearance and strange behavior, or the willful three-wheeled old man who does not follow the traffic rules; Whether it is the loading boss who increases the price at will, or the oil thief who robs wantonly and kills dogs; Whether it is a fake traffic police officer who captures and collects, or a real hooligan who takes advantage of the fire to rob. There may be many factors that contribute to a person's tragedy, but the common injury of a group of blind and chaotic people may cause irreparable pain to others.

Mencius proposed that "the nature of man is good." Xunzi believes that "the birth of a person is inherently evil." "As a teacher, I feel that human beings are born with "sexual emptiness". The birth of a baby is like a blank sheet of paper, and what he will become depends entirely on the education of the day after tomorrow.

Years of habit have made it impossible for me to be indifferent to this story, so insomnia is destined to be an uninvited companion, and in insomnia I can't help but think of a poem I read the other day:

A night when dark clouds obscure the moon

Only a few stars flashed

Dim streetlights

Like thirsty sleepers' eyes

Against my sleeplessness

That question that keeps going back and forth in my brain

Once again, it swept through the heart

If I sell my soul

What price the devil will give me?

Maybe it's low

For my life is as low as weeds

Like a lonely sail in the sea

There is no lighthouse illuminated on the shore

Like a lonely canopy in the desert

There is no source of inhabitation

God's power is limited

The devil will fill the world

Who is talking sweetly

Like a turnip hanging in front of a donkey that pulls the mill

Coax honesty and honesty

Since time is money

Do not give any more to the flesh that has been driven out

Put on a high-sounding coat

And the beautiful name is "dedication"

Since it's all about eating

Don't talk nonsense in a pot

Kametama was destroyed in the coffin

The tiger leaps over the fence

The stone is offered to the altar

Fruit growers work in the sun

Who is tasting its sweetness

The one who wears the wedding dress

There has never been an upright cut

The biggest villain

There is often a kind face

Behind the scenes, I was thinking about who I wanted to look good

Hidden in a pair of small shoes

Who to wear

There are only sleepless people

I have seen the real darkness

It's not that the sun and the moon are without light

You know, there's no darkness

It is more insidious than the human heart

The world's most superb painted skin

It's a human face

This is the handiwork of reality

How can the creation of literature match it

Maybe leave

Even if you go to hell

Become the mistress of the devil

It's better than a lie full of temptation

Look!

Starting tomorrow

I want to be converted

Have a regular schedule

Eat a healthy diet

Live a big old age

Have a healthy body and a distorted mind

Laugh at the old foxes who lied to me and bullied me for being kind

Turned into dust and buried in the earth

And then on a sunny day

I'm going to stare at a look of disdain

Spit on his grave

And roared loudly

Can you still pee on yourself?

Can you still live in the world as before?

You're the best

Right

That's what I'm going to do

A strong body

A twisted psyche

Whoever likes to say it, let him say it

I just think he's a fart

I want to be brave and be myself

Constant suspicion

All unreasonable

Constant contempt

Constantly spit

Reality told me to be silent, but I didn't want to, so I planned to follow my heart and continue to tell the rest of the story, of course, I was told the story when I met Ma Hualong again.