"Su Can, do you know? Lin Yi once told me that he was very envious of us. He also said that he was in pain inside. But...... I...... I didn't even fucking think that he would ......" Wu Fan sat in front of Lin Yi's monument, feeling sad.

"Actually, you must not think so, it's not your fault at all." Su Can, who had a serious face, was silent for a long time before he said this.

"But if I hadn't stopped you from opening the envelope, you wouldn't have ......" Wu Fan lowered his head and his voice was low.

"Don't be stupid, he's such a person." Su Can said loudly, causing Wu Fan to raise his head in astonishment. Su Can continued, "From the time I was with his third-grade classmates in primary school, I knew that he was just a simple introvert and fragile person. ”

Su Can looked at Wu Fan seriously, "So it really has nothing to do with you, it's all his own choice." ”

Then Su Can smiled bitterly, "Actually, I was also such a person back then." The tone was full of emotion and memories.

Wu Fan looked at him suspiciously, because Su Can's cheerfulness and sunshine over the past year or so were obvious to the whole class, and almost all the people in the class were his friends, saying that he was once introverted and vulnerable, Wu Fan didn't believe it at all.

Obviously, noticing Wu Fan's expression, Su Can squatted down, took out a few cans of beer from the plastic bag on the side, and handed them to Wu Fan, "Do you mind listening to the story?" After that, he didn't wait for Wu Fan to agree, and began to talk about it on his own.

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When I was in sixth grade, I was an introverted and cowardly child, and no one in my class wanted to play with me, and I didn't dare to play with them. At that time, I also had low self-esteem, my grades were not very good, I was in a mess at school every day, I was very disappointed in the world, and I almost thought about dying.

At that time, Lin Yi was also like me, he didn't have any friends in the class, but he had good grades, and he usually liked to be handsome, so he disguised himself and forcibly packaged himself as a sunny person. But I'm different, there's nothing to shine in, time stands still like stagnant water, and eternal darkness hangs over me.

By the way, my sister was in the same class as me at that time. Although I am a year older than her, she has been smarter than me since she was a child, and she is also very polite and considerate. In fact, if she hadn't cared about me a lot at that time, maybe you wouldn't be able to see me now.

You don't have to doubt it, don't look at me now, my skin is thicker than the city wall, and I have no heart every day, but I also changed because of others, just like you changed because of Ye Qixue.

It was about one winter day in fifth grade, and I remember it was very cold and snowed heavily. That morning, Lin Yan pushed open the front door of the classroom and came to my life.

I always remember that she had short black hair and her cheeks were red from the cold. She wore a red scarf around her neck, and when she pulled it down, she smiled as brightly as the sun. She generously introduced herself to us, and she was not stage frightened at all:

Hello everyone, my name is Lin Yan. The forest of the woods, the sunshine of the day. I am a student who has just transferred back from Jiangsu, and I will study with you in the future, and I hope to get along with you well.

With that, she bowed shallowly. Then there was a round of applause from the class.

The rural students in our small area basically play with mud until they grow up. This city girl who came to us inadvertently, with her standard Mandarin pronunciation, as well as her confidence and beauty, deeply impressed us.

That includes me, of course. But I didn't expect that it was she who would change the fate of my life, or at least my fate for the next few years. Although, I have only been with her for a little more than a semester.

Oh, I forgot to tell you, Li Yu is also in the same class as me. At that time, I saw that Lin Yi's relationship with her was a bit abnormal. But it's a pity that she couldn't change Lin Yi, and it seems that she made him even worse.

That's a later story, so let's not talk about this, but let's talk about me.

Later, Lin Yan became my tablemate. I still remember her side face, she always has a sunny smile on her face, which makes people feel comfortable at first glance, instantly dispel the haze and restore the state.

Maybe it's because of this that I've been in a much better mood and my relationship with her has gotten better and better, but only as friends. Later, I slowly realized that I liked her, but I didn't dare to admit it because I didn't think I was worthy of her.

Yes, how good she was at that time, she was glowing all over, how could she catch up with her?

In every exam, she was at the top of her class, while I was always in the bottom ten; She is very popular, everyone in the class can talk and talk freely, and for me, my sister, her, and Lin Yi may be the only few people who are willing to take care of me.

Maybe I was too young to know what love was. But at the mention of the taboo word "like", the body is like an electric current passing through, and the heart trembles and numbs.

