29 July 1995

In the past few days, my mind has been thinking about Tianyu, what to do to make the person who hurt her pay the corresponding price.

I can understand Qi Tao's thoughts very well, as Tianyu's brother, why don't I want that bastard to bury Tianyu. But killing pays for life, this simple truth even children understand, how can I risk my life and put my own future on the line for that bastard.

After thinking about it, I decided to join forces with Qi Tao to create an "accident" and send Wang Zhiquan to see the king of Hades without knowing it.

After dinner, I went to Qi Tao's house to find him, wanting to discuss with him the crime plan. My brother-in-law told me that Qi Tao ran out alone after eating, saying that the weather was too stuffy and that he wanted to walk by the river.

It was a windless night, and the air was so hot that it looked like it had been ignited by fire. Men, women, and children were not sleepy, and they sat in front of the room with fans in the shade.

I searched all the way along the river, but I didn't see the shadow of Qitao after walking for a long time. I don't know why, I have a bad premonition in my heart, this hot weather makes people feel inexplicably uneasy.

It was about ten o'clock in the evening when there was a sudden commotion in the village. Curious, I followed a few villagers to the place where the crowd had gathered. As soon as I walked to the front of Wang Zhiquan's house, I suddenly felt dizzy in my brain after seeing the police busy in the house and yard.

Qitao, you stupid, why don't you wait for me anymore? Why did a person do it first? Looking at the faintly recognizable bloodstains and footprints in the yard, I knew that this time it must be over. He is out of control, the murder scene is a mess, he reveals his identity, and it is only a matter of time before he is caught.

While people were watching the excitement at the scene of the crime, I ran around the village to find Qi Tao's whereabouts, and finally found him in the woods where we used to play together as children.

He hid in a hollow in a tree, covered in blood, and had a deep, long cut on his arm. I had no intention of accusing him, and said to him anxiously: "Before the police have found it, you should leave this village quickly and find an unknown place to settle down." When the news passes, I'll find a way to send you some money. You ......"

Qi Tao waved his hand weakly and said, "Brother Tianhua, don't worry about my business, I don't want to bother you." ”

"But you're ...... like this now"

"It's okay." Qi Tao smiled bitterly, "I didn't want to run away at all. My wish has been fulfilled, and I will die without regrets. ”

"What do you want to do?" I looked at the knife he was holding in his hand and broke out in a cold sweat. "Ah Tao, don't do stupid things. You still have a wife and children, you can't ...... like rain"

"Brother Tianhua." Qi Tao interrupted me again, "What Wang Zhiquan once did to Tianyu is only known to the two of us, even if I am arrested by the police, I will never tell this secret." For the sake of Tianyu's reputation, please never mention this to anyone. Promise me, okay? ”

"Okay, I won't say it, let Tianyu always be that pure and beautiful girl in people's hearts."

"And." Qi Tao grabbed my hand and shook it vigorously, his eyes full of reluctance and grief when parting. "I'll leave it to you. I don't ask you to do much for them, just don't let them go hungry. ”

I nodded yes, and at this point, I would say yes to whatever he asked. I don't remember what he said to me later, only the back of his resolute departure, so lonely, so vicissitudes, so thin, but so tragic.

In the early morning, with the rumbling thunder, the torrential rain poured down. I sat in front of the window, hugging my head and crying, feeling even more sad than when the rain left.

Of the three people who grew up together, now I'm the only one left. You are all gone, all freed, but all the pain and burden are left to me. I had nowhere to run but to face it. Because of the responsibility, I have lost the qualification to say that I will give up.

I seemed to understand something. The reason why Qi Tao preemptively killed Wang Zhiquan and went to accept the punishment of the law alone was because he didn't want me to fold in this matter (I guess he wanted to go to another world to be with Tianyu a long time ago). Because only in this way can the women, the elderly, and the children of the family have something to rely on.

Cunning, so cunning. In the end, I was still "calculated" by that man.

26 October 1995

After Qitao's death, I asked his family to set up a curtain next to Tianyu's tombstone. These two people were not able to be together in life, at least after death, they were closer to each other, and they could have someone to keep them company when they were lonely.

My brother and daughter-in-law have been hit hard, their health is not very good, and their uncles and aunts are much older than they were a few months ago. Seeing Qitao's three-year-old son, I really don't know what the future of this child will be.

Several times, I almost couldn't help but tell them the reason for Qitao's killing, but for the sake of Tianyu, I could only keep silent. Perhaps what I can do is help this suffering family financially as much as possible.

24 March 2000

At this time of year, no matter how busy I am with work, I try to find time to go back to Longjing Village to sweep Tianyu's grave.

The boy of Qitao's family is 8 years old, although he is introverted and doesn't like to talk, but he seems very happy every time he sees me come back.

When will you bring Li Xia back and let the two children meet. However, for people who don't know the truth, Qiye's father is an out-and-out "murderous demon", I wonder if Li Xia will dislike him because of this?

23 March 2004

The first time I took Li Xia back to my hometown.

Although the transportation conditions in the village are much more convenient than before, we still changed planes, trains, buses, and tricycles along the way to the village.

