Chapter 651: Qinglian 8
Knowing that his sister was like this, he knew that he was in the wrong, and he didn't hold on to it, but softened his tone, "Dyeing clothes, I always thought you would understand." But now it seems that maybe the only one in this world who can understand me is Feng Annihilation. We don't rely on our own divine power to do anything, but because God has given us such powerful divine power, we have to do it. If we don't do it, don't say we're sorry for this world, but even more sorry for ourselves. ”
Frost-dyed clothes pursed her mouth, and said sullenly: "No matter what you say, you are justified! Then according to what you say, we should be worried about you, and we should be heartbroken for you? Xiao Qinglian has suffered so much for you, and there is no merit and hard work, right? Now that she is gone, she has not yet said a good word from you, has your conscience been gnawed by the dog?"
At the mention of Li Ji, Kongli's expression suddenly dimmed again, and he was silent for a long time before he whispered softly: "Anyway, it's me who is sorry for her." You are right, when I was in the human world, I was Ji Zi'an, just a mortal who knew some spells, good and evil were all in my thoughts, and her approach was understandable, but I didn't understand it at that time, I only knew how to ask, I only knew resentment, I only knew blind revenge, but I didn't know that I hurt her and hurt myself. ”
"Brother......" Frost-dyed clothes He had seen such an empty separation, and she was slightly panicked in her heart, she carefully stretched out her hand and pulled the corner of the empty clothes, and said softly: "Brother, don't blame yourself, these are all Xiao Qinglian's willingness, besides, it's too late for you to blame yourself now, she ...... Won't be coming back. ”
He nodded, "yes, I won't be coming back." If I'm not mistaken, over the past thousand years, you must have sent her three souls and six spirits into the body of a woman with pure yin again and again, so I found her several times one after another, thinking that those women were her reincarnation.
"But her soul is too weak, and she is powerless to inherit her body when the longevity of those companion women is exhausted, so every time I perceive her existence, it is when her soul is about to be released and I have a strong sense of love in my hand, but when I finally find her, it is always a step too late. ”
Frost-dyed clothes nodded, "That's right. You should remember, you found her five times, and I actually helped her five times. Speaking of which, you and her don't know whether they are destined or not, every time the woman she is with is about to die, you can find her, but if you find it, you can't be together.
"Her soul has always been weak, and every time she gets a little better, she wants to go to the human world regardless of it. In fact, Ji Wuxin in this life is very likely to be the same as the past few times, when the princess of Wansang Kingdom died, Xiao Qinglian still couldn't inherit her body smoothly. I didn't expect you to find her in advance and leave her in your own way.
"And I'...... I'm worried that she will secretly do something stupid behind my back, and I'm also worried that you will not fall into your own demons, so even though I know that doing so is against the principles of heaven and will damage Xiao Qinglian's immortal fate, I still choose to help her. ”
Speaking of this, Frost-dyed Yi paused slightly, raised her eyes to stare at the empty eyes, and suddenly said very seriously: "Brother, Xiao Qinglian really loves you, she once said that whether it is the ruthless Da Si Ming or Ji Zi'an, who hates her wholeheartedly, she has been engraved in her soul and will never turn her back." It's that kind of attachment that I've never seen before.
"She's stupid, but she's also something I admire. Brother, what about you? What the hell are you...... Have you ever loved her? Is your monstrous hatred for her when you were Ji Zi'an really because of love? Or is it just because of your dignity that you can't stand being deceived, or because you blame your father and cousin for being indirectly burdened by you?"
Is it really because of love, or is it just for dignity, or is it to blame oneself for being burdened by one's loved ones?
Kongli's hands hidden under the black cloak unconsciously clenched into fists, he didn't think about this problem, but it was Ji Zi'an who thought about it, not the current Kongli.
At that time, he also considered that he might not love Li Ji as much as he thought. He is a man, he has his pride, and when he finds that his feelings have been played with by a woman, and what he has paid is penniless in the eyes of the other party, he really hates it.
But whether that kind of hatred was more annoyed and angry or more hated because of love, Ji Zi'an didn't figure it out at that time.
Until the moment Ji Wuxin died in his arms, he was finally able to face up to everything that had happened between them for thousands of years, and he was sure that he loved her, a kind of love that could no longer be separated from his memory.
