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The Yucai South Gate Football Stadium of the National Normal University is 400 meters in a circle, and the field is a green lawn that is often trimmed.

During military training, I often train here.

Students of the Sports Institute also often exercise here during their afternoon classes.

Moreover, some large-scale literary and artistic competitions are also held on the sidelines of this football field.

At dusk, there are many students, both men and women, running here.

Above the edge of the football field, there are steps that resemble grandstand seats.

There are a lot of students sitting here chatting, some people reading English aloud, and some nearby staff teachers or nearby residents come in from outside the south gate and sit here to chat in the wind.

On the outermost edge of the stairs, there are not only stone tables, but also stone benches, there is a small piece of small-leaved banyan trees planted on the side, and then a little five or six meters away, there are many laurel trees that are blooming, the breeze blows, full of fragrance, refreshing people's hearts.

We went to the middle of the stairs, took out paper towels and spread them on the concrete floor, and sat down.

I glanced at my phone.

Time...... 18：26……

I looked at Xinyun and said, "Xinyun, you've been walking for so long, are you tired?" ”

Xinyun said, "It's okay. When I used to go to work, I would stand for a morning before I sat down. When I got off work at night, I felt that my legs were no longer my own. ”

Hearing Xin Yun say this, she suddenly felt distressed, and without a little consideration, she looked at Xin Yun and opened her mouth and said, "In the future, I will take care of you." ”

After saying that, I felt a little embarrassed, after all, Xinyun hadn't agreed to be my girlfriend yet.

After hearing this, Xinyun lowered her head and kept folding a leaf with her hands.

After a while, she said in a low voice, "You don't like me..."

When I heard Xinyun say this, I asked, "What don't I like about you?" I don't like you, so I won't look for you to come out together. ”

Xin Yun pouted and said, "You obviously don't like me, I can see it..."

Say I don't like her? Where did Xinyun see it?

I was a little annoyed and asked, "I don't like you?" So who do I like? ”

Xinyun lowered her head and said, "I think, the person you like is Liang Lin." ”

Hearing Xinyun say this, I was suddenly shocked!

Xinyun continued: "When I first saw you, you didn't pay much attention to me. Then when I went out with you, you also looked sullen. You are different from Liang Lin, you talk and laugh when you meet. I thought you were bored, so I asked me to go shopping and chat with you..."

I watched Xinyun keep saying this, and it became more and more outrageous, so I couldn't help but say: "Liang Lin and I are old classmates in the same school, and we have only known each other for more than a month!" Where do I like her anymore? I think she's making do with the two of us! ”

Xinyun heard me say this, a little unreasonable, she said, "Anyway, I don't think you like me..."

I looked at Xinyun like this, and I suddenly grabbed her left hand bowl directly with my right hand.

Xinyun's reflex arc was a little frightened, so she wanted to withdraw her hand to get rid of it.

However, I was stronger than hers, and her little hands were firmly entrapped by me.

I didn't dare to tighten Xinyun's hand because her arms were relatively small, and I was afraid of scratching her. I could only hold it so that she could spin, but I couldn't break free.

Xinyun swung twice, and she didn't move.

I saw that Xinyun was no longer struggling, and I relaxed her hand. Then he gently grabbed her hand and pulled it to my knee, and she didn't take it back before I spoke.

I looked at Xinyun and said, "Xinyun, can you listen to me quietly?" ”

As I said, I won't deceive Xinyun.

Moreover, there are some things that do not want to continue to be kept secret.

I could see that Xinyun was suspicious of me. If you don't say it now, she will be suspicious in the future. If things are spoken, there will be no more suspicions.

Moreover, I also wonder what Xinyun will think after she finds out.

Xinyun didn't look at me, just lowered her head and responded: "Hmm." ”

When I saw Xinyun like this, I said, "Okay, then I'll tell you about me." ”

I looked at Xinyun, she didn't answer, she didn't look at me, she looked quietly listening.

So, I grabbed Xinyun's hand, probably afraid that she would get angry and run away when she heard it, right?

I said, "First of all, I want to say that I never disdain to lie, if there is, if there is, if not, there is nothing, and I am not afraid of what people say. Secondly, I haven't been in a relationship either, so naturally I don't have a girlfriend. ”

After saying this, I glanced at Xinyun and found that she didn't react.

