"This is the first time that Ximu has felt the body temperature of a person, such a strong and powerful arm, and his breathing is warm from the top of her head, so that she can't help but push him away." I'm tired, can I take a break? ”

"Then let's go to the side." Liang Cheng held her hand and moved to the booth next to her.

"The same old way?" The waiter came over to greet Liang Cheng, looking very familiar.

"Well, add another can of Coke, I brought a friend today."

"Girlfriend?" The waiter smiled and glanced at the Ximu beside Liang Cheng.

"No, no, friend."

Ximu stood aside and didn't speak, just nodded at the waiter.

"You're the first person he brought here!" The waiter said mysteriously to Ximu.

Nozomi smiled just embarrassed but politely.

"Don't tease her."

The waiter turned and left, and after a while brought them something that Liang Cheng had ordered.

"Then I won't bother you!"

"Play next week!"

"Okay."

"Then you go and get busy." The waiter turned and left.

"How does it feel here? Not bad, right? Liang Cheng asked Ximu.

"Hmm." Nozomi nodded.

"Are you feeling better?"

Maybe it was because the lights were too dim for her to see his face clearly, or maybe it was too noisy around, she actually let down her guard, she felt that such a place was safe, and no one would see through her thoughts.

"Well, it's much better. Thank you. Liang Cheng. ”

"Don't thank me, Mumu, I'm really glad you came with me."

"Do you come often?"

"Occasionally, when you're in a bad mood."

"Do you come when you're in a bad mood?"

"Don't you think it's nice here? People are skating like crazy, no one pays attention to you, no matter what your expression is, even if you cry, you won't be seen. ”

"yes, I like it too."

"Do you have pain here?" Liang Cheng pointed to Ximu's face.

"No, it's okay, it's just a small wound, and it will be fine in two days."

"You're really different from other girls."

"What's the difference?" It's the first time I've heard of a boy who thinks she's different from others.

"Don't girls care a lot about their appearance? You don't care, the wound, how can it not hurt, Mumu, you are really strong, stronger than I thought. ”

"If you're not strong, what else can you do?"

Liang Cheng was frightened by her sudden cold tone and did not speak.

"I'm just myself." Nozomi muttered to himself.

Liang Cheng opened the pull tab of the canned beer, he didn't know how to comfort Xi Mu, so he also needed to use the effect of alcohol, Xi Mu reached out and grabbed his arm and stopped him, "Can you give me this can?" ”

"You want beer too?" Liang Cheng looked at her in surprise.

"Well, change my Coke!"

"Ali, two more beers!"

It was the first time Ximu drank beer, and the first sip only felt bitter, not at all as she imagined, she frowned, Liang Cheng saw her thoughts, and said with a smile: "The first time you drink it, you will feel bitter, but after a long time, you will fall in love with it, it is an intriguing taste!" ”

Xi Mu drank a few sips in a row, her taste buds are still sensitive, although there has always been a sour and astringent feeling, and slowly there is a wheat fragrance lingering between her lips and teeth, and after the aftertaste, she can taste a trace of sweetness, a touch of sweetness, but she refuses to give more.

It didn't take long for a jar to bottom out, and his face was flushed. Reached for another can and opened it, and drank it bitterly.

Liang Cheng was about to stop her, but she seemed to see what she meant, "Don't stop me, just let me have a good time!" ”

Liang Cheng looked at her, only 18 years old, with a gloomy and sad face, what kind of things had she experienced?

"Liang Cheng, you said that if you like someone and she doesn't like you, what are you going to do?"

"Hmm......" Liang Cheng was speechless for a moment when she asked.

"Have you ever tasted abandonment? What does it feel like to be abandoned by the whole world? ”

Liang Cheng looked at her, his face was red, his eyes were foggy, his eyes were raised, his head shook a little, so he didn't speak, he knew that she had probably begun to enter the stage of talking to herself, all she needed was someone to talk to.

"What kind of person am I, so that I have no friends, I don't like me, and my parents don't like me."

Ximu looked at Liang Cheng with melancholy eyes, as if he was just a mirror, and she was just pouring out her heart to herself.

So in the following time, Liang Cheng experienced Ximu's childhood, and the past that was buried in time and rotten was peeled away layer by layer, revealing only a pile of hateful white bones and a *, sensitive, devastationed, and full of holes but still extremely strong.

Ximu has a younger brother who is five years younger than her, and because of this younger brother, she has suffered a lot and suffered a lot of beatings.

