Life is fragile, life is boring, we need a little stimulation...... For example, the stimulus of death.

One, the need for the stimulus of death

I sat on the bed in the dormitory, and Ah Biao on the top bunk was reading something vigorously, and I told him to stop reading it, but he ignored me.

"Play cards!" I say.

"It's boring, it's boring, don't you think it's worth hateing about such a life?"

Hehe, I think he's sick.

"I'm going to eat, are you going?" I say.

He shook his head.

"Then I'll go, and you'll be left alone."

He watched me go away, but when I came back in the evening, the house was dark.

The door is unlocked.

The fat man in the same dormitory was behind me, and he scolded and said, "This kid went to bed so early!" ”

I smiled and opened the door.

didn't sleep, Ah Biao sat on his bed, sat well, and looked at the air.

"Are you alright?" I asked, and he ignored me.

In the middle of the night, I slept in a daze, and someone stabbed me, as if it was Ah Biao's voice: "Come with me?" Come with me? ”

When I opened my eyes, he was neatly dressed, and his yellowed eyes looked at me excitedly.

"What time is it?" I muttered and looked at my luminous watch: "Four o'clock, alas, what are you tossing so early?" ”

He smiled, then turned away, still thinking something indistinctly.

I slept again.

Dangling. Dangling. Something was dangling in the doorway.

I woke up, and there was Ah Biao at the door, and he was looking at me.

I was speechless, I don't think I had ever seen such an expression on a living person's face.

I'm right, he's dangling.

He hung from the door frame.

Ah Biao hanged himself from the door frame of his dormitory, and the news spread like a whirlwind throughout the school. The police came and talked to us.

Everyone waited in the dormitory, very depressed, and did not want to take a second look at Ah Biao's bed.

The fat man spoke first and said, "What is there that this kid can't think of?" Why don't you die here? ”

Ziqiang, who was opposite me, said slowly: "He died in front of the five of us, and we are responsible." ”

The prawn on one side screamed nervously: "He is willing to die!" What does it have to do with us! ”

Ziqiang said: "Think about it, he was wrong a few days ago, the morning before yesterday I saw him write something in his notebook, and as soon as I passed, he hurriedly put it in the drawer." Alas, that's the drawer. ”

Everyone was silent for a while, and the prawn said, "Isn't that the little wolf's drawer?" ”

I nodded, "No, this guy likes to write on my desk." ”

The fat man said, "Is that Ben still in there?" ”

Just look at it, I went over and opened it, and Ah Biao's well-known diary was indeed inside, but the previous pages were torn off, and only one article remained. I thought, "This life is so boring, I can't change anything, maybe there is only one way I can get what I want." I need a thrill, a thrill to die. ”

The power of the writing on that line penetrated the back of the paper, and I thought of the way Ah Biao's short figure swayed on the door frame. I shuddered. The others took the book to look at, and Ziqiang said, "If I found it earlier, it would be good to stop him." ”

The fat man said, "Not necessarily, I see something wrong with his brain." ”

Then the group quieted down, and the prawns called to me, "Little wolf! ”

"How?" I say.

Did you see this page?

I passed, in the middle of Ben, a line of bright red letters.

"The Game of Death – To the Little Wolf."

Two, he's dead

Ah Biao is not called Ah Biao, his real name is Li Biao, and Ah Biao is just his nickname.

The fat man is not called the fat man, his real name is Wang Hai, but he is fat and has this generic name.

And so on, prawns, Ziqiang, and sunspots who haven't come back are all nicknames that they are used to.

My name is Little Wolf, and in our circle, Little Wolf will not be called a second person.

So Ah Biao is giving me a game of death, I don't know why.

The prawn couldn't hold his breath first: "Did you provoke him?" You speak! Did he you off? ”

I didn't move, looking at the hand he was holding on to my collar.

The fat man pulled him away: "How is it possible! The little wolf in our dormitory didn't quarrel with him. ”

Ziqiang said: "That is, the little wolf has a good temper, and he can usually talk to him a few more words." ”

The door opened with a strange "gam" sound.

We all jumped away, and it was Kuroko who came in, Kuroko was a standard Northeast man, but today he was not as majestic as before, and he was the last person to be questioned.

"Kuroko, did the police say anything?" I asked.

He looked at me with a strange expression and replied, "They said that Ah Biao committed suicide and had nothing to do with us, but ......"

"What?" All asked him.

"He hanged himself at about twelve o'clock in the evening, but little wolf, how do I remember that you said that you spoke to him at four o'clock in the morning?"

