At three o'clock in the morning, the screeching of the telephone pierced the silence of the night, and I knew it was going to be another sleepless night.

The first time I saw Hongdou was on the train back to Wuhan, it was a sunny day, she was sitting by the window, and the seven shiny studs in her right ear dazzled my eyes.

The first thing she said to me was, sister, do you have a fire? I was stunned, then she laughed, winked and said, "Don't be nervous, I'm just teasing you, because you're a lot like me five years ago." That's how I remember this Northeast girl who had dimples when she laughed.

It was the first time Hongdou came to Wuhan, and she said that she was tired of the rhythm of life in a small county town in the north, and she didn't like to die a chicken at home

The life of a "household name". When she arrived to say goodbye to me, she only said two words: "Your phone."

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"I have to survive in this city

“。 After that, I would occasionally get calls from Red Beans asking me to have coffee or just go to the river to sit and walk and blow the wind. When she was in a good mood, she would show me a lot of old photos, talk about her dreams, her suitors, and her past. I don't know how many of them she made up, but she did look a little like me when she was 22 years old. That photo is Hongdou's favorite photo, a boy at the door of the house helped her take it, and it has been 6 years since the photo was taken. She said she ran away from home because her family forced her to marry a man she had known for a week, so she had the courage to come out. Although the life in other places for most of the year is bitter, it is much more interesting than Hongdou's experience of more than 20 years before, and Wuhan is the third and last stop she left home. Hongdou said that no matter how long he wanders, he still wants to settle down, not for someone, just to be able to sleep peacefully. I think there is always a girl in her heart who longs to be relied on. Hongdou often sighs that she has nothing from the best age to the most embarrassing age, she resents time, but she is also grateful for time, because at the age of 22, she must not have the courage to leave home, and those precipitated life experiences have become who she is today. On Thanksgiving, the buddy who accompanied Hongdou to run at night every day confessed to Hongdou, Hongdou did not agree or refuse, and pulled me out to get drunk in the food stall that night. She talked a lot that day, sometimes laughing and crying. She wouldn't remember what she had said when she woke up, but I knew that all those bits and pieces were the subject of his name. He is the boy who took pictures of red beans in the snow, and he was also her first love. Red Bean and he met at the bus stop, and as soon as the crowd turned their heads, the boy got on the bus where Red Bean was riding, and since then he has entered the girl world of Red Bean. The boy said that there will be many classes on the bus, and as long as I wait, I will come, and I am not sure if I will meet the girl who makes me so excited after missing you. A little bit of the effect of alcohol, Red Bean's cheeks were crimson as he repeated this sentence, with a light smile, and his eyes were as bright as stars in the sky. Hongdou said that my dream was really simple, and I wanted to hold his hand one day and toast the wine of all the guests. After breaking up with the boy, Hongdou also texted the boy every night to say goodnight, but he never replied, and one day about two months later, he finally replied to Hongdou and said: "Don't send me goodnight again, you disturb my current life." After that, Hongdou texted different strangers every night to say goodnight, the numbers were all made up, most of them did not respond, and a few would politely reply with good night, and one even called and scolded Hongdou, saying that Hongdou's text message caused him to quarrel with his girlfriend, and a girl patiently listened to Hongdou finish the whole story.

Then one day, the red bean was so tired that he fell asleep before he could lie down and have a number, and this bedtime ritual was finally no longer continued.

When you are tired, you will naturally no longer be obsessed with those self-righteous attachments. Time passed suddenly, and the name she desperately wanted to forget was no longer on her mind.

If I've been unkind, I hope you'll try to let go. If I've ever deceived, it's because I think there must be a lie in love.

Is there such a person, when you first met, you really never thought that it would be like this in the future.

After getting drunk that night, I never saw the red bean again, and even the phone tone showed that I was not in the service area.

But when the phone went through at three o'clock in the morning, I knew she was back. When she said goodbye to Red Bean, she cut her hair neatly short, wore a handsome denim suit, and told me that she heard a wandering singer sing "Beginning to Understand" under the overpass, and felt relaxed after using all the money on her body to support his dream, and then showed off the ring Xiu was wearing on her ring finger, shining in the sun like her drunken eyes that night.

She said that when she meets people who cherish herself, she knows that no matter where she goes, it will not be a wandering. I knew she was here to say goodbye to me.

She hadn't had time to tell me the story of her stud earrings, who helped her put on her ring ring, and where she had gone, but I knew that there would be a stop on her future itinerary to go to the southernmost corners of the earth with her beloved, because that was her dream.

Actually, none of this matters anymore, because what you think is worth it doesn't need to be proven to anyone.

Exquisite dice An red beans, into the bone lovesickness does not know. Today's red bean has found a lover who is lovesick to her.

But I still can't forget the words she stared into my eyes and said earnestly when she was leaving: never lose courage for something that is important.

I know that the road of red beans may not be easy to follow, but people can't choose to live well because they will leave this world in the end.

I've been separated from Azumi for almost two years, and I've never reached out to her, but I want her to be happy more than anyone else.

I hope that you, like the red bean, will also be happy, because there is no reason for kind and brave people not to be happy.

Hayao Miyazaki once said: No matter how hard the road ahead is, as long as you go in the right direction, no matter how bumpy it is, you are closer to happiness than standing still.

All experiences are actually self-growth, and I wish those who can persist in being themselves after experiencing ups and downs.