I mean, after hanging up the phone on the brocade hall, I started to get ready for bed, I looked out the window at the sky, very many stars, stars in the sky, very brilliant, it seems that tomorrow is a brilliant big sun day, the stars in the sky are waiting for who is the master, and who it is and it falls.

I poured myself a glass of red wine before going to bed, the red wine was also told by the doctor to drink, which helped me sleep, helped me to get the whole body relaxed, I drank the half glass of wine, sat in front of the window and looked at the moonlight outside the window, the moonlight was really beautiful, and occasionally there were a few insects chirping, everything seemed very quiet, as if it was all on my back, it looked very much like an oil painting.

I stood with my back to the window.

This is rare, so I spend time alone, in this beautiful time, sometimes I haven't been so alone for a long time, a person talks to himself naturally, a person to enrich the deepest side of his soul, a person and another person who is not familiar with themselves in conversation, sometimes I have this kind of confusion, sometimes I like to be alone like this I look at myself, as if I am talking to another person of my own, this feeling is very strange and weird, but it is beautiful.

This period of time has been shaking, there have been a lot of things have not been dealt with, there are many things, and there have been no solitude, let their hearts get a good precipitation, since the Jiangnan Inn this matter, really has been in a high degree of tension, high excitement and height, happy moments have not let their body and mind relax, today is really a rare day, let yourself be alone in this happy day, in these past moments.

I took a gentle sip of wine.

I felt the gentlemanly feeling of the moment the wine flowed down my throat, and I suddenly regretted my mouth, that feeling was very good, as if I had a feeling of being drunk in the clouds all of a sudden, that feeling like a marshmallow, not very uncomfortable, but it made people feel a sense of relief.

Really, the stars in the sky are really bright, I went to this city unconsciously close to 5 years, a lot of things have really happened in these 5 years, there are many things that I don't want to do in these 5 years, and there are some things that I don't want to face, but I don't dare to say that these 5 years must be smooth, these 5 years have indeed encountered a lot of things, if there is no mutual support and support from the pillow in it, he can do everything to me, save the day, Maybe there's no more my cat in this world.

After coming from the hospital, it really doesn't seem to have happened after so many years, and now in retrospect, it's not particularly important, it's not particularly special, it feels like it's very painful, as if everything that happened in the past, it seems to be a clear cloud, and in retrospect, it seems that there really is such a thing, and now if you think about it carefully, it seems that everything is not so easy as you imagined, and a period of time is like turning over the leaves, and there are some thrilling scenes. A panic that some looks like can't get overcome.

Yes, 5 years have passed, these 5 years are one of my best times, including those times in the orphanage, every day and every year these times are vividly engraved on me, especially at this time, sometimes when people are alone, they will think a lot of things, they will think a lot of things in the past, and they will think a lot of things they don't know, this feeling seems to be a kind of exploration, or it seems to be a kind of longing for the unknown to know something.

Since the three kidnappers captured me, some of my subsequent conversations, although I didn't care, of course I believe that what they said will not be true, they are also a strategy, they want me to cook with them, or they want to catch me with some trick and let me do this for them, but what they said, but it caused a little wave in my heart.

For example, they talked about my parents.

I never seriously thought about my parents, I used to think that I was an orphan when I was in the orphanage, and I was indeed an orphan, I remember that the director used to hate me so much, he hated me growing up, she and even all my mothers were a vixen, in her eyes it seemed that I was a person worth mentioning, she even hated my parents, sometimes I felt that she was even afraid of this kind of parents between hatred and fear, her emotions were incomprehensible.

Of course, I never really thought about it, because I never got a definite idea of it, or I didn't think it was an important thing, so I refused to think about it.

But now is the dead of night, when I am alone, I will inevitably think of a lot of things that belong to me, or I will think about something very confusing, for example, why do I mention this issue, why do I suddenly think of my parents in my mind now, I became mother and daughter with my parents, in what way did they really abandon me? Is it really reluctant?

Or do they really have an unspeakable difficulty?