After being at the same table for a long time, the relationship is getting better and better, and she and I can make some sensitive jokes. At that time, during the recess, I would always half-jokingly say to her: "Girl, the eldest girl should be married, you see that the son and I are talented, so follow me." ”

Not only was she not angry, but she was very cooperative, pretending to be shy, and called out in an exaggerated manner: "Xianggong." Then he lowered his head and vomited, and when he looked up, he laughed profusely, apparently thinking it was a simple joke.

It's a pity that she doesn't know that every time I joke, my heart's ardent desire is the most real. And this kind of joke, when it was carried out at the beginning, it seemed that I could still be comforted in my heart, and I felt a faint sweetness. But the more I got back, the more empty my heart became, as if something that should have belonged to me had been lost.

One day I pretended to be joking and asked her, "What kind of boy do you like?" It's okay to let me work hard, right? ”

She opened her eyes wide, thought carefully for a while, and said with a serious face: "Well, the grades should be good, at least not too bad; You don't need to be handsome, but at least you have to be decent; The most important thing is to have a cheerful and sunny personality that can bring me sunshine when I am dark......"

At that time, I stared at her intently, her whole body shining in the backlight, and her eyes were full of brilliance.

I was stunned.

I felt a little cold in my heart when I reacted, and several of the conditions she put forward were basically the opposite of mine, except for the face that I thought was a little handsome - don't laugh, be serious. I wanted to give up, but her serious appearance and the light in her eyes made me really determined to try to be that kind of person.

But I certainly wouldn't have said it directly at the time, and ended the conversation with the usual joking, "What? Got to be sunnier than you? You go to the sun father! ”

She smiled and pinched me, but I didn't feel any pain at all, just smirked.

Next is the bloody plot, I study hard and work hard to be sunny. During this process, she was my free "teacher", not only teaching me what I was learning in class, but also teaching me how to adjust my mood.

But there is one thing that those bloody plots have never thought of. In the end, the hero and heroine did not fall in love for a long time, let alone live happily together like the prince and princess.

After graduating from primary school, she moved to another place to study because of her father's work. Before leaving, she gave me a string of wind chimes and a letter. I remember that time she rarely didn't smile, her expression was solemn, and then she hugged me a little sadly.

It wasn't until long after she was gone that I was relieved because it was the first time I had hugged someone of the opposite sex outside of my loved ones, not to mention that the person I liked was still someone I liked.

I rushed home, locked my room, and eagerly opened the letter.

It's a pity that the plot is still wrong this time, it's not a pair of lovers who love each other deeply, but they are separated from life and death because of the force they can't resist. Real life is far from being as ingenious and beautiful as fairy tales, and real situations are often ordinary and hurtful.

That letter began with three words: I'm sorry.

The letter was very long, probably one or two thousand words, and there were a lot of things written in it, which probably meant that she actually knew that I liked her, but she didn't like me. But in order for me to cheer up and face life bravely, she made such a lie against her will.

After reading the letter, he angrily tore the letter to shreds, and threw it into the trash can downstairs with the wind chime box. Then I locked the door and started hating her.

After about a week, I finally figured out that I didn't actually hate her, I still liked her. I'm not angry because I've been cheated on, I'm angry because I can't be liked by her. I understood her painstaking efforts, and I began to think about her, to find everything related to her, to find the torn letter and the string of wind chimes.

I ran like crazy to rummage through the trash cans downstairs, but the trash cans were cleared every day, and it was impossible to have them. I wanted to go to the garbage dump to look for it, but finding a string of wind chimes in a garbage heap the size of several football fields was like looking for a needle in a haystack. I sat on the ground, head bowed, hopeless, chagrined.

At that moment, my sister called me a few times and gently handed over the wind chime box that should have appeared in the trash can. I didn't know what to say at the time, I just hugged her and cried vigorously. When the crying was over, I hung the wind chimes in my room.

Since then, I have made up my mind to continue to be a cheerful and happy person until now.

That's my story.

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In the end, Su Can's face was already red, and his hand holding the beer can was also a little trembling, and he looked a little drunk. But he still kept talking and babbling; "I'm secretly telling you that in my class, there are many girls who secretly like me...... Don't believe it...... Listen to me, who is there...... And ......"

Wu Fan saw Su Can's appearance of no wine, snatched away his remaining small half can of wine, pulled out a straight line in the air, and slowly poured it on the ground, as if he was paying tribute to someone who was no longer there.