I slumped on the bed.

"It's the wrong watch, it must be the wrong watch!" The fat man came over and patted me on the shoulder, "It's okay, just let this pass." ”

"But the man is dead." Prawn said.

"Are you finished?" The fat man suddenly yelled.

No one spoke anymore.

We're all in a bad mood.

I went to study late and didn't really want to go back to the dormitory where Ah Biao had died.

In the hallway, I met Amei, and she stopped me: "Little wolf." ”

"Huh?"

"Are you alright?"

I smiled, "We're all fine, except for Ah Biao." ”

She smiled reluctantly and said, "Are you still in the mood to laugh at this time?" ”

"Then what else can I do, he's dead. Even if I am responsible, I can't make up for it. ”

There seemed to be tears in Amei's big eyes, she pretended not to care, and said, "No, you are not responsible, it is my fault." ”

I said, "You? Hey, you don't like him and he doesn't have to die, it's none of your business. ”

She didn't listen.

"You're in such a bad mood?" I said, "I'll send you back!" ”

She didn't refuse, I stayed with her, we had our own hearts on the way, she didn't say a word, but I was different, I kept saying irrelevant things, until she forgot about the unpleasant things, and was actually amused.

I laughed too, but I knew it wasn't really laughing.

Everyone in the dorm room was doing their own thing, and they just looked up when I came in.

"Little wolf." When he was about to go to bed, the fat man said, "Who are you with at night?" ”

"Ame!" I said, "Didn't you see me when I accompanied her back to the dormitory?" I also said hello to you. ”

The fat man coughed and didn't speak, Ziqiang interjected and asked, "Yes, the two of us came out and saw it, but you are with two people, right?" ”

I said no, just with Ame.

"But I saw a man next to you, not tall, and his face couldn't be seen clearly."

I said, "Maybe it's walking, you misunderstood." ”

"That's good, we think...... Alas, it's so similar, we almost thought it was ......"

I asked, "What is it?" ”

Ah Biao, the people who are with you really look like Ah Biao.

"He's dead!" The prawn nervously screamed, "Shut up! ”

If there were usually people going up and beating him, but today everyone is in good temper. "It's nothing, delusion," I said, "it's not early, go to bed." ”

In the middle of the night, someone stabbed me, as if it was Ah Biao's voice: "Come with me?" Come with me? ”

When I opened my eyes, he was neatly dressed, and his yellowed eyes looked at me excitedly.

"You're up so early?" I muttered, "Don't bother me, I still want to sleep." ”

I fell asleep.

Three, he doesn't like your treat

When he woke up in the morning, he didn't see Kuroko, and his bed was a mess.

The kid left without folding the quilt. The fat man scolded twice.

The others were busy packing up and getting ready for class, and they were surprisingly well-behaved these days.

Someone knocked on the door and came in without waiting for us to answer, it was the dean of students, who told us that we didn't have to go to class, and that we were waiting in the dormitory for the police to question us today.

"Didn't you ask it once?" I said, "What else is there to ask?" ”

"Another classmate in your dorm room died." He said.

There was silence, it didn't really look like we were in our dorm room. I came back and the other three looked at me.

"How did Kuroko die?" The fat man asked.

I told him again that he had fallen down the stairs and broken his neck.

Ziqiang muttered nervously, repeatedly saying, how could it be, how could it be, he was so strong.

Besides, what did he do downstairs on a big night?

"Sleepwalking, perhaps?" The fat man said, "Have you heard anything at night?" ”

Ziqiang said: "I seem to hear the little wolf talking. ”

"Yes," I said, "I'll talk to Ah Biao......

I shut up right away because I realized I had said the wrong thing.

"Well, let's go out and rub it off, I'm in for a treat." I said, Ziqiang and the fat man agreed loudly, and the prawns didn't move, huddled on their top bunks. "What's wrong with you? Let's go! "I called him.

He looked at Ah Biao's shop opposite and said, "I'm not going, you can go." ”

I tried to call him, but the fat man dragged me out, "That's how he is, timid like a mouse, don't pay attention to this kid." ”

When I brought it to the door, the prawn suddenly said to me, "He doesn't like your treat." ”

On the way I asked, "Who doesn't like me for a treat?" ”

The fat man said that if he cares, the prawns will also have a nervous breakdown.