Or maybe they are just two refugees in this chaos, they can get a bite to eat in order to survive and better for me, so they choose to abandon me in the orphanage, hoping that the orphanage will bring me a bite of food, can I survive?

Or maybe they think it's because they don't like me, they think I'm a girl, they think I'm a burden to their lives, maybe they think my presence has caused chaos in their lives, and they want to get me back to their old lives, could it be like this?

Or maybe they themselves are a person who does not love each other, and their union is a mistake in itself, so they are in the wrong situation, and neither of them is willing to take a responsibility, and they abandon me in the future, and they think that from now on they can live cleanly, without any shackles to live here?

Maybe it's not what I imagined, maybe the two of them are people who love each other, and they gave birth to me later, maybe my mother may have an accident, and my father will follow her later, and the two of them will die for love, but they put their greatest love crystallization in the orphanage before the martyrdom, so if he does what they want to do for their love, maybe it will be like this?

These are the kind of things that have developed in my brain in this thought, but I don't know what kind of situation they actually abandoned me in the orphanage.

No one told me the true answer.,I'm not particularly trying to understand what this thing is.,It's just that after the above picture was put forward yesterday.,I suddenly remembered me.,It turns out that I'm also a parent.,I was originally a child.,It turns out that I'm also a child born by someone else.,Not in the beginning of this society.,Not some places.,Picked up by wild beasts.,In fact, I'm also a very real child.。

I shook my head hard, because I now feel like I've poured another glass of wine into my stomach, I think the wine here is really delicious, and before I know it, I drank half a bottle of this wine, and my head became more and more dizzy, I really am a good thing, with this thing I will be cranky, I don't think about it so much, I have a special life.

I don't know why I suddenly remembered such a thing, maybe I have never forgotten those things, I used to be parents.

Are they still alive, do they look at this market, I don't have any news, I will look for them, I don't know, if he suddenly appears in front of me one day, I will recognize them, I hate them, touch them for so many years and we came together? Am I really like this? I really don't know, because this thing didn't happen to me, because I don't want to think about how this thing will be an unpredictable process, maybe it's true, this thing really happened, it will really face it, and it is also the real feeling at that time.

But now I don't feel that way, because I don't have these feelings now, and these feelings are too luxurious for me.

I wanted to drink all the way to the bottom, and before I knew it, I was going to see the bottom, ah, it was really good to drink this bottle of wine today, and this bottle of wine should have been left in the house.

Because maybe I drink these wines and I think it's really good, he knows me very well, and he doesn't know that I need a long time to decompress when I have something, then I know that this bottle of wine is deliberately placed here, and he can understand me, how similar we are in this situation.

In a daze, I said to the moon with my wine glass.

"Raise a glass to invite Mingyue, and the shadow becomes a person. I don't know any bullshit poetry at all, okay, I'll toast the moon, I'll toast me, you're so beautiful today, and I can avoid it today, let's have a toast to the two of us, let's be happy with each other. ”

I poured the last glass of wine into the glass.

Raise your head and drink it all.

It's really a good bottle of wine, a top wine, it seems that Najin Tang is really willing to give everything for me.

I staggered to the couch and lay down on all fours. Babbling and singing songs that he didn't understand.

At this moment, it's not about the wind and rain, it's just about whether your mood is comfortable.

In a daze, I opened my eyes and looked at the moon outside the window, the moon was still so bright, it still didn't seem to have changed, he was still smiling as if he was looking at me, still talking to me about things, like a friend.

I smirked at the moon.

"Moon, moon, you are really a good friend, you do your things in the sky so seriously every day, it seems that you are also a very good person, I am in a good mood today, and I am also very smooth and lonely, so lonely is so rare, now the whole world seems to be me and you here, and the two of us are all of the whole world."

"Moon, Moon, I really want to ask you, who are my real parents? I haven't seen them, but I'm lonely, sometimes I dream about what they look like, I don't know what they look like, it's vague in my dreams, I really want to see them as they really are......"