The divorce was basically finalized, and my mind settled down a lot.

The next morning I went to school, climbed upstairs into the junior high school office, sat down for a while, and then finished class.

Lan Junliang walked in with a math book, and as soon as he saw me, he immediately walked over and punched me a few times: "Achu, what are you busy with these days, I can't see your shadow." He lowered his head and quietly glanced at me, nodding knowingly.

I went downstairs first and walked towards the playground. Not long after, Lan Junliang came to my side.

We found a step in the playground stand and sat down and watched the students run and laugh on the playground.

I waited for Lan Junliang to speak. Somehow, this time I seemed to have been waiting for a long time, maybe Lan Junliang was thinking about what appropriate expression to use to make me accept.

I pretended to smile lightly and teased him: "No matter how ugly the daughter-in-law is, she has to see her in-laws." Junliang, open your mouth, I am Gorky's brave petrel, fully prepared to fight the storm! ”

Lan Junliang turned his head to me, his face full of pimples was full of seriousness, and there seemed to be more anger: "You can still laugh!" Do you know that the school has been changing in the past ten days, and the black clouds have overwhelmed the city?! ”

I didn't interrupt him, still looking him in the eye with a faint smile.

"Why are you giving any last lesson to the students in your class? Just for those who see you as a thorn in the eye and a thorn in the flesh, you grabbed the handle and grabbed the pigtails? They can't find a reason to attack you! The rhetorical question undoubtedly deduced the raging anger in Lan Junliang's chest.

After a pause, as if to calm his anger, Lan Junliang continued: "This is good, but you yourself took the initiative to send it to the door, creating a great opportunity for them. Also, the principal and your classmate Hua Jiehao invited you to dinner that day, why did you run away? It doesn't matter if you don't listen to the principal, why do you repeatedly lose face to the principal, so that he has no prestige in front of the township leaders and school teachers? ”

I still smiled faintly, but this time I spoke: "Junliang, you know this is my character. Besides, even the principal has no right to arrange my marriage. Zifei fish, the joy of Anchi fish! Gossip, stop at the wise, I'm not afraid! ”

"You're not afraid? I'm scared. To put it lightly! Lan Junliang's eyes widened, looking at me with some resentment, some pity, and some worry, and continued, "Yuan Shaoliang and others said that you divorced because you had an affair, and also said that how could such a person be promoted to vice principal. Chang Jianguo, that old thing, is the most unpersonal, hugging the hair as a thigh, tightly tying the big tree of Yuan Shaocai, colluding with him, embarrassed, saying that you have a stubborn personality and are self-serving, how can you provoke the school beam? He also said that after this drop in your brain, it seems that your spirit is also a little abnormal, and your feelings are more impulsive. Hmph, this old monster, for Yuan Shao's cuisine, didn't he just think that the uncle surnamed Yuan was the deputy head of the township? ”

"Despicable and shameless!" I put away the smile on my face, and a nameless fire immediately sparked in my heart.

"Achu," Lan Junliang's voice lowered significantly, as if he couldn't bear it, but finally made up his mind and said slowly, "I heard from many teachers that the vice principal of Yuan Shaocai has passed the inspection of the township party committee, and he will report to the Municipal Education Bureau recently, so he will wait for approval." ”

We struck a spirit, and all the good ideals seemed to be wiped out in an instant.

I know that every man wants to prove himself with his career and Wenda, but in fact, I am not exempt from vulgarity, but I am just deeply pressed in my heart with calm and indifference. Actually, I knew that this ending might happen, but I didn't expect it to appear so early and so quickly, that I didn't even have time to prove this truth-

With our unremitting efforts and tenacious struggle, we may be able to reverse some unhealthy trends in society.

