Chapter Ninety-Eight: Quarrel
Yang Li returned to the bedroom after taking a shower, and looked at He Yehua, who was still 'asleep', who had been married for more than three months, and his husband had already 'fallen asleep' before she came back.
Yang Li has always told herself not to be too anxious, and will give He Yehua enough time to accept her, but in the past few months of marriage, she has found how wrong her view is.
Yes, He Yehua is no longer as indifferent to her as before, and his guilt for her is getting stronger and stronger. However, he had nothing but guilt for her, and this was not a situation she had always wanted to endure his inconsiderateness!
Yang Li walked to the edge of the bed and lay down, moved to He Yehua's side, stretched out her hand to wrap her hand around her cold back, her cheeks rubbed gently against his back through his pajamas, and her voice was extremely soft and ambiguous towards him, "Yehua, we... Let's have a baby. I want to have a child with you, a child who belongs to us. ”
He Yehua was still 'asleep' with his eyes closed, Yang Li's request was a reasonable request of every wife between husband and wife, but he, who had left his whole heart with Duan Shubin, didn't even seem to be able to give her this most ordinary request. He can only continue to 'sleep' to escape Yang Li's request, and every time he asks for Yang Li's reasonable husband and wife, he can only escape like this.
But this time, Yang Li didn't seem to be so easy to 'deal with' anymore, and didn't give up because of his coldness, the hand around his body began to wander around his chest dishonestly.
"Ye Hua, I know you didn't fall asleep, I didn't ask you to pretend to be me in your heart right now, I just want to experience the happiness of being a mother, so, it's not too much, right?"
“...”
"Yehua, you don't have me in your heart, and you don't blame you for snubbing me all the time, but you can't stop my right to be a mother, right? Don't you want to be a father and experience that kind of family fun? ”
“...”
Her husband's repeated silence made Yang Li lose all patience, she was unwilling to stubbornly hug his body tightly, and her voice was extremely complaining, "Are you sure you want to do this to me?" I'm your wife, and if you pretend to be someone else, do you want to deprive me of my right to be a mother? Yehua, do you think it's fair to me like this? ”
“... I'm sorry! ”
After a long time, Yang Li heard He Yehua's dull voice, since marrying her, what he said to her the most was 'I'm sorry', he seemed to have been saying these three words to her, but she didn't want to hear these three words, these three words made her can't wait for any hope, she never wanted to hear his guilt again!
"I don't want your 'I'm sorry', I want you and me to live a good life, like other normal couples."
"I... Can't give you those. ”
He Yehua got up from the bed and got down to put on his shoes, the emotions that were originally surging because of Duan Shuhan, coupled with Yang Li's questioning at this moment, He Yehua was bored for a while, and continuing to stay with Yang Li would only intensify the conflict even more, he didn't want to quarrel with her, he didn't want his mother and sister-in-law to worry about them, so he walked out of the door, he felt that it would be better for them to calm down with each other.
"Where are you going?"
Yang Li watched him walk out, he always didn't like to stay with her so much, let her try to insist on dignity and generosity, she also got up from the bed quickly, she didn't care about wearing slippers, and quickly caught up with He Yehua and dragged him.
"Who are you going to meet? Are you going out to meet someone? He Yehua, who is hidden in your heart? All the grievances and grievances that have accumulated in Yang Li's heart these days have made her completely lose her mind and roar at He Yehua.
"I just want to go out to breathe, Yang Li, don't be unreasonable, it's getting late, you will wake up my mother and my brother like this." He Yehua scolded Yang Li, who had lost her mind, Yang Li in his impression had always been empathetic, and he had never seen her like this.
"Am I vexatious?" Yang Li glared at her husband in disbelief, "He Yehua, I am your wife, but in the past few months of marriage, have you regarded me as your wife a little?" ”
"Yang Li, I told you when I got married, I can't give you anything, it's you who have to get married."
In the face of Yang Li's accusations, He Yehua also has her own grievances, she is desperate to marry him, he has told her before that he doesn't want to get married, he can't give her any affection between husband and wife, but she has to choose to marry him.
"So, He Yehua, do you think I'm doing it to myself now? Because I'm in love with you, because I want to be with you, I deserve it, right? ”
Yang Li looked at her husband who was like a stranger to her, she used her whole life to love this man, why couldn't he get back the slightest affection for her! For him, what should be done and what should not be done, she did it for him, but in the end, what he gave her was always an evasive gaze and a cold back.
