Chapter 33: I Want to Live

Inscription: Huang Ying has been crying for a long time and wants to cry four or five times

Wuhan, a large city with a population of more than 10 million, has only the largest Wuhan in China, except for the big Shanghai with the word "big". With decades of rapid development of reform and opening up, it has become a quasi-first-tier city in China. However, overnight at the beginning of the year of Gengzi, this megacity, after the lockdown, the traffic and crowds suddenly disappeared, becoming a cold print!

At night, the cold moon is in the sky and the cold wind is howling.

Zhu Yi stood alone in front of the window, looking at the night of the city. Wuhan is still brightly lit and neon-lit, and the major buildings on the four banks of the two rivers are constantly jumping out of the huge electronic light screen of "China will win, Wuhan come on". Yangtze River Bridge, Yangtze River Bridge, Tianxingzhou Bridge, Parrot Island Bridge, Erqi Yangtze River Bridge, Yangsigang Yangtze River Bridge, Hanjiang Bridge, Yangtze River Bridge, Yuehu Bridge, etc., electronic neon lights continue to change the huge words, "Wuhan will win, Wuhan come on!" ”

Although the silence and terror after many days of lockdown have shrouded the sky over the city and in the hearts of the people, and the invisible virus demon is raging and dancing, it is not the town of Yam in history, Wuhan is a heroic city, and the people of Wuhan and Hubei are heroic people.

In the War of Resistance Against Japanese Aggression, the famous Battle of Wuhan went down in history; The first gunshot of the Shouyi Revolution was brilliant for thousands of years; In the 98 flood, 300,000 officers and soldiers desperately defended the safety of the land of Jingchu and the city of Wuhan! In the beacon years, people were in the position; At the juncture of fighting the epidemic, people are in Wuhan.

Zhu Yi touched the scene, and a sense of desolation and tragedy arose! He felt that he was a soldier on a position, defending to the death, desperately, doing his best!

Zhu Yi was anxiously awaiting the arrival of a medical rescue team from the People's Liberation Army. The respiratory inpatient department of Fumin Hospital, which he is in charge of, is now in critical condition. Six medical staff in the ICU ward collapsed, and the intensive care ward, which could only accommodate more than 30 people, is now crammed into more than 60 people. At present, he is the only one, Sun Aibing, Wu Aichun, Liu Xinxin, Xiaofang, Sister Lu and others are holding their positions!

Xiao Fang hurriedly walked over and said, "Director Zhu, the 29-bed patient is gone." Her face was filled with tears. Xiao Fang continued: "This patient, I guarded him for a day and a night, a small bowl of porridge and half a steamed bun, fed him for almost two hours and didn't finish eating, and he had to be connected to the ventilator immediately after eating a mouthful, this, how good is this!" Woo......"

Zhu Yi was also very painful and anxious in his heart, but still said calmly: "Xiaofang, you have worked hard, you have been in the intensive care ward during this time, after the fall of six medical staff, you did not take half a step back, fortunately with you!" ”

When they came to the intensive care unit, the 29-bed patient had stopped breathing, and Xiaofang couldn't help crying, "Uncle! ”

When the patients in the intensive care unit heard Xiaofang's cry, their mood was clouded again. Some of them ripped off their oxygen masks, some threw their mobile phones, some removed items from their bedside, and some refused to take their medication or eat.

Xiao Fang quickly held back her crying, knowing that her emotions were directly related to the effect of the treatment and the atmosphere in the ward. As a nurse, what should be given to patients is the glow under the clouds, the warmth in the bitter wind and rain, the torch in the black clouds, the hope when they are dying, and the confidence to regain life.

She silently wrapped the deceased's body with a sheet, and then specially found a clean sheet to cover the deceased's body, and slowly pushed the body out of the ward.

Her legs seemed to be stuck in the mud, she couldn't take a step, her whole body and mind were like ice caves, and her blood seemed to stop flowing. She wanted to hum a tune to the deceased, but she didn't think of a tune to hum for a while. She thought that perhaps the soul of a person who had entered heaven needed some kind of music to comfort him.

She remembers that five days ago, the deceased plumber climbed the 50-meter-high high-voltage power tower to overhaul the transmission line before coming to the hospital, and stayed on the tower for two or three hours. He also said that the drainage pipe at the Leishenshan Hospital construction site was connected in the wrong place, and he jumped into the stagnant water and connected the sewer pipe for several hours on end. He smiled and said to Xiaofang that his daughter was the same age as Xiaofang, was studying for a master's degree, and was a student cadre of the school's Youth League Committee. When he said this, he showed a detached confidence.

