Chapter 168: Don't Struggle
Occasional fights, bubble chicks...... Wei Jin concentrates on his paintings every night, quietly liking to concentrate on what he likes.
That kind of life is the life he wants. However, it was not the life he wanted.
What he wants is Wei Jin; And what Wei Jin wants is Jiang Se. What a contradictory existence. If one party is perfected, the other party will inevitably have a bad time. He couldn't help but be happy, so he could only ruthlessly dismantle the mandarin ducks.
Besides, this was not the situation he created in the first place. Everything was fueled by Wei Yunji, he just helped and got a chance to stay by his side.
This tranquil situation always makes people's minds soften and soft. But he is a blue ember, even if there are turbulent waves in his heart, the surface can still be as plain as water.
The sky outside the window is really dazzling, and at that time, they can run and jump under the sky and admire each other's bright expressions. It's just that after all the years, there is no going back.
Stretching out his hand to polish the edges and corners stained with blood, his blue eyes blinked coldly, and there were a few crystals dyed on his eyebrows, Blue Ember smiled lightly and said:
"Little Jinzi...... Time flies. In the blink of an eye, we have been here for nine years.
Nine years, like a dream...... Like, so real. I know you've always been there for me. ”
It's been nine years......
It turned out to be nine years.
Wubo's eyes quickly blew a storm, and in a blink of an eye, he calmed down and stayed in the place where he was nailed.
With a tin in his eyes, Blue Ember turned around and looked at the person sitting motionless against the wall at the head of the bed, and his mind was full of longing. Gentle, he lifted his lips and reached for the buttons on his sleeves.
"I love you."
That sentence did not make the person feel the slightest strange, and it seemed to be too humble to be mentioned. Blue Ash's face slid through the loss, and he was extremely relieved.
Originally, I also knew, and it didn't matter about expectations and disappointments.
"Wei Jin, I love you." He repeated repeatedly.
"You don't know that I love you. In the past, I was able to use our relationship as brothers to protect my own speculation.
I also swore that I would never fall in love with Wei Jin. However, the heart could not help itself. ”
He smiled bitterly, and the corners of his eyes were dyed with the longing of the prairie fire.
"In the first few years, Uncle Wei wanted to find a lot of women for you, force you to have something to do with you, leave offspring, and fulfill your wishes.
You are forced to die and do not cooperate. Even if Chinese medicine almost ruined itself, he still refused to give in. ”
He swallowed, his eyes flashed with pride, and he said to himself, not caring if Wei Jin listened to him carefully.
"What if I helped bring you here?
I love you, because I'm about to go crazy with jealousy of Jiang Se, how can I bear other people getting my breath on you? Oh, they don't deserve it. ”
"Allowing you to be with Jiang Se for four years is already a great concession for me. I think, in my life, Lan Ember did the most touching thing, which is to make you Wei Jin fall in love with Jiang Se.
I thought I could stop it, I thought you could just play. Who knew that from the beginning, you were real. ”
"Loving someone, really don't you get tired of it?" He was talking to himself, as if asking himself.
The men and women he had been good with in the past, one and the other, each had their own joy, and there was never any need to entangle, but they just took what they needed.
After leaving, each has its own life and does not disturb each other. Even when we see each other again, we pass by by mistake, and we don't seem to know each other.
However, only Wei Jin is the only person, it seems, who will never get tired of it.
"You are the one I love, I will not allow others, to be close to you, to like you. You are not allowed to like others.
Therefore, no matter how oppressive they are over there, I can find ways to get them out, away from you, and far away from you. ”
After a few long breaths of relief, Lan Ember didn't feel the depression in his heart dissipate at all, but pierced deeper and deeper, and couldn't pull it out.
"In the past nine years, we have been with each other day and night, I have accompanied you, guarded you, and watched step by step become like this, and I am no longer the person who does not put everything in his eyes.
How so?
You still have that Jiang Se in your heart! How can you not take everything into account? ”
He was tired. Years of chasing have cut his heart to pieces. Since knowing that this person is an irreplaceable existence in his eyes. He's hiding his true thoughts.
He was afraid that if he accidentally revealed it, he would lose this friend. He is actually not an affectionate person, just Wei Jin, tormenting him in a trance, and his eyes are gloomy.
"You've changed, how do you know that others haven't? Wei Jin, time can change everything. However, my heart for you has not changed.
Even if it's been like a day for ten years, I still like you, love you, and love you to the point of madness.
People over there may have forgotten you and had their own families. We're all young, we're not young, we're about to turn 30, and we can't just care about the unrealistic. Isn't there an idiom that says, keep pace with the times?
Others can keep pace with the times, and so can you. ”
There is no lack of doting on Wei Jin between the words. Ember loosened his cuffs, buttoned his suit around his neck, and put his tie straight.
"How do you like you...... You once asked me why talking doesn't count, why do you like your own brother...... So I'll tell you plainly?
When I was five years old, it was a cold night. Seeing so many deaths unfold in front of me in a split second, I completely lost the ability to discern colors.
You dragged me back from that hell. The later me is no longer the original me.
I know that the men of the Lan family are ruthless, and I can also be a ruthless person. So like you......"
His words paused, his eyes flowed with tenderness and love, he slowly looked at the man who seemed to have been petrified, and slowly spoke with his lips:
"Because...... One day, I suddenly found that I, who couldn't distinguish colors in my eyes, suddenly saw light and brightness in you.
What kind of experience is that? Freshman, yes, freshman. From that moment on, I knew I couldn't miss you.
It's not ridiculous to like a man. In the past, I was jealous of your status as a Wei family, and I had no way to take you. But then, didn't everything come according to my budget?
The Wei family is down, you are not Wei Gongzi anymore, you can be my bag, you can become my pet, my unique pet. ”
As if dissatisfied with the other party's cold attitude, he added fuel and vinegar, "It was also because people were under the roof before, so I didn't stop you from being with Jiang Se, I rewarded Jiang Se for three years, no, four years...... But how long you have been with me......
It's been nine years...... There are many years ahead, many years to come...... Twenty years...... Thirty years...... It's good if you don't accept me in your heart, or accept it...... It doesn't matter if I can't get your heart...... Your Wei Jin's person should be mine...... It should be mine.
I want the people I want, the things I want, and I want to get them. Wait! You don't have to struggle either. ”