And Yang Li's aggrieved and sad tone made He Yehua, who was already bored, even more depressed in his heart, he knew that continuing to argue would only intensify the conflict even more, and when his mother got up, things would be even more useless, he quickly opened the door and walked out, he wanted to calm down, he wanted to breathe, everything, he was depressed and he was about to lose his breath.
Yang Li looked at her husband's resolute back, sad and couldn't restrain her online grievances anymore, squatting on the ground and hugging her knees and crying, all her love and all her persistence, but she couldn't get back a warm and comforting look from her husband, in her heart, she was really wronged, so wronged!!
He Yehua walked aimlessly in the hustle and bustle of neon, although it was almost early in the morning, but the men and women who came and went in the night market were still in pairs, but, in the crowded night, He Yehua, who was alone, seemed so lonely!
It's already very deep, but Duan Shuhan still can't fall asleep over and over, so she simply gets up and picks up the magazine on the bedside and reads it boringly, I don't know how many nights I can't sleep like this, but I still don't get used to such loneliness.
Obviously, he was flipping through a magazine in his hand, but when he looked at it, he became a picture of He Yehua, his smile, he frowned, he pursed his lips and was silent... His appearance was so clear in her sight, she reached out greedily to touch it, but before her hand could touch his face, his appearance disappeared from the book. She flipped through and searched for it in a panic, but there was no picture of him.
He's no longer by her side!
He is already someone else's husband, Duan Shulian, he has nothing to do with you anymore! Sober up, it's not even okay to think about him like this!
Gently closed the magazine, got out of bed and walked to the window, lifted the corner of the curtain, and looked at the dark room downstairs where He Yehua once lived, she could no longer enter his world.
A pleasant ringtone interrupted Duan Shuhan's thoughts, she walked to the bedside and picked up her mobile phone, looked at the name displayed, and her heart slammed - Lao He?!
This number hadn't been ringing on her phone for a long time.
But at this time, he should be resting with his wife, how could he call her?!
After thinking about it, he finally slid down the answer button and slowly put the phone to his ear, but there was no sound at the other end.
After a long time, Duan Shuhan couldn't help but open her mouth first, "... Something? ”
"I... I really want to go back to the past, let me go back to the middle, let me stay by your side like that, can't you? In that case, isn't it okay? ”
Duan Shuhan couldn't see him, and at first, his voice was a little knotted when he spoke, and his first reaction was, "Have you drunk?" ”
"Shuhan! Duan Shubin! Let me stay with you, I won't let anyone find out about my feelings for you, I'll hide it well... Let me guard you as I did before, please, let me guard you, I don't ask for anything, just silently guard you like that, can't I do that? Shuhan, isn't that okay? He Yehua held his mobile phone tightly and lay on the bar counter of the bar, thinking about her, really thinking about her, Duan Shuhui, really thinking about it, thinking about it!!
...", this is the first time Duan Shuhan has heard him call her name so softly, all the suppressed emotions for him in her heart can no longer be restrained from surging and churning, how ridiculous they are, they have loved each other for so many years, but they still miss each other.
"Is it okay to say a word to me, let me listen to your voice," He Yehua covered his heart, here, it's so uncomfortable, it's about to tear here, "Please, talk to me, Duan Shuhui, I miss you, Duan Shuhui, I really miss you." ”
"You... Drunk. ”
Duan Shubin hung up the phone quickly, he was drunk to do this, he was not sober to talk nonsense, she couldn't be affected by his drunken words, she couldn't, Duan Shubin, couldn't listen to what he just said, he had his own wife, he and her, there was no longer any relationship and possibility!!
"Speak, Shuhan," He Yehua pleaded at the already hung up beep on the other end, "Let me hear your voice, Duan Shuhan, speak, talk to me, please!" ”
Tell him how he can turn back the clock, tell him how he can continue to watch over her like that!
Duan Shubin!
Duan Shubin!!
He Yehua covered his head, it hurts, it hurts everywhere, Duan Shuhan, in the world without her, it hurts everywhere!!
Wine, wine?! He Yehua groped in front of him, he wanted wine, a lot of wine, so that his heart would not be uncomfortable anymore.
Shaking the wine bottle in front of him, empty, all empty, dissatisfied to the bartender at the bar, "Wine, I want wine, give me another glass of wine." ”
"No, he's drunk."
Before the bartender could hand him the wine, the person who came in from outside walked behind He Yehua and helped him up who was already unconscious.
"Yehua, let's go home!"
Yang Li complained to the man she had complained about thousands of times in her heart, watching him get drunk and unconscious, and all the resentment in her heart turned into distress!