But five days later, this uncle, who came to the hospital with a smile, left the hospital forever with his eyes closed!

Xiaofang saw the video of her uncle and his daughter with her own eyes. The daughter has been encouraging him, "Dad, you are good, you are a strong male god, my mother and I are always waiting for you to return safely!" However, this good wish has become an endless elegy.

Xiao Fang and Liu Xinxin pushed the body of the deceased and slowly walked out of the ward. The corridors of the hospital are filled with cabinets, as well as some treatment facilities and makeshift beds for observation. They pushed the deceased very carefully, with a kind of true and benevolent piety, and carefully did not let the deceased touch anything, so that the soul of the deceased would no longer be frightened!

While pushing the bed of the body, they said softly, "Uncle, please go all the way!" The voice was deep and weak. It is a ritual unique to nurses to say goodbye to the deceased.

None of the deceased's relatives, friends and family members came, and they couldn't come, only a simple and quiet farewell from the angels in white! This kind of farewell has been many times for them! And each time it left a deep scar on their hearts! From the intensive care ward of the hospital to a specific exit, the corridor is only sixty meters, and if it is in normal times, Xiaofang can walk it in only ten seconds. But now she felt that it was very long!

Xiaofang said to Liu Xinxin: "Sister Xin, slow down, slow down, let our farewell and companionship be longer." ”

Liu Xinxin's eyes were full of tears, and she hummed a Russian song "I Want to Live" in a low voice, the sound was like the slightest breeze in the silent night sky, and like the sound of flying leaves and snowflakes.

"You know, you want to live, to watch the fiery sunrise, to live, to live, it is to love, all the people who accompany you. Do you know how much you want to live, at dawn, wake up with you, make coffee, and the world is still sleeping sweetly. Do you know that if you want to live, you don't have to publicize it through the newspaper, share it honestly without reservation, and live to make your child never forget. You know what, how much you want to live. At the moment of your sacrifice, stand up and announce to everyone that you will come back later, even if you fall. You know, how much you want to live, in that minute of death, forget all unhappiness, forgive everyone, forgiveness is redemption. You know what, how much you want to live. Transform into a sleeping cherry fairy in the winter room, bloom in the spring, and grow into a new tree. ------”

Liu Xinxin's whispering seems to let the deceased rest in peace, so that the grievances and wounded hearts that have passed away can be comforted.

At this time, Wu Aichun walked over and slowly followed behind them. Wu Aichun handed Liu Xinxin a tissue.

Liu Xinxin said sadly: "Thank you, no, my tears, the tears of my life have all flowed away and dried up!" ”

They walked for ten minutes in this corridor of more than 50 meters!

Cheng Dong waited at the end of the corridor. He held a body bag, carefully packed the deceased, pulled the chain, and glued the death certificate issued by the doctor, with the name, ID number, and place of origin.

Cheng Dong bowed to the deceased, stood silent for dozens of seconds, and then gently carried the deceased on his shoulders. Every time this volunteer takes a deceased person to the morgue or funeral car, he is very careful, careful, and in his own unique way of saying goodbye to the deceased. He believes that this is a sign of respect for the deceased, and that although they died of the coronavirus, this innocent death deserves the dignity it deserves. The dignity of death is often more important than the dignity of life. Because this is a kind of farewell to life and death, it is a unique event between heaven and earth!

Xiaofang returned to the intensive care unit, where she was in charge of five patients. These five patients are all seriously ill and can no longer get out of bed to urinate, Xiaofang catches urine and feces for them, puts adult diapers on them, and scrubs their lower bodies.

The male patients began to prevent Xiaofang from doing this. They think that Xiaofang is a twenty-four-year-old girl, a girl who is not in love, how embarrassing it is for her to do this!

If you feed a patient, you have to take off the oxygen mask, take off the mask, the patient's oxygen saturation data will drop rapidly, and the alarm sound of dripping will appear on the dashboard. In order to save the patient, Xiaofang fed the patient a mouthful of food, and then quickly put on the oxygen mask.

Xiao Fang and the nurses are so persistent and maintain every patient. Just as she was feeding the twenty-bed patient, the old gentleman with the nineteenth bed next to her suddenly left! She had to hurry up and ask Liu Xinxin to help deal with the dead patient! When they had just finished disposing of the old man's body, the twenty-two patients had no vital signs! Although the death of these patients was unexpected and expected, Xiaofang was very sad! The tragedy of death happened every day before her eyes, and she was greatly hurt physically and mentally!