I am very pleased with Lixia's performance. This child is used to living in the city and has never been to the countryside, but in the face of difficult conditions, she neither shouts tired nor dirty, but feels extremely fresh when she sees everything.

I hope she can have fun on this trip.

24 March 2004

In the morning, when he led Li Xia to sweep the tombs of Tianyu and Qitao, he saw a woman leaving from Tianyu's tombstone from a distance. Although the relationship has been estranged over the years, I still recognized that woman at a glance as Tianyu's best friend before his death, Qin Liman.

Could it be that after so many years of Tianyu's death, she still insists on coming to the grave every year to worship? Could it be that all the sacrifices I saw before were placed by her?

With doubts, I walked quickly to the tomb, and sure enough, I found that there were fresh fruits and snacks there, all of which were Tianyu's favorite foods before his death. Seeing this scene, my heart was very moved, and I thought that Tianyu's short life was worth making such a friend.

After lunch, Li Xia ran out to play alone, she said that she had never seen such a beautiful rape flower field, and she was reluctant to go back to the city. I told her not to run too far, and I took a nap in the old house.

At 2 o'clock, the weather outside was still very good. I had nothing to do, and I wandered around the village. When I was about to walk to the entrance of the village, I met Tianyu's friend Qin Liman, and I was about to say hello to her, but I didn't expect her to take the initiative to come over to me.

"Thank you for so many years, and you have been thinking about our family's rain." I am grateful from the bottom of my heart for everything she has done for Tianyu.

She smiled slightly, her smile looked a little reluctant, as if she was hiding something.

"Brother Tianhua......" She wanted to speak and stopped, looked around nervously, and when she saw that there was no one else, she lowered her head and said, "There is something that has been held in my heart for thirteen years. I've always wanted to tell you about it, but I can't get the courage to ......"

Hearing this, I suddenly became nervous, and I had a hunch that what she was going to say might be related to Tianyu's suicide. I swallowed, clenching my fists tightly. Then I heard her say slowly: "In 1991, my cousin Wang Zhiquan chased Tianyu for a while, but Tianyu only had Qitao in his heart, and he didn't even look at my cousin. A week before Tianyu committed suicide, my cousin asked me to help him make an appointment to meet Tianyu. I didn't want to help him, but he asked someone to buy me a new set of clothes from the city, and I agreed to it with joy.

"That night, I asked my cousin to meet Tianyu at the rape field at the entrance of the village, saying that I wanted to surprise her. Tianyu agreed without even thinking about it. At that time, I didn't understand anything, thinking that my cousin just wanted to find Tianyu to confess. Unexpectedly, that night, my cousin actually raped Tianyu in the flower field. I only heard about it from my cousin after Tianyu committed suicide. At the time, my cousin was scared and regretted. The two of us were afraid that we would be responsible for the revelation of the matter, so we kept this secret and didn't dare to tell it. Later, my cousin was stabbed twenty times by Qi Tao at home, and I immediately understood that Qi Tao was using this way to commemorate Tianyu's life at the age of 20.

"For so many years, I have lived with remorse and self-blame. In order to do more good deeds and alleviate the guilt in my heart, I tried my best to be kind to Qitao's orphans, and asked my husband and son to help and take care of Qiye. In fact, every year when I see you come back to sweep Tianyu's grave, I want to tell you the truth, but I really don't have the courage. I know it may not mean anything to apologize, but I still want to say sorry to you and the dead Tianyu......"

Later, Qin Liman chattered a lot of guilty words, and I didn't listen to them seriously. She's right, apologizing doesn't mean anything to me, all I want is revenge.

Through Qin Liman's confession, I finally understood a question, that is, that night many years ago, why Tianyu, who has always been honest and well-behaved, ran into the rape field with a man with bad intentions. At that time, when I heard Qitao talk about that incident, I felt strange, it turned out that it was the woman in front of me who led Tianyu to the flower field to make an appointment.

I tried my best to suppress the anger in my heart, and pretended to be calm and asked Qin Liman, "That night, where did you meet Tianyu when you asked Tianyu to meet?" ”

Qin Liman recalled for a moment, then pointed to an old locust tree not far away and said, "It's there." ”

Without saying a word, I immediately walked towards the sea of flowers, Qin Liman didn't know what I wanted to do, so she was stunned for two seconds and quickly followed. Thinking that Tianyu was hurt by that beast here and went to a dead end, I couldn't control my emotions anymore. I turned around and grabbed Qin Liman's neck hard. At that moment, I deeply experienced the joy of Qi Tao when he killed Wang Zhiquan.

It didn't take long for Qin Liman to stop struggling. I let go of my hand and watched her fall into the field of flowers, feeling all the strength of my body drained. I looked around, and the entrance to the village was quiet, no one saw what had just happened, and no one knew my motive for killing. As long as I ask Li Xia to provide me with an alibi, the police will not suspect me in any way.

I didn't notice a child sitting in the old locust tree. Luckily, he was asleep and didn't see anything, otherwise it would have been really hard for me to explain to him what had happened.