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On September 13th, after sending Xinyun back to her dormitory, I didn't contact her again.

There are three problems.

First, because Xinyun didn't have a mobile phone, I didn't ask her for QQ's contact information, and she didn't say it herself.

Second, our college is different, the classrooms are different, and the class time is also different, so it is difficult to meet each other.

Even the dormitories are still far apart close to two kilometers, I am in the south and she is in the north.

The third is that because of the confession that day, Xinyun did not directly agree to be my girlfriend, and at that time, I was indeed impulsive, it can also be said to be angry, and I did not completely clear my heart to pursue her as my girlfriend, although I also really wanted to pursue her, but my heart was not clean before this.

The problem is not a real problem, and if there is a problem, there is a solution.

But it was mainly my state of mind at that time, as well as Xinyun's hesitation.

On my way back that afternoon, I thought that if Xinyun agreed directly that day, I would pursue her sincerely and without the slightest hesitation in the future.

Because I'm tired, I miss someone who is tired and fruitless, thinking that I'm sad, I want to really find someone to work with, completely put the person I have liked for many years, and let Xinyun replace her.

I heard that the best way to forget one person is to find another person.

I don't know if it's true, but I can't.

Because each person is unique, there can be no substitution.

If I just like Xinyun, then I may not last long, maybe I will gradually forget about her as time goes by.

But if I fall in love with Xinyun, then I will like her for the rest of my life, and I will not forget her.

Not to mention that one day, if I like someone else, I will forget Xinyun.

I'm too sensitive to emotional matters.

Sometimes, love is love, and love is forever.

If you don't love, you don't love, and there is no such thing as how much time two people spend together.

Although Xinyun said that I was a rogue and a bad person, and called me a ruffian, I was just debauched.

Xinyun didn't know that if she didn't agree that day, she made my decision that day go back to the day before.

I also wondered how long I could like her, and if I would finally fall in love with her because I liked her.

After all, liking someone doesn't mean loving that person.

Since Xinyun doesn't agree, I don't have anyone to like, so I still like the people in the past.

Although it is impossible to be together, it is enough to miss someone, at least it will allow me to spend my college years quietly.

Missing two people, I can't do it.

If I miss someone and I really can't forget it, it's better to be single all the time, even if I am alone until I am old.

After separating from Xinyun that day, in the days to come, I returned to my own state.

Although university life is very easy, it is also loose on the outside and tight on the inside, teachers do not supervise, and students rely on self-consciousness.

Every day, I go to the university hall on the first floor of the School of Management and Economics to attend classes, and then read books in the relatively small 101 self-study room on the right hand side when I walk out of the entrance of the school.

Although I used to be more fun-loving and liked to go out and hang around. But I just entered university this year, and I studied very hard.

At that time, I was very tired. You don't know that at that time, I felt uncomfortable in my heart, and my heart was so weak.

At that time, I looked at people like a person who just had a pair of feet, hands, a body and a head, and the scenery was the mountains and rivers, plus a bunch of people, shopping was just to look at those clothes stores, even to eat, I was just eating two apples, or a bowl of rice noodles to spend the day.

In addition to reading, when I want to run, I feel that I still have something to do and a little pursuit.

I wore long hair with front bangs that covered half of my face. In class, although sometimes my classmates talk about me, I don't care, I just want to see the world with one eye.

How big is the world, but how big does it have to do with me?

Why should I care so much about the eyes of my classmates?

I just want to be myself, quiet, simple, and that's it.

For six days in a row, I went to class and self-study every day, and even on Sunday morning, I still went to read books.

Even QQ was not on at that time, and the mobile phone was just a clock.

I didn't think about Xinyun because I was afraid that I would think too much and I wouldn't forget it.

I hastily began to pursue her, but she didn't agree, so I ended up with her continuation.

Although sometimes it is very uncomfortable in my heart, I can't help it.

And so the time passed.

After eleven days, more than a week, Xinyun and I never met once.

I thought that Xinyun and I would never see each other again.

Even if you say goodbye, it's like an ordinary friend, just say a simple greeting, and then pass by.

But still, the unexpected happened.

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Date...... September 23, 2009......

Wednesday, close to noon.

Time...... 11：47……

This is the eleven days apart between Xinyun and I, and I haven't met once.

And on September 23, I saw Xinyun on the road for the third time.

On this day, I came out of the large classroom on the first floor of SME.

From half past nine in the morning to half past eleven, after two hours of university Chinese classes, I slowly came out of the classroom and came to the gate of the School of Economics and Management.

I stood at the gate of the Institute of Economics and Management and glanced left and right, and then thought to myself: "There are so many people, walking so slowly, when can I go back." ”

After thinking about it, he walked to the right.

