Since I accidentally killed nine taels by mistake in an illusion, no, I didn't say a manslaughter, what did he Zhenren say to me. Let me think deeply, illusions are like dreams, why do I fall into such illusions? For I fear, and I desire.

I'm too unsure about Jiuliang's sudden love, and I have a trace of doubt about her from the bottom of my heart. Where the heart goes, the demons go there. It was said that the illusion hurt me, but in fact, it was my own reason, I felt guilty, so I knew that if my death could be exchanged for nine taels of life, I resolutely chose death, and if I died, I could atone for all the original sins.

I felt the feeling of my blood gushing out, and I saw the worried eyes of He Zhenren and the fat man.

My whole body began to flutter slightly, and then I died. Yes, I seem to have become a different version of me. Standing beside me, everything was so strange, and I saw the heart-piercing cry of my old lady and my grandmother rushing over me.

Dazed, I feel very dazed at the moment, is it nostalgia for life, or is it the fear of death that I will face next?

I can't seem to express this feeling.

--I watched He Zhenren and Lin Baqian work together to save nine taels, and I saw myself being buried.

Without the legendary bull head and horse face to take me away, no judgment, no eighteen layers of hell, I have been in the lock village. I felt the rapid passage of time, and I saw the desperate eyes of Jiuliang when he came back to life.

After that, Jiuliang gave birth to my child, and I wanted to touch him and hug him, but I found that I couldn't touch him at all.

I watched my grandmother grow old. Until she died.

I watched my mother's head turn white, and I wanted to talk to her, but I could only look at her painful eyes when I was alone.

I died, I became a ghost, I became a bystander, but I could only watch all this in front of me, watching my relatives gradually pass away. In this way, a hundred years have passed in the blink of an eye, and Jiuliang is no longer alive.

My children are all old. I'm still standing here. I wanted to talk to my grandchildren, my grandchildren's children, but it felt so strange.

I suddenly want to cry, why can't I talk to my relatives when they die? I'm a ghost, but I can't see them? Am I different from them even if I die?

I wanted to find them, I left the lock village, I wanted to find out where they went. That eagerness, that hope, makes me desperate and helpless.

I walked through the famous mountains and rivers, and walked through the netherworld and hell, but I found no trace of them, and at last, I came across an old man with a white face and no beard. looks unusually kind, and he wears an official uniform of the Qing Dynasty.

"Grandpa, is that you?" I asked.

He smiled at me, nodded, and said, "Child, do you see, do you feel like seeing your loved ones pass away one by one?" The people you care about are gradually passing away, and you seem to live forever? ”

I nodded, and in front of this old man, I felt so aggrieved that I didn't know how to speak.

"If you didn't die just now, but you became immortal, you can live forever without facing death, but the people around you are mortals, and you want to use your immortality to see them die one by one, are you willing?" My grandfather asked me. When he asked, he still smiled very kindly.

It was difficult for me to answer this question before, but now, I almost blurted out: "What is the use of such immortality?" ”

"Then if your death is exchanged for the immortality of those you care about, are you willing?" Grandpa still asked me.

I closed my eyes and remembered the feeling of my relatives passing away one by one just now, the sadness that made people feel helpless. If one of my deaths could be exchanged for their eternal life, why not?

"I do." I said.

"But have you ever thought that the people you care about, they care about you just as much, if you are gone, they are immortal, do you think they can really live well?" Grandpa Tai continued to ask.

I opened my mouth wide, maybe I was scared, I just died, how did my mother live? What about my grandmother? What about nine taels? What about my child?

"So what am I going to do?" I asked my grandfather with tears on my face. Communal service garbage.

"I'll tell you now, all this is an illusion, you are afraid, you are the one who reads, you are the seeker, the last illusion is still your inner demon, you want to escape, escape from all this, but do you think, you can escape?" Grandpa looked at me and said.

He sat down on the Taishi chair in front of me and said, "Descendants of the Guo family, I didn't leave anything to anyone, but I left my mission, what I thought and missed. ”

"Today's everything, I just want to tell you one thing, whether you cultivate the Tao, whether you are strong or weak, you can cultivate the Tao, but you have no human nature, what is the use of the Tao? What's better than a reunion of loved ones? Since you can't live forever, live in the present. Grandpa said.

"What the hell are you trying to tell me today?" I looked at my grandfather and said.

"Taoism does nothing to rule, Taoism is natural, I think what the heart thinks, what people do, this is nature, blindly pursue nature, then what is nature? Today, I am here to tell you where your word is, and where your word is going. Are you enlightened? Grandpa looked at me and said.

"My word." I closed my eyes.

I already know that all this is an illusion and a fake, but maybe because all this is too terrifying, I still feel that what I have experienced is real, even if it is not true, the death of a loved one is not going to happen?

"My way is to let all this not happen, it won't happen, it won't happen, it will never happen." I said.

Grandpa looked at me and said with a smile, "You can." ”

After speaking, his figure gradually blurred, and the surroundings suddenly returned to clarity, I was extremely tired, I wanted to rest, I closed my eyes in the illusion, but I woke up in reality, when I woke up, I found that the people around me were looking at me from a little distance.

The place where I was turned out to be a waterhole, and I was sitting on a futon in the shape of a lotus leaf on the waterhole, and they were watching me from the water's edge.

And beside me, a lotus plant, growing strong.

"Congratulations to Guo Sanliang for entering the Tao, entering the Tao is to get the Taoist heart, damn it, the people who open the hang are different, we were born and died, is it possible to achieve it for this guy?" The fat man looked at me and said with a red eye.

"Sanliang, that's your natal lotus, it's growing, you're also growing, if it can produce a black lotus one day, that's when you Guo Sanliang attains the Tao." He Zhenren said. Look at the look in my eyes, it's all gratifying.

"It's not going to be a fucking illusion, is it?" In fact, I still haven't come out of the dreamlike state just now.

"No, you're doing well." Lin Baqian looked at me and said, his eyes, I can't see the emotional waves, but I should be relatively satisfied with me, I slapped myself, it really fucking hurts, it shouldn't be an illusion by now.

"But damn it, how am I going to get out! I am here. "The next thing I'm going to face is this, I'm in the pool, they're outside the pool, am I going to go out lightly?

"How did you get out? Swim out! The fat man shouted over there.

I looked at the bottomless pool, and I had to swim out, and the three of them were now suppressed by the dragon vein, so they definitely didn't need to take me out, but I was wondering how I got here just now. At this moment, I didn't have time to think too much, so I could only jump down and swim to the shore, and before leaving, I looked at the natal lotus in He Zhen's mouth.

A growing trend, but it is still so delicate, growing into a black lotus, when will it be obtained?

The water was cold, it was icy cold, and I swam in the water.

The people on the shore watched me from the shore.

It wasn't until I went ashore and stood on the shore that I saw countless phantoms in the water, like a group of demons dancing wildly, and I was definitely not the only one who saw such a scene.

"Three or two, it seems that there are still many difficulties and obstacles on your way." He Zhenren looked at the water and said.

I nodded, and this time I didn't speak, but there was a voice in my heart:

So what's the matter?