Lin Yi in Wu Fan's eyes: cool, smelly, and very shy.

Lin Yi in Su Can's eyes: This person surfs the Internet, reads novels, plays games, plays video games, and does everything, but the hateful thing is that his grades are so good. What's even more excessive is that this person writes a good word and makes a good article, which is very popular with girls, and he resists girls.

But no matter what the two of them say, Lin Yi still has an important position in their hearts, at least as the most powerful existence among male friends. The three of them laugh and play together on weekdays, and if there is a problem, they will also pay attention to each other, and it is not a problem to ridicule each other. After a long time, the shy Lin Yi and the slightly introverted Wu Fan have gradually become cheerful and lively.

In the middle of the second semester of the second year of junior high school, Wu Fan had just come out of the shadow of the failure of the confession incident. But Su Can and Wu Fan found that Lin Yi also had a problem, and his originally slightly cheerful personality became cold and even indifferent within a few weeks, and he usually didn't communicate with the two of them when he got out of class.

The two felt that Lin Yi must have encountered something unspeakable, and they both wanted to actively enlighten him.

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On Friday night, school ends early, the sun is shining, and the evening of late spring is very comfortable.

Wu Fan invited Lin Yi to go for a walk by the river next to the school, and this time Lin Yi did not refuse.

Most of the time, the environment can change people's mood, and when the weather is fine, everyone is in a good mood; When it rains, everyone is depressed. But there are also times when human power can change the environment, for example, artificial rainfall. Another example is the current Lin Yi, his cold face and lonely black back have ruined the originally warm sunset.

"Are you in a bad mood?" Wu Fan looked at Lin Yi's expressionless side face and asked knowingly.

"Hmm." Unexpectedly, Lin Yi nodded quickly, then turned his face sideways, and smiled at Wu Fan very rarely. It's just that the smile looks more like a painful twitch of the subcutaneous nerves, devoid of any joy or comfort.

Wu Fan patted him on the shoulder, wanting to smile and smile to show comfort, but he didn't expect it to turn into a twitch on the side of his mouth.

"Why not? Is it because of grades? Wu Fan then asked, in the last few times, the results of the three of them have not been very good, and they are often criticized by Lao Zhao.

Lin Yi smiled again, this time it wasn't muscle twitching, but the smile was full of mockery. "You know, for me, the results are just a bunch of unlucky numbers. In my eyes, this string of numbers is not even mathematically cute. ”

Hearing this frivolous tone, Wu Fan laughed awkwardly a few times.

At this time, there was a gust of evening breeze in the distance, and suddenly, the willows were blowing, the river was sparkling, and the large stones neatly placed by the river reflected a warm red light. Lin Yi found an irregular big stone, blew the dust, sat down, followed the water flow, looked at the sunset, and was silent for a long time.

Wu Fan's originally comforting mood was also messed up by Lin Yi's few blows, he took a few deep breaths of the moist air by the river, and also found a stone to sit down. Wu Fan didn't give up, and then asked, "Could it be that you have fallen out of love?" The tone was pretended to be relaxed and teasing.

Lin Yi's indifferent expression showed a hint of emotion, but he quickly covered it up, "I haven't been in love yet, how can I talk about falling out of love." ”

Wu Fan saw through it and didn't say anything, but he couldn't find a suitable topic, so the two were silent, only the river was flowing non-stop, and the sunset was slowly darkening.

In the end, it was Lin Yi who broke the silence: "You actually don't know how painful my heart is. His voice was low and dry. At this time, he had his back to Wu Fan, so Wu Fan couldn't see the distorted expression on his face.

He went on to say, "I think it could be loneliness? Of course, it could be something else, but in short, I just suffer often, for no reason. It's a ...... Well, a kind of sadness that you know you can resist, but will never succeed, can lead to despair. I even feel scared of myself sometimes. So I actually hate writing poetry, or I am afraid to write poetry, whenever I write, my thoughts are out of my control, and the pent-up gloom and loneliness in my heart will explode unstoppably. ”

Wu Fan didn't speak, nor did he turn around, but just reached out and patted him on the shoulder.

Lin Yi was silent for another moment, just silently looking at the river in front of him. The river is red by the sunset, and the river in the distance is not as red as words, even comparable to the thick rouge on the mouths of those Jiangnan women. Nearby, the setting sun glowed golden, staining the sky red, the clouds red, and the cheeks of the people.

"You know, in fact, I envy the two of you, especially Su Can."

"Huh?" Wu Fan turned his head this time and looked at him a little incredulously.

Lin Yi shook his hair casually, threw aside the oblique bangs that had slipped down, and had a little wry smile on his face, "The main thing is to envy his heartlessness, no matter when, he can laugh, face life optimistically, and be able to dispel the dark side in his heart." ”

Wu Fan first thought about whether this sentence was a compliment or a scolding, but after he saw Lin Yi's still painful eyes, he immediately understood that at this moment, he and Su Can were happy.

"Why not give it a try? There are two sides to everything. ”

"I can't."

"Why?"

Lin Yi sighed and asked rhetorically, "Have you heard of Haizi?" ”

"What is the author of "Facing the Sea, Spring Blossoms"? I heard that he ended up lying on the rails. ”

"Yes." When Lin Yi said this, he smiled sincerely, "His spring will stay in Shanhaiguan forever, and his flowers bloom on the smooth railroad tracks, which is a blood-colored mandala in full bloom." His tone was full of admiration and emotion.

Wu Fan listened a little bit and his scalp was numb.

"I now kind of understand why so many poets and writers have chosen to commit suicide. Maybe it's because they're thinking too much about it, so they keep suffering in their hearts until they can't bear it anymore, and finally give up their lives in order to be liberated. And it's also tragic that I think a lot ....... When Lin Yi said these words, his expression was calm and there was a little smile, as if he was talking about a delicious lunch at noon today.

"Enough!" Wu Fan broke off and stood up. Then his voice softened: "Isn't it more and more uncomfortable to think about these useless things?" Wu Fan patted Lin Yi's shoulder again, "It's late, go back early." ”

"Okay." Lin Yi also stood up, looking like he had been resurrected with full blood, and he responded happily.

The two talked and laughed all the way to the fork in the road.

Lin Yi stopped, smiled, said goodbye, and finally said: "Don't worry about me, I hate railways, and I don't like mandala." Let's go. Then he waved his hand and walked away without looking back.

Wu Fan stood in place and was silent for a while, until Lin Yi's black back could no longer be seen, he sighed, "Why, the smarter a person, the more stupid he is?" ”

He couldn't figure it out, and he didn't dare to think about it anymore, so he just slowly paced home.