I shook my head slightly, trying to shake off all the unhappiness, a faint smile bloomed on my face again, and my voice seemed to float from the distant sky: "Junliang, thank you for telling me this. These things will not affect me much, because the purpose of my hard work is mainly to teach students well and do my job well. ”

Lan Junliang may have thought that my tone was too calm, and he looked surprised: "Ah Chu, are you okay?" ”

I understood his surprise, and I knew that he couldn't have understood my mood at the moment.

I smiled again, no matter how hard my heart hits, I must stick to my proud life: "Junliang, after going through many things, I have a deeper view on many issues, especially the teacher in the university who commented on Su Dongpo's sentence 'Don't be shocked by the humiliation, forget the gain and loss', I have a new understanding." ”

Lan Junliang had a class in the third period, he stood up and patted my back hard, and the thick baritone rang my ear drum again: "Achu, I'm going to class." Remember, I am always on the side of my friends and on the side of justice! ”

I desperately resisted the urge to speak, because I knew that if I opened my mouth, tears would burst out of my eyes, and I really didn't want to portray a miserable image in front of my friends!

Gazing at my friend's tall and burly back quickly disappearing from view, I slowly moved my steps and walked round and round the playground.

The night seemed to be completely dark and calm. I was in the pavilion in the river of the campus, looking out from the railing, the crescent moon shining in the sky, and the stars falling into the sky; Leaning over and believing in his eyes, a bend of the moon dives into the water, quiet as a virgin, as bright as white jade, reflecting each other with the sky, singing and harmonizing with each other. The breeze came, the river swayed and rippled, and the moonlight crushed by the waves was like delicate and scorching silver flowers.

Such a scene made me feel a hallucination and a little nostalgia and a little melancholy: the ethereal and illusory surface of the river is as beautiful as a cold and unforgiving reality! The bell rang suddenly, and a crowd poured out of the building......

At this time, I felt a kind of pain coming at me like a spinning asteroid at a rapid pace—

Is it just to say goodbye to my beautiful ideals in this way, to pay tribute to my shattered dreams in this way?

I don't know whether the alarm of the bell of the student's car coming home or the temptation of the crescent moon, a few birds sprang out of the forest and rowed across the river; The ripples on the surface of the river shook gently, and the crescent moon flickered and flickered with the microwave, sometimes bright and sometimes dark; Occasionally, a few puffy clouds swept over the river, and the surface of the river changed color and luster.

Looking up at the moon, the crescent moon that had climbed to the middle of the sky seemed to have exhausted its essence and blood and internal qi, pale and weak, weak and formless, and the little pity happiness left in his heart disappeared with it.

I think of tearing up the employment certificate of Binjiang TV reporter in front of the students two years ago, isn't it my dream to run around in the studio, in the recording studio and in interviews? Am I wrong to give up? Give up, give up, I actually gave up the opportunity to enter the provincial school, what was the result? The nearly 80-year-old father, who is nearly 30 miles away, is lonely and lonely, and the four-year-old son can only be beaten and bathed in bitter dew in a remote and backward rural kindergarten.

And I, when I was stupidly dedicating my youth, the best time of my life and even my life to the cause of education, I was ridiculed, ridiculed, and struck by my comrades-in-arms.

Isn't that a bad result? Ridiculous? Incredible?

Lying on a hotel bed, tossing and turning. The wind wanders outside the window, searching, deserted...... A melancholy mood lingered around me like smoke, like a mist, and the twists and turns of life, the ups and downs of life, all at once, rushed to me.

I opened my eyes wide, and in meditation, the world was like a glowing white paper, and it seemed that only the old man of time was staggering forward on the moonlight like water. Gradually, the dream soared. In my cyan dream, I heard a TV station interview car rumbling across the distance, and I ran through the studio, the recording studio, and the interviews, and ran and ran into the campus.

My students and I have always held hands, walking through purgatory and finally to our paradise – the classroom.

In heaven, the golden sunlight flows happily into a river, trickling, trickling, gurgling, rippling, in the silence of the midnight bursts with a thin wave of happiness, bunches, flowers, circles, damp my dreams.