Later, we found a tavern and got drunk, and Ziqiang tapped me on the shoulder and said, "You...... You know what, that dead ghost...... Biao doesn't like your treat, and he says you're ...... when you're not there Harvest...... Buying people's hearts, or something. ”

I smiled and said, "Ha, that's so much to do!" I'm in for a treat, I'm glad to be, I'm ...... I like to be lively, hehe......"

The three of us were hooked shoulders and sang a dittate out of tune, and when we came back, the house was dark.

"This guy ...... prawns" The fat man scolded and went to turn on the light, Ziqiang suddenly stretched out his hand and pulled him: "Don't open it yet, didn't Ah Biao sit in the dark like this that day?" ”

I was startled, and I woke up most of the time.

Neither of them spoke.

Stayed for a while. "Then you have to turn on the lights and talk to him." I said, and turned the light on.

Prawn sat on the edge of his bed, his hands around his neck.

His face was pale.

"It is impossible for a person to strangle himself." I say.

The fat man nodded, and Ziqiang came back at this time: "He was scared to death." ”

"I knew this kid, scare myself!" The fat man put his arm around my shoulders and I felt him shivering.

Not necessarily, Ziqiang said, maybe he saw something particularly terrible.

"Why are you ......" The fat man just spoke, and stopped squeaking again.

Ziqiang said: "If you think about it carefully, maybe all this is a game that Ah Biao gave us, as he wrote, a game of death." ”

The fat man said, "He didn't give it to us, he gave it to ......"

He took his hand off my shoulder.

I was in the hallway, and I didn't want to go any further, so I stopped.

After standing for a while, the phone rang, it was Mei.

"Can you come down for a moment? I have something to tell you. ”

I told her late, "Let's talk about it tomorrow, your dorm should be closed." ”

She told me she was downstairs from us.

I went down.

"It's so late, alas, let's go, I'll send you back."

We talk as we go.

"Little wolf, have you noticed anything wrong these days?"

One by one they died, I said, maybe I offended Ah Biao somewhere.

She looked at me, and I smiled and said it was okay.

"Do you know that Ah Biao hates you very much?"

I said I don't know, why should he hate me? I didn't offend him.

"Because you're better than him except for studying, and you're ......," she suddenly whispered, "and I like you." ”

When the dormitory arrived, I said goodbye to her and told her not to think about it.

On the way back, I was alone to look at the black rumbling campus, there were few pedestrians on the road, and something flew in front of my eyes.

She has big wings.

She was standing in front of me.

"Who are you?" I asked.

"I am your patron saint, and my name is Artit." She said quietly, "I have always been by your side to protect you, this is destined." "I asked her if everyone had a patronus, and she said yes.

So why do some people do stupid things, and some people find life boring?

She told me it was because they didn't know what they had.

So I took her hand, looked into her dark eyes, and asked her if she knew what I needed now.

She nodded.

Then I hugged her tightly.

It was the first time I hugged someone so devotively, her body was light and warm, and there was a slight feeling of the breeze blowing, and I was so drunk that I forgot everything in heaven and earth.

When I woke up again and remembered my troubles, I was still walking around the campus, not knowing if everything I had just done was just an illusion.

Fourth, I'll go with you

The bedroom with only three people was full of indescribable weird atmosphere, the fat man deliberately didn't look at me, Ziqiang didn't speak, I felt very bored, and fell asleep in a daze after reading a few books.

Someone stabbed me in the haze, it was Ah Biao's voice: "Come with me?" Come with me? ”

When I opened my eyes, he was neatly dressed, and his yellowed eyes looked at me excitedly.

I watched him silent.

Later I said, "Ah Biao, why are you playing this game with me?" He didn't answer, but turned to leave.

I felt my heart pounding, and I rushed out: "I'll go with you!" ”

He turned around and smiled.

The corridor was very long, and I followed him downstairs, walking on the campus where there was no one, and I asked him, "Did you and them not die if I left with you at the beginning?" ”

He still didn't answer, I went to pull his arm, and he looked at me, his face was bloody, and only a pair of yellow eyes were still so excited.

"You answer me, Ah Biao, what am I sorry for you?"

He finally spoke, his voice hoarse and old: "I hate you." ”

"What do I annoy you?"

"He doesn't understand why he lives so boring and you live so chic."

Out of nowhere, a man with a face covered with a cloth came out, and I asked suspiciously, "Who are you?" ”

"I'm the one who hates you just as much."

"You? Why are you? ”

The masked man coughed and said, "Probably because I don't understand why there are people like you, I don't like your life." ”

But now I don't have any moisture, and my heart sinks.

Because I heard the voice.

