She patted Si Jing's back and asked softly, "Then just now, the woman who left, but her cousin?" ”

"Hmm!"

Hearing this, Si Jing cried even louder, and replied breathlessly: "Mother, she doesn't look at me or talk to me, my brother is dead, and she will never forgive me." ”

After speaking.

Crying even harder.

Yin Cai can only be held by her, although Si Jing is the daughter of luck, but not everything is as she pleases, especially as soon as Si Wei dies, the mother-daughter relationship between her and Luo Wan has become a dead end.

In the afternoon.

Led by Zhu Gongzi, the news of the suicide of the four people reached the eldest princess's mansion, and the parents of the four came over in person, even though they lamented the death of their son, but after all, the family is the most important.

The four families are just the tail of the crane in the circle of the capital's elites, and the son can be reborn after he dies, offending the eldest princess, maybe he can't even keep his current wealth.

After revenge.

Si Jing didn't see the slightest look of joy on her face, but asked rhetorically: "What can they do if they die, can my brother be resurrected?" ”

When the two returned to the capital, they didn't plan to stay long, but because of this incident, they had to stay for a few more months, and in the blink of an eye, the autumn went to the winter solstice, the weather became cold, and there were few people on the road.

Accompanied by bad weather.

There is also bad news from the Luo family, Luo Wan is seriously ill, and I am afraid that time is running out.

Si Jing is already a thousand households, and she is not completely dependent on the Eldest Princess's Mansion like when she was a child, not to mention that she also intends to inquire about her mother, and she can't hide this matter from her at all.

However, even when it is time to die.

Luo Wan still refuses to meet her only daughter, as if she is determined to sever the mother-daughter relationship.

For this.

Si Jing was almost in pain.

Seeing that she was tossing with the Luo family in the eldest princess's mansion a few times, and after her spirit became more and more broken, Yin Cai had to try to do something for her, unite with the Luo family, and go over to see Luo Wan by herself.

in the room.

The light was dim, and it was not too cold at this time, but there was already a charcoal stove on the side, and Luo Wan was lying on the bed, not yet forty years old, but her hair was half white.

If you are a stranger, you would never guess that the person in front of you, who is sick and looks like an old woman, was also the daughter of the Luo family who was noble-born, proud and beautiful when she was young.

Saw someone come in.

Luo Wan's thin fingers lifted the curtain, squinted her eyes, and saw that it was Yin Cai, and said weakly: "Sit down." ”

"Cousin."

Yin Cai stepped forward, helped her sit up slowly, leaned on the pillow, and then stood aside, and said straightforwardly: "Because you refuse to meet, my cousin has been crying day and night recently. ”

Mention of daughters.

Luo Wan's eyes were dumbfounded, and she was silent for a while before lowering her eyelids and said slowly: "If you are also here to persuade me to see her, there is no need to mention it again." ”

"You hate your cousin?"

The voice fell for a long time, and the room was silent.

Luo Wan turned a string of Buddhist beads, closed her eyes, and whispered something in her mouth, neither denying nor affirming this question.

See here.

Yin Cai didn't continue to investigate, but sat on the chair next to him, as if making a conjecture on a question, and said, "Or perhaps, you feel guilty about your cousin?" ”

Luo Wan snapped her fingers, but quickly recovered to her original state and continued to twist the Buddha beads.

She took this detail into her eyes and continued to say firmly: "Cousin, you are not fair to Cousin Wei and Cousin Jing, there is helplessness and calculation, and no one has thought of it to this point. ”

If Director Gram is not a love brain.

No matter how much you spoil your concubine and kill your wife, as long as Si Wei is the son, you can always wait until the day when you inherit the General's Mansion.

Therefore, Luo Wan's behavior of "abandoning the female child", although she is ruthless, can be regarded as a far-sighted plan, but unfortunately the world is changing, the plan cannot catch up with the changes, and the director Ke once rebelled, and Luo Wan lost everything.

Even in the end, even the son was gone.

But after all, she is also Si Jing's mother, and her knowledge as a young lady of the family is still there.

"Parents love their children and have far-reaching plans for them."

Yin Cai paused word by word, looked at Luo Wan intently, and continued: "You know that time is running out, and repairing the mother-daughter relationship with your cousin is not only useless for her future, but also adds to the emotional burden. ”

"Just make a hard-hearted appearance, and save your cousin from heartbreak after you die, isn't it?"

Under her gaze.

Luo Wan finally couldn't hold on, the Buddha beads in her hand fell to the ground, tears flowed from her cloudy eyes, as if she had hidden words for a long time, and finally found a place to pour out, covered her heart and said: "She is my daughter, how can I not love her?" ”

"Just ......"

She burst into tears, and after a long pause, she shook her head and said, "I am not a qualified mother, and I don't deserve to be remembered by Jing'er all the time." ”

"But if you do this, my cousin will only feel that she is a child who is not loved by her mother." Yin Cai could understand Luo Wan's psychology, but she didn't agree, she just hurt each other.

Kinship is the first thing in the world that cannot be chosen.

Even the daughter of luck is not exempt from vulgarity.

Just like in Yin Cai's view, the mean and hypocritical Director Ke, the not smart Si Wei, and the weak Luo Wan are all ordinary laymen in this world.

But in Si Jing's eyes.

Father, brother, mother, all are irreplaceable.

In terms of how to educate her children, Luo Wan really failed, but fortunately, Si Jing was easily satisfied, as long as she knew that her mother did not blame her for her brother's death, and still loved her, she had nothing to ask for.

Yin Cai slowly stepped back and opened the door.

Si Jing was standing at the door, she couldn't wait to call "mother", and then rushed to Luo Wan, the mother and daughter hugged and cried.

Misunderstanding cleared.

But Luo Wan didn't survive this winter.

There are too many things in her heart, and the guilt for her daughter is just one of them, Si Wei's death has always been a heavy blow to her, and she didn't sit well during the two confinements, and with the depression in her mood, the old illness accumulated and exploded.

After the first snow.

Si Jing once fantasized that after becoming a general, the dream of bringing glory to the Manmen could no longer be realized.

Because the mother and brother she wanted to protect were dead, she didn't have to bear the humiliation left to them by Si Chang Ke's rebellion in the Central Plains, and it was impossible to see the day when Si Jing became a general.

A few days later.

The snow continued.

Si Jing insisted on returning to the border city as soon as possible, Yin Cai accompanied her, and the two galloped in the snow, which was much more difficult than the first time they stole the border city.

Winter.

For the people, it is a difficult season, and for Beiran, it is even more difficult, because they are nomads, in the past, when the relationship between the Central Plains and Beiran was good, Emperor Qingping would give them a large number of materials to help them survive the winter.

But now the relationship between the two sides is strained.

And Tulu is ambitious again, this time the attack, instead of running after the fight as before, occupies one place after another, and has the potential to encroach on the whale.