Then Wu Fan grabbed his beer can, stood up, raised his head, and poured the sour liquor mixed with Su Can's story into his stomach, but Ye Qixue's appearance kept coming to mind.

Su Can was obviously drunk at this time, his face was flushed, and he simply lay down on the ground, still chattering in his mouth, saying things that others couldn't understand. But looking at him like this, Wu Fan found it hard to believe that this guy had also been depressed?

"You ......" Wu Fan squatted down and pushed Su Can, called him a few times, and found that he had no intention of waking up at all. So he changed his strategy and prepared to reach out and help him up and put him in the pavilion not far away.

But Wu Fan made a mistake this time, Su Can didn't look fat, and the weight was really not light.

He beckoned to the small kiosk in the distance and asked for someone to come and help.

The small pavilion where he received Ye Qixue's information at that time turned out to be a place where Su Can, Su Ya, Li Yu and Wu Fan often gathered. They often came to see Lin Yi, and after reading it, they would chat together, and over time, several people became very familiar.

Su Ya and Li Yu, who were talking in the pavilion, walked over arm in arm. At this moment, Su Can simply followed and snored on the grass.

"Pigs." Wu Fan sighed helplessly, kicked Su Can lightly, and splashed a few dead leaves.

"What's wrong?" After Su Ya came over, she looked at Wu Fan and smiled sweetly.

Wu Fan's gaze swept over Su Ya's face, and found that her eyes were slightly red, maybe she cried just now? His heart moved slightly, and he calmed down again, pursed his lips helplessly, and pointed to the big living person on the ground.

Su Yawan smiled, very moving. Then she crouched down, ready to wake Su Can.

This time, Su Can woke up quickly.

"What's wrong? …… No...... Isn't it just getting dark? What's ...... Again...... It's dawn again? Su Can opened his eyes and said indistinctly.

After opening his eyes and seeing Su Ya and her reddish eyes, he was half confused: "This is ...... What time is it? Why are you crying again, okay, okay, don't cry. Wait for me to find Wu Fan's stinky boy tomorrow and beat him up severely. You too, this ...... Isn't that ...... If you like him, just say no, why bother...... I'm not allowed to say anything...... Okay, okay......"

Su Can yawned, and then said, "I'll sleep for a while, and then wake me up when it's time." He sat up straight and lay down again.

There was silence all around, and Su Ya's mind went blank.

After Su Ya calmed down, she raised her head cautiously, glanced at Wu Fan secretly, and found that his expression was calm, there was no surprise or joy. On the contrary, Li Yu, who was on the side, didn't expect this weird start, and couldn't close his mouth in surprise for a while.

Su Ya's face turned white suddenly, her expression was nervous, she looked at Wu Fan who was indifferent again, her lips couldn't stop pursing, ready to explain something. But she couldn't say anything in the end, so she stood up in a panic and kicked Su Can hard, with a crying voice: "Brother, I hate you!" ”

Then her face was hot, and she pulled Li Yu and hurriedly walked out.

On the way, she turned back twice, only to see Wu Fan's calm face.

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And Su Can finally came to his senses after Su Ya struggled to kick him, he looked at Su Ya's figure leaving angrily, as if he had finally reacted to his speechlessness, and muttered: "It's miserable, it's a disaster." ”

He stood up and patted the ash on his body, smiled at Wu Fan, and Wu Fan got goosebumps when he saw it, and then said in a flattering tone: "Since everything is like this, why don't you ...... Right...... It's also to blame me for accidentally saying that I missed my mouth......"

Wu Fan glared at him, "Still acting?" ”

Su Can turned his head to look at the figure of his sister leaving, his face was full of distress, "It's not all because of that stupid girl, I don't dare to say it, if I don't do this, she will never admit it for the rest of her life." ”

Wu Fan was silent.

Su Can turned around, his expression was straight, and his tone was full of seriousness: "Really, love is not useful if you insist unilaterally, why do you have to hang yourself on a tree?" I don't believe you can't see that my sister likes you very much, and I don't believe that you don't feel anything about my sister at all, so why do you have to suffer like this? No one will be happy that way. ”

Wu Fan just shook his head slightly.

The autumn wind blows up the leaves scattered on the ground, like a burst of golden butterflies flying into the sky, making a rustling sound while wandering. Wu Fan narrowed his eyes, looked up at the blue sky and white clouds, and exhaled silently. Then he leveled his gaze and looked against the direction of the sun, looking at the long-haired girl in the distance for a long time.

He remained silent.