I'm not leaving.

They also stopped.

"Ziqiang," I said, "how did you do all this?" ”

He froze for a moment, then ripped the cloth off his face.

"At this time, I can also tell you that last summer I met a wizard at home, and learned some very mysterious spells, which can use the souls of people who have died to do what they want. I was worried that I didn't have a chance, but when I saw Ah Biao's diary, I knew that he hated you too, so it all began. ”

I said, "So what's next for you?" ”

"Don't you want a great finale?" He laughs.

I suddenly felt that the wind was blowing.

It turns out that I am now standing on the rooftop of the school building!

"Perfect, brilliant, brilliant finish!" Ziqiang said, "One jump, there is everything!" ”

What if I don't jump? I asked him, will you push me?

"I won't, if you don't jump, the other person will jump, maybe it's me, maybe it's the fat one. You can change the course of the game, but you can't change the ending, which is death! ”

I shook my head sadly and said, "You're crazy." ”

"What do you get by putting everything you can do against me?" I said, still looking at me excitedly, and I punched him in the miserable face.

"What the hell do you have, you know?" I yelled.

Then I jumped......

Five, don't end

I didn't jump, someone stopped me and hugged me.

Ziqiang said behind me, "You can't jump, you go back!" ”

I glared at him: "Less nonsense, let me jump, you won't toss anything anymore when I die, and this so-called broken game is over." ”

He suddenly relented and said, "No, I never wanted you to jump, I don't know what else to do when you die, and my fun is gone." ”

I sneered: "Everything has a beginning and a result, and it's too late for you to regret it now!" ”

I kicked him in the stomach and fell.

I fell, fast, I felt my heart and body separate, my head hurting like a burst, and I was looking forward to the end of it all, even if it was a tragic collision.

Finally I fell to the ground in a dull state.

I floated up, and it was Artit who carried me.

"Where are we going?" I said, "Is it heaven?" ”

She smiled: "Heaven is a pure place, and worldly people like you should not live there. ”

So I should go to hell? I said, will you still be in charge of me in the future?

I looked at her and smiled.

"Do you still have the heart to laugh? You're dead. She said.

But I wanted to laugh, I told her, and besides, I had never laughed so happily or so really. Ah Biao and Ziqiang were both deceived by me, maybe everyone was deceived by me. I've never been a person who lives in a chic way, and I don't care about anything, I just bury everything in my heart and force myself to live happily.

Actually, I'm already tired.

Now, I'm quietly in Artit's arms, thinking of nothing.

Quietly, as if you had just been born.

"Take me away," I said to Artit, "anywhere." ”

She smiled slightly: "No, I'm going to keep you here." You don't think there's anything, but you don't lose anything. ”

"I don't understand."

But she blew gently on me.

She kissed me.

In the end, the next day I woke up with the sun shining right on my eyes, and when I opened my eyes, I had the illusion of sitting in the golden light.

Ah Biao writes his diary on my desk.

"Why did you wake up so early?" I say.

"It's still early? It's nine o'clock. The guy looked up and said, "I don't know how you guys are sleeping so badly!" I smiled at him and said, "No, I had a long, long dream." ”

"Nightmare or good dream?"

I said, "A good dream, a dream that is happy when you wake up." ”

He muttered, "That's not a good dream, who wants to wake up from a good dream?" ”

There are also good dreams who are willing to wake up, I said.

Ziqiang also woke up, and I saw him tearing something on the bunk opposite.

"Tear what?"

He said, "Oh, I asked for a talisman in a temple, and it is said that if I put it under my pillow, I would dream of doing what I wanted to do." ”

"Oh, why did you tear it up, didn't it work?"

He was silent for a moment and said, no.

A few days later, I considered asking Ame to be my girlfriend, and she agreed, and it turned out that she had liked me for a long time.

In the evening, I was happy and calm as we walked around the campus, and Amei said, "You've been smiling less lately, but you're ......"

"But what?"

She blushed and said, "It's cuter, and I want to be closer to you." ”

"How is Ah Biao now?"

I said, "He talks a lot now, and continues to write his poems, and yesterday I saw him write: "On the second day of the next day, I found that I had thought there was nothing, but in fact I had lost nothing." ‘“

Amei smiled like a flower.

I smiled and kissed her softly.

At this time, it seemed that something flew by.

There was a gentle breeze blowing on my cheeks.

I tugged at my happiness and suddenly remembered it.

On the second day of the second day, I found that I had thought that there was nothing, but in fact I had lost nothing.