When she was young, her family was very poor, and she had a flock of ducks, and once the fence was broken and needed to be renovated, and the fence that fell to the ground was like a broken cage, and the ducks were all running out in clusters, and her father told her to watch the ducks so that they would not swim into the river, because it would be difficult to catch up with the shore when they got there. She took a long stick and drove the ducks away, until a friend called out to her, she saw that the ducks were far away from the pond, and thought that she would be fine if she went to play for a while and then came back.

But when she came back, the ducks were splashing happily in the water, and her father beat her in the face, and she only remembered that it hurt very much. When she returned home, her mother saw the bruises on her face, not only did she not feel distressed, but also cursed her, saying that she couldn't do this little thing well, and raising her was also for nothing. She was only 6 years old that year.

Later, when my brother could walk, he followed her all the time, and troublesome things came one after another. The younger brother was naughty and accidentally knocked over a cup of hot water that had just arrived on his body, and the skin on his arm was instantly burned red, he stood there and cried all the time, that time, it was a mixed doubles, she was beaten to her knees and begged for mercy, her parents did not feel distressed at all, but just told her fiercely that if she didn't take care of her brother in the future, they wouldn't want her.

Once she and her brother sat on the steps of the door together, and the younger brother didn't sit down steadily, so he rolled down, and the grandfather came out and saw it, and without saying anything, he pushed her down the steps, and then picked up her brother and yelled at her, "What do you think of my brother!" Because of her grandfather's hard pushing, she rolled into a waterlogged area in front of the door, and her body was soaked. It was a cold winter, the padded jacket was wet, she didn't dare to go home, for fear that her parents would beat her again if they saw it, so she kept hiding in the back door, the cold wind blew her shivering, until the jacket was dried with body temperature, she dared to go in.

So the next day she fell ill and caught a cold, but her parents didn't care about her, so they let her sleep in bed for a day. It wasn't until her mother came home in the evening that she bought cold medicine for her. At that time, she was wondering if she picked it up, why her family didn't like her and didn't care about her. Everyone treats his younger brother as a treasure, he can give whatever he wants, and he can do whatever he wants.

She likes to eat her mother's braised duck meat the most, but every time, she can only eat one or two pieces, and the rest is all her brother's. There were many times when she felt that if there was no brother in this family, they might love her, so she hated her brother, hated why he appeared in this world, why all the good things were prepared for him, why he didn't have to do anything, he could get all their love.

Gradually, she learned to please his parents, she learned to tell lies, she knew that she had to grab what she wanted, otherwise she would have nothing, and no one would take care of her and take the initiative to give it to her.

As her brother grew older, she thought that her hard life was over, and at least he could help her with some of the household chores. But he is still the same as when he was a child, he doesn't have to do anything, his parents' only requirement for him is to study, and the funny thing is that his academic performance has always been at the top of the school, and her parents are proud of him. So she does the laundry, cooking, and cleaning alone, and he can go out to play basketball with his friends, but she has to share all the things at home like Cinderella.

Her mother always told her: "You have to be kind to your brother, we will all live on him in the future, you see how smart your brother is, he will definitely be promising, and we are still counting on him to support his old age!" ”

"Mom! Can't I give you a pension? Ximu had a rebellious expression on his face.

"Just you?" Her mother smiled, "What can you do as a girl, marry someone else's daughter-in-law in the future, and you will come back to see us, it's very good, we don't expect you." ”

"You just give me my duty to do things, don't make trouble for me, I'm very happy, and I will marry a good family in the future." Don't marry someone like me who has no money like your father and will suffer for the rest of his life. ”

"Will my brother be able to make a good life for you?" Ximu bit his lip, feeling unspeakably uncomfortable.

"You're going to get married, you know? My brother can take care of us for the rest of our lives. ”

The more she grows up, the more she understands that everything when she was a child was because her parents were patriarchal, and in their world, she was a money-loser, after all, she had to give it to others, not her own children, so they were so cruel to her, they scolded her younger brother, because her younger brother was a boy, and her younger brother was smarter than her, because her future life would depend on her younger brother. But she could never understand.

Liang Cheng wiped away the tears from the corners of Ximu's eyes with his hand, "Mumu, don't be sad, others don't like you and I like you, others don't want you, I want you." Whatever questions you have in the future, I'll help you. Liang Cheng looked at her affectionately, feeling very painful in his heart, as if she was his sister.