Chapter 45: Unraveling the Contradictions
The sunlight outside the window spilled in, shining on Bai Huahua's ward, Liu Xiang's snoring rose and fell in his ears, and Lu Zhidao's handsome and refreshing face was in front of him, the world was so quiet at this moment, as if the ground in the tomb was shaking and shaking was something that happened in the previous life.
I tried to sit up and moved my limbs, and every joint ached, as if I had been soaked in vinegar for a long time. I lay in front of Lu Zhidao's hospital bed, his index finger slid from his forehead to the tip of his nose to his mouth to his chin, his eyelashes were very long, and his eyebrows were also very thick, but they were tightly twisted together, I stroked it gently with my hand, and still did not open his brows, what was he thinking in his little head, what was the sorrow that locked his brows in his sleep, I looked at him and was distracted, I would think of all the things we experienced together, the first first meeting, he saved my embarrassment in time, from doubts about him to deep belief, to now, Where do I put him in my heart, since when did I start the first thing I thought of when I was most dangerous, Mother Jin said, no matter what your attitude towards this man, your mind will always be on him, and he will occupy your heart. Is Lu Zhidao occupying my heart, or am I just a little suspicious, what he said to the immortal ascending person in the tomb also makes me scratch my head, and why didn't he come back to me head-on when he came back from Peacock Village......
"Shu Xin, Shu Xin, Shu Xin, be careful, come to me, Shu Xin!" Lu Zhidao on the hospital bed began to murmur uneasily, shaking his head, calling my name in his mouth, I grabbed his hand and said, "It's okay, I'm here, I'm here." ”
I don't know what kind of scene in the dream made him so frightened and uneasy, he was awakened, his eyes wide open, panting. It may be that the white in front of him is too dazzling, and he reaches out to block his glasses.
I said, "Did you have a nightmare?" ”
He slowly lowered his hand and seemed relieved to see me safe and sound in front of his eyes: "Are your injuries okay?" ”
I said, "Isn't that good in front of you?" ”
He looked at his arm in a plaster cast and said, "Liu Xiang and the others are fine." ”
I said, "It's all right."
He said, "It's all good." ”
Then there was a lot of silence, and I didn't expect him to wake up, but I didn't dare to get close to him, not that I didn't dare, as if there was an invisible wall between the two of us, both of whom seemed cramped and uneasy.
He broke the silence and picked up the orange at the head of the bed and said, "Well.... Let's eat an orange," peeled the orange with difficulty with one hand, and the juice of the orange peel splashed out and splashed into his eyes, and he burst into tears.
I laughed, snatched the orange from his hand and said, "Come on, don't force it with one hand." ”
Lu Zhidao suddenly held my hand with his hand, his hand was very big and wide, one hand could hold my two hands, looked at me very seriously and said: "Shu Xin I know you have a belly to ask me, I also have a belly to tell you, I thought we would all be buried there, I just hugged you tightly, I was afraid that I would not find you when I died, I was afraid that I would not be able to explain to you, but I don't know where to start, I really didn't care about you, I, I thought you were stupid at the beginning, and then I felt that you were quite righteous, and I also, I don't know when, I don't know when you have a place in my heart, Peacock Mountain really wasn't designed by me, I knew at the time that I was really panicked when you fell into the Gu, even if it was a sword mountain and a sea of fire, I was really ......"
"Poof~" Looking at this explanation of his blushing face and speechlessness like a child, thinking of his composure in the face of all kinds of ghosts, gods and demons, I couldn't help laughing, in fact, the doubts and blames in my heart were buried in the soil with the collapse of the tomb, after experiencing life and death, many questions didn't seem to be so important, I said: "Okay, I know," I looked at his red face, his eyes were full of anxiety and grievances, "I actually had a lot to say before, I may experience this once, I don't know what to ask you, but I think it's really hard for everyone to live safely......"
"Shin Shin, I love you." He couldn't wait to interrupt me and say, "I am now qualified to have an identity and time to love you, I looked for you to be your successor before, but I took a fancy to your special physique, but now that the task is completed, I am free, and you are also free, there is no other reason to stop us, can we be together?" ”
I was a little shocked and couldn't speak, was it shocked that he had a plan when he approached me at the beginning, or that sentence really I love you, sure enough, everything started to be premeditated, I was a little hesitant to get this answer, it turned out that this was all planned, I was just a chess piece, if the mission failed, Zhang Zhenren failed to cross the catastrophe, will he still love me? A woman's heart towards feelings is really exquisite, looking for all kinds of gaps to admit that he doesn't care about you, and finding all kinds of details to verify that he doesn't care about you.
There was a hint of hoarseness in my voice: "So, what if the mission fails?" ”
"I won't fail, as long as I'm there," he said. If you succeed, I'll come back to you, and if you fail, I'll dedicate myself to my ancestors, and the end of the mission can only be successful, no matter how many generations of disciples are, they won't allow the mission to fail. ”
"That means that if you fail, you will die, right, if you fail, you will stay in that place forever, right?" His eyes told me that I had guessed right, and I had mixed feelings in my heart, blaming myself for not being suspicious of him, and blaming myself for knowing him, and started the relationship, and the tears fell down my tears, and he tried hard with one hand to wipe my face for me.
He wiped and said, "Don't cry, if you promise me, I will be by your side, protect you, and watch you." ”
My heart gradually warmed up, after all, he was also a boy.
At this time, Liu Xiang said: "Ahem, shouldn't I wake up, I can't hold back my internal urgency." ”
The laughter of the aftermath filled the entire ward.