Then, I continued: "That day, I sent flowers to you for the first time, and I never even sent them to my mother, let alone anyone else. So, you come first. ”

When Xinyun heard this, she looked up at me and asked, "Really?" ”

I looked at Xinyun and said, "Well, it's true. ”

Then, Xinyun said, "Then do you have anyone you like?" ”

I looked at Xinyun and said, "I said don't be angry, if it's someone else who is pursuing a girl, maybe he will say no." But I don't want to lie to you, because it's easy to tell a lie, and I can do it with ten hundred. But if I lie to you, I will not be able to get over it in my heart, and I will not lie to you in the future. ”

After listening to this, Xinyun also knew that I had someone I liked in my heart, so she asked, "Who?" Is it in our school? It can't be Li Jifeng, right? She and Liang Lin are also old high school classmates, and they share a dormitory with me. ”

After I heard this, I almost patted my forehead and said that I was speechless, so I asked, "Li Jifeng?" Old schoolmates? In the same dormitory as you and Liang Lin? Who is it? I don't know. ”

After hearing this, Xinyun looked at me and said, "Oh. If it's not, who is it? ”

I looked at Xinyun's demeanor, and for a moment I considered whether to choose not to tell her.

Because I'm afraid that Xinyun will mind, I have a stumbling block in my heart about this matter.

Xinyun looked at me and said a little unhappily: "Say, you won't dare to tell me, right?" We're not boyfriend and girlfriend yet..."

I heard Xinyun say this, and I said: "Xinyun, please believe me, no matter at any time, I will not lie to you, this is certain, I can guarantee this, I can definitely do it to you in this life." ”

Xinyun didn't speak, just looked straight at me like that.

I looked at Xinyun and continued: "I used to like other people, but I never liked two people at the same time. If I like a girl, she's the only one, and I don't like another girl at the same time. If I like you, I'll put her down, and I'll never be half-hearted. ”

Xinyun looked at me and said, "Say so much, you haven't said who you like..."

I looked at Xinyun and said this, I felt it, Xinyun didn't ask to understand, if I didn't say it clearly, she would definitely feel uncomfortable with me in her heart.

I looked at Xinyun and said, "The person I used to like was my high school classmate. That was a long time ago, when I first went to Yulin to study, I met in the second year of high school, I knew her for a semester, and then I dropped out of school, and we never met again. Later, I went back to another school. After graduating from high school, I came here and met you. ”

Xinyun looked at me and said, "It's been so long, do you remember, you definitely can't let it go..."

When I heard Xinyun's words, I replied, "What's not to let go?" There's no going back, and it's no longer possible for me to go with her. ”

Xinyun looked at me and asked, "Why?" ”

It's false to say that I don't care, because I really like it for a long time.

I looked at Xinyun and said, "She, she only makes old friends with me." Moreover, she is ready to get married this year. ”

(Xinyun, maybe one day when you see this, you will say the same, it's all over, and you can't go back.) I also know that I can't go back, and if I can go back, I won't let so many mistakes happen, and I won't have so many regrets. It's been so long, but the years have changed, but I haven't changed, and I still think about you. ）

Xinyun looked at me and suddenly said, "Are you a crush?" ”

I listened to Xinyun's words and replied, "It doesn't count." If it's a crush, because only I like her. If it's not a secret love, she knows, and many people also know, it should be a clear love. ”

Xinyun looked at me and asked, "Then will you miss her?" ”

I listened to Xinyun's words and thought about it, since it's all here, I still said it truthfully.

I looked at Xinyun and said, "Since I said that I will never lie to you in my life, then I'll just say it, in fact, if I hadn't met you, I would really think about it sometimes when I was alone." However, like I said, it is no longer possible for me to be with her, and besides, I am very dedicated to relationships, and when I like someone, I don't love another person in my heart. ”

Xinyun looked at me and said this, thought about it, and asked, "Then do you think I am similar to her, you won't treat me as her, right?" ”

I heard Xinyun say this, and then said, "No." There are a lot of people in this world, and there will definitely be two people who look alike, but you are not like her, so I will not treat you as her. ”

Xinyun looked at me and said, "Really? ”

I looked at Xinyun and said, "Really, why are you lying to you?" You are unique, and I like you, that is, I simply like you, for no other reason. ”

After hearing this, Xinyun thought for a while and said, "I don't know if I want to believe you, if the two of us are not suitable, I'm afraid we won't even be friends in the end..."

When I heard Xinyun say this, I thought about it and said with some sadness: "If there really is that day, I hope I can continue to be friends with you." If you are really separated, although no news is the best news, not bothering each other is the best way. But even if the relationship is split and the contact is disconnected, I also want to know your audio contact information, I can at least watch you be happy quietly, better than a person who doesn't know how you are doing and will be anxious. ”

After hearing this, Xinyun thought for a few minutes before saying, "Let's get along for a while first, I'm really afraid that we won't be suitable." If it's not suitable, real friends can't do it, I came here and found that you are really good, and I don't want to end up because of the last emotional thing, so that I and you don't even have a chance to be friends in the end. ”

When I heard Xinyun say again that I wanted to get along for a while, I was also very helpless, so I had to say, "Okay, Xinyun." Then let's get along for a while before we talk, whether it's suitable or not, we'll know later. ”

Xinyun nodded, didn't say anything more, and I didn't know what she thought.