I wanted to pass through the back of the library, although in a right triangle, the sum of the two sides is greater than the third side, but because of the large number of people, and because I walk fast, even if I walk a little farther, it will take less time than the road with many people.

As soon as I walked to the second liberal arts building, I saw Liang Lin walking behind the higher students, as well as Xinyun.

I looked at Liang Lin and said hello: "Hi~"

Then, he glanced at Xinyun and nodded, feeling very calm.

Liang Lin spotted me and asked, "Where are you going?" ”

I replied, "Let's go back to dinner." ”

Liang Lin said: "Eat and run so far, go to the canteen to eat." ”

I said, "I don't have a canteen card, so it's inconvenient. ”

Liang Lin said: "It's just a meal, I'll invite you." ”

I thought about it, then nodded and said, "Okay." ”

So, I walked next to Liang Lin, and Xinyun was on the other side of Liang Lin.

So, the three of us walked to the Xiyun Garden cafeteria.

I've only eaten brisket noodles once in this cafeteria, and I feel that it's much worse than my family, so I don't want to eat it again.

Not long after, we came to the Xiyunyuan Canteen, and Liang Lin took Xinyun and me to the restaurant on the second floor.

In fact, the first floor is also sold, but Liang Lin said that it was the first time to invite me to dinner, and it was better to go up to the second floor.

After going up to the second floor, I found that there were a lot of people, and there were a few restaurants used by teachers, of course, students could also book meals to eat.

After standing in line for seven or eight minutes, I finally finished my meal and sat down at the log table.

The dining environment on the second floor is indeed much better, and the price is five or six yuan more expensive, of course, the food is also much better.

Liang Lin sat in the middle, and Xinyun and I sat on either side of her.

I just talked to Liang Lin, and didn't say anything to Xinyun.

After a while.

Liang Lin looked at me and said, "Ruan Min, why don't you talk to Xinyun?" I haven't seen you two say a word for a long time. ”

When I heard this, I turned my head and glanced at Xinyun, and thought to myself, "Talk? What to say? ”

I just filtered it in my mind for more than ten seconds, and then said to Xinyun: "I haven't seen you for a long time, how are you doing?" ”

Along the way, I have paid attention to Xinyun, she has been quiet since the moment she met me, and then sat on the stool, very dull, as if she was a little unhappy.

Xinyun said softly, "It's okay." ”

I didn't know what to say to Xinyun, so I quieted down.

Liang Lin looked at me and said, "Last time you went out with Xinyun, didn't you have a good time?" Why are you two still so separated? And you didn't want to hang out with Xinyun last Sunday."

I smiled and didn't know how to answer.

I thought in my heart, and I couldn't say: "Oh, I opened my mouth to chase Li Xinyun that day, and then she didn't answer, so I was embarrassed and embarrassed to speak." ”

I looked at Liang Lin, and then denied it and said, "Where, Xinyun doesn't have a mobile phone, and I don't know her QQ number, how to contact her." ”

Liang Lin glanced at me and said, "Then why don't you ask?" Boys need to take the initiative. ”

I really wanted to say to Liang Lin: "She didn't promise me, am I embarrassed to ask?" ”

However, I still didn't say it.

I could hear what Liang Lin meant, she wanted to make do with me and Xinyun.

I looked at Liang Lin, then at Xinyun, and thought about it, she didn't agree that day, and now I ask her for a QQ number, will she give it to me?

Although Liang Lin can tell me Xinyun's QQ number, Liang Lin told me that it is different from what Xinyun told me.

I'm not a timid and shy person, just ask, let's not talk about seeing Xinyun.

I looked at Xinyun and asked, "Xinyun, what's your QQ number?" I'll add you. ”

After Xinyun heard it, she didn't hesitate, looked at me and said, "Okay." 1197090618”

After I heard it, I took out my mobile phone to search for Xinyun's QQ, and said to her: "Your QQ number name is stone?" ”

After hearing this, Xinyun nodded.

I laughed right away, a girl's QQ name turned out to be stone?

Isn't that a name for boys?

When I added it directly, it showed that I wanted to verify, and then I looked at Xinyun and said, "I still need you to verify online." ”

Xinyun said: "Yes, I set it up, and when I go back to the dormitory, I will go online and pass the verification." ”

I nodded and said, "Hmm." ”

Then, me, Xinyun, and Liang Lin, the three of them began to chat while eating.

When we finished eating, we went down the stairs and said goodbye to you at the door.

I watched them turn around and took out my phone to check the time.

Time...... 12：37……

I sighed in my heart that this was the longest time I had ever eaten a meal.