In fact, after knowing that Li Ji deceived herself, Ji Zi'an's first emotion was not hatred, but pain. This is the most natural and true feeling of truly loving someone after being betrayed.
That kind of pain made him almost crazy, and made him almost masochistic and constantly self-examining, racking his brains to search for bits and pieces between them, and reflecting on what he had done wrong, where he had not done well enough? Otherwise, why would the lover who had been sweet for several years turn his face when he said it, so ruthless, so resolute, as she said, everything about them is just a one-man show he himself experienced in a dream.
It's just that at that time, in addition to the hurt feelings, Ji Zi'an experienced the misfortune of his father and cousin one after another, and these changes came one after another, which soon suppressed his heartache for the loss of love, so that he didn't have much time to think about and reminisce about what happened naturally and what was contrary to common sense when he and Li Ji came all the way.
Today, he has become the chief priest again, and this love between him and Li Ji full of remorse and hurt is not what he once thought - it is just a love disaster, and after experiencing it, it will pass.
His life is long, and his entanglement with Li Ji in this short period of more than a thousand years should have been just a landscape to take a closer look. But just because of one more look, this landscape became an eternity in his life, which he had never seen before, and never again.
Li Ji had only been gone for a few days, but Kong Li felt that he had seen his final end, he would never be able to let go of his thoughts about her, that kind of thoughts would flood like a flood in the dead of night, no matter how much he resisted, the indifference that seemed to be no different from usual in front of people would be washed away, making him have the urge to cry.
Frost-dyed clothes stared at the empty eyes persistently, not wanting to let go of any of his expressions that might be fleeting, her heart was actually a little nervous, she was afraid of getting his negative answer, in that case, she would really feel sorry for Li Ji, very sad.
But Kongli didn't seem to notice that Frost Dye Yi was looking at him, although his eyes seemed to stay on her face, but his thoughts had already flown to the clouds, and he couldn't see anything in his eyes, only Li Ji's voice and smile appeared in his mind.
After a long time, Kong Li took a deep breath, "I love her, not 'loved', but have always loved her from beginning to end." ”
It seems that he didn't expect his brother to be so generous and frank, which completely subverted his ruthless appearance in the past so long ago.
"Brother......" Frost-dyed clothes were stunned for a while, and only after a pause did he come to his senses, "You...... Are you really, really willing to admit that you love her?"
Kong Li cast a puzzled look at her, "Love is love, what are you willing to admit it? Do you think I'm still the Ji Zi'an of the Wu Clan?"
"No, it's not ......" Frost-dyed clothes hurriedly shook her head, trying to find the words, "I just ...... I just think that you have always been cold, always looking high, and the woman in these three realms who will make you look at you differently is probably no second person except Sister Feng Yan, so ...... So ......"
"High up......" Kong Li muttered these four words, and then slightly pulled the corners of his lips and smiled bitterly, "A few days ago, Qingci also used these four words to describe me and Feng Yan, it seems that you really have some misunderstandings about us, we just don't like to be involved in too many things." The priesthood must maintain a calm heart and not be able to be influenced by anything about one's emotions.
"But we are not high-minded, but we have lived for a long time and our mana has become stronger, and we have been passed on by the Three Realms to become more and more unseemly. In fact, in my eyes, whether it is a spirit or a god, they are just a piece of sand in the sea of this world. Since I have met her and fallen in love with her, then this is the case, and whether I admit it or not will not make any change in this matter, why should I suppress my own heart?"
Frost-dyed Yi listened quietly, her eyes staring at the empty eyes for a moment, and this time she was surprised to find that her brother was so handsome and elegant when the amber eyes that always looked cold rippled with a gentle color like water.
"No wonder Xiao Qinglian will take a fancy to you......" Frost-dyed Yi muttered softly.
"What?" Kuli asked as if he hadn't heard clearly.
"No, ......no," Frost Dyed Clothes quickly shook his head, "I mean, the first time I found out that my brother was born so beautiful, I used to think that you were like an ice cube, and I was about to be frozen by you before I saw your face, and if I wasn't your sister, I wouldn't want to be near you." Brother, do you know how you look, it's really good-looking! If you're always so gentle, I guess the Xian'e who pursues you will break through the gates of our Wenchang Palace!"
The frost-dyed clothes are not exaggerated at all, if it weren't for the fact that his empty temperament is too cold, even if his identity is so noble that it is a little taboo, it will also attract fairies from all walks of life.