As soon as the deceased patient is out, the bed will soon be occupied. Of the five beds that Xiaofang was in charge of, three patients died, and three other patients were admitted again, including a little brother, who was only twenty-six years old, was Liu Yuxin, a courier.

Zhu Yi told Xiaofang: "Liu Yuxin is a volunteer, and he, together with Luo Wu, An Daoji, Wang Bo and others, advocated the establishment of the volunteer service team to help me, and has done a lot of good things. Not only that, the nucleic acid test samples from Fumin Hospital are all sent back and forth day and night! ”

Liu Xinxin said: "Xiao Liu, you are the courier of life!" ”

Liu Yuxin was short and thin, and he was exhausted due to running around for dozens of days without rest. He not only transferred materials for the residents of Jiahe community, but also undertook the delivery of nucleic acid test samples from Fumin Hospital, although he was infected with the new crown pneumonia, he was very optimistic, saw Zhu Yi, smiled happily, and said: "Director Zhu, I didn't expect to meet you here, it's hard for you!" ”

Zhu Yi said: "You are seriously ill, why don't you come early?" ”

Liu Yuxin said: "There are many patients in the Wanjia community, and there are few beds allocated, so I could have entered the hospital a few days earlier, but I let two waves first, so that those who need it more can be treated first!" ”

After hearing this, Zhu Yi felt love and gave a thumbs up: "Good job!" Thumbs up! My good brother, good neighbor. Since you have come to the hospital, we are a family! But at the same time, he thought that Liu Yuxin's condition was already very serious, because of the delay, if he had been a week earlier, he might not have struggled on the front line of life and death! In the face of such a disaster, at the moment of death, some people will do whatever it takes to get a hospital bed. Yes, a hospital bed is the hope of life at this moment, and who wouldn't want to live? Only those who are righteous and benevolent will give hope to others and keep danger to themselves. Liu Yuxin in front of him, an ordinary courier brother, is such a person!

Five hours after Liu Yuxin was admitted to the hospital, he couldn't get out of bed to go to the bathroom, nor could he eat or drink. This young and competitive courier guy thought, is this me? Is this the first ride in the Wanjia community that was praised by the neighbors? I used to ride my beloved electric car and speed through the streets and alleys, and I was very familiar with every alley, every street, every neighborhood, every building, and every resident. I am like a light and fast horse, shuttling through the streets and alleys or the sea of traffic; I am like a nimble bird, flying between the door of the building and the delivery locker. I have strength, I am young, I am confident, I am not afraid of wind and rain, I am not afraid of ghosts and gods, I am not afraid of hardship, but how suddenly I have become such a useless person? I don't believe I'm such a person! Damn virus, you can't defeat my Knight Liu!

However, the attack of the self and the disease are often not equal, and sometimes even involuntarily! It's really the so-called heart to resist the disease, but there is no power to return to heaven!

Liu Yuxin can't take care of himself, and he relies on Xiaofang to deal with feces and urine in bed. At first, he resolutely refused, he felt embarrassed, a man, a handsome guy, how can a big girl get these for herself!

Under Liu Xinxin's persuasion, he had no choice but to obey. However, he insisted on eating and drinking by himself. He said optimistically: "I didn't expect it to be really good in the hospital, I don't have to pay a penny by myself, the state does it, and there are a few white coats around me, serving feces and urine, while inhaling oxygen, and there is a beautiful nurse sister to feed me!" ”

When Xiaofang got off work, she said goodbye to Liu Yuxin with a special small card. In order to facilitate communication with patients, she specially made graphic cards with "Eat on time" and "Do you need to urinate?" "Come on, you'll be fine soon!" "I'm going to sleep now" and so on. Xiao Fang clenched her fist and motioned to Liu Yuxin to hold on, come on.

Liu Yuxin said to Xiaofang: "I was on video with my parents, and they heard that I was hospitalized and cried for a few days. I'm young, I can hold on. His tired cheeks were filled with confidence.

However, the next morning, Xiao Fang took over, and Liu Xinxin told her: "That courier brother Xiao Liu left last night!" ”

Xiao Fang let out an "ah" and almost fainted! She said, "He's so young! He's so optimistic! When I got off work yesterday, he was